So where to start.

Done on a whim with Characters I've really grown to love. If Keyholder is the R1 unit, to borrow an analogy from a sci-fi series I abandoned the second they washed away the expanded universe, then Collared would be the R2. More refined, more functional, and I think overall a better product. Maybe not quite as horny or as porny but absolutely 'me'.

The thing is, it's apparently a bit over-finished.

A friend has been helping me go over things. I won't spoil all the details but one thing to note is that Collared in its current state is the length of several novels. Even with stories broken off that could be turned into their own novels with work it's still two novels worth of length.

It would seem I am very bad at this.

So what does that mean? Well I will say it means a few things. One of them being that you'll get some one-shots. Related or not. Maybe some fucked up work more akin to my older stuff. Maybe some new things. I know some of it, and some of it will come to me.

These characters won't go away. I'm going to keep working on things so I don't mean to actually scare the few people who give a shit about my silly little setting. My impermanence issues won't let me get rid of anything. But expect to see things happen in the coming months, craziness of the world and efficacy of my meds willing.

Until then, enjoy!

I know I have many hiatuses and I hate it and I'm sorry. I will say I'm hoping to have some stuff done soon. However some good things have happened IRL... Things which involve seeing family more, and which thus mean I get more tired.

Sufficed to say a good chunk of the past two weeks has been sleep. But hopefully next week I'll have something out for people.

Thanks to the few out there who read my works. Sorry again.

So I'm still punching at writers block. But I think while I do, I should be doing something else

Reading.

I don't read enough because I feel guilty any time I'm not writing so that I end up numbing that time with games or sleep. But people comment on my stuff, so I should comment on other people's stuff.

So, let's have at it. You got reads? Be it yours or some you like from someone else? Link it here. I'll do my best to read and critique!

So depression hit again. I ended up getting some coloring done, but no Collared. Had to sleep alot because apparently my depression was so bad I was getting complaints from customers.

I'll be working on getting it done next week and working on building a backlog again. Hopefully posting some colored pics in the meantime will help make up for it a bit?

Sorry again.

So first, I want to say sorry.

As I put in another journal, I did not and do not post here much. It's just very hard to do so with how FA is set up.

Second, to :Icon Silver_fly: I am sorry if I didn't get back to you in Febuary. I think that i did, since I'd filled up at IB that month but as everyone can probably tell I'm very scatterbrained of late.

Anyways. Yeah, I'm opening four slots this time around as I've been on a bit of a writing jag.

Anyways, ToS are here if you want them: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9251651/

Let me know if you have any questions.

1.  Elberik
2.  SettaFlamowitz
3. titan on IB
4  Elberik

So I'm trying to fix it, and I do plan to post anything which will fit here on FA when I feel a bit more focused for it.

The thing is, it's just not writer-friendly.

I need to get on other sites which allow it again, but IB lets me upload my stories in a format which can be easily read online. Complete with page buttons Even if you put aside the drama that seems to crop up a bit more here (I avoid drama by just being hide-tastic but still) I don't feel like FA really cares if you put written works up here or not. I still have to basically paste the stories into the description for anyone to read it, or I guess upload it as a txt file which I'd have to heavily reformat.

But I do get art, and I should post said art here more often. And I should try to keep some stories up. I just figured I should say why since I drop off from this place far more.

Well they got filled. Instantly. that's not a joke. More or less within hours of it turning Jan 1 I had my quota full. But it's not fair to just have friends ask and say 'sure why not' for all the slots. So while I'll let Ralanr grab one since he asked a few min before this, I'm still making it first come first serve as it should be.

Also don't worry, I MAY take another slot or two later in the month as they aren't giving me any hours. we will see.

Remember, you have to post here or on the matching Inkbunny thread to nab a slot.

1.  Ralanr
2.  rubbervixen
3.

That's it. Just happy wishes for the seasonal wishes of season

ToS Here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9251651/

Three slots open for December, though they may take a short bit due to RL stuff. I've been doing better the past week and a half so here is hoping that it will all go faster. First come First serve here and on IB, so let me know but here's hoping I heal enough and can maybe get a few more spots in the month.

1.  Ralanr
2. NTfoemy
3. NTfoemy

Yeah I'm tired. So tos Here

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9251651/

Just two slots for now, in no small part because I am probably gonna have to work alot more this month. First come first serve on here and IB.

Yeah I'mma crash now

Slots

1.  Rubbervixen
2.  ralnar

Ok so first, if you don't know my ToS and are curious. They are here

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9251651/

So yeah, last month went well enough. So I'mma do it again. Three slots as last time. Spread out between here and Inkbunny. First come first serve.

That said I probably won't get to these right away, as in I likely won't start in until next week. My actual job has kinda kicked my butt. I will get it to you ASAP though. If you have any questions not answered by the ToS let me know.

Happy month of Spoopy!

Slot 1. Re-open
Slot 2.  Ralanr
Slot 3. NTfoemy

Someone took my last two slots. Meaning that for now at least Commissions are closed. If people wish for me to open them more later then let me know and with enough demand I'll open up later in the month.

