Finally got everything done, I also finished the documentary, I'll be uploading pics of The Arcade stick here soon but now If you're interested in seeing The stick and how it's made, I have 5 Episodes

If you only want to see the finished project then just watch 5 lol

Episode 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3Hd4UkCt0A
Episode 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y40KWgoxErk
Episode 3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5EDMxKa3hvc
Episode 4: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOFi_2dfSds
Episode 5: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qk1vXfP29rE

If you watch them, I hope you enjoy, it took a long time to make this and I spent a lot to get it the way it is, I'm proud with this Arcade Stick and I'll be playing a lot more games again.

Here's Episode 2 of my Documentary https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y40KWgoxErk

If you haven't seen Episode 1, the link is in my last journal

Aye MOYTEs I'm back, I have new art coming soon but for the last 10 months I been working on a project and I'm happy with how it turned out and I was recording as I went along so I've made a Documentary and I split it into Episodes, so here's the 1st and if you watch it, thanks and I hope you enjoy. :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3Hd4UkCt0A

Stolen from  thetigress who stole it from  toeclaws haha

A- Age: 31
B- Biggest fear: Failing
C- Cold weather or Warm weather?: Warm (who would want Cold? lol)
D- Drink you last had: Blackcurrent juice (No Tango Cherry? lol)
E- Extraterrestrials (Aliens), are they real? maybe, I dunno what lifeforms there are like on other planets
F- First thing you do when you wake up: Check my phone my messages and notifications I recieved
G- Ghosts, are they real?: I just believe in orbs
H- How tall are you?: 6 foot 0
I- In love with someone: Not yet
J- Jealous of someone (Just answer Yes or No): Yes
K- Killed Someone?: Of course I've killed millions on Goldeneye
L- Last time you cried?: probably last week
M- Music genre you hate the most: Hard to answer, I like all genres. It's the industry I hate
N- Newest acquisition: picture sides rubiks cube
O- One Wish: To be myself and be accepted for it
P- Pie, which flavour you like the most?: Steak and Ale
Q- Question you usually ask: How's this? (I always try and better myself)
R- Reason to smile: when people accept who I am
S- Song you like the most: can't answer that, too many and it switches all the time.
T- Time you wake up: It's always different
U- Underwear Color: Grey and Purple lol
V- VideoGame you like the most: many games, currently can't stop Hotmail Miami 2
W- Worst Habit: biting my finger nails
X- Rays you've had: Teeth, ankle and knee
Y- Your favorite food: Italian and Chinese
Z- Zodiac Sign: Pisces

Hey guys this is the make or break of Beast's Fury, this is another Indiegogo, the team has made it clear that if you donated to the last campaign, you DO NOT have to donate again but please Share this, we've managed to make the demo, lets now make the full game. Any thing you can do to help this will be much appreciated. Btw: I made the poster and banners on this Campaign so at least help this for me haha

Here's the link: http://igg.me/at/SupportBeastsFury/x/817888

and don't forget the demos
PC: http://www.evildogserver.com/share/.....mo_v10a_PC.zip
MAC: http://www.evildogserver.com/share/.....o_v10a_Mac.zip
Linux: http://www.evildogserver.com/share/.....v10a_Linux.zip

Beast Fury's in a competition called Infernario and the more people lay this demo, the more Beast's Fury will have a chance at winning this competition, it's a big competition and there's other games.
More info about this here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NZS88L_K1ao

The files are here
PC: http://www.evildogserver.com/share/.....emo_v9a_PC.zip
Mac: http://www.evildogserver.com/share/.....mo_v9a_Mac.zip
Linux: http://www.evildogserver.com/share/....._v9a_Linux.zip

please play this game as often as you can and I will as well, lets not stop this, keep this game going, this is a good opportunity where you can help without paying. The fact if this game gets done, Zapedy would be in it really pumps me so much so please lets keep helping this project.

I'm starting to think is being a perfectionist a bad thing, maybe I would have got a load of things done if I wasn't.

Merry Christmas to you all

I got these for Christmas http://instagram.com/p/xCAMkODaVY
and this poster is on it's way https://fbcdn-sphotos-b-a.akamaihd......80491795_o.jpg

I hope you all had a PHATTASTIC Christmas!

-]. Just joined a very old trend hehe .[-

-]. Check this out http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14136731/

Comment 1 2 3 or 4 which you think is the best design, they will count the votes and get the T-shirt done

Go pick ya best .[-

-]. We've all done things in life that has loads of negatives but also some positives, we even have plans that will have negative and positive results. A supporter would focus on the positives and support you through thick and thin even if there's more negatives than positives, A hater will focus ONLY on the negatives, only use past negative results to prove their point and blindly overlook the positives as if they didn't exist .[-

ONLY 6k left please help https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....sts-fury-going

-]. Hey guys the Kickstarter is up again

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....sts-fury-going

Please support as much as you can, if you cannot donate, please share it.

