I met entirely too many awesome people at MFF so I have booked my room for AC 2009. It beets the ass out of last minute plans doesn't it? yes it does!

I can afford to go now cause I just got a new job that pays!!! WOOT!

looking forward to seeing you all there!

So I am about to turn in- 11:45 uhg- (gonna get me a room AT the con next time)

Today was fun I attended Fritzywolf's and Grant's panel on being able to draw which was very nice. Then after spending an hour trying to get a dinner group together (gonna plan ahead on meals next con) We got shitty service at Claim Jumpers Restaurant. I got a salmon salad with a long island iced tea. Finished hlaf of each, barfed first half, then came back and finished. Yummy.

A friend, the uber cute Chilli, let me into the hotel's pool. I decided I was tired of being out-gayed so I put on a speedo and headed to the pool. Then I just wandered the con like that. Just for the effect I put on suspenders on with my speedo. very classy! and just so I wouldn't get kicked out pf the hotel I put on a hoodie.

If you saw a guy wandering around in a grey hoodie, hot pink converses and seemingly no pants that was me. Feel free to post pictures on your favorite porn site.

Stomach didn't bother me so much today but I still didn't get to dance because I wanted to stay awake and not fall asleep on the drive home! I'd say this was a good day over all though! :)

Stay frosty marines!

MFF has officially started!

busy first day!

I went to the people and fursuit drawing session and came up with a bunch of cool sketches. I am glad that I started brushing up on my drawing skills again. I think my technique has improved! ^.^

I met bunches of peoples. I am still looking out for a few. I saw silverfenir in the alley but he was surrounded by raving queens. (gayer than even ME somehow) I'll meet him today.

Anywho I did some serious hanging out with peoples whos names escape me right now. Then ate at the UBER delisioso local franchise PORTILLOS!!!! OH PORTILLOS HOW I LOVE THEE!!!

I had just showed up at the nude figure drawing session then BUTTFUCKING fire alarm went off!!!! So everyone in the hotel had to evacuate into a CHICAGO AUTUM NIGHT! FUCK THAT!!! cold cold FREEZING cold! One of the models has just been wearing a robe and had to go outside with the rest of us. 2's and Uncle's show had been interrupted too. 2 said it turned into a street con. lol Firetrucks showed up- saw the furries and sped away. lol. Apperently some one was smoking in the hotel. brilliant.

So eventually we got back inside after the offenders were hung up and shot. Right when the drawinf sessions started again I got the WORST Irratable Bowel Syndrom attack I've had in a long time. I felt so sick. Like a wombat was shitting molten lead into my intestines. UNG so Chilli ended up burying me under all the clothes the models had cast off as I lay dying in the corner. DAMMIT just my luck. I don't get to do a lot of life drawing so its sucks that the first session I got to go to was ruined by smokers and intestinal issues. I tried to go to the dance afterwards and draw a few people but after a few sketches it was clear my first day was over. :C

Oh well. I am going to go back to sleep and prepare for today! Because today has the potential to be even better than yesterday! woot!

I just checked next weeks work schedule and I get the con days off.

There are a number of people I want to run into. I am not going to make the same mistake like last year and just HOPE I run into them. lol huge cons are huge. There are a ton of people I was just starting to hang out with in Chicago before I went and moved. I feel crappy about introducing myself then taking off.

I won't need a room I'll just make the 40 min commute. That means I can't drink though. boo.

I'd like to go to AC next year. If I am making enough money by the beginning of next year I'll book a room. But, first things first. Got bills ya know.

In other news I shaved my buttocks and genitalia. Since I am fairly hairy (which I hate) it looks like I am wearing skin briefs..or hairy sweater and leg warmers. I don't know why. It just felt like a good idea at the time. Also I have it on good information that the stubble growing back feels great.

Anywho see everyone who is going to MFF next weekend. Totally PM so we can meet up! I am gonna be looking for some people to troll around with.

Ohhh- mah gawd!
As I was obsessively scrubbing myself self clean I discovered that I had sore area on my inner-thigh right under my nads. At first I was thinking this was some VD from one of my many sexual exploits. Then I remembered I am a virgin so I deduced that jogging eight miles everyday in a jock (yes....and nothing else....) caused a raw spot where my diddly bits swayed back and forth.
Apperently C-in2 brand jocks aren't meant to really be used in athletics. They don't really hold any thing back (actually they make all yer junk stick out even more) They are like wonder-bras for dudes stuff. If you want to have fun put one on and wiggle your hips back and fourth. MASSIVE bounce-age.
Anywho. I am going to have to invest in a jockstrap that will actually keep my package wrapped up tight otherwise all that rubbing is going to start my wiener on fire.
In other news I am intoxicated.

