for those who dont know, this account was for a temporary access until my main account was reclaimed, since that has happend, this account will no longer be used unless in an emergency like the one that has occured 7 months ago. if you are watching this account, please go watch draconas

well im frequently going #2 and bleeding from there afterwards and dont know why. im really pissed at mediacom, they left our cable (tv, internet, skype) unplugged all damn day till 11pm and expects us to pay for the day?! for two weeks we loose our cable till a random time like 9 pm and they want us to pay a full bill? i'd say pay half since the reconnect lasts until 6 in the fucking morning...

finally after six years my mate comes here!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so about a month ago i took care of the heatsync on the computer, note that it cools off the CPU and physically lays on it. its been overheating again, assumed the heatsync clogged again i dismantle it and seen that it needed to be cleaned, i proceed to unscrew the fan and chucked it on the bed, i pull out the heatsync and i ended up pulling the CPU along with it, i freaked out but stayed cool, i didnt know the thermal paste acts like a glue, i pry it off with a screw driver, wiped it off and popped the chip back in (correctly mind you), took care of the heatsync in the sink (i ran it through water) i cleaned the fan, i throw it back together and started it, i seen that when it booted up the fan kicked into high again, i turn it off and assesed what's going on, there was no circulation anymore, i leave the side panel off and put a desktop fan aimed at the heatsyncs fan. when the computer came back on i looked at a log of how hot the boot up was after i put the stuff back in. it hit 150 degrees, with the panel off and the added fan its idling at 118-121 degrees, thats typical temperature now for it.

friday, two hours before school let out, we were orderd into lockdown positions, for about 10 minutes, ten minutes later were ordered into the inner most part of the building, then the power goes out, and no cellphone signals, we look outside.... the closes business is about 15 blocks away, their business sign founds its way into the yard. normally what is a half hour bus ride turned into two hours. we get home, my window is broken and the siding is gone. all the cars were just covered in leaves. downed trees, downed power lines, substations are literally exploded, and gas lines uprooted. up untill sunday 8pm were in the darkness with nothing but water and a small fire. every night i had to go with my dad to work on his companies generators, it was bad, we drove into what looked like a zombie apocolypse, the headlights werent enough i had to hold out a flashlight into where we're gonig to turn. the curfew was 8 pm. sunday at 8 pm we get power, but only us, my dad pissed me off with an empty propane tank, i get a leaking tank and sit in the back of a truck with it, he decides to take the van, i sit in the van with a fucking bomb in my crotch that was about to go at any minute, he just screws around, we get a new tank after going to like 3 stores. we get home and slowly powered everything up, the computer was slightly damaged but it manages "gives a read error when it boots up" there was no cable service until earlier today, but even then it came and went before the modem knew what todo with it, i go to the library seeing how theirs were working, it was wifi only since their computers and servers were down "all but one server" i stay until an hour later, i go home and the cable was stable, then promply dies out again, i literally hit the modem and then it has been stable since O.=.O winds hit up to 106 miles an hour, with gusts exceeding 120. i swear the rain drops were like bullets when it hits you.

my town and surrounding towns have been hit hard and is declaired a disaster area. more details when i can get a decent connection and a working computer

am i the only one who stayed positive till now?my brother razor's crap left me vunerable for just absolute shit. then my mate is just spirald down. them my brother foxx is about the same and REALLY wants to come for my graduation, but life fucks him over. im this close (_) to just say no, no to anyone comming, no to me graduating, no to everything. if one person is going to be this depressed, why bother? i quit

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

im graduating, xylex is comming bla hblah blah YAY!!!!


also this may be my permenant account seeing how getting the old one back is now impossible

seems like the internet dies when im on the wii, but the fun thing is that rhe eouter screws up to, so unless i power cycle correctly, it can take a long time to deal with.

school sucks.

weekend sucks.

hardly any sleep.

alwaus tired.

any questions for me? drop them here.

