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Posted 13 years agoWell, I can consider myself an absolute failure now.
I failed three of my four classes at college, and I'm dropping out.
They don't give dorm rooms to people with an average lower than 1.5
And since our house is 3 1/2 hours away, I won't be able to commute.
So yeah, I fucking failed.
I failed my dad, who had worked his ass off to help me get there.
I failed the people who gave me money to get this laptop for my classes.
I failed my entire family, who believed in me.
And worst of all, I failed myself.
I had finally become semi-independent, and now it's all gone.
Fuck me.
I'm a goddamn flunkie.
So yeah, I'm gonna be a little down for a while.
God fucking dammit.
I'm such a stupid sack of shit.
If you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go curl up in a corner and die.
Fucking disgrace.
I failed three of my four classes at college, and I'm dropping out.
They don't give dorm rooms to people with an average lower than 1.5
And since our house is 3 1/2 hours away, I won't be able to commute.
So yeah, I fucking failed.
I failed my dad, who had worked his ass off to help me get there.
I failed the people who gave me money to get this laptop for my classes.
I failed my entire family, who believed in me.
And worst of all, I failed myself.
I had finally become semi-independent, and now it's all gone.
Fuck me.
I'm a goddamn flunkie.
So yeah, I'm gonna be a little down for a while.
God fucking dammit.
I'm such a stupid sack of shit.
If you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go curl up in a corner and die.
Fucking disgrace.
Never Again! Never Again!
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Never again!
Never a-fucking-gain!
Nothing Dead Space related after 2 A.M...
The cutting...
The stabbing...
The drilling...
The tearing...
Please, make it stop!
I can't take anymore...
Make it stop!!
PLEASE!!
I'LL WATCH ANYTHING ELSE!!
I just can't take all the slashing....
and tearing...
and...cutting...
just...make it all stop...
=EDIT=
Sorry for being so...scared sounding.
I have a problem with cutting, slashing, or really anything that involves injury with a blade.
And...a nightmare made me crack...
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...They need help...
Posted 13 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4200057/
They really need our help.
Make a journal if you can't donate.
Iz only a little bit.
They really need our help.
Make a journal if you can't donate.
Iz only a little bit.
GET ME A MOTHERFUCKING TABLE TO FLIP! AND THEN SMASH IT!!!
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Okay, I played both Dead Space 2 and Asura's Wrath.
While DS2 is fun, and definitely scary at times...
OH MY NON-EXISTENT GOD, ASURA'S WRATH IS AD-FUCKING-MAZING!!
It's as if someone took God of War, added a fuckton of Dragon Ball Z, and finished it with Gurren-Lagann!!
Jesus H. Fuckery, I can't get enough!!!
If you get the chance, you must play it!!!
Goddammit, someone get me a motherfucking table to flip!!
Then give a sledgehammer to smash it with!!
IT'S SO SIMPLE, YET SO MUCH FUCKING AWESOMENESS!!!
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...A damn good day
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...-plays "The Ocean on His Shoulders" with spine and rib cage- (this is how it sounds: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wp6QpMWaKpE )
I'm going back home, so I won't be on for the rest of the day.
I'll talk to you all Friday.
Cool thing today, my grandmother and I (not my sick grandmother) went shopping for my late Christmas presents, and she got me some pretty nice stuff, including -drum roll please- a copy of Silent Hill 2, with the original case and manual!
She had absolutely no idea why I stopped breathing when I saw it.
I also bought myself Ultimate Marvel vs. Capcom 3, Asura's Wrath, and Dead Space 2!
(Please don't be jealous sis!)
I even got to eat at a restaurant I hadn't been to for years.
All in all, I had a wonderful day.
Also, Bonesy, I'm making great progress on your Closer.
I named her Gregory.
I'm not sure why...
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Good News Everyone!
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...The infection was from her gallbladder!
She still has time!
Even better news: she changed her mind, and she's going to get the surgery!
Thank you all so much for your love and support.
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...I might lose my Mimi
Posted 13 years agoMy grandmother from my father's side, whom I've always lovingly called Mimi Wanda, is in the hospital.
She has gall bladder stones, and because of her age, she can't pass them normally.
She needs surgery to remove them, but she refuses to have it.
But that's not the worst part.
She recently got an infection, and the docs are trying to figure out where its coming from.
If its from her gall bladder, she might make it with the surgery.
But if its from a ruptured gut....she'll only have a few hours to say good-bye.
I've loved her for the 19 years I've lived on this planet.
I don't want to lose her...
Please...I don't believe in it...but if you pray for her...I will be eternally grateful.
She has gall bladder stones, and because of her age, she can't pass them normally.
She needs surgery to remove them, but she refuses to have it.
But that's not the worst part.
She recently got an infection, and the docs are trying to figure out where its coming from.
If its from her gall bladder, she might make it with the surgery.
But if its from a ruptured gut....she'll only have a few hours to say good-bye.