Went on a date with a guy I met at my first LAFF bowling meet.

Went to our favorite Chinese restaurant. (YAY) Went to Luckystrike bowling alley/nightclub where I annihilated him. (hehe) Made a LOT of awkward small talk and established that we were not feeling anything. So the relation won't develop past friends which is fine because I still had fun!

NEXT day I went to Chicago's pride parade with two others. We go flashed, hit on, and wetter than hell. Pride is great because if the parade gets rained on it only gets better! I should post pictures! Fewer drag queens this year but more boobies and asses. We had a great time. YAY!

In the middle of scrambling to make last minute plans to go to AC (which is NOT fun I assure you) my friend calls me up and reminds me of our long standing plans to to to Chicago Pride Fest and Pride Parade the Saturday and Sunday of Anthrocon. Duh Duh Duh.

I'm not heart broken over it. I know there will be other opportunities to go (yearly thing and all) and this will save me some money for now and let me focus on other things I must work on. I still want to meet people. I've been meaning to get around to that forever!

Next year then! (provided this calender of ours has enough June days to do it all XD)

Alright I've decided that I am going to try to go to AC. All that is stopping me is a room. Since this is so last minute I am willing to be kinda generous in helping out with room costs.

-I'm neat
-I shower
-I'll probably bring a cooler and inflatable bed
-I won't kill you in your sleep (optional)

If I score accommodations then I'll go. AC seems to be the con where many of my favorite artists attend so I think it would be cool to go.

Uhg I am a failure at sexy shit.

I can't get back into my "Depravity" comic. It's not sexy anymore! I thought about it too much and sure enough the story took on a life of it's own. Suddenly what was SUPPOSED to be a convenient vehicle for wanton sex turned into some touching coming-of-age story full of complicated characters (all with their own past) and an elaborate plot line THAT COMPLETELY PRECLUDES ALL OF THE SEX! DX COSMIC WTF?!?!

for example:
I posted the first four pages of the latest chapter. Little kid ends up in a sauna with his three older brothers and their dad..and that's as far as that chapter got. If I was ANYBODY else that chapter would have ended in a pedo-incest-gangbang. But I am me. I like subtlety, and the characters wouldn't do that, and it would have been unrealistic in the plot, and DAMMIT. Sex ruined.

I couldn't get any farther and depravity collapsed under the weight of it's own plot...ok lets try another story:

1. taking it out of the real world THIS story is about a Steampunk universe where there is a terrible war and this kid is sent to live a on a work farm for young men overseen by a bear-ish doctor and a priest. ALRIGHT! You can see the potential here right? No, all of my creative energy was got caught up in the politics of the war, the doctors cold-on-the-outside-warm-on-the-inside personality, and the kids PARENTS story. Ugh SHIT.

2. Ok...let's see...A KING with multiple wives and eighteen kids! It'll be a totally hot story about the sexual proclivities of the high court right? Wrong. It'll end up being a touching story about the the royal family and how they learn to love each other (not sexually) and still fulfill their responsibilities to the kingdom. uhg! This one got epic too. I ended up coming up with about thirty characters each with their own personality, past, and little plot points devoted to them. This could have been a BOOK it got so complicated. A BOOK WITH NO SEX!!! *sigh*

3. Alright I can do this! THIS one will be about a king too! This king is a mean man who has a harem full of kids! A young man from a conquered kingdom is brought to the kings castle to be given to the prince as a slave. A SEX slave! YES!...Except the prince is actually a nice guy, and the young man's father is staging a rebellion against the evil king, and then there develops elicit romances, and intrigue and...shit.

And once again all of the fun sexy parts get buried or ousted entirely by plot and character development and my desire for some sense of reality that prevents MOST fantasy sex scenes from ever existing in the first place. Like a crack-head to crack every sex story I come up with turns into some epic.

I love the stories I come up with...maybe THATS the problem. They become good and interesting (I think XP)

BUT WHERE"S THE SEX?!?!

ok I am in the middle of this bondage pic and the character has a stubbly beard- I am wondering if anyone has any advice drewing stubble or knows any pics that could serve as a good reference?

lol help me make pron plz!

and some days the bear gets you.

