So ive made a few updates on tumblr and facebook so if you don't follow me there then this will be news for you.

I AM TRANSGENDER! fully out in the open and starting the first stage in a few weeks - months.
my Fursona will remain the same but male no new additions and stuff.

please be mindful as this took me a lot of strength guts and energy to come out to family and friends.

thank you

~Kiraki

Yes so by the name of the title i'm going MIA for a while

I just haven't been myself lately and so many medical appointments, also the realization my independance is dwindling by the day im sorta becoming depressed again.

DO NOT MESSAGE ME ABOUT THIS! I WILL NOT REPLY!

i dont know when ill upload next might be a few days might be a few months, there may be random dumps here and there but no big things.

thank you for understanding

~Kira

LETS DO THIS!!! (WARNING INCOMING RANT)

Fibromyalgia is a pretty un-heard of illness still because it classes as and "invisible disability" so therefore many people day to day don't realize that someone is actually suffering this disease! I got diagnosed near the tail end of November last year but i was suffering long before i knew what it was.
During high school i had to take so much time off for my "gastritis" which means i have too much acid in my stomach i never knew then that all the hypersensitive feeling and sensory things i was getting WAS part of Fibromyalgia.
It kicked in worse 2 years ago when i had a fall down the stairs and landed on my back on the edge of the step which hit me directly on my spine and the base of my skull, the doctors say that this may have made my Fibro start or just get much worse.

My life has changed so much, i can barely get out of bed some days and just doing simple things is like climbing a mountain, mixed with chronic fatigue brushing my hair have to sit down and rest half way though, bush my teeth same thing, showers if i don't have something to sit on id collapse and end up on the floor, its a pretty dangerous disease yet its getting more common for younger people to get diagnosed with it, people argue that its only an "old persons disease", i hate this saying.

Chronic Pain/Illnesses and general pain DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE YOUNG OR OLD, sometimes you are supposed to have these things to advocate for them and make more people aware that these types of things CAN happen to that healthy young popular girl from the house down the street, it CAN happen to the guy who stays in his room and games all the time through all the pain, it CAN happen to that poor elderly person sitting at the rest home all alone in so much pain they freeze.

SO PLEASE be mindful of people who have chronic illnesses and invisible diseases we try our best to hide the fact we are sick but there are times we do need some assistance so don't judge the young girl who parks in a disabled park and walks into the store looking like shes normal but is on her worst day from pain ever and don't judge her for using wheelchairs or canes "because she looks too young and healthy to need them"
Also be mindful if you take up a disabled park there is usually someone who comes while you are still parked there who needs it more desperately than you do (ESPECIALLY IF THEY HAVE A CARD)

(RANT TIME)
I AM SOO GOD DAMNED PISSED OFF AT THESE ASSHOLES THAT THINK THEY KNOW WHATS BEST FOR ME!
i have had SOOO many people come up to me today and bitch to me about using the in store wheelchairs and the disabled car park!

One idiot woman saw me get out of my moms car and saw me walk in to the shop where i walked over to get a self push wheelchair, i got in and went on my merry way, BUT THIS FUCKER about half way through my very enjoyable shop WALKED UP TO ME AND SAID "OH honey i saw you walk in and i saw you park in the disabled spot, i must tell you that you are FAR too young and pretty to be disabled so i believe there is nothing wrong with you, i cant see anything that is wrong with you? so why do you need the wheelchair? WHICH some poor elderly lady could be using right now!" I WAS SO FUCKING ASTOUNDED this lady could say so many hurtful things to me!

YES i can still walk, YES I do need aid on my worse days, YES i know i look completely normal
BUT DON'T YOU DARE THINK THAT THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ME, YOU ARE NOT MY DOCTOR and ID like to KEEP it that way, i don't need to justify my medical needs for your incompetence !

AND THIS FUCKING LADY WITH HER TINY FUCKING KID at they psychology clinic, BLATANTLY parked in the DISABLED PARK with NO CARD JUST "because its easy for me to get my kid out and come in this way" my psychologist and her psychologist where BOTH out there and mine almost went off her NUT at this lady (my Psychologist knows i have a card and can legally use that ONLY space) its only that this fucking place was FULL TO THE BRIM with cars that didn't need to be there, when i got close to the park (which has a ramp close by) my psychologist saw me and said "oh well don't bother moving now shes already here" which i didn't mind walking a little bit more i just used more spoons than i needed, BUT THIS FUCKING LADY SAW ME and said "GOOD because i wasn't going to move anyway!"

