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TimidTabby Plays: Alien: Isolation (Promo Trailer)
Posted 11 years agoYep folks!
If you haven't heard by now; I'm going to be doing a gamestream on Halloween attempting to play Alien: Isolation for the first time ever...and on its hardest difficulty no less. Am I nuts? Guess you will have to decide if you like to watch my stream. The main game should start around 4pm...but those who are able to pop in earlier may be in for a treat (it's all planning though, nothing solid yet).
If you haven't heard by now; I'm going to be doing a gamestream on Halloween attempting to play Alien: Isolation for the first time ever...and on its hardest difficulty no less. Am I nuts? Guess you will have to decide if you like to watch my stream. The main game should start around 4pm...but those who are able to pop in earlier may be in for a treat (it's all planning though, nothing solid yet).
HELP!!! -North Woods Second Funding-
Posted 11 years agoHello FA! Long time...no posting from me really. Sorry about that >__>
My creative juices have not been fairing me well for a while, and whether I can blame work, friends, or family...I can only blame myself. All I can say is things will hopefully be picking up in the future.
With that out of the way...HEL-L-L-L-L-L-L-L-LP!!!
A friend of mine is in dire need of assistance in getting his team's indie movie out of the shadows and into the limelight for the world's viewing pleasure (well; at the moment Denver and other parts of Colorado...but eventually THE WORLD!!!). I made a case for this with my Fan-Poster from a year ago, which you can find here for both your viewing pleasure and extra links:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11453717/
But I'm remaking it now as time is growing shorter by the minute.
https://www.indiegogo.com/projects/.....entless-terror
For fans of Horror/Slasher/Grindhouse style/Indie movies of any or all kinds, North Woods is a near decade project that has been climbing the tallest mountains to get their vision of a homage to the 70s/80s style of relentless terror to the public. They've gone the lengths of pooling their own dough to get as far as they have come now (a lot of the work and promotion being done from my good friend), acquiring well known indie horror queens like Debbie Rochon and Lynn Lowry (Lynn ONLY if this current Indiegogo fundraiser meets its goal), and despite time scheduling issues with certain actors or natural disasters trying to ruin the film (at least a flooding nearly destroyed their work) they have persevere and moved forward continuing to fulfill their goal and make their vision a reality.
Now; their movie is nearly complete! But before they can get this out to the public, some well needed final post-production touch ups are required to make DAMN certain the audience gets the best of the best a Indie film-making team can provide. That's why, Until Nov 2nd, my buddy on North Woods has been running one more Indiegogo Campaign asking for the fans and true-believers of indie horror (and anyone else with a curious interest) to spread the word of the film's existence AND to possibly help out with making some minimum donations. Want to get you name immortalized in the credits for your contributions and support? Would you like a copy of the movie on DVD after the screening? Would you prefer to be a guest of honor with an invite to attend the Premiere of said Screening in Colorado? Can you be devoted or supported enough to possibly get a CUT of the Profit the movie makes!!!??? These perks exist and more if you are willing to give the donation a shot.
"But what is North Woods" you might ask? Well...I'd suggest following the link above to answer that question. My friend does a tremendously better job in explaining the synopsis of his film better than I can...but I'll still take a crack at it. An indie Horror/slasher film made in homage to the Grindhouse style of the 70's/80's. A psychotic killer on the loose hunting down innocent victims that venture into the seemingly solace grounds of North Woods. A victim that managed to escape the killer's clutches only to be haunted (and hunted) years later. A intriguing psychological terror slipped into the physical carnage of the killer's rampage.
Hopefully my synopsis is spot-on or at least %50 accurate (like I said, my friend's synopsis on the Indiegogo site is much better ^__^ ).
Check it out for yourself! The indiegogo site is being updated nearly everyday with news on the campaign and the filming status. They're looking to reach $5,500 minimum before the end of Nov 2nd 2014. It's Flexible Funding, so even if they don't meet their goal any donation offered will still go towards the final production. However; certain bonuses like bringing Lynn Lowry into the movie for a PIVOTAL role won't happen unless the goal is met.
SPREAD THE WORD my peeps!!! Be charitable and help out where you can! The lives of both the real life actors, writers, and director; the lives of the fictional characters and killer depend on what you can do to help out today. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP!!!!
*This has been a TimidTabby advertisement. Support your local filmmakers today >^___^< *
My creative juices have not been fairing me well for a while, and whether I can blame work, friends, or family...I can only blame myself. All I can say is things will hopefully be picking up in the future.
With that out of the way...HEL-L-L-L-L-L-L-L-LP!!!
A friend of mine is in dire need of assistance in getting his team's indie movie out of the shadows and into the limelight for the world's viewing pleasure (well; at the moment Denver and other parts of Colorado...but eventually THE WORLD!!!). I made a case for this with my Fan-Poster from a year ago, which you can find here for both your viewing pleasure and extra links:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11453717/
But I'm remaking it now as time is growing shorter by the minute.
https://www.indiegogo.com/projects/.....entless-terror
For fans of Horror/Slasher/Grindhouse style/Indie movies of any or all kinds, North Woods is a near decade project that has been climbing the tallest mountains to get their vision of a homage to the 70s/80s style of relentless terror to the public. They've gone the lengths of pooling their own dough to get as far as they have come now (a lot of the work and promotion being done from my good friend), acquiring well known indie horror queens like Debbie Rochon and Lynn Lowry (Lynn ONLY if this current Indiegogo fundraiser meets its goal), and despite time scheduling issues with certain actors or natural disasters trying to ruin the film (at least a flooding nearly destroyed their work) they have persevere and moved forward continuing to fulfill their goal and make their vision a reality.
