Tool and desire fade, and come again even.

there is a time for rest, and this is it for the moment.

I helped my friends move there entire house!
lol not literally I mean, Get real! XD

I got sum yummy foods for in and a good days workout from it, all and all awesome.

not much else went down, but I still have some waking hours left in me...lets see what trouble I can cook up!

second to none!

that's how its gonna be henceforth!

you think this might be all I've got? no...no it has even yet to begin!

I have found what I've been missing all this time!


but before I trudge on to where I will go, I must thank some people.

firstly those I call "the three kings" who's art has inspired and aided me the most, everything I am I owe as much to them as I do to my own effort, in truth I can only account myself with 1/4th of my current skill.

Zen, i have studied and borrowed so much of your style because it is truly original, everyone knows a Zen piece when they see it, this distinction within your art has captured my heart and interest since I discovered you, truly you are one of the greats.

Onta, in such a short time you've shown me the precise skill with which art can be done, and every peace of advice you've been so gracious to give has been of great use to me.

and last but not least.

Jaxer, who mad me realize, art isn't something anybody who does it can take lightly if they want to be anywhere with it, its because of you I'm learning to put down the video games, to stop neglecting my work, and to choose art over these lesser short term pleasures, you are in my opinion the best of out time.


these three kings are who I owe the remaining 3/4th's of my current skill to, I have taken so much from them as an artist and so it is to them I will forever be indebted to.

thanks to everyone who took an interest in my and who will stick with me as I improve.

I assure you your faith will be rewarded,perhaps even sooner then we all think.


but I digress, look at me making such a fuss?

hehe I guess I just feel good :)

yeah, have had some good inspiration as of late, and as such have been happy.

as long as I'm drawing well I always also seem to be happy.

and I'm rather glad of that.

this is a stupid move I know but...well I don't feel the need to explain myself either, I'll simply out with it.

are there any gay furrs here who live in phoenix? or at least Arizona?

I feel very much on the ropes these days beyond that as I've said I' not explaining myself unless you care enough to ask.

in any case, I'm looking to meet someone, a boy my age with the intent of dating.

questions?
lay em on me.

Aim: longpantswolf[at]yahoo.com

yeah I know it says yahoo, but it will work trust me.

well here I am 20 years old now...

so where the hell's my birthday presents?

oh...right...I'm not well known/popular enough yet to get those...oh well maybe next year.

oh and yes I feel as if my suck is gone, sorry about the laps of confidence but I seem to have retaliated against that with some awesome drawings,they will get to you...when I can manage to scan them...tired of my old stuff...wanna show of the new duds ya know?

I really feel like I suck....at drawing that is but like I have all these pic's that I havent been able to submit for a whilenow because I cant scan them, and they seam awesome to me.

but wait I always think that, and then a few months later I go back and look at em and think damn these are bad...but I have some great new ones to scan....and the cycle continues.....I know I can color well but I never want to color thows shitty lines of mine....I'm thinkng maybe I need a tablet....

I got rice cooking in the microwave
Got a three day beard I don't plan to shave
And it's a goofy thing but I just gotta say
Hey I'm doing alright

Yeah I think I'll make me some homemade soup
Feelin pretty good and that's the truth
It's neither drink nor drug induced
No I'm just doin alright

And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?

It's been fifteen years since I left home
Said good luck to every seed I'd sown
Give it my best and then I left it alone
Oh...I hope their doin alright

Now I look in the mirror and what do I see?
A lone wolf there starin back at me
Long in the tooth but harmless as can be
Lord I guess he's doin alright

And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?

Sometimes it's lonely
Sometimes it's only me
And the shadows that fill this room
Sometimes I'm fallin
Desperately callin
Howlin at the moon...
Ahwoo!
Ahwoo!

Well I might go get me a new tattoo
Or take my old Harley for a three day cruise
Might even grow me a Fu Man Chu...
Oh Aww!

And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?

And it's a great day to be alive
I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes
There's some hard times in the neigborhood
But why can't every day be just this good?

some of these are really bad and old and I cant stand looking at them anymore, hope you folks wont miss them.

guess I really meant it when I said I'd be busy...did I say that?
I dunno,either way after finally cleaning out my inbox here I've got a little more time these days.

and so now hopefully I'll be able to get back onto the porn train, at least I've had time to learn some things,though I still suck at coloring I've found how to make some nice lines with AI,lets se what from here.

alrighty I've been drawing allot of porn as of late and have made some vast improvements if I do say so myself and I intend to be able to show you all very soon.

computer and scanner working but there at a friends house because I have no power in mine, electric is kickin our ass.

still in college, going well and all and if I can manage to get it all set up again I may be able to try learning to color again, I only just got into that before my means were taken away.

so yeah soon I'll remind you all why you faved me I promise.