Well folks it's over- my great big beautiful dream job is OVER.

What I didn't tell you nice folks is that this first month with the company was a trial period. They wanted to see how good I was and how compatible I was with the group. And I scored well on both of those fronts. The problem arose as I waited for my bosses to decide my fate...

I do NOT react well to stress
I do NOT become stronger in the face of adversity
I do NOT keep my composure when things go wrong

...the stress and fear of whether I was going to KEEP this job got to me. I felt dizzy and nauseous from the fear and my work, which was great before the stress set it, deteriorated, my mood deteriorated and my bosses noticed. I got stressed and made mistakes and slowed up.

And there my fate was sealed. No matter how good I was my stress destroyed me. And the company didn't keep me. And my great big wonderful new life was over just as it had began.

This was more than a job to me. I wanted this career to make me as a person and justify every decision I made in my miserable life. Instead of validating me this job became another in a long list of failures in my life. So....just in case anyone was wondering...

-TA

ok. so for anyone who's interested- In case you were wondering why Depravity hasn't come out in over a month well...I got a job.

Not a part time job but an honest to god full time career with benefits and a living wage. Between my hours and the commute time most of my weekdays are toast. It's a great job though. (it really is awesome) Its the career I've been working for for years and dreamed of since i was a kid. Right now I am both thrilled at going forward with my life and kinda depressed that I will probably never be able to just screw around and fuck off ever again.

Point of the matter is that I don't see Depravity being continued. :C I come home after spending 9 hours in front of a computer (doing work I could do in my sleep) and I just can't force myself to do more than a few strokes at the comic. I mean it just GROUND to a halt. It depresses me knowing I'll never be able to flesh out my little story.

I'm not going away -hell FA is a great way to unwind. I just won't be able to do my comic anymore. it does free up time to do other littler pics that I've been wanting to do. This would be the perfect time for me to carry around a sketchbook and learn to doodle.

So to conclude thanks to everyone who liked the comic such as it was. I'm sorry I won't be able to continue it. Thanks all!

This is a better way of seeking critique and gives the critiqu-er some direction. This quasi art meme is stolen from....everyone...XP

1.) What do you like about my art? What, specifically, do you think are my strengths/what drew you to +watch me?

2.) If you had to pick only one thing, what do you think I do best, artwise?

3.) If you had to pick only one thing [or 20?], what do you think I could do better, artwise?

4.) What does a picture need in order for you to comment on it or favourite it?

5.)What would you like to see in the future from me?

cheers an' shit!

Won't be out this week! I need your help with my anatomy. I've posted pictures of Matt and his brothers and I'd really like to know what you think of them. I could use the help if you are up to it and want to help an amateur get better! XP I am gonna post a pic of Dylan (the bunneh) too soon I could use the critique and would appreciate the response! Thanks all!

I was answering the phone in my parents bedroom and I looked over at my moms dresser where I saw a pamphlet on

*VAGINAL REJUVENATION*

My mom is like 800 years old....


.....I gotta get a job and get the hell out of here

I had this dream last night where I was at a zoo and I fell into the fox+hyena pit. Then when I was in there THEY turned into A lion cub who bit me and sank his claws into my arm. The only way to get him off was to give it a hand job. GO DREAMS!

So chapter 3 is out (a day early) I wanted to have it done by 5:00 my time so figures i got it out at 6:00 XP

I have been pretty zoned these days. I've been living on tea and coffee (I'm trying to work up a really big kidney stone) Anywho If the quality of the comic sucks please let me know. I am happy with the plot so I am really looking for advice and critique on the technical aspect of it.

CHAPTER 4 is pretty well planned out. It features Lot's of quasi-consensual sex and then BETRAYAL! Chapter 5 is even MORE planned out and is going to get weird again- I am just going to keep on going till I get a job (and MAYBE after that if I can) Later all!


OH and thanks to everyone who watched and faved the comic! 8D

I was surfing for porn and I ran across a guy that was so skinny that ^THAT^ is the first thing that popped into my head.

Chapter 3 of Depravity is in production. SEX! what this chapter lacks in volume it makes up in perversion. At least now the comic will live up to its name. I finished inking all of the characters now I have to start filling and shading and texting. Why the hell didn't anyone tell me comics were so...so....worky! Anyway if I want to hold to my new comic every two weeks thing I'd better get it done in the next two days. Then I'll spend a week applying to places that won't hire me then I'll do chapter 4.

what a night...

My friends and I went to see......RAMBO!!!!!