Now; their movie is nearly complete! But before they can get this out to the public, some well needed final post-production touch ups are required to make DAMN certain the audience gets the best of the best a Indie film-making team can provide. That's why, Until Nov 2nd, my buddy on North Woods has been running one more Indiegogo Campaign asking for the fans and true-believers of indie horror (and anyone else with a curious interest) to spread the word of the film's existence AND to possibly help out with making some minimum donations. Want to get you name immortalized in the credits for your contributions and support? Would you like a copy of the movie on DVD after the screening? Would you prefer to be a guest of honor with an invite to attend the Premiere of said Screening in Colorado? Can you be devoted or supported enough to possibly get a CUT of the Profit the movie makes!!!??? These perks exist and more if you are willing to give the donation a shot.
"But what is North Woods" you might ask? Well...I'd suggest following the link above to answer that question. My friend does a tremendously better job in explaining the synopsis of his film better than I can...but I'll still take a crack at it. An indie Horror/slasher film made in homage to the Grindhouse style of the 70's/80's. A psychotic killer on the loose hunting down innocent victims that venture into the seemingly solace grounds of North Woods. A victim that managed to escape the killer's clutches only to be haunted (and hunted) years later. A intriguing psychological terror slipped into the physical carnage of the killer's rampage.
Hopefully my synopsis is spot-on or at least %50 accurate (like I said, my friend's synopsis on the Indiegogo site is much better ^__^ ).
Check it out for yourself! The indiegogo site is being updated nearly everyday with news on the campaign and the filming status. They're looking to reach $5,500 minimum before the end of Nov 2nd 2014. It's Flexible Funding, so even if they don't meet their goal any donation offered will still go towards the final production. However; certain bonuses like bringing Lynn Lowry into the movie for a PIVOTAL role won't happen unless the goal is met.
SPREAD THE WORD my peeps!!! Be charitable and help out where you can! The lives of both the real life actors, writers, and director; the lives of the fictional characters and killer depend on what you can do to help out today. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP!!!!
*This has been a TimidTabby advertisement. Support your local filmmakers today >^___^< *
The State of the Tabby -Oct 10th 2014-
Posted 11 years agoHey all! How's life treating you this month?
Well; I can only say this so many times before I people start throwing tomatoes at my face, but...I am sorry for the lack of activity as of late. There are so many different things and reasons for my procrastinations or busy-ness, but I honestly feel like I could be putting more effort into getting my damn projects done (or turning on Skype and actually responding back to people). All I can say is that I've been going back and forth with ideas bouncing off my head, brainstorming interesting concepts, and when I DO decide to take the time to write something or draw something...my brain suddenly starts telling me "This won't amount to anything" or "You'll never finish it let alone get 10% done" or "Nobody would ever buy this shit" or "I STILL SUCK!"...and then depression sets back in.
*sigh* -____-
It also doesn't help when my finance plans turned to crap thanks to heavy dose of reality. I figured after I finished paying off my car I could start using the check for those monthly payments to go into paying my cards, one of them only $300's away from finally being paid off. And then I could use the money I would normally use towards my lease payments and that one card into the next card, and then after a few months into the next card, until all my cards are finally paid off by next year's end and I would finally be freed from debt!
Well...unless my job want's to remove the ridiculous rule of Part-timers only working 25 hours a week ONLY or give me a higher raise than .40 cents a year...I'm still stuck only paying just slightly over the minimum of my monthly payments with my cards. Other wise; I practically going broke -______________-
I need a new job...or I need to finish my damn projects and find out how to make them good for publishing (or at least figure out the best way to maybe receive donations? ).
Anyways; enough about my problems. What have I been doing with my spare time lately? Hanging with friends mostly. The beginning of this month has been oddly bizarre with how available my in-town friends have been lately. If not for one of them catching a cold the other day and my own priority of contacting a friend of mine online afterwork yesterday, it would have been 9 straight days that I've been hanging out with the same friends. I guess you can chalk up that time to tv show marathon binging; Spent a Saturday and Tuesday watching the final season of How I Met Your Mother, and that same Saturday and then Sunday watching the entire Book 2 of Legend of Korra. Along with binging on the latest seasons of Supernatural, Bones, and Castle on TNT...my brain is fried. YouTube videos can also be blamed.
How I managed to find time to help out someone is astonishing to me :P If you hadn't caught my last journal, a friend of mine
Flowtac has been writing and help filming a indie horror/slasher movie called NORTH WOODS, which has been in production of a long time now. I can barely do writing a synopsis on this movie justice, so for those interested in learning more about this film see the link below.
http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/964706/fblk
Well he's gotten most of the movie done and its slated for release around Oct 2015, but there is still much to be done to fully polish his and his team's gory gem into a fully realized outstanding film (Post-Production wise). That same link above will take you their Indiegogo fundraiser, which if possible and have a few extra bucks you are welcome to lend a hand to its final product (or at the very least share this link to the world and spread the word of the film's existence).
Though I have very little funds to offer myself at the moment, I have been helping out in posting flyers my buddy put together around my town to spread such word. I'll be expanding to other towns tomorrow or Monday too if I can.