I've loved her for the 19 years I've lived on this planet.
I don't want to lose her...
Please...I don't believe in it...but if you pray for her...I will be eternally grateful.
Raffle time
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...
is host a raffle.Come check it out!
Join the fun!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4177972/
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Gifts to do
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Note: I'm not doing these gifts in any particular order.
So if you see the list and flip because I skipped you, don't worry.
I'm going to do your gift too.
To do
In progress
Finished
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Happy Holidays Everyone!
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Hello everyone!
Since my family lives in Texas, and we have to visit the two sides of my family in Indiana, I get three batches of presents to open.
My first presents were a sketch pad and sketch supplies (which I was in desperate need for), DVDs of The Nightmare Before Christmas, The Shawshank Redemption(thanks sis!), Balto, An American Tail, The Land Before Time, and all of Season One of Courage the Cowardly Dog.
And finally, an Xbox 360, that came with Skylanders. (for which my parents told me it was the only cheap one they could find)
While I could care less about Skylanders, I was ecstatic about the 360.
Now that we're in Indiana, I can't wait for the rest of my family to come!
Happy Holidays everyone, and I hope you all have a great time!
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Art Request (Vexstacy)
Posted 13 years ago
VexstacyMarvel vs. Capcom 2!?
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Hey everyone!
As you may have noticed, I haven't posted a journal for a while.
Never fear, I'm still here!
I've gotten better, and I'm with my family for Christmas.
Recently, I got my hands on a copy of Marvel vs. Capcom 2.
Oh my non-existent god, I love it so much!
Jill Valentine, Shuma-Gorath, and Venom are my favorites, hands down.
Jill's skills rely on summoning different B.O.W.s into the fight.
While she can summon small things, like zombies, flaming zombies, cerberus, and crows, her Hyper combo is awesome.
She summoms the infamous T-002.
For all those who don't know what that means, T-002 is the code name for the Tyrant in Resident Evil.
And it is ad-fucking-mazing.
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...I'm A Little Better
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Hey everyone!
Sorry if I made you guys worry with my last journal.
I was, shall we say, on the brink of being suicidal.
Luckily, there was nothing around to kill myself with, and I have mostly gotten out of that depression.
I'm not back at 100% yet, but I'm better than I was yesterday.
Thanks to everyone for their words of love and support.
Love you all!
P.S.- I'm working on a new poem based on my Requiem Lilies.
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Goodbye everyone...
Posted 13 years agoI'm sorry everyone.
I can't...can't be here right now.
I'm just not happy right now.
I want nothing more than to die right now.
Frau.Bones and aicee-FAIREHS- I'm sorry loves.
I'm not going to be on Skype.
Please don't be angry...
SGRedAlert- You know what this is like.
I just can't go on...
Please don't hate me...
Werebunny87- I'm so sorry, but we're gonna have to put our convos on hold.
They're so much fun, but I can't do it right now.
Please don't be sad...
Sezey- I hope the nightmares go away.
Because they're not leaving me.
Hope everything is good.
Please don't be scared...
MadKaniini-Thanks for all the encouraging words.
They mean a lot to me.
Please don't worry...
To all my friends- I love you all.
Please don't think this is permanent.
I just can't take it right now.
I can't...can't be here right now.
I'm just not happy right now.
I want nothing more than to die right now.
Frau.Bones and aicee-FAIREHS- I'm sorry loves.
I'm not going to be on Skype.
Please don't be angry...
SGRedAlert- You know what this is like.
I just can't go on...
Please don't hate me...
Werebunny87- I'm so sorry, but we're gonna have to put our convos on hold.
They're so much fun, but I can't do it right now.
Please don't be sad...
Sezey- I hope the nightmares go away.
Because they're not leaving me.
Hope everything is good.
Please don't be scared...
MadKaniini-Thanks for all the encouraging words.
They mean a lot to me.
Please don't worry...
To all my friends- I love you all.
Please don't think this is permanent.
I just can't take it right now.
2014 Calender Raffle
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...
is holding a free raffle for a 2014 Calender.Tell here which month you want, and post a journal about it.
Check it out: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4106040/
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Level 10,000?
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...I've been playing Devil May Cry 3: Dante's Awakening- Special Edition recently, and I'm trying to see how far I can get on Bloody Palace.
So far, the farthest I made was level 7,000.
And that's when I gave up, because I couldn't keep my eyes open.
Who thinks I can make it even farther?
Say...level 10,000 maybe?
Also, interesting fact: DMC 3 is secretly 2-player.
If you plug in a second controller while using Doppelganger Style, you and a friend can play.
But only when using Doppelganger Style, and it's best to wear Dante's infinite Devil Trigger Sparda costume.
1st Run-5,810 in 1h:14min:22sec Enemies killed: 706 Bosses killed: 6
2nd Run-5,410 in 1h:04m:40sec Enemies killed: 386 Bosses killed: 5
3rd Run-1,900 in 0h:26m:56sec Enemies killed: 137 Bosses Killed: 0 (Embarrassing...)