I really don't want to see this project fail.

For more info about this game: Here's their Furaffinity  beastsfurystudio
Youtube Channel http://www.youtube.com/user/BeastsFuryGame
Deviantart http://beastsfury.deviantart.com/

Get involved guys please, remember if you pledge enough, you could get your character in the background of one of the stages .[-

-]. March 4th, it's my Birthday and I'm 30, didn't think this day would come. But it's here, the twenties are gone, I'm 30. The thoughts come and you just think for the last 30 years, what have I accomplished? how much have I achieved? how much knowledge have I gained? have I failed too much? am I unaware of things I've done? Are my parents proud? Is my family proud? Are my fans proud? what's the future gonna hold? am I ready for next phase/chapter? A lot of thoughts, it just stays in ya head. But I'm gonna try my best in everything and move forward best way I can, Thanks to everyone for the support and everything .[-

-]. I wrote this journal cause I think it's easier to explain rather than explaining at the top of my head via mouth.
I've decided to retire as a music artist as I feel I lost what made me create what I loved. I've watched a load of motivation videos and seen a load of words from people that usually says the phrase "It depends how much you want it" and it's made me realise that I probably don't want it as much as I used to anymore.

When I worked on my first 2 albums, I had this drive which made me make the music and finish tracks constantly and ideas flowed in like as if the right times were always there, I went into the studio everyday and always had great progress on something by the time I walked out of it. I think I used to finish 3-4 tracks a month and I really was enjoying it so of course I decided to do it full time and had dreams to survive doing this and I knew I wanted it badly. Also when I made the next step to make a music video, I put 14 months of hard work into that music video but the urge was there the whole time, the incentive was there the whole time to get it done, it's like I knew it was gonna get done one day and it happened.

The incentive and urge isn't there anymore, that's why I haven't made a new music video and I haven't had a proper idea, it's been like that for the last 3 years. I think the change started to happen when I tried to better myself as an artist (as every artist should do) but I may have tried TOO hard, I listened to many other artists and tried to be like them instead of keeping to my style, I may have also tried to make myself better than I really need to, overall it never worked and then I lost what made my style me! and since then, my music flow hasn't been the same and the result is I haven't made a decent track in years. I been angry at myself cause I couldn't evolve as an artist and I was looking at electronica evolving around me. This was the mentality I should not have had! When I couldn't do the music, I tried going back to what I usually did and nothing as working, it's like with a track in the old days, I could make 4 things sound PHATTASTIC together but now, I could hardly make 2 things sound PHATTASTIC it's like I've forgotten my own sound or probably ran outta ideas. It's lead to me not completing music for months and years, next I go into the studio and spend it fucking up then lately, I've hardly walked into the studio.

There's always been times when the flow comes, I make a great track and I think it's back but then it's gone and I'm in another block for 6 months-1 year and I've made this mistake many times. I've noticed things within myself which I was supposed to do and I never did, small minor things that lead up to helping the career and I was always in the position of not feeling in the mood to do it, there was no drive or incentive so I was asking myself again "Do I really want this?"

I think the truth is I used up all the urge and I've burned myself out getting these 2 albums and music video done. I know the fact is when you fail, you gotta keep pushing again, I've seen many cases when someone puts SOOOO much work into a project and do everything, an album, a film or just anything and they release it and it didn't succeed and then they don't bother work on a sequel or a second one because the first one burnt them out and it got them nowhere. I was trying not to be these people but it looks like it's kind of happened cause I've really lost the flow of making music, it's almost like I don't know how to make music anymore or like I don't want to do it anymore. I don't even know if it's the fact that it's not fun anymore, or if it's the fear of failing in the back of my head or have I just got lazy. I hear many times that I just need a break but I know I've taken MANY breaks for the last 3 years and tried chilling out doing other things and staying away from the studio but I don't think it was helping at all, I think I was taking more breaks than actually attempting more music and obviously that makes me look more lazy. I think for an artist to be successful, he/she can't have a new track every 6 months-1 year, they need to keep coming out with new content keep having new stuff to keep pleasing old and new fans and always having somethng ready so you can keep pursuing more opportunities. I believe I know a couple of ways to help get myself more fans online but I haven't had the urge to do it because I know I wasn't coming out constantly with new content.