Finally; my own Birthday is coming up next Thursday the 16th...........hoo-raaaaaaay....as you may know I'm not really that thrilled with birthdays anymore. Next weekend I'll doing going out to lunch with my folks and my sister and her hubby and my niece while we help them pick out a nice spooky pumpkin. Sunday; after a long day at work (I will assume) there will be a Chinese Dinner feast with my folks and some friends to end the weekend festivities. My only birthday wish this year...is for my folks NOT to talk about my current status in life. I just have nothing good to talk about right now -__-. However; I'll appreciate any Birthday cash I can get. If I have $50 or more next week I'll be purchasing Alien: Isolation for the PC, and then I'll be gamestreaming it Live during Halloween night (If no other plans have been made that is :P ).
That's about it for now. I'll try to touch base with everyone more often, maybe make sure I do a journal weekly or something. Until then; everyone take care now and stay safe. The world is becoming more of dangerous eerie place >___> *ooooOOOOOOOOooooooo.....*
Well; I can only say this so many times before I people start throwing tomatoes at my face, but...I am sorry for the lack of activity as of late. There are so many different things and reasons for my procrastinations or busy-ness, but I honestly feel like I could be putting more effort into getting my damn projects done (or turning on Skype and actually responding back to people). All I can say is that I've been going back and forth with ideas bouncing off my head, brainstorming interesting concepts, and when I DO decide to take the time to write something or draw something...my brain suddenly starts telling me "This won't amount to anything" or "You'll never finish it let alone get 10% done" or "Nobody would ever buy this shit" or "I STILL SUCK!"...and then depression sets back in.
*sigh* -____-
It also doesn't help when my finance plans turned to crap thanks to heavy dose of reality. I figured after I finished paying off my car I could start using the check for those monthly payments to go into paying my cards, one of them only $300's away from finally being paid off. And then I could use the money I would normally use towards my lease payments and that one card into the next card, and then after a few months into the next card, until all my cards are finally paid off by next year's end and I would finally be freed from debt!
Well...unless my job want's to remove the ridiculous rule of Part-timers only working 25 hours a week ONLY or give me a higher raise than .40 cents a year...I'm still stuck only paying just slightly over the minimum of my monthly payments with my cards. Other wise; I practically going broke -______________-
I need a new job...or I need to finish my damn projects and find out how to make them good for publishing (or at least figure out the best way to maybe receive donations? ).
Anyways; enough about my problems. What have I been doing with my spare time lately? Hanging with friends mostly. The beginning of this month has been oddly bizarre with how available my in-town friends have been lately. If not for one of them catching a cold the other day and my own priority of contacting a friend of mine online afterwork yesterday, it would have been 9 straight days that I've been hanging out with the same friends. I guess you can chalk up that time to tv show marathon binging; Spent a Saturday and Tuesday watching the final season of How I Met Your Mother, and that same Saturday and then Sunday watching the entire Book 2 of Legend of Korra. Along with binging on the latest seasons of Supernatural, Bones, and Castle on TNT...my brain is fried. YouTube videos can also be blamed.
How I managed to find time to help out someone is astonishing to me :P If you hadn't caught my last journal, a friend of mine
Flowtac has been writing and help filming a indie horror/slasher movie called NORTH WOODS, which has been in production of a long time now. I can barely do writing a synopsis on this movie justice, so for those interested in learning more about this film see the link below.http://www.indiegogo.com/projects/964706/fblk
Well he's gotten most of the movie done and its slated for release around Oct 2015, but there is still much to be done to fully polish his and his team's gory gem into a fully realized outstanding film (Post-Production wise). That same link above will take you their Indiegogo fundraiser, which if possible and have a few extra bucks you are welcome to lend a hand to its final product (or at the very least share this link to the world and spread the word of the film's existence).
Though I have very little funds to offer myself at the moment, I have been helping out in posting flyers my buddy put together around my town to spread such word. I'll be expanding to other towns tomorrow or Monday too if I can.
Finally; my own Birthday is coming up next Thursday the 16th...........hoo-raaaaaaay....as you may know I'm not really that thrilled with birthdays anymore. Next weekend I'll doing going out to lunch with my folks and my sister and her hubby and my niece while we help them pick out a nice spooky pumpkin. Sunday; after a long day at work (I will assume) there will be a Chinese Dinner feast with my folks and some friends to end the weekend festivities. My only birthday wish this year...is for my folks NOT to talk about my current status in life. I just have nothing good to talk about right now -__-. However; I'll appreciate any Birthday cash I can get. If I have $50 or more next week I'll be purchasing Alien: Isolation for the PC, and then I'll be gamestreaming it Live during Halloween night (If no other plans have been made that is :P ).
That's about it for now. I'll try to touch base with everyone more often, maybe make sure I do a journal weekly or something. Until then; everyone take care now and stay safe. The world is becoming more of dangerous eerie place >___> *ooooOOOOOOOOooooooo.....*
TTP: Minecraft Episode One - Now up on YouTune!
Posted 11 years agoAfter a few days of constant mind-numbing video editing, I have created the first Episode of my Minecraft gameplay series. I'll admit the first episode might run a little bit longer than it should (it's hard to cut out everything...or know when parts aren't entertaining). The next two episodes and onward hopefully should provide a bit more fun.
THIS is the beginning of my Minecraft experience...and I failed hard on lots of things. Plus Glitches...very disturbing glitches.