I'm back for starters,college leaves little time for my usual furrfagotry,but I have a few things drawn that I'll scan when I have the time.

but in the meantime I need some inspiration,so folks what would you like me to draw,if I can feel ya I'll draw it so common lets have some ideas eh?

whatever ya like (cept grouse stuff) as farr as yiff goes all 4 characters swing all ways.

oh and V...none o this hamburger mess,I'll not have that silliness.

peace out yall.

ok first the bad news.

my computer is broken I can't really use it for art right now,I'm not sure when I'll be able to get it fixed,hopefully soon.


and the good news,I got accepted to Collins,so hey I'm off to school for what I want to do!

overall is good,hope I'm back in commission soon guys,I have things I need to color and show you <3

I've been stagnant as of late and I did not mean to be,but I've allot of RL issues to attend to these days,nothing like major simply time consuming.

also I'm flooded with art projects atm,most of while will likely not end up here,but I will be on the ball again as soon as the situation becomes stable.

(Friendly warning I like to squeeze my thoughts out fast,and have little grasp on grammar)

so many questions and so little patience I have for them,since I recently abandoned my whole "whats the meaning of life" query.
I mean who knew a few British folks had already figured that one out for me,somehow I don't feel quite at peace even now that I know....ya know?

so its the journey,not the destination that counts eh?

well where do I bloody well go from here.

so I like people two easily not sure why only certain people though just something about some folks gets me all stupid I suppose its chemical chemistry or something thought how could that work over the internet though?

I love so many things...I just happen to actually love so few really.

I love people though they are oh so bad to me,its an abusive relationship I know but I...well I swear there good on the inside you just don't know them like I do I could leave them if I wanted...don't judge me I'm not dependant on them!

I love furrs as 2 says I love furrs I get this deep fuzzy feeling down in my ass when I think of them,the part that sucks shit is that so many have two many complexes to count and are so meek and mixed up in themselves they loose touch with reality I've see it first hand quite a few times,it gotten to where when I'm talking to a furr I can't help but wonder if who I'm talking to is a real person or something someone cooked up in thur heads to insure well whatever it is they want to get out of being someone who they aren't.
peeps might say "you can't know who they are,you misjudge and think what you want about thows who are diffrent"

and you know what?
that may be true,maybe I don't know what the hell I'm talking about and inside I'm the one with all the problems I say almost everyone else has.
maybe

but who do we trust?
do I just believe them and take there word that I'm the fucked up one?

somehow a part of me does not thing thats a good idea,because really its just a choice of well being see.

I don't choose to believe in myself for the sake of being right,but because I can see myself as much less happy if I decide not two and I like to be happy and confident in myself,study's show that people who believe they are lucky tend to have better luck then those who don't.
its this whole something theory crase people have been on this
"secret" thing

all I know is that I'm fairly confident that if I beleive in myself I'll be doing myself a favor,and generally speaking I like to be happy.


so if you saw what I read and want to have it out.I welcome your sense of objection with open arms.

some people don't like it but I enjoy it when someones like

"I do not like what you have said and I R fighting you now to make you take them mouth words back!"

I absolutely love comparing ideas against each other,a duel of the minds! as it wer.

some folks don't like to "argue" saying
"neither of us is gonna change so why bother"

but I guess some folks don't see then joy in it as I do.

what better keeps your mind sharp,and what better way to loosen yourself up to new ideas and concepts then to have a strong opponent who knows what there talking about and puts you on the ropes!
what better way to see things you haven't before then to have such a person of the opposed side of what you believe.

I fight tooth and nail and will never give up unless I see I have no further place of reason to go and do you know what?

when this happens I rejoice because together we have acheaved something beautiful against statistically long odds.

agreement complete and total agreement an understanding of the minds and as such we are drawn close together,and to be honest it kinda turns me on :)

the reason i like it more when I am not the victor is because when this is so,I have learned something new,added new data to my files you might say,and I believe it makes me stronger,when the opposed is true I'm happy to do the same for someone else but gotta look out for number one ya know?


some people I guess wont like me much,and I dig that I don't like everyone even though I know that everyone is just trying to make there world better.
I'll always do my best and yet I'll remain truthful about who I am and what I think,so in effect some people will be rather disagreeable with me but thats ok really you can't please everyone this I know so I stopped trying.


and some people are gonna not like me for good reason,because sometimes I feel like giving people a reason ya know?
sometimes I just like to do bad things,like I know its kinda messed up,but me and my friends puck big ass spray painted black rocks in the road at night and cause property damage.
just to laugh at the pore guy who comes out of his car screaming and hollering.

and people go "well that will come back on you"

ok,I'm ready for it,I'll roll with that and any other blow karma can throw.
it can neglect its job when I do good thing but thats ok if it changes its mind when the I'm on the opposed side of things.

so yeah someday I'll be the pore bastard getting out of his car screaming and cursing but you know what?
I welcome that day and thought on the outside I'll holler and yes,on the inside I'll chuckle to myself just a little,and might even secretly applaud the group of teens running from me laughing there asses off.


thats all for now I guess,I'll occasionally be posting my thoughts here if I fear they may drift away before I get to to tell folks about them.