Hey everyone, I know its been a while since I posted here, thats because I have a new account! Please go follow that account


I am going to be disabling this account soon!

Basics

Name: Alistair
Nickname: Al
Location: Texas!
Age: 21
Height: 5'6"
Zodiac sign: Gemini
Pets: 1 Dog, 2 Cats, 1 Sugar Glider, 10 Chickens
Favorite thing about yourself: My Hands
Worst habit: I chew on my cuticles
Fun fact: I want to get a Master's Degree in Botany.

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: Male (FtM trans)
Sexual preference: Demisexual
Romantic preference: Demiromantic
"Kinsey Scale" score: I dunno
Relationship status: In a Relationship with
Myers/Briggs type: INFJ
Hogwarts house: Hufflepuff


Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Night owl. I do most artwork at night time
First thought in the morning: "Why?"
Last thought before falling asleep at night: "Sleep.Sleep.Sleep."

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: I am trying to get back into college, I currently am unemployed
What do you do well: Drawing I guess, Writing.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: Hopefully pursuing my college degree, and still doing art


Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: Yeah
Smoke: Nah
Do Drugs: Nope
Exercise: Not really, I need to though.
Have a go-to comfort food: Mac N Cheese or French Fries
Have a nervous habit: I bite or pick at my cuticles

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): My hands probably.
In Others: Hands... I like hands okay?
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): I don't really know.
Food: Burgers/Steak
Drink: Water
Animal: Giraffes or Sting Rays
Colors:Purple
Artist/Band/Group: The Decemberists
Author/Poet: Stephen King/H.P Lovecraft
Actor/Actress: Nick Offerman
Blogger: I don't really know.

YAY!

For raffle winners:
I currently don't have any program on which to do art because my Sai trial ran out and I can't afford to buy it right now, and I don't have access to a cracked version as of yet.
Sorry for the delay on the raffle prize.

Sorry for the lack of art in general.

I've been in a real funk recently and can't seem to get out of it.

This one will have 3 winners!
each winner will have a character in this piece!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16907294/


First place is:
 nightlysnow

Second place is:
 Gadgemy


Third place is:
 Mimi-Eevee

WINNERS, I WOULD LIKE YALL EACH TO COMMENT WITH A,B, OR C IN WHICH ORDER YOU'D LIKE TO BE IN.

EX.
I'd like to be in B the most but A would be a second choice so I'd put
B,A,C

Alright!
I am gonna be having a sale on commissions!
I am open for 5 slots!

Single character drawing will be $5.00
two character drawing will be $10.00
Background is +$2.00

I can try to do NSFW stuff but I'm not too good at it!

Examples of my work are on here, , and ophion-mothbear.weebly.com

I have been super stressed.
Two of my cats had to e put down due to a genetic mutation that could have remained dormant their whole lives but became active after they both got upper respiratory infections from the weirdly fluctuating Texas weather.
I haven't been drawing much, and most of what I have been drawing was for others so it dot posted to my commissions account ()

I am open for commissions of really any kind. My prices are pretty base and I highly recommend you send me a note or an email to get an accurate quote but my prices are pretty cheap.

If you want you can see a complete gallery of my art work (without looking through two accounts on here)
at my website
ophion-mothbear.weebly.com

I need some money to help me pay for my vet bills as two cats and 4 vet visits plus the cost of putting them down and cremation can really stack up and any amount of money will help.
You can donate
My paypal is seizureberserk[at]hotmail.com

If you do donate even 1$ then you will get a little doodle
like these:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15427382/
Just send me a note with the email you donated with an a ref and you'll get a little doodle.

Thanks for reading!

Hello everyone, thanks for clicking on my journal.

I'd like to start off by saying that COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN and you can see examples of my work on both of my accounts
and

Prices can be found on my commission account under the commission info tab.
Link here: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissi.....izure-berserk/


Examples of my work as well as prices can also be found on my website.
ophion-themothbear.weebly.com

All the money I receive from commissions will go to me getting out of a toxic home environment.
My parents don't support me and they also do not believe that anxiety and depression are mental illnesses. They are almost constantly putting me down and I would like nothing more than to get out of this place.
And I recently lost my job and currently have no way to get a new one due to transport being an issue.