THIS is the beginning of my Minecraft experience...and I failed hard on lots of things. Plus Glitches...very disturbing glitches.
So..........Minecraft
Posted 11 years agoYep. I've decided to jump on the bandwagon. Will be trying out the game after a bit of lunch.
Anyone have any recommendations to where or who I could ask to help build a custom skin to meet my feline qualities?
Anyone have any recommendations to where or who I could ask to help build a custom skin to meet my feline qualities?
The Car is Finally MINE!!!...almost
Posted 11 years agoSo...for those that haven't kept up with my journals; I leased a new car 3 years and 3 months ago when my old car was running into the end of its life and its manufacturer was practically going non-existent. I also leased this car a week or two before a bizarre family situation (which I wish to no longer talk about as at this time it's done with and over) that threw off my plans on how to save up said car for the final payment that was needed next week (or today since I did it today).
Anyways; ups and downs aside, I just visit my dealership with my pop and we took care of the buyout since I wanted to keep my car. The first hiccup/unforeseen issue though was the price. I thought I was told; both by my dealership and Ally that I've been making payments too, that it was only going to be a "certain" price that I could deal with and that I was originally saving up for. Of course; as it came to a few months before the end of the lease I was pretty screwed that I wasn't able to save up to that "certain" price and had to ask my dad to let me tap into what I have left in my inheritance funds left from one of my grandparents. I was surprised that he was actually supportive throughout all this (though part of me is paranoid that he might be keeping in some resentment over me not having the funds on my own...or at least finding out I'm not as financially secured at the moment as I would like) *get thoughts out of head*
Anyways...That "certain" price ended up being a higher "certain" price due to not being appropriately told of a number on line # here that said THIS was my buyout price. I did argue this because I was told something different, TWICE. But these guys wouldn't budge. The only inch of luck we got was that it did end up being cheaper than the BUYOUT price going to my dealership instead of paying through Ally (by only $550 less). Unfortuantely; they wouldn't except a credit card so we had to pay through an electronic check of some sort that will get sent to Ally, as long as all is well CLEAR in 3 business days, and then get our car title pink slip thingy in the mail.
Once we get that! we head down to our DMV and make the name switch so my car goes under MY name...plus some DMV tax we have to pay.
So while the final payment has technically been made, I still have to a wait another week until the car is finally MINE mine. So despite this bull pretty much done and just have to handle some title transfer stuff, I still feel somewhat tense and blah about all this (though my BLAH is another story >___> ).
The next steps after all this...save the money I originally been paying monthly for the car payments and try to rebuild the money I had to spend from my inheritance.
Fun :P
Anyways; ups and downs aside, I just visit my dealership with my pop and we took care of the buyout since I wanted to keep my car. The first hiccup/unforeseen issue though was the price. I thought I was told; both by my dealership and Ally that I've been making payments too, that it was only going to be a "certain" price that I could deal with and that I was originally saving up for. Of course; as it came to a few months before the end of the lease I was pretty screwed that I wasn't able to save up to that "certain" price and had to ask my dad to let me tap into what I have left in my inheritance funds left from one of my grandparents. I was surprised that he was actually supportive throughout all this (though part of me is paranoid that he might be keeping in some resentment over me not having the funds on my own...or at least finding out I'm not as financially secured at the moment as I would like) *get thoughts out of head*
Anyways...That "certain" price ended up being a higher "certain" price due to not being appropriately told of a number on line # here that said THIS was my buyout price. I did argue this because I was told something different, TWICE. But these guys wouldn't budge. The only inch of luck we got was that it did end up being cheaper than the BUYOUT price going to my dealership instead of paying through Ally (by only $550 less). Unfortuantely; they wouldn't except a credit card so we had to pay through an electronic check of some sort that will get sent to Ally, as long as all is well CLEAR in 3 business days, and then get our car title pink slip thingy in the mail.
Once we get that! we head down to our DMV and make the name switch so my car goes under MY name...plus some DMV tax we have to pay.
So while the final payment has technically been made, I still have to a wait another week until the car is finally MINE mine. So despite this bull pretty much done and just have to handle some title transfer stuff, I still feel somewhat tense and blah about all this (though my BLAH is another story >___> ).
The next steps after all this...save the money I originally been paying monthly for the car payments and try to rebuild the money I had to spend from my inheritance.
Fun :P
Where'd I go?
Posted 11 years agoNowhere...just been busy and lazy >__>
Been taking care of some house cleanup I've been putting off for months and despite Back to School sales being over with we still have plenty of business around my department. And now I'm finding out that we have a regime switch happening. However; it's not that bad seeing as the manager switching out my current is someone who was my manager once years ago and that I'm comfortable with. If it was my first manager coming back...*imagines tossing my badge and apron to said manager and sticking up the middle finger and calling it quits*...yeah, it'd be time to find a new job (really should find a new job anyways >__> ).
As for the laziness; that's just that, being lazy. I've had a string of days where I just can't find the energy to do much right now productivity/creatively. I've been trying to do better in getting back to some friends online but even then I fail. It's hard to come up with something to talk about when I feel like my life is so bland that nothing really comes to mind. I know that's half-bull...I just need to convince myself of that.