OOOOH THAT FUCKING MADE MY BLOOD BOIL I COULD HAVE EASILY JUST BLOCKED HER AND YELLED AT HER AND TOLD HER ITS ILLEGAL FOR HER TO PARK THERE JUST FOR HER CONVENIENCE WHEN I WAS THERE AND I NEEDED IT AND BY LAW I AM ENTITLED TO THAT SPOT AND SHE STRAIGHT UP ATTITUDE!!! OOOOH!!!
but then i would have wasted my time in educating this nit brain teen mom about the laws that could get her thrown in jail. i digress

Sorry for the rant i just had a lot of this in the last few days and im so pissed off.

if you have made it THIS far id like to congratulate you and give you this cookie *holds a gigantic cookie for the reader*

SO i will be uploading more art soon so look foward to that !

BYE
~Kira

im trying my hand at some butt icons in my own style and will upload once finished but if it decide to make open commissions to help fund for my wheelchair/ or crutches than that is what ill do.

dont pester me for commissions when i am not ready. Due to my fibromyalgia and brain fog i have very hard time drawing now unlike i used to so i will announce it in my own time.

<3 love Kira

FINALLY got my appointment for my EEG scan !!!!! *party explodes* but here is the down side its in 12 days i dont know if my body can last that long :( damned seizures

oh well i guess we will find out soon if i have epilepsy or not.

OKAY so hospitals in and out of em i have my heart monitor on for a week till next Friday STILL waiting for surgery and still waiting for the neurological appointment for my CT scan to see if i have Epilepsy or not :/

but the nurse who i talked to today said she is going to contact a incontinence nurse for my necessary needs so diapers and what not so possibly gonna be STOCKING right up:3

okay yeha so no need to worry OOOHHH ALSO

THIS LIL PUP GOT A TINY PUP!!!!! yes i got a new puppy :3 her name is Lilly and she is Boarder Collie ill try and post a pic of her sleeping soon :3 but my boyfriends mom bought her for me to train her to be a service alert dog for me *is so happy*

Ok before i talk your ears off im going to go :3

<3 Kiraki

so Im going away on the 19th of December to see my mate in Wellington and i wont be back till the 11th on January.

i just bought myself a JVC camera too so ill shoot some videos and upload em to youtube :)
ive got both of my plane tickets booked having to stop in Auckland to actually catch a connecting light to wellington.

i'm also gonna be bringing my waicom and laptop with me so ill be slowly uploading art while im on holiday.

if you dont hear from me then im sorry im just slow at the moment trying to figure out medications and doctors and psychiatrist appointments .

<3 Kira

i wont be uploading any art till i get a new laptop!

i uploaded hand drawn trans art of my 'sona yesterday and its been taken down. BOTH pictures!
all i saw that was wrong was its blurry because i took it at night on my ipod.

And then one of my meme arts got taken down

THIS meme if anyone is familiar with the "google meme"
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10758236/ (picture belongs to )

mini rant but don't expect to see anything new from me for a while =_=

Ok so if you cant tell or dont want to know I am physically and mentally sick right now so if anyone wants or has requested please IT WILL get done just not right now so stop pestering me i will try to get my laptop fixed asap but if you want digital your gonna have to wait.

What's that? Oh yeah I'm a babyfur/diaperfur didn't I say?

RULES: Put an “x” between the brackets for all that applies. (Example [x])

Babyfurriness:
1. [x] I’m Mommy’s/Daddy’s little helper.
2. [x] Holds Mommy’s/Daddy’s hand.
3. [] I have at least one Marci or Tavi badge.
4. [] I have more than one caretaker.
5. [] Gets into trouble.
6. [x] Cuddles, snuggles, huggles, purr…
7. [x] I like to suck my thumb.
8. [x] I like my pacifier.
9. [x] Baths with bubbles or not at all.
10. [x] I make appropriate animal noises to communicate.
Total: 7

Diapers:
1. [x] Diapers are fun!
2. [x] Diapers are required.
3. [x] Prefers a diaper over undies!
4. [] Crinkles or its garbage.
5. [x] The thicker the better!
6. [] Cloth!
7. [x] Disposable!
8. [] Vinyl pants.
9. [] Baby powder.
10. [] Baby lotion.
Total: 5

Eating:
1. [] Bibs are required.
2. [x] I prefer baby bottles than glasses.
3. [x] I prefer sippy cups than glasses.
4. [x] I’d rather be fed than feed myself.
5. [x] Cookies are currency.
6. [x] Vegetables are evil.
7. [] I eat baby food!
8. [] I drink baby formula.
9. [x] NOM NOM NOM
10. [x] Chews on stuff.
Total: 7