I am not normally comfortable asking for donations so that's why I'm trying to get commissions.
however if you could signal boost this I would appreciate it.


However if you'd like to donate then it is appreciated and you will still get doodles and art for any amount of money donated.

My paypal as seizureberserk[at]hotmail.com

If you'd like to commission me then please send me a note on either of my accounts.

Thank you for reading this. I hope you have a nice day.

he got hit by a car today and me dad found him laying on the side of the road right in front of our house.

because this is just what i needed right now. I don't know what to do. I feel like garbage. I was home all day, I should have noticed he was out front and brought him inside or back in the back yard...
i could have stopped this from happening...

it was toxic anyway.

Now i am on the hunt for a new job but while i do that i also have finish my drivers license stuff as my parents believe that being 20 is too old to not drive.

I also have to apply to a college to placate my parents as well.

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY, COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN.
PLEASE SEE THIS JOURNAL FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THAT.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6433817/


THANKS SO MUCH.

Hello everyone, thanks for clicking on my journal.

I'd like to start off by saying that commissions are open and you can see examples of my work on both of my accounts
and

Prices and examples can be found on my commission account under the commission info tab.
Link here: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissi.....izure-berserk/


Examples of my work as well as prices can also be found on my website.
ophion-themothbear.weebly.com

All the money I receive from commissions will go to me getting out of a toxic home environment.
My parents don't support me and they also do not believe that anxiety and depression are mental illnesses. They are almost constantly putting me down and I would like nothing more than to get out of this place.
To do that I need to raise enough money to get out on my own and live with my mate

I am not normally comfortable asking for donations so that's why I'm trying to get commissions.
however if you could signal boost this I would appreciate it.


However if you'd like to donate then it is appreciated and you will still get doodles and art for any amount of money donated.

My paypal as seizureberserk[at]hotmail.com

If you'd like to commission me then please send me a note on either of my accounts.

Thank you for reading this. I hope you have a nice day.

my best friend ( ) Winston needs some help.
He has started a gofundme to help him get out of his abusive home.
here is the link
gofundme.com/k6nszo

if you could help him out that would be awesome guys

PanChow
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15424010/
Selling for $15.00

3 eyed Saber Cat
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14777542/
Selling for $15.00

ADOPTABLES!!

Halloween DISCOUNT adopts: $5.00
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14671329/

Halloween Bulllterrier Adopts DISCOUNT: $3.00
http://www.furaffinity.net/full/14673709/

Other Adopts:(prices listed)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14770973/


send me a note if you'd like to purchase any of these characters

OKAY OKAY OKAY

lISTEN UP ALL YOU BUGGERS.

i HAVE SOME VENTING i NEED TO DO,
IF YOU DONT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT THEN DONE READ ANY FURTHER

HERE WE GO:

I just got home from spending the weekend at the bae's house.
the weekend was fun and good. We went to see his dad and step mom for xmas and played cards against humanity.
yesterday we spent hours playing diablo iii at his house. it was great.
then yesterday night we decided to go see a movie before he had to take me home.
We saw into the woods. which was fun and great. then we playfed some games they had in the lobby of the theater.

upon walking back to our car we noticed a police car and just assumed there was some sort fo fender bender of something. We make it to his car and lo and behold. His back passanger winder was bustewd in and my weekend/over night bag was gone.

yup thats right. it was stolen.

at first i wasnt so upset, cuz i mean, its just some clothes and deodorant and stuff.
then i realizwed my 3DS was gone too.

now this became a problem that caused me to sob uncontrollably for a few minutes before i could talk to the cop that was there because 2 other cars were also broken into.

this is a problem because my DS had my pokemon game in it. alpha sapphire.
This game had all my pokemon from previous games that i had painstakingly traded up, including a bunch of event excluksive pokemon and some shinies.
some of which i was just holding for my baefriend and my brother and are now gone forever.

Pokemon is extremely important to me, its a very big stress/anxiety relief game for me. and had some pokemon that i was very attached to on it. and they are gone forwever. and i cried for like 10 minutes on the phone with my mother while she tried to calm me down enough to talk to the cop.


so not only has my enitre holiday season been horrible
now thishappens and this whole year justed ended in one huge shit fest.
and we dont know if my bae's insurance will cover the loss of over $300 in my clothes and DS and various other things like my phone charger.