Also if you want a sure thing instead, my friend  Lapsa Is very much a good writer and you should totally check her out as I keep saying. Trust me, it's worth it.

I am new to this. Very new. So this is how It's going to go.

Three slots, both here and on IB. First come first serve. That is I'll look at the time stamp for the request and the first three people overall get the slots. So post here if you'd like one.

My TOS are here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9251651/ and it includes pricing and limitations.

Depending on how things go I MAY try another one this month, or I may wait until next month. But either way I thank you all in advance for helping with this new experiment.

Slot 1: Polymorph (On IB)
Slot 2:
Slot 3

SO I'm not open YET, but I am going to be considering opening a few slots soon. As such I am getting my ToS out of the way now. If you have any questions please ask. It helps me refine things.

Fees and ToS:

Cost: $20 USD per 1K words
Slot cap: 5K words

Stories are written in increments of 1K words, with lengths generally going a bit over or under this amount. Upon presenting the idea I shall give an estimated word count for the story, which we can then refine.

One slot has a 5K word limit cap. A story idea which would be longer will require multiple slots. This is both to ensure I do not get bogged down and to help give you more control over the final product. Each slot will be refined, presented and paid for on its own.

Invoices will be sent by Danaume, who will hold the fee until I have presented the story and worked out any minor edits or fixes on the final product.

What I will write:

Pretty much anything not on the list below. Ask me if you are unsure.

What I will not write:

Fanfiction: I’m fine with writing it for fun, but I can’t make money on something I don’t own the IP for. It’s a personal choice. Absolutely no problem with people who do and I’ll try to help you find someone who will. But I just can’t, sorry.

Gore/Vore/Snuff: I have serious and severe death anxiety. Not here to kink shame you, but if something may give me an anxiety attack writing it then it’s not going to come out well. You don’t want that, I don’t want that.

Vomit/Scat/Diapers: Watersports is fine. Other than that I’d like to avoid any of the other messes.

Hooman: Literally nothing against it, but nowhere for me to post it right now and a lack of practice with it. This may change if I get more experience doing so but until then best to just avoid it.

Bimbofication/inflation/Hyper: Fetishes I cannot personally stand. No offense, just not able to write it.


Specials/Other services:

Great Tree Saga: Any story set in my ‘Great Tree Saga’ setting will receive a $5 USD discount on total purchase price. Note this is on the end price and not per 1K words. I reserve the right to have final say on aspects which would impact my setting as a whole in these cases. Any questions about the setting may currently be directed towards me until such time that I finish the first draft of my lore bible.

World building: I am willing to work on recreational/non commercial world building documentation and brainstorming. The rates for this process are to be negotiated up front. This will only be done for non-commercial endeavors. Such work includes refining current setting ideas, adding to existing settings or from-scratch world building.

Due to the time and intensive nature of such work fees are likely to be higher than those for general writing.

If you have any further questions or comments please send me a private message.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9155326/

The journal here says it all. Go there, see if you can help, spread the word Please.

Look, I've been a fan of  Kandlin for years. He's a nice guy. His wife was SUPER sweet to me when Diana passed and I wish them only the best. My friends already know I'm a fan because I rant on him quite a bit and because two of my fave pics are from him.

That said, a shot at some free art of his is too good to pass up. Especially after the shutdown and a slow month at work left a mousie broke AF.

So here you go, Signal Boost

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9031582/



But he should be on your radar anyways.

I know I have not put as much up here. A big part of that is that much of what I put up from my other stories won't fit here, and I sadly only have so many hours to create and so much physical/mental energy. You know it seems like forever ago that I was sure I'd never be able to say that again. Still feels surreal. Still has me worried I'll end up burning out.

It's been a crazy year though and I wanted to make sure my friends here know I'm grateful to them. I don't think I will ever be 'fixed', and part of me feels guilty at the idea of trying. But I'm less broken and I owe it to the people around me. Both those I talk to every day and those I don't see as much as I like. Something I need to fix at some point thanks to YIM going belly up.

I did put up a few things here, though. Things that represent what I feel is some of my best work. Hopefully I will do that again, and I'm contemplating a few other ideas. Who knows, maybe some day I can start to take trades and requests beyond the once or twice a year things I do with people I know well and know will understand if a super short story takes me half a year to get my head around. For now, well, The year sucked in many ways. but I want to let you all know wehre I am and that I am thinking of everyone.

Yep, Just posing this here to wish everyone a good season. I hope that your stress, overeating, hibernation, anxiety, depression and other things are all kept down a bit and that you can enjoy yourselves. Just try to remember though the crass commercialism and stress that it's a time to remember the ones you love and the things that make you happy. Life sucks, but there are good parts. Parts we should all seek to remember.

Just my two cents on it all

So I think it's important to lay out how I plan to try things here, for now anyways.

Short answer? I plan to put stories up here again, sometimes. It won't be at on. My main writing work of late has been on two different series' that involve elements outside of what can usually go on FA. On top of that I was dreading the memory of posting the actual text of the story in the comments of the thing just so people can read it.

