Almost a year ago I tried to get started in making something in the form of a story. At first I felt amazing and ecstatic and full of life and imagination. That only lasted for a few months. Every day afterward I've been filled with noting but anger and frustration from not only my failed project, but also my personal life. I met some new furs late last year and they've made me feel welcome and wonderful, but even that didn't completely erase my frustrations with myself. In late January of this year I lost my job without notice to something that I probably should not have done. That and coming out to my parents recently have put a lot of stress on me. I'm usually good at suppressing my feelings to avoid awkward confrontation, but I've recently been getting into verbal fight with one of my best friends recently. Our relationship isn't the healthiest one, but even then I'm still giving it something. I guess I'm just a little worn with it all at this point. On the bright side of things I've recently come to the realization that I have a pretty good singing voice that hasn't been shown some love. I've been a singer for the majority of my life, but I guess I haven't shown much appreciation for my voice in recent years. My writing skill isn't something to bat an eye at, but I feel like people really hear me when I'm singing. I love singing sweet melodies and heartfelt serenades, but I always get a little shy when people are within earshot despite me being in choir and show choir for a few years of my life.... Over the course of writing this journal I've come to realize that the new friends I've made are helping me stay afloat and my new appreciation for my voice is giving me something to care about aside from other people. Even if I complain for the rest of my life I don't think I would trade it for anything else in the universe... Now to find a boyfriend... ;3

So I just came out as gay to my parents! WOOOO!! They're still trying to wrap their heads around it (especially my mom), but I know it's gonna work out. Now if only I could get my damned car running again...

I feel like I've been stuck in this rut for quite some time, but I haven't been able to find any motivation to continue my story whatsoever. I feel kind of disappointed in myself for not continuing this any farther than it is right now and believe me, I have been making many, MANY, branches to this story... but the willingness to write them down and the motivation to do so seems to have been drained out of me. It's kind of saddening seeing as I was so excited to be finally making something that I could call my own... But I guess those dreams of being this huge writer in the fandom are a little far fetched. I'm not going to let that stop me though, I may be discontinuing my original story, but that doesn't mean that I'm completely out of this game. There are so many thoughts that I want to share, but am too scared to speak out, so hopefully, even if it's just a retelling of my day's events or even a daydream I have, I promise I won't stop writing. It may be a long while between submissions... but I promise I won't stop writing...

I think I've found a way to progress my story a bit, it's gonna require me to start this next part from the beginning, hehe... puns. Anyways, I'm gonna try my best to make this next part a good one, or at the very least, not a shitty one. Until then, have a good one! :3

It was bound to happen sometime... I have hit the ever so famous writer's block and I'm finding myself unable to continue my story for the time being. My creative mojo seems to have disappeared. So for the time being, the next part in my series will be postponed until I can't get creative again.

I can't believe I've turned 19 already, wow. Well, once all the fun is over and everything settles down I'll start working on the next part of my series, Hooray! See y'all soon! :3

Holy shit, my birthday is this saturday I can't believe how fast it's coming, I'm not ready to turn 19 yet. :( Existential crisis aside, I will be delaying the next part of my story so I can get ready for whatever my family plans to do for my B-day week. (I know, so sad.) I'l try to work in my free time to make the story, but you probably know how creativity works, so it might have just been delayed anyways.

Wow, I can't believe 100 different furries have actually looked at my profile. Good on ya' guys!

So recently there was a storm and the lightning stot my router. Now I don't have internet until wednesday. :(

All good things must come to an end. I am finally returning home after a week long vacation which means I can get back to writing! The last instalnent of my Beginning series was a bit boring, but it was still a valuable piece in my series. I'm hoping that anybody reading these is really enjoying this series as it grows.

This place has Wi-Fi!! Biut as I said in my last journal I still won't be posting, or at least I won't be posting my stories. Maybe I can share some vacation photos if I feel like it.

I know I've only been posting for about a week or so now, but the time has come for my family vacation. That means I won't be able to post for about a week, but that doesn't mean I still can't write! While this whole vacation thing is going, I'll try my best to keep writing and produce quality works (or at least as much quality I can). Odds are I'll still be working on the Beginning series due to the lack of other ideas currently, but that isn't so bad for I first time writer I guess. See you next week!

I don't know why, but I'm feeling good today! Guess that means I'll be working on part 2 of my Beginning series, but this time I'm gonna write it in a different tense and see how that works out. I'll let anybody who actually sees this and may next post give my pointers on the next installation, I'm always open to constructive criticism. Have a good one! :D

Why am I writing this? I have no idea, nobody is gonna see this most likely, but whatever. I have said that I won't be posting art due to my lack of art programs, but recently I have realized that that statement is false (in a way). I do have access to writing programs, a.k.a I can write stories and other stuff like that. I don't have much skill the written (or drawn for that matter) arts, but that does not mean I can't try! I'll be trying to get in to the groove of writing in my spare time (To be honest I need something to keep me busy in my free time) and making some stories. Hope to finally be posting in the near future!