Well, there has been a minor reason why I haven't done too much as of late. You can blame my main desktop computer. I do have a laptop for backup and mobile reasons, but my desktop has been my hub of storage for the last three years. Now; most likely after leaving Cookie Clicker open for two months and clicking on WHAT I THOUGHT WAS SAFE OR CORRECT websites that turned out to be fake or download-palooza crap, my desktop began to crap down to the point where opening Mozilla after it being in sleep mode or shut down freezes up for five minutes after an minute or two open. Plus a lot of lag and slow down moments and Malwarebytes continuing saying it found some bugs but where its finding it DOESN'T EXIST on my computer (or at least I can't understand the destination links it keeps providing me).
I decided it was time to get a new computer...but because I need to concentrate on carrying out my budget plan now that I'm at the last month of my car payments, I was left with simply reformatting the damn thing. Luckily (depending on your opinion on the software), I still had my physical copy of Windows 8, so after saving as many files as needed and backing up certain games (which I found out only was backing up the installation not the saved data >__< ) I did the deed. So far my computer is running mostly smoothly again. I decided this time I would only install the necessary programs that I am currently using on this Desktop as well as only having Malwarebytes and Avast running instead of Norton (I'm only hearing how bad Norton is with CPU power and wasting RAM). This Desktop PC will mainly be used for Gamestreams and scanning any artwork, as well as using either my iTunes program or web browser to watch and listen to my webshows and music. My video maker programs will be left alone until the day I decide to return to editing my streams and understanding the YouTube laws better (because I still don't understand why something I post for non-profit and that I mark with the right copyright notices can STILL be flagged or try to get money out my videos).
In other news; here is what is currently circulating my mind:
- Been thinking of expanding backstory for side characters for Howl (yep...I'm beating a dead-horse but I AM still constantly creating my Werewolf series in my head)
- Writing a short werewolf story about a young woman realizing she's cursed and changing quicker than expected in a park, stalled to seek safety by a gang of incredibly haness and dumb nuts. Gore and possible sexual content ensues (implied intent of rape but not something I'm willing to take too far).
- Trying to work up the mood to either continue my Wolfhood revisions or starting a full story on my Special Bonds idea.
- Gathering data on any bugs or issues with the beat version of Facerig to help make it the greatest thing since space sliced bread!
- Stick figure fighting swarming my brain after getting addicted to One Finger Death Punch.
Until then; I hopefully will be back with something more exciting to say or interesting to post. You all have a great weekend now!
Been taking care of some house cleanup I've been putting off for months and despite Back to School sales being over with we still have plenty of business around my department. And now I'm finding out that we have a regime switch happening. However; it's not that bad seeing as the manager switching out my current is someone who was my manager once years ago and that I'm comfortable with. If it was my first manager coming back...*imagines tossing my badge and apron to said manager and sticking up the middle finger and calling it quits*...yeah, it'd be time to find a new job (really should find a new job anyways >__> ).
As for the laziness; that's just that, being lazy. I've had a string of days where I just can't find the energy to do much right now productivity/creatively. I've been trying to do better in getting back to some friends online but even then I fail. It's hard to come up with something to talk about when I feel like my life is so bland that nothing really comes to mind. I know that's half-bull...I just need to convince myself of that.
Well, there has been a minor reason why I haven't done too much as of late. You can blame my main desktop computer. I do have a laptop for backup and mobile reasons, but my desktop has been my hub of storage for the last three years. Now; most likely after leaving Cookie Clicker open for two months and clicking on WHAT I THOUGHT WAS SAFE OR CORRECT websites that turned out to be fake or download-palooza crap, my desktop began to crap down to the point where opening Mozilla after it being in sleep mode or shut down freezes up for five minutes after an minute or two open. Plus a lot of lag and slow down moments and Malwarebytes continuing saying it found some bugs but where its finding it DOESN'T EXIST on my computer (or at least I can't understand the destination links it keeps providing me).
I decided it was time to get a new computer...but because I need to concentrate on carrying out my budget plan now that I'm at the last month of my car payments, I was left with simply reformatting the damn thing. Luckily (depending on your opinion on the software), I still had my physical copy of Windows 8, so after saving as many files as needed and backing up certain games (which I found out only was backing up the installation not the saved data >__< ) I did the deed. So far my computer is running mostly smoothly again. I decided this time I would only install the necessary programs that I am currently using on this Desktop as well as only having Malwarebytes and Avast running instead of Norton (I'm only hearing how bad Norton is with CPU power and wasting RAM). This Desktop PC will mainly be used for Gamestreams and scanning any artwork, as well as using either my iTunes program or web browser to watch and listen to my webshows and music. My video maker programs will be left alone until the day I decide to return to editing my streams and understanding the YouTube laws better (because I still don't understand why something I post for non-profit and that I mark with the right copyright notices can STILL be flagged or try to get money out my videos).
In other news; here is what is currently circulating my mind:
- Been thinking of expanding backstory for side characters for Howl (yep...I'm beating a dead-horse but I AM still constantly creating my Werewolf series in my head)
- Writing a short werewolf story about a young woman realizing she's cursed and changing quicker than expected in a park, stalled to seek safety by a gang of incredibly haness and dumb nuts. Gore and possible sexual content ensues (implied intent of rape but not something I'm willing to take too far).
- Trying to work up the mood to either continue my Wolfhood revisions or starting a full story on my Special Bonds idea.
- Gathering data on any bugs or issues with the beat version of Facerig to help make it the greatest thing since space sliced bread!