I've worked with artists and notice that after a while they don't wanna affiliate with me or even give a fuck about me and they go on to become great artists and achieve their dreams. I think I finally see the reasons why, it's possibly cause they could read me or see that I didn't want it as much as I thought I did, so they thought it's wearing down their career if they join, affiliate or collab with me. It feels a little frustrating that if I put that little extra work in, I could have possibly been the same level as those artists, one is even an owner of a successful record/media deal now and they ain't gonna sign me now. So of course I feel washed up because I've missed many opportunities that got me where I wanted to be.
Talking about Record labels and media deals, people have asked me have I tried getting managers and people to promote everything I do and guess what, I have been. I've spent loads of money that I gave to people who I trust and sadly they were even con-artists or guys who didn't know what they were doing. Obviously I was the fool for relying on them, and these are things I should have done myself but I don't feel I'm good enough to sort the business side or managing myself so therefore I did want a trustworthy manager or record label but these days and ages that's almost impossible in the music industry.

A lot of haters and doubters always wanted me to quit cause what I'm doing isn't bringing in money and they tell me get a normal job, well sadly it looks like they won besides I been researching and looking for jobs in job centre, that's hardly me because I always wanted to prove the haters wrong and do what I love doing. But since the love's going slowly, might as well let them win. If I was saying I don't let the haters bother me, I'd be lying cause of course they also affected the mood in trying to make the music, I can't blame it all on the haters but I can say definitely that if music was going smooth, I could ignore them more than how the situation is right now.

I've said many times that I wanted to quit music because of this but I kept trying cause I feel I have nothing else which leads to suicide thoughts if I quit, I feel I don't wanna let my fans down and I was always having the hope that the flow would back cause the truth is, if music's not going well, I'm not enjoying but if music was just the way in the old days, I'd enjoy it. I MIGHT still make music for games if the opportunity comes (there's one that could be happening) but as for doing gigs, albums, mixtapes etc, I'm done, no point me doing any gigs if I'm only performing the same tracks. Sadly Animation isn't going very well either, I'm thinking if I should continue with my project or have I chosen a hard bite to swallow as well. There are points when I feel as if I've burned out with animation which is bad cause I've hardly start and I don't know if I'm thinking if I wanted that bad as I thought. The character my animation's based on, I can still get things done with other artists but in the sense of me animating the character, I'm not quite sure how things are gonna go, I know my life's gonna change a damn lot more if I quit the animation.

I've spoken to many people about the decision, a few responses was that maybe doing both music and animation is possibly what's making lose the urge like I'm piling up and doing too many things at once, but I don't think that was the case as when I worked on my first album, I was working on an animation project at the same time which was lost in a harddrive and I was working on the second album while working on a music video for someone and my own music video. It was never a problem, when I walked in the studio, whatever I chose never mattered cause the progress grew and grew. As I said already they always said take a break which I've tried many times, I don't think it's about taking a break, I think it's about making a stand and leaving.

So in closing, I don't think I'm cut out to achieve my dream, I may have the skills but I definitely don't have the confidence or the mental focus to keep up with it. I wanna thank everyone for the support but I also wanna apologise to people who's waiting for new music, many fans have said to me how much they love my music and picked me up when I was down but I have let ya down. I know many people respected me because I stood up to haters and doubters and I carried on without giving up, obviously I'm a hypocrite now it just didn't happen, I just think it's time to move on. But to end on a little good sign, I have ONE last track that I'm collabing with someone (I've done my parts and I'm now waiting for my partner's parts) and once that track is finished, I will upload it so look out for that.
So what am I gonna do now? I don't know, we don't what the future holds, I am still on Youtube, Good luck in what everyone does, thanks for reading .[-

Guys this is a perfect chance for you to get ya character seen in the background of a fighting game. Somebody told me I was lucky to get Zapedy in the background of Beast's Fury and that's not the case, I worked and saved and paid for my slot, NOW it's your turn, you have a chance, you all can pay and get your character in a stage and on the demo.

DON'T WASTE IT more info here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12189165/

-]. My fav memory of UFC was finding out it even existed, it changed my life when my cousin lent me UFC 3 vhs. I never thought I'd ever see so many martial art disciplines compete in the same sport. It was my first time seeing Jujitsu in action by the legend Royce Gracie, that's the day I learned technique beats power and size NEVER matter. Bloodsport was one of my most favourite films, I remember saying imagine if there was more of this? then UFC came along and the fighters delivered entertainment. I feel I've grown as a fan since then by respecting martial arts to the full extent and it's inspired me to work on animation and my character Zapedy as well as push harder on music, It's basically helped me create goals. Going to UFC events were just phenomenal, it's there where I feel most open, being myself, feeling hyped and most of all Enjoy myself to the full extent. Even if I ain't a fighter, I've learned a lot of things through UFC and I can honestly say any success I can thank many things and people (UFC one of them) .[-

-]. So over the last few years, I been commissioning artists who's drawn great Zapedy pictures. I find it weird that every artist always ask for well-thought out detailed references so there's no big mistakes and then when I give my references, some artists say I'm too specific and they don't wanna do it. I can admit my ref's are quite specific but isn't that what makes a good reference? I thought the more help the merrier? I've seen many artists to commissions to customers who was NOT happy with their commission because artist obviously an artist can't read their mind so they could possibly restart from scratch probably 8 or more times, at least my method can at least help avoid that situation.