But because that seems less painful than I remember, and because I know I have friends here, I figured I'd go ahead and give it a try. However the stories I put up will not be directly from any series I have ongoing where the aforementioned elements are present, even if the stories themselves are fine in a vacuum. This is because I have been doing quite a bit of world building and I don't want to throw out things people may like in a vacuum, only for them to need stories they would not for full context.

This does not mean I will avoid stories in the same setting, however. In fact I may put up another one here very soon. I just don't want to have people confused by the choppy fragments of an ongoing series.

In addition I am considering requests that have been made to me. Not commissions, but just the notion that I may do trades or gifts, especially for people I know, like and trust. That may crop up a bit more and if so, I may put them on here. I haven't done much with that yet in part due to anxiety. But that is another thing you may see here.

In short, anything of mine that fits FA guidelines and you could read without a huge need for other continuity I will be putting here. I do this in part to make myself expand and try to get over my anxieties. But mostly, because I know I have, or have had, some friends here. I guess this is my way to make sure they will know I am ok. Forcing myself to keep them up to date that I'm still alive, for whatever little that is worth.

Finally remembered my FA password. Mainly just letting people know I'm still alive. I won't lie I've been struggling. Even basic self care has been difficult and I am grateful to the friends who helped prop me up.

I just wanted to check in and make sure people know I'm not dead or anything. Broken but alive.

Ok a few thigns.

First, not dead. Not sure if anyoen wondered, but I felt I should note that no. As the new journal suggests. I am very much alive. Not kicking per say. But alive.

Second, I AM writing. I know I risk driving off a few people with what I am about to say but I feel I should be honest about it. For those of you who also follow me over on Inkbunny I have been writing again. Digging into it rather hard all things considered. I still feel very lost and broken without Diana but it has helped me cope.

Why is it not here, you ask? Because it contains cub.

Not all of it, but most. Currently there are two series I have going on. A rather... odd space opera about a slaver warrior princess thing. And a story based around my first fursona from when I was a teenager WAY back in the day. Like, Went on Furcadia to find RP instead of wallowing in pained nostalgia.

But yes. I don't want to dwell on this. I am sorry if anyone feels they can not be friends with or associate with me for it. However it is a fact. I like cub. I like Loli/shota. I do NOT advocate or condone sexual contact with minors just as I do not condone actual real life enslavement, physical abuse as a way of showing affection outside of an established BDSM relationship or any of hte many other things I include in my stories. They are fiction. Fantasy. Meant to be enjoyed as such.

But FA was my home for a long time and I do still miss it. I want to say that I am trying to plan a story series to be put here as well. Something safe for the current FA regulations. Presuming anyone is still with me and interested what I have to say and tell.

I should make it clear though I will not, at all, be continuing the Ester series. If you have questions about how things were to play out then by all means ask. But Ester, and indeed anything tied to her, has her own happily ever after.

Working on it and digging into the wound of what could have been, especially if I wasn't so stupid or if i had hounded her better about her health, will just push me back into the pit of suicidal depression I am only somewhat out of. Thus, I need something new.

Zero idea what it is yet. Not sure at all what form it will take and what it will be connected to if anything. But presuming there are people here who would actually like to see some FA-safe stuff from me in some capacity I am willing to give the idea some thought. Provided it does not road block me.

I admit, creating new written works is feeling really good right now. Still feel a bit guilty for enjoying it and going forward, but still feels really good.

Still alive. Did not expect that. Stil not doing much of anything, could have called that. Not really writing anymore, still not sure if I ever will. I get ideas, but I free up. At best I help a few friends with very minor things and try to deal with being alone, tired and drifting.

I don't know if it is a good thing or a bad thing. Tired and broken, miss her every day still. Cry most every day still. but better than I was I suppose. Just figured I should post something for the sake of posting something since, you know, it has been just over a year since one of the most important parts of my life was ripped from me.

Not dead, not yet at least. Haven't really improved that much by my reckoning, but... well I am not dead.

I have tried writing a few times. Nothing came of it. Still don't think I ever will, but I may. Just figured I would say I am still alive.

Mostly useless, but trying to stay awake so I figured why not

== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
96% Degradation Receiver
84% Bondage Receiver
80% Submissive
75% Masochist
73% Pervert
70% Girl/Boy
70% Slave
68% Switch
66% Bondage Giver
65% Degradation Giver
59% Brat
54% Non-monogamist
54% Sadist
47% Primal (Prey)
46% Exhibitionist
46% Voyeur
45% Experimentalist
43% Dominant
39% Brat Tamer
34% Master/Mistress
34% Primal (Predator)
24% All-Rounder
20% Daddy/Mommy
16% Vanilla
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=53740

No real use for it, and nobody is shocked. But there you go.

Well, since I am done writing I suppose it is only fair I offer up answers to any questions on my work people may have. I figure its the least I can do to ensure people don't have any loose ends to worry about. So go on, ask anything. Time to get this over with.