Luckily this was theonly weekend i didn't take my laptop with me to his house.
but please bare with me if im not very active or if i post a bunch of vent art or anything.

hello everyone.
I'm really only posting a journal to get the venting journal off the front of my page.
General life update is as follows:
I was sick all this week and am still currently under the weather. I have also been hit with a wave of depression and art block that won't seem to go away.
Because of this art block I am not going to be able to complete any free art that I promised anyone. and I do not plan to hold another raffle into some unknown point in the future. I will only be working on art sparingly and it will all be personal art to attempt to improve my style and get out of this horrible funk.
My boss hasn't paid me in two weeks so I have no money and my account is over draft. However I don't have the time/energy/or drive to take commissions. and I know no one will donate any money to me. I am trying desperately to sell one of my fursuits but no one seems to be interested.
As it stands I will not be able to get the few Christmas presents I was hoping to get for my family.
But thats all for now, I hope everyone has a nice day.
And thank you for reading this.

hi everyone, I just kinda needed t o vent

I feel like garbage. physically and emotionally. utter trash.

I visisted my great grandma today for her 98th birthday and something crazy happened. She actually recognizewd me. I havent seen her in a few years and that was before i cut all my hair off and dyed it crazy colors. but she actually recognixzed me.

this amazing feeling was quickly offset when my memaw started bragging about how my brhter is in his last year of college and how he is going to be a social worker and i am 'headed no where' with my life.

i alreadh know im a failure at everythign i want to be but it hurts when your family says it about you.
my other brother and his family came over to help put up our christamas tree yesterday and i was already feeling sick but then i had to deal with my sister in law complain about no one ever helping her. and then yell at me about how to take care of a pet that she gabe to us BECAUSE IT WAS TO MUCH WORK TO TRAIN AND IT BIT ONE OF HER KIDS ONE FUCKING TIME.

She takes every shance she gets to yell at me about bullshit stuff.

I sent two of my fursuit heads to get repairs and i haven't gotten any email responces from either maker and its making me really nervous and scared.

with christmas coming up ive been given more hours at work which is grewat beacuse money but it also sucks because i work ina warehouse with no heat and it kills my back and knees (where I have pre-existing injuries) this also gives me less time to draw or do anything that i enjoy.

My anxiety has sky-rocketed and my mother still doesn't believe that anxiety is even a mental illness or that anything is wrong with me which makes it impossible for me to tell her about my hallucinations and other things that are decreasing my mental health.

i've been depressed and angry a lot recently and have no outlet for these felings. so far i havent done anyhing stupid. just cried a lot and hid it from the people that i know will worry .

but i dont know what else to do about any of this. I only have like 4 friends and I dont want to bother them. and im just sitting her crying and texting my baefriend like nothings wrong. and im a mess and i'm sorry.

i probably wont be posting much art right now.

thanks for reading this far if you did. i hope you have a nice day.
I just needed some one to talk to even if it is a few people onbline or evne if no one reads this. i needed to get some stuff out to try and organize my mind again.

I've been playing pokemon alpha sapphire and i traded over my carnivine and have just been playing on amie with him like all night to help mydelf feel better. its been helping some

ALL RIGHT, LISTEN UP YA NERDS

I FINISHED MY RAFFLE PRIZES TODAY AND I REALLY WANT TO DO SOME BADGES. LIKE FOR REALS AND I WANT TO MAIL SHIT.
(i might regret it but whatever)

SO HERES THE DEAL!

I WILL PICK RANDOM PEOPLE. PROBABLY INTERESTING CHARACTERS.
AND THESE BADGES WILL BE LAMINATED AND MAILED TO YOU! FOR FREE!

I KNOW! ITS CRAZY!

AND ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS SEND ME A NOTE WITH A LINK TO A REFERENCE SHEET (SFW)
AND YOUR SHIPPING ADDRESS.

(continental US only)

AND IF YOU ARE PICKED THEN YOU'LL GET A LETTER IN THE MAIL ONE DAY AND BAM! BADGE! WOOT HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND MERRY CHRISTMAS AND ALL THAT SHIT!

(if you win and do get a badge, please send me a note when you receive it and I will post it online.)