But that ain't the real problem btw, what's frustrating and depressing me right now isn't the situation that they don't wanna take my commission, (cause If you don't want money from me, that's fine) but then they completely ignore and act like I'm a fucking murderer and avoid me at all costs, If I make a comment, they never reply. If I sent them a message, I never get a reply and I possibly get blocked on the instant messenger. Even if it's not a message about commissions, they dismiss it, these are people who post on Facebook weekly, and journals on here usually, so it's hard to accept "they don't have time" they are obviously seeing my comments and messages It's just my commission was obviously too much hard word for them and they wanna hate me for life for it.

Gosh like I said already, if you don't want to commission me, that's cool but you don't have to avoid me, ignore me and blank me it's pretty fucking ridiculous, it's like what have I done wrong? that's why I've been recently having problems talking to people cause you don't know how anyone reacts these days .[-

-]. Aye Moytes,

It's Official: Zapedy is going to be in the background in a stage on Beast's Fury

ALSO!!!

It's official that I'll be making one track for this game, I nearly done already and the main developer behind this game likes it already so it's a great sign ^_^

I feel very honoured to be part of this project and I have the upmost respect for these guys.

There's only 4 days left of the campaign http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/b.....s-fury-project they are close to $20'000 which is enough to make the demo! keep up the good work guys .[-

-]. Hi Anthro Fighting fans, Have you heard of Beast's Fury?

it's a 2D Anthro Fighting game in Production, by a great talented group whos worked on cool games like skullgirls and worked in big names like Ubisoft and Disney.
On their Youtube, I seen the animation style and game mechanic they are going for and I like the direction they're going.

They have an Indiegogo page, with loads of gifts for contributors and a chart which shows their goals and what it would mean if it reach their marks.

Check out the Indiegogo page: http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/b.....s-fury-project There's 21 days left guys! get moving.

Here's their Furaffinity  beastsfurystudio
Youtube Channel http://www.youtube.com/user/BeastsFuryGame
Deviantart http://beastsfury.deviantart.com/

There you can see all the updates on moves, characters, backgrounds and all other kinds of progress.
I'm definitely ready to contribute and give money because I really want this project to succeed. I wish I had $5000 then I could have got Zapedy as a playable character in the game. But I will pledge regardless.

I hope people will get involved and try and make this a success, check it out, it's been a long time since we got an Anthro Fighting game and I can't wait to see this one .[-

-]. Cause it's really affecting me and I can't work even more and it's affecting who I talk to. It makes me not wanna play any games, makes me not wanna go anywhere, it depresses a damn lot more when I can't work.

I'm still debating suicide which I don't wanna do cause of family and friends but I still feel fucked up and my mind's going crazy.

I really don't wanna get to into it, I'm keeping this short. Just what do you all do when ya depressed cause I'm lost .[-

-]. It's been a long time since I've updated anything on FA or anything about Zapedy. I've been poor and haven't had money to pay for artists, I get sidetracked very easy and even still today but some have been for great causes. I been doing music gigs perfoming my original music (videos are on youtube) So it's a great step-up my music career. But I still want to do animations with Zapedy, I still would like to make Zapedy an MMA icon so it's time I seriosly work on him and bring him back.

I've also been in situations where I really didn't have any confidence to complete Zapedy. Anthro seems to be looked a lot down upon on (besides this site of course) and general people these days tend to be very narrow-minded and don't think outta the box so it worries me cause I feel Zapedy hasn't got a chance.

But right now I wanna get back to work on him, I restarted the model from scratch to sort out the past problems and work on the new head. I've added more aspects to his design and I have an artist (who I've explained the new changes to) working on that right now. I can't wait to show you the new aspects ^_^ and I'll update the references again. I wanna start paying some artists again to get more Zapedy pics and characters involved with the story.

I've always had an idea for a game involving Zapedy and now that Independant game designers are fighting to get games on consoles, I feel I have more motivation to try and make this game a reality by hiring programers and 3d animators. My plan is to do what I can as a Music composer and you never know, I can use the funds to make this game hehe. I want Zapedy to be an icon and even if he doesn't, I can say I tried and had fun doing it so I guess it's time to get off my arse and REALLY make it happen.

He's comin back Mwhahahahaha .[-

-]. That's a tough challenge http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3664414/ .[-

-]. Just a vlog on my situation with music at the mo .[-