love you guys, foxx, dragon, goten, lex. and who could forget the love of my life, I love you xylex, your always on my mind

i never thought that i could be this depressed.... xylex isnt comming here next week Y.=.Y *sits in a corner, huddled into a ball crying*

i scraped off the burnt thermal compound and added some new paste to the CPU so that should leud the heat problem, attempted to install a printer without a CD, blah blah blah

in an odd turn in events, mom gave the modem back, she was desperate to get rid of the april 1 virus, wanted updates, and wanted todo taxes. some new rules that i must follow but its better than nothing. still no laptop or psp :(

well i have no psp (i'll explain later) llibrary computers suck because they are USB 1.1, so running anything is a bitch and is slow. also i have a visitor next week to whisk me off to my dreams :) wuv you xylex

monday morning, just before i go to sleep, mom rips out the modem, and there are rumors that she is taking the service out all together... now im not going to mentally survive this i know that. xylex, call mom and see if you can talk to her about this. as for everyone else... take for xylex for me.

i love you xylex

woot epic! i was shitting on the toilet and chatting on my psp at the same time, arent i talented?

im suspended from school for two days

the damn mobile email is still down, why cant yahoo get their thumbs out of their asses and do something?

this is the fourth day that my mobile email has been down....

so the muscle stuff turned into bronchitis, still sufferring and bleh. my MicroSD has SL, skype, and firefoxportable. blah blah blah i got detention saturday A.K.A tomorrow for shit. last friday i was required to submit artwork to the mall, and the teacher took it out due to a "tape" problem, telling me the tape was falling off "i left it on your desk the way i found it" i look at it, i pick it up, IT WAS FINE "do you know how pissed i am right now? you've killed my chance at $500 and lie to me" she says "do you think your art is any better than anyone elses?" i say "yes as a matter of fact i do, i went to the crap show and saw a piece of paper with squggles on it, MINE WAS A FREAKING SKETCH OF A DRAGON" foxxwolf tells me i should go to the office or something and i go to see my guidance counselor just to be bullshitted by him and he tells me he's tired of hearing my crap and i need to leave..... DUDE IM DOING WHAT IM REQUIRED AS A FUCKING STUDENT TO TELL YOU THAT THERES A PROBLEM AND YOU BASICALLY TELL ME TO FUCK OFF! thats the last time i do shit involving the higher ups, im just going to sit there and do nothing in art class. she doesnt like cartoons, anime, or furries.... so im basically fucked and emotionally damaged, my self esteem is eaten, chewed, spitted out, ate again and shitted out like fucking cow cud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and thats my life enjoy

there has been talk about a virus going around our school that attacks your muscles, commonly your neck... not only just my neck, my head muscles and part of my back are being affected

my mother knows how to break me... she did it an hour ago... and the most damaging thus far... i feel like im hurting xylex.... i got off of skype to pull my shit back together. if you want more details and if xylex is up to it he can make a part two, unlike anyone else here im on a psp, and i have a typeing limit per window.

mine was spent mostly with xylex over skype and on runescape (i know im a spaz), we sayed lovey dovey stuff and did some gifts, he did something on sl and i sung our song ^^ couple of tecky issues but it was fixed i called his phone, he sayed he was going to sell his stuff just to see me... honestly i am a little depressed about that but we'd be together ^^

ok its 3 in the morning I NEED SLEEP!!! later

it is in my nature to care about others... even if i dont know them... but sometimes it takes over and makes shit worse. my friend dumped a mate, i talk to both and made it worse, i talk to my friend's ex to try to cheer him up... i get stabbed in the back... and my friend leaves me.... all for what?
something similar, ive tried to help vgm.... just for it to end with me laying down in pain and failure
*goes into the darkness and dissappears*

My day started off with me being woken up at 2pm to a bag of McDonalds handed to me.
Got a birthday cake, six lotto cards, none of which were winning cards.
Got $100
Went to Mackie's Pizza, had some obviously. Bout 5 Slices.
Went to Walmart... screwed around about a game... Metal Gear Solid Portable ops Plus.
My older sister tells me to pushes her in the cart, with her butt sticking out toward her mom and she farts on her
Went home, played the game till about midnight.
Called my mate and had him type this