Play:
1. [x] PARK!!!!! *and plays on stuff*
2. [x] Hide and seek!
3. [x] Saturday morning cartoons!!!! Yay!
4. [x] Blanket forts!
5. [] I like to play House.
6. [] TEA PARTIES!!!
7. [x] I’d rather blow bubbles outside than play videogames.
8. [x] Draws on walls.
9. [x] Colours outside the lines.
10. [x] Draws on paper.
Total: 8

Toys:
1. [x] Plays with boy toys.
2. [x] Plays with girl toys.
3. [x] Plays with baby toys.
4. [x] Has building blocks.
5. [] I have bath toys.
6. [x] Plushies!!!!!
7. [x] I have more plushies than underwear.
8. [x] I sleep with one in bed.
9. [x] They all have names.
10. [x] My plushies are real.
Total: 9

Bedtime:
1. [] Gets up early!
2. [x] Takes naps.
3. [x] Wakes up wet.
4. [] Wakes up dirty.
5. [x] Would rather sleep in a crib than a bed.
6. [x] I sleep with a nightlight/glow plushie.
7. [x] I can’t live without my blankie!
8. [x] I enjoy bedtime stories.
9. [x] I fall asleep to gentle lullabies.
10. [] I fall asleep to hypnosis media.
Bedtime: 7

Clothes:
1. [x] I own an onesie.
2. [x] I own more than one onesie.
3. [] I own a set of footed PJs.
4. [] I own more than one set of footed PJs.
5. [] I own a pair of short-alls/over-alls.
6. [] I own more than one pair of shorts-alls/over-alls.
7. [x] I own a party dress/jumper.
8. [] I own more than one party dress/jumper.
9. [x] All my cub clothes are designed for easy diaper changes.
10. [x] I’m perfectly comfortable in just a T-shirt and diaper.
Total: 5

Now go through and add every “x” you’ve selected and put the total number below.

TOTAL: 48
Less than 10 x’s = Closet Babyfur
10 to 20 x’s = you still live with your parents, don’t you?
20 to 30 x’s = Newbie Babyfur
30 to 40 x’s = you’re making progress.
40 to 60 x’s = One of us! One of us!
More than 60 x’s = Um… wow! You might want to seek therapy… o.o

heheh Yeah and im planning to add more to this soon to ^.^ *wags her tail*

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you love me?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why.
6. Describe me in 1 word.
7. What was your first impression of me?
8. Would you hug me?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13. Would you meet up with me?
14. Do you enjoy having me as a friend?
15. Would you spend some quality time with me?

Well yes iv'e decided to take time off to get my health sorted out first before i continue on with my animation really its a priority because i haven't been able to get to class because i'm sick so much so yeah that gives me more time to work on requests if you guys still want them.

i have an appointment with surgery in November so ill be sluggy around then so sorry if work is a bit slow.

but anyway

REQUESTS ARE OPEN STILL!!!! you just need to note me or comment and ref a picture and say what you'd like to be doing in it.

EASY!

but yeah anyway thanks for dropping by

~Kira <3

I hvaent been uploading cuz we are clay modelling ill grab some pics today so you guys can see :3

i'm gonna open requests just as long as i don't get to swamped so far ill be doing normal fur art and baby fur art :3

things to do:
have a ref sheet or picture of the character/ characters you want in the picture
decide on a background or it will just be a default squiggly or spotty one

^/////^ <3
let the games begin

has turned me into a babyfur without me realizing.... i mean i kinda was before but now I REALLY am.

Things i do IRL:
Suck my thumb
Have tons of soft toys
Have a passifier
Have a onesie
AND having the need to draw baby Kiraki ALL the time!!

Things Kira does now:
Suck her thumb
wears a passifier round her neck sometimes
carries soft toys everywhere

^^^ it HAS happened yet i thank you <3 for bring out what i couldn't, I Love You <3

A meme for Valentine's day ^////^


Meme time:

1. Are you single or taken?
Taken by my sexy Liger

2. Chocolate or flowers?
Either works for me :3

3. Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Well just had lovely talk on Skype with him ^///^

4. Do you LIKE like someone?
No, I love him! With All my heart.

5. Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
Nope :/ Lone wolf last year

6. Who do you want to spend Valentines with?
With :c *holds out her paw*

7. Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Nah usually for me its just another day >.>

8. Have you ever had a secret admirer?
Not that i can remember

9. Would you ever write someone a love letter?
I would love to :O

10. Do you believe in Cupid?
O.o Cupid THAT BASTARD HAS BAD AIM!!! i let the universe run its course this time and it landed me with my liger ^.^

11. Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
haha nope :P only thing i ever got on valentines when i was little is teddies i bought for myself

12. Do you still send out Valentine cards?
Nope XD

13. Do you like candy hearts?
:D CANDY!!!!

14. What is something you got last Valentines?
yesterday ^////^ A cute video tour of forest from my liger <3

15. Is Valentines depressing?
ha Yeah usually but not anymore

16. How is your love life?
amazing. <3

17. Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Nope

18. How many roses would you want to receive?
one for each year we have been together maybe?? or month??

19. Will you have a girlfriend/boyfriend this Valentines day?
Yep

20. Do you look forward to Valentines day?
i would if i got to see him more V.V

21. Who was your last Valentine from?
ZZ Cat <3

22. Who do you expect to get a Valentine from this year?
^^^ ZZ is still working on my actual one apparently

23. Who would you most like to receive a Valentine from?
ZZ <3

24. How many Valentines will you be sending this year?
Just to ZZ ^.^

25. Have you ever not received a Valentine?
Yeah alot when i was little

26. What was the most Valentines you received in a single day?
>.> one thing (teddy, or yesterdays case a video ^.^)

27. Have you ever received an anonymous Valentine?
No

28. Have you ever sent an anonymous Valentine?
No

29. Will you be sending an anonymous Valentine this year?
Nope

30. What was the best Valentine gift you ever received?
the Video from ZZ <3

31. What was the worst?
a teddy that fell apart in 3 seconds V.V when i was little

32. Have you ever started dating someone on Valentines day?
not EXACTLY on valentines :P haha


Happy Valentines Fuzzies ^///^

My package came from my mum and not i has my tails and she sent my ears down too ^.^ along with some fur and a needle and thread :) guess who is gonna be busy making tails and ears :D haha well anyway *pants* so happy been jumping around and wagging my tail like crazy.

Bies X3

So i am gonna put up some new art tomorrow ive been away for the weekend so i could barley get anything done or uploaded but the good news is that im back and uploading regular stuff :D *fireworks and confetti*

Also you may have noticed i have a mate now I love him with all i am and for a reason the universe put us together I would die without his love right now it feels like hes the only thing keeping me grounded so i cant float off and get lost in my own idiotic world, but despite being so far away i still feel his touch and his soothing agngelic voice in my ear, his heart beats for me and mine beats with all it has left going for it ALL for ZZ <3 i can live without you Kitty...

School on the other hand might become a health problem for be further down the line considering i have to stare at a screen for a few hours for weeks on end >.> *BOOO*

Anyway time for pup here to hit her den *crawls into bed*

Night <3

http://inkanntis.deviantart.com/ <--- My friend done some cool art go and check it out :3

well im all down at animation school just getting my net sorted but i have more drawing planned to upload so ^.^ BE READY! and ill try and see if the net will behave in my room otherwise ill be pretty much in the lab all of the time.

<3

taken off

Lost your virginity? 17
Lost someone close to you? 3 or 4?
Consumed alcohol? 17
Received a kiss? 15
Went to the hospital? 16
Had a broken heart? 15
Lost a pet? 8
Got arrested? N/A
Broke a bone? 4
Got a job? 16
Got a boyfriend or girlfriend? 14
Went to a concert? N/A
Met someone famous? 14
Got in a car wreck? N/A
Dyed your hair? 16
Flew on an airplane? 11
Went to another state? N/A
Went across the country? N/A
Went to another country? 11
Got a tattoo? 18
Had a piercing? 9
Smoked pot? N/A
Smoked a cigarette? N/A
Went to Disney Land or World? N/A
Had A Long term relationship? 16 - 17
Passed out from drinking? N/A
Became a furry? 16
Went to your first non business / work related convention? 17

Taken off and doing cuz ULTRA BORED

Rules:
1). Pick one of your FCs/OCs!
2). Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your FC/OC.
3). Tag 3 people at the end of the quiz.


1.) What's your name?
Kiraki

2.) Do you know why you were named that?
Its a compilation of 3 words, i liked the name Kai but it was to short then i was thinking from yugioh the "winged dragon of Ra" and im like oh Kaira but it needed something else and im a a mystery so Key but i kept how they cound just changed it so Ki-ra-ki.

3.) Are you single or taken?
Single u.u but i get older furs hitting on me all the time =_=

4.) Have any abilities or powers?
uhh not really other than the usual canid hearing and eyesight but im built for stamina running so *shrugs*

5.) Stop being a mary-sue.
uhhh a what.....?