- Stick figure fighting swarming my brain after getting addicted to One Finger Death Punch.
Until then; I hopefully will be back with something more exciting to say or interesting to post. You all have a great weekend now!
Shooken Up -Napa Valley Quake-
Posted 11 years ago...Earthquake...
...5.7 - *6 I hear... (I didn't mean 7...that would have been bad o___O; )
...really didn't like it...
...5.7 - *6 I hear... (I didn't mean 7...that would have been bad o___O; )
...really didn't like it...
TimidTabby Reviews - Guardians of the Galaxy
Posted 11 years agoGo see it! *drops mic*
Movie night and Family Reunion
Posted 11 years agoHey all,
Thought I give you a heads up a let you know of my current status.
I will be a bit busy and hard too reach this week as I will be preparing to take off to a Family Reunion/Birthday Party for my grandmother. I'll be leaving Friday morning and returning Sunday evening. But I don't know what my schedule will be like after that, but I'll update on that when I return.
Tomorrow I'll be working all day and after work be catching the early premiere of Guardians of the Galaxy. Because I'm leaving early in the morning I will be completely unreachable by the time I head to work tomorrow...I guess I'll be unreachable still today too. *sigh* Guess this means I'll talk to you all later next week then.
You all have a good time now. Catch you later.
Thought I give you a heads up a let you know of my current status.
I will be a bit busy and hard too reach this week as I will be preparing to take off to a Family Reunion/Birthday Party for my grandmother. I'll be leaving Friday morning and returning Sunday evening. But I don't know what my schedule will be like after that, but I'll update on that when I return.
Tomorrow I'll be working all day and after work be catching the early premiere of Guardians of the Galaxy. Because I'm leaving early in the morning I will be completely unreachable by the time I head to work tomorrow...I guess I'll be unreachable still today too. *sigh* Guess this means I'll talk to you all later next week then.
You all have a good time now. Catch you later.
Game streaming: Shovel Knight - Postponed until later
Posted 11 years agoApologies, but I'm postponing my continuing Gamestream for another day. I have cooled down a bit; I was just invited to see the new Apes movie tonight and...well; I really want to see this movie. So I will schedule this again at a later date (maybe tomorrow night but I don't know). And for those who would like to see me go animal rage on some of the cheap deaths I went through...I fucked up. Apparently; the game ONLY part of the XSplit software needs you to click on both Stream and Record...I only did Stream...so any footage of today's stream will be on my Twitch account (maybe) for a short time.
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Assumptions for TimidTabby
Posted 11 years agoA quick Note, anyone that is interested in my opinions about the TF (Transformation) aspect of the community around, you click here for my take on the 50-Questions TF MEME.
Here; though, I too have decided to give you all an opportunity to ASSUME something about me, and then answer back with a REASONABLE reply to whether you are right or wrong about (at least I think that's how this game works). So Assume away; I'm really interested in seeing what people think of me as lately (and now I go to hide behind my "shame" shield).
Here; though, I too have decided to give you all an opportunity to ASSUME something about me, and then answer back with a REASONABLE reply to whether you are right or wrong about (at least I think that's how this game works). So Assume away; I'm really interested in seeing what people think of me as lately (and now I go to hide behind my "shame" shield).
50-Question TF MEME
Posted 11 years agoThanks to 
zerostorm, I decided to give 
altairtf's little questionnaire a shot and see what seedy secrets into my fascination into transformation.
THE 50-QUESTION TF MEME
(key: 0=no/never - 5=yes/always)
GENERAL INTERESTS
I like TF art...
5/5 - Well, Duh! :P
I like TF stories...
4/5 - I may not read too many too often, but whenever I read something that is Really Good, I don't mind trying to find something as good or better for later literature.
I am a TF artist...
4/5 - I'm not the greatest by far, but it is 75% of my drawings and passions.
I am a TF writer...
4/5 - And when I lose my mojo for drawing for bit, it transfers into my mojo for writing. Wolfhood anyone? :)
I like to roleplay TF...
4/5 - It's either romancing or turning into my feline or lupine self (sometimes female self)...and then some beastly romancing XD
PERSONAL QUESTIONS
TF has always been an interest for as long as I can remember...
5/5 - Thank you The Witches and Willow for putting the idea of humans turning into animals in my head. Thank you for AWIL for showing me the freakiest yet awesome werewolf transformation ever. And Thank you The Howling for showcasing a erotic werewolf transformation and confusing my rational senses :P
I share my TF interest with my real life friends...
2/5 - The closest I've gotten to expressing anything animal tf related to my (a) friend(s) is expressing my feline side out of the blue (just purring and mewing, a little bit of pawing and crawling like one). However; I've considered a few of my online friends as Real friends now so the point goes up 1 because I have a few friends that equally share this with.
I wish TF was possible in real life...
5/5 - My only dilemma is whether to go cat or wolf first (or be rebellious and try mouse or dragon first).
If I could TF into anything in real life, I would and it would be...
5/5 - Kind of mimics the last question, only I know it would be a cat. The next problem would be if I stayed male or go female >__>
If TF was possible and reversible, I'd want to try it regardless of how painful it could ever be...
5/5 - I think the pain would be annoying at first, but something tells me I'd probably get use to it...fast...and maybe start to like it ?___? Or the pain might not be as bad as others might feel; I strangely have a high tolerance for it.
If TF was possible into the form that I've always wanted, but I knew I could never go back, I'd take it...
