https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wq8BqYus40A

HOWLY FOX. That song. That song - it just won't go from my head, what's your problem, song. ;_;

Also hey, i finally returned to Twitter so srry to anyone who can't get a reply from me here, you can always easily get me trhrough Skype or Twitter! Also i am posting WIPs in Twitter so maybe it would be interesting for ya~
What?
No?
WELP OKAY OKAY GEEZ. ;__;

Love you all. <3

Now THAT's something i wasn't prepared for! <3
Ya know, i've been pretty... Silent last month, because of many problems and issues like applying for my new university, my family problems, relatioship bad stuff... That's all kinda messed up my thoughts, inspiration and mood.
But still somehow you guys keep watching me, and that's a heartwarming thing to see <3 I thing my life is getting better now so i will try to draw much more, even if it'll be just random sketches. I need to get back on track.

And also... Thank you those who keep being in Skype and here for me, guys. I can't find words even in Russian, my native language, to say how grateful i am.

Greets and hugs to all of you from a silly pink fox! <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adJ1PcRE0j8
Why it's not happening to me here. Maybe i need to jump in the fire? ;___;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k3sa9JPe-R8

I wanna sing, I wanna shout
I wanna scream till the words dry out
so put it in all of the papers,
i'm not afraid
they can read all about it
read all about it oh

Oh guys, i am so tired. Guess you're gettin' tired of all this shit maybe even more, srry for this, haha ^^' Not really a good time for me last mounth...
I am so tired of going forward. Of trying, smiling, telling myself and everybody that everything's gonna be alright. I don't wanna change, i mean, c'mon, optimism and cookies for everyone, that's so cool~ But i just... Can't find reasons and 'fuel' to be like this anymore, for the first time of my life. I was like this since i was a lil' cub, haha, but now it's harder and harder to make a step forward. It's like i'm goin' directly the way from where the strong wind blows, and it's getting darker and stronger around me. Music ain't helping anymore, drawing is getting something i am doin just because i can, not because i am living through it anymore.

Many plans for this summer ruined because of my cash problems, like, this summer is the freakin' worst summer ever... So much time wasted, so much plans ruined. Hell.

I am trying to do all the crazy stuff i've done before to 'get on track' - ropejumping, extreme rollerblading, jumping from roof to roof and stuff... Nothin'. Even singing can't make me get rid of dat mood. I am tired of trying to make everything right when there's no answer to this... Have no strenght, guys. My best friend livin' far away from me in Finland, and all my friends are traveling or havin' a great time with someone else, and i am just here.

I don't know how to make another step anymore. :\ Maybe i should just relax and throw all my intentions and wishes away. Just study, sit here alone, live, get a simple work in the future and die in this appartments in Russia in my early 70's. Lawl.

It's a pulse. A loud freakin' pulse in my ears, every second. Whatcha doin' in my head... Go away...
I am laughing so hard because of my weakness. C'mon, guys, this rhythm in the ears, can't you hear it?..
We can dance to that sound together~

***

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2FznlTM5GfI

And how can I pretend I never knew you?
Like it was all a dream, no
I know, I'll never forget
The way I always felt with you beside me
And how you loved me then, yeah

I'll never be the same
I'm caught inside the memories
The promises
Our yesterdays
When I belonged to you
I just can't walk away
'Cause after loving you
I can never be the same

You led me here
But then I watched you disappear
You left this emptiness inside and
I can't turn back time
No, stay
Nothing compares to you
Nothing compares to you
I can't let you go
Can't let you go
I can't let you...

I am broken, guys. Sitting here, laughin' because of my weakness. How silly am i, i think i need to grow up. It's dat time i think to become more closed and cold. Otherwise i will never stop to cry al the days long because of being a silly one...

I need to draw something. As my OC, Kayo, is now sleeping deeply in the bogs, drowned, 'til better days will come (if ever), i can't draw him. I actually don't want to draw my OCs now anyways...
I am opening simple comissions. 10 dollars per one colored sketch with a simple bg. I just want to draw something, but i am empty, crushed, without ideas... How the hell it ended up with my heart hurting so much, i am only 19... Life have it's irony, i guess.

I actually don't know how to take payment because i haven't got a paypal account, but i have my MasterCard with an option to send different types of money to it without any troubles, so i guess we'll find out how to do this. Please, leave your refrences in the comments or note me if you're interested or just want to give me a hand...

I surrender, guys.

"Hold me now
'Til the fear is leaving
I am barely breathing
Crying out
These tired wings are falling
I need you to catch me" - Red.

Hey, stop writing songs from my feelings, Red. :T

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/ena.....hewhitewolfen/ actually it isn't. \o/
JUST FREAKIN' LOOK AT HER STYLE. Srsly, a traditional artist liek her needs more watches, no kidding.