6.) Uh... if you were to get in a fight with a strong wrestler, do you think you'd win?
haha no i play wrestled with but he got me ^.^; it was fun though

7.) Riiiight...Have any family members?
well my family died when i was younger my brothers and parents but Darkmoon and Khaz have kinda become my family.

8.) Oh? How about pets?
pets noo.. :( i tried having a bird as a pet but it flew away

9.) Cool, I guess. Tell me something that you don't like.
I dont like hmm well i dont like a lot of things.

10.) Something that you do like?
Meat meat is good ^.^ and i love music and video games :3

11.) Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
uh well video games and Guitar?

12.) Have you ever hurt anyone in anyway before?
I guess so even though i dont intentionally hurt people

13.) Ever killed anyone?
no but Terror my evil half has many times, she only gets called out when im forced to protect myself or when i get really angry.

14.) What kind of animal are you?
Wolfy ^3^ with a Dragon attitude

15.) Name your worst habits.
the worst habbit i have is probably getting to attatched and then getting my heart kicked in the arse :(

16.) Do you look up to anyone at all?
Khaz he is my Guradian <3

17.) Gay, straight, or bi?
Bi baby ;3

18.) Do you go to school?
*laughes* NO well i wouldnt really call my new school 'SCHOOL' cuz its not really gonna be that much like school

19.) Ever wanna marry and have kids one day?
<///////< ive always dreamed of it yes. what girl hasnt?

20.) Do you have any fangirls/fanboys?
not that i know of?

21.) What are you most afraid of?
Spiders, strong winds, THUNDER! alot of things

22.) What color is your hair?
Bright blonde :3

23.) Eyes?
Blue like the sea

24.)What do you usually wear?.
Jeans and a black singlet other than that what ever i can mostly checker board or camoflauge :3

26.) Do you wish this quiz is over?
Nont really :s cuz then ill have noting to do

27.) Well, it's still not over.
YAY!

28.) Anyways, where do you live?
Whangarei, New Zealand but ill be moving to Snells Beach in Febuary then to Auckland early 2014 hopefully :3

29.) What class are you? (Low class, middle class, high class)?
Uhh i dunno middle i guess

30.) How many friends do you have?
i have alot but we are gonna get scattered soon :(

31.) If you could change anything about you, what would you change?
My body shape :(

33.) What is your thoughts on pie?
*turns nose up* i dont really like pie unless its bacon and egg

34.) Alright. What's your favourite food?
Meat if i had a choice its all id eat :3

35.) Favourite drink?
Coke or Water or any fizzy drink i like that i can get my paws on

36.) What is your favourite place?
My bed, in the car, by the beach, in a forest or just sitting on a grassy hill at night looking at the stars.

37.) Least favourite?
anywhere i dont feel comfortable but if i get comfy then i relax :3 but BIG crowds freak me out to many people, to easily lost.

38.) Are you still wanting the quiz to end?
not really

39.) Well, it's over.
aww *finds soemthing else to do*

Tagged people: ALL THE FLOOFS!!!

So today was my first furry con and I loved it beyond anything! I was nervous at frist but then I found myself being my sona and opening up and becoming a hug whore XD I love hugs and cuddles and I got the best ones today <3 but one thing I noticed the whole day I never stopped smiling :3 It was one of the most happiest days ever and now my birthday wont stand a chance aginst it. So id like to say this to everyfur I met, talked to, hugged anything thank you. THANK YOU for the most amazing day of my life! Despite getting heatstroke in the sun and getting a bit pink it was truely amazing.

<3 :,3 you will be in my hear and mind forever! Until our next meeting everfur <3 I love you all

Just paid and registered for FurcoNZ :3 Staurday the 15th day only but im so excited to be going this will be my first furry con :3.

Im working on my Kiraki partial getting ready for FurcoNZ next month hopefully i can go for the whole weekend if not ill ony be there for one day,
but the head is fixed which im happy about :3 just need some cover up for the sides then her head will be done

the paw only needs a re stich her pad was falling off and it needs a bit of a clean (any ideas? on green paint? out of whit fur)

i have one of her foot paws foamed the other will most likely be done tonight then ill get them furred when i can get to the store to get omre fur

Drawings i do in my sparetime usually aren't that great but if i put my mind to it im sure ill come up with something good :3 maybe a certain clouded leaopard can give me ideas? ;3

other than that i have three more exams to do one tomorrow two the next day (sarcastic yay)

BBUUUUTTT!!!!!!

IVE BEEN ACCEPTED INTO LIFEWAY ANIMATION SCHOOL! *que streamers and confetti* :3 so happy about that.

Thank you for taking the time to read this unusally long journal :3 BYE!