4/5 - Honestly...I have many reasons to hate being human. So being my anthro feline self would only relieve much of my own stresses. I know I would have to deal with my parents and friends reactions and society's views, but whatever. Just think what they may think if I decided I preferred breasts over balls :\
I find TF sexually arousing...
5/5 - That was never planned...it just...happened >___>;
I've had TF dreams while sleeping...
5/5 - I have had several dreams! Various animals, though I'm lucky if it goes any farther during a detailed tf. Plus I can remember feeling the part parts shift and ache when it happens, so that also adds to the lucky if it goes all the way. But I have been. I remember the wolf and dragon ones the most oddly enough, especially the ones where I get to fly with my own wings.
I daydream about TF when there is downtime...
4/5 - Oddly; I daydream it when I'm work or with people. I think TF is absorbing into my life ?___?
FAVORITE CHANGES
I like being the subject of a TF (or my character)...
5/5 - Ye-e-e-e-e-e-s-s-s-s! o___o
I like watching someone else undergo a TF (or their character)...
5/5 - Not that I'm a pervert or anything (at least not a RL pervert), but I can't lie and say I don't like watching others change.
I like animal TF...
5/5 - Yep
I like anthro TF...
3/5 - They are just as good, but something about going more feral than staying humanoid appeals to me more.
I like gender TF...
4/5 - Originally; I wasn't really a big fan of TG. I really can't explain what changed, only that I've gotten more comfortable tapping into my feminine side (and happy a few of my buddies tolerate it ^__^ ).
I like inanimate TF...
0/5 - Sorry; not a huge fan.
I like latex/rubber TF...
0/5 - Also not really interested. I'll admit depending on the artist style that it can look pretty neat, but not really my thing.
I like monster TF...
1/5 - Depends on the kind of monster and how explicit it goes.
I like cartoon characters TF (MLP, pokemon, etc)...
2/5 - *sigh* ...I do remember having a bit of a unusual fascination with Pokemon tfs, but never anything adult in nature. Otherwise; I'm not a huge fan on cartoon character tfs either.
I like size change...
1/5 - Eh. I might dabble in RPs, but also not really "huge" on this one.
I like tail growth...
5/5 - It's SO FLUFFY (or exotically scaly or elegant)
I like bodily covering change (fur, feathers, scales, etc)...
5/5 - Please get this fleshy skin off of me. I want my FUR!!!
I have a favorite body part TF...
3/5 - I'm also not too certain I understand the question. If it's what I think it means, Other than the tail growth; Paws and muzzle can be considered a favorite. Though...I also don't mind if a particular part also conformed with the animal I've become ^__^;
I like other types of changes...
0/5 - Other than animal, anthro, and TG; that's really where the list of TF fetishes go.
FAVORITE TRIGGERS
I like magic-based TF (spells, curse, etc)...
3/5 - These are fine triggers, though it means you're either forced or need the help from supernatural forces to make it happen.
I like science-based TF (injection, etc)...
3/5 - These are also fine, considering that may be the closest possible reality we might see in the far future.
I like goo-based TF...
0/5 - Sorry, not a goo fan.
I like sex-based TF...
5/5 - Read my stories and most of my favorites...the answer is obvious.
I like hypnosis TF...
2/5 - Not that its a bad trigger, just that I don't have as much faith in hypnosis as I once did...not that I believed it could actually work, just that I don't seem to be easily hypnotize. So the trigger isn't much of a favorite.
I like other TF methods / don't care how it's started...
5/5 - Honestly; I prefer a primal tf, one where you gradually begin to embrace the animal side inside. A willful or progressive transformation of the body, mind, and soul.
FAVORITE PROCESS
I like TF that occurs in less than 5 minutes...
4/5 – Less than five minutes is actually quite doable. I don’t care much for “POOF” TF’s, but as long as the metamorphosis takes at least some time for the subject to experience then under 5 minutes is perfectly fine.
I like TF(s) that takes much longer...
3/5 – Depends on the situation. Might get a little tiring after a while anticipating when the final changes are going to come, though the perspective on the subject dealing with a slow change would be amusing to watch. But if the changes are also taking a mental hold on the subject (acting more like the animal the subject is becoming; succumbing to instincts and urges of the animal) then it would be an interesting experience to see how the person handles the transition (fighting or embracing it).
I like when changes take place heterogeneously, or each body part successively...
2/5 – It’s ok, Bu-u-u-ut…I prefer that the entire body is experience the change at the same time, not just the hands first, and then the feet, and then the butt, and then ect. Ect.
I like forced TF...
3/5 – It’s become a staple of most transformations, so I don’t mind them. But it’s not my favorite reason…
I like when the subject is resisting/not enjoying it...
3/5 – Also ok but again not my favorite type. However; I will admit a TF story involving such a theme can be entertaining to read if the character development or plot and such are constructed well enough.
I like consensual TF...
5/5 – Why not? :P
I like painful TF...
3/5 – Honestly; no pain would be great…but I suppose without it wouldn’t feel real.
I like pleasurable TF...
5/5 – Pretty much.
I like when the victim loses their human mind...
3/5 – Again; if the plot leads to a very intriguing development with the character it can be good. But I feel like I prefer going half way. I wouldn’t mind beginning to think and behavior more like an animal, but I would like to keep most of my personality and memories. It would make a decent story with the subject experiencing what it’s like to be living as an animal but observing such a lifestyle with a partially human mind intact.