Holy shit I've never laughed so hard in my life. The acting alone was hilarious. Stallone was.....uhm....Stallone. He looks awful- I can't think of anything funny to compare him to- he is just ugly. The movie was interrupted repeatedly with plot and dialog. Luckily an hour into the movie it got interesting.

Explosions! explosions everywhere! There were no bullets. only explosions. People were exploding all over the place. People exploded when they were:

-mined
-mortared
-grenaded
-shot
-stabbed
-bowed and arrowed
-looked at
-farted towards
-badly acted at
-sodomized
-interacted with anyone else in anyway

It was glorious! Although I am now under the impression that everyone from Burma is packed with explosives. After the movie we were starved so we had spaghetti and meatballs with lots of tomato sauce.

The evening continued with a dramatic reading of Ann Rices' erotic fiction. I laughed harder than when watching Rambo. One friend kept reading the particularly explicit parts in a Yoda voice. Apparently Miss Rice is into spanking and crying. Now we want to turn the books into a puppet show. Think about it!

So now I am going to have dreams about Asians having sex and crying or spanking each other and exploding. Good night yall!

I am having trouble with it. >.<

I was so happy with the response that chapter 2 received (thanks everyone!) that I tried to carry over that energy to making chapter 3. UNFORTUNATELY I am having trouble coming up with a story-line that I like. I did one but I scrapped it (not enough sex) It was exactly 2 week between chapter 1 and 2 (1 week to un-crick my neck and wrists and 1 week to actually do it)

SOOOO.....I am going to hold off starting the comic for a day or two. If you have any ideas or want to see something happen feel free to let me know. I'd be happy to steal other people's ideas because that's easier than trying to be original. I can't guarantee I'll use your ideas but I always like to know what people like (I might end up using the idea in another pic)

Whatever the case I hope you all have been enjoying Depravity so far- the plot is going to start speeding up! For fun you can go though the first two comics and try to spot all of the self-indulgent symbolism. The depth of this comic isn't just in the sex (I am so filisofical, phisophical,......deep) XP

luckily there is more quality sex on this site 8D- have at it peeps!

Hope you enjoy! thanks to everyone who is now watching and faved it and enjoyed the comics so far. I am going to start coming up with chapter 3 ideas - I am always happy to hear others ideas. have a good one all!

lol guess we're moving right along to chapter 3! my router is screwing around and doing everything cept letting me play css so I may as well anyway XP

For anyone interested I am finishing up chapter 2 of Depravity. I gotta shade it and come up with dialog that doesn't sound so cheesy that it ruins the mood. I hope you all enjoy the comic because thats really who I am doing it for. Feel free to tell me what you think of the comic, it's overall quality, and the plot.

Later peoples
-TA

Some one in my town, some cab driver, just murdered his parents today and he is still out and about. Lucky us. I went out walking in that neighborhood twice today before that little factarooney was shared with me.

Well jokes on him- if he wants to kill me now he's gonna get wet cause it's raining.

*The Architect gets stabbed in the face*

Holy hell! My little comic got a better reception than I thought it would! I had just over 800 pageviews last night just before I went out with some friends and when I got on this morning I had over a 1000.

I'm glad people enjoyed my comic- It took a lot longer than I thought it would to make but I am happy with the way it turned out. I suppose now i HAVE to do the next chapter. (includes 50% more fucking)

I just want to say this comic is dedicated to everyone who helped inspire, encourage, and critique my work. And to everyone who enjoys it as well! Thanks everyone! I'm gonna give my wrist and eyes a day to relax then start chapter 2!


AND thank you to everyone who are now watching me, who faved and posted comments! I've never had so many messages before and I don't know if I will get around to replying to them all! thanks so much!

I've been going through my gallery and I realized that I don't have NEARLY enough butt sex on it. I like to dance around actual sex by having scenes that precede sex or subjects that dance around it. But In fact there is only one pic with sex in it and I had to get help from some one more experienced in the drawing-of-butt-sex department.

SEX! yay/nay?

I'll be posting more of the drawings I did at the MFF drawing panels later this week. I had a TON of fun doing that. Sorry it took me so long to get around to doing it! It took me back to the day when I was president of the Life Drawing Club at my old art school- which was 3 blocks away from the con XP

Most of the ones I haven't posted were of the nude session. I hope I don't get spanked for posting too many peoplez. I might finish some of them up.

Oh and if anyone else was there lemme know- I want to see other pplz werkz!