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Should I do more?
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Well, after the positive reception of my last poem, I wanted to ask if you guys would like it if I did more.
So...does anyone want to see more poems?
Also, the gifts I promised are going smoothly, so wait for those.
I'm also looking for a new avatar.
Would anyone like to help?
-UPDATE-
I found a new avatar, so nevermind for now.
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Poem -Warning: Extremely Violent and Graphic
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...With all my pain and all my hate,
I twist my claws and seal your fate.
As my claws tear through your skin,
I taste the wonderful rush of sin.
Your blood is pooling on the ground,
I grab your hair and start to pound.
I hear your skull begin to crack,
and the breaking of your back.
I bare my fangs and take a bite,
too bad you can't put up a fight.
Such lovely ribs I begin to snap
Your former smile shows some gaps.
Your body is such a splintery mess.
If you'll live is anyone's guess.
Your guts are lying on the floor,
I grab your head and slam some more.
Your breathing's getting pretty labored,
and every moment I have savored.
Are those the sirens I hear?
Looks like I'm leaving, my dear.
Don't worry, you won't make it through the night.
I'll visit your room, and make everything right...
I was a little bored, and kind of in a morbid mood.
So here's my morbid little poem.
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Free Adult Art Raffle!
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...More free stuff!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4077397/
You have to be 18 and up though!
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Free Xmas Raffle
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...My good friend
is holding a free Christmas raffle.Since everybody loves free stuff, you should get to it now.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4083099/
And it isss deliciousss...400 Views and What Should I do?!
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Holy fuck, 400 views?!
I can't believe it!
That's literally 100 views a month since I joined!
I can't believe that many people actually looked at my page!
Thanks everyone!
But...I need some help.
See...I'd like some advice.
I'm a bit of a coward when it comes to women.
When I say coward, I freeze up and panic when I try to ask them.
There's this girl I've been meaning to ask out, but every time i see her, i panic and run away.
Help me please!
What the fuck should i do?!
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero.
And it isss deliciousss...These gifts are so frustrating...but worth it. -Update-
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Since my arm has made a full recovery, I've gotten back to work on the gifts for my friends.
I'm sorry, but Terror Moon is so frustrating.
It doesn't want to cooperate with me.
But, it's all worth it.
For FRIENDS! (and science)
Also, since I've gained some new friends, the list just grew by four.
Now I need to find out what to do for them.
-Update-
I thought up a new design that works, and looks fantastic.
Back to work!
To do 
In progressFinishedWith love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero
And it isss deliciousss...Please sign this!
Posted 13 years agoPlease help!
Me and my gaming friends are trying to get Segata Sanshiro into the new Sonic & All-Stars Racing Transformed.
He was a famous spokesman and actor for the Sega Saturn, and is still hugely popular
He even had his own game on the Saturn!
He's an iconic gaming figure in Japan, as well as the gaming community!
We want him to live forever in the new Sonic & All-Stars Racing Transformed.
We need 50 more signatures by December 1st!
We don't want to see this piece of gaming history die!
Please sign it!
http://www.change.org/petitions/sum.....ng-transformed
edit: I was told he was dead.
he's not.
Me and my gaming friends are trying to get Segata Sanshiro into the new Sonic & All-Stars Racing Transformed.
He was a famous spokesman and actor for the Sega Saturn, and is still hugely popular
He even had his own game on the Saturn!
He's an iconic gaming figure in Japan, as well as the gaming community!
We want him to live forever in the new Sonic & All-Stars Racing Transformed.
We need 50 more signatures by December 1st!
We don't want to see this piece of gaming history die!
Please sign it!
http://www.change.org/petitions/sum.....ng-transformed
edit: I was told he was dead.
he's not.
Free Raffle!...and ANOTHER TIRE!?
Posted 13 years agoI can tassste your fear...Hello everyone!
Zeliv is holding a raffle, and I felt like participating.
Here's a link if you want to join.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4065202/
Also, my Pathfinder blew another tire.
If that wasn't bad enough, it was the same tire that blew last time!
I swear, there's something out there that doesn't want me back at college.
With love and madness,
TheGreatPatientZero.
And it isss deliciousss...I'm so tired...
Posted 13 years agoI'm so tired now.
I just...just don't care anymore.
I don't even want to put my signature on this.
Nothing's brightening my day.
Not my music, not my Yoko figure, not my games...and not my family.
I can't bring myself to care.
I can't tell if it's because I'm going back to college, or because of this damn flu.
I'm sorry everyone.
I'm so miserable right now.
I'm so sorry.
I just...just don't care anymore.
I don't even want to put my signature on this.
Nothing's brightening my day.
Not my music, not my Yoko figure, not my games...and not my family.
I can't bring myself to care.
I can't tell if it's because I'm going back to college, or because of this damn flu.
I'm sorry everyone.
I'm so miserable right now.
I'm so sorry.