I like permanent TF...
3/5 – Another mixed feelings on this. Growing up as a human being makes it hard for someone to accept staying an animal (or whatever) forever missing out on the human conveniences. Although; I have wondered what life might be like if I spent the rest of my life away from humanity. There have been days like that.
I like temporary TF...
4/5 – Less mixed on this as I agree, I like to try out things first and have the option to go back before I committed to anything (at least if the choice was given).
I like bondage during a TF...
1/5 – Depends on the bondage…but that’s just mainly tied up by chains or such if the TF made me go wild and aggressive.
I like clothes ripping during a TF...
3/5 – So many mixed feelings suddenly. I’d probably be smart enough to get my clothes first before it became too late, wanting something I can wear if I change back the next morning or so. Think of the embarrassing predicament having to bum a ride from a stranger while making excuses to why I was buck naked. However; tearing through my clothes by my own fangs and claws, or because I was too late and my increase mass and/or changing posture, does feel like it would add to the rush of pleasure of going primal.
I like sex during/after a TF...
5/5 – Again; read my stories. That’s my answer. …ok; so WHY do I like this kind of TF? My best answer is…well, sex is the most primal desire in any animal. Sure I still like a romantic passionate experience, but becoming a feral strong, sleek and lithe, scaly or furry animal just makes the experience so much more erotic. I’m…just a weird person >__>
I like group TF...
3/5 – It’s hard to get over being around other naked people when changing (unless I’m around females than it’s a different story XD ). But…even then; I can’t lie saying it wouldn’t be thrilling to become an animal with like-minded others (like a lone wolf united with a pack changing back into their natural forms howling together).
I like TF that occurs in front of people...
2/5 – Depending on the person. Otherwise; I’d be too shy or embarrassed if I was changing in-fornt of random strangers (or even certain friends or family).
BONUS QUESTION
I've withheld my answers/lied about some of them...
2/5 – I’m certain I’ve held back some info…but maybe it’s best some things remain secret >__>
zerostorm, I decided to give 
altairtf's little questionnaire a shot and see what seedy secrets into my fascination into transformation.THE 50-QUESTION TF MEME
(key: 0=no/never - 5=yes/always)
GENERAL INTERESTS
I like TF art...
5/5 - Well, Duh! :P
I like TF stories...
4/5 - I may not read too many too often, but whenever I read something that is Really Good, I don't mind trying to find something as good or better for later literature.
I am a TF artist...
4/5 - I'm not the greatest by far, but it is 75% of my drawings and passions.
I am a TF writer...
4/5 - And when I lose my mojo for drawing for bit, it transfers into my mojo for writing. Wolfhood anyone? :)
I like to roleplay TF...
4/5 - It's either romancing or turning into my feline or lupine self (sometimes female self)...and then some beastly romancing XD
PERSONAL QUESTIONS
TF has always been an interest for as long as I can remember...
5/5 - Thank you The Witches and Willow for putting the idea of humans turning into animals in my head. Thank you for AWIL for showing me the freakiest yet awesome werewolf transformation ever. And Thank you The Howling for showcasing a erotic werewolf transformation and confusing my rational senses :P
I share my TF interest with my real life friends...
2/5 - The closest I've gotten to expressing anything animal tf related to my (a) friend(s) is expressing my feline side out of the blue (just purring and mewing, a little bit of pawing and crawling like one). However; I've considered a few of my online friends as Real friends now so the point goes up 1 because I have a few friends that equally share this with.
I wish TF was possible in real life...
5/5 - My only dilemma is whether to go cat or wolf first (or be rebellious and try mouse or dragon first).
If I could TF into anything in real life, I would and it would be...
5/5 - Kind of mimics the last question, only I know it would be a cat. The next problem would be if I stayed male or go female >__>
If TF was possible and reversible, I'd want to try it regardless of how painful it could ever be...
5/5 - I think the pain would be annoying at first, but something tells me I'd probably get use to it...fast...and maybe start to like it ?___? Or the pain might not be as bad as others might feel; I strangely have a high tolerance for it.
If TF was possible into the form that I've always wanted, but I knew I could never go back, I'd take it...
4/5 - Honestly...I have many reasons to hate being human. So being my anthro feline self would only relieve much of my own stresses. I know I would have to deal with my parents and friends reactions and society's views, but whatever. Just think what they may think if I decided I preferred breasts over balls :\
I find TF sexually arousing...
5/5 - That was never planned...it just...happened >___>;
I've had TF dreams while sleeping...
5/5 - I have had several dreams! Various animals, though I'm lucky if it goes any farther during a detailed tf. Plus I can remember feeling the part parts shift and ache when it happens, so that also adds to the lucky if it goes all the way. But I have been. I remember the wolf and dragon ones the most oddly enough, especially the ones where I get to fly with my own wings.
I daydream about TF when there is downtime...
4/5 - Oddly; I daydream it when I'm work or with people. I think TF is absorbing into my life ?___?
FAVORITE CHANGES
I like being the subject of a TF (or my character)...
5/5 - Ye-e-e-e-e-e-s-s-s-s! o___o
I like watching someone else undergo a TF (or their character)...
5/5 - Not that I'm a pervert or anything (at least not a RL pervert), but I can't lie and say I don't like watching others change.
I like animal TF...
5/5 - Yep
I like anthro TF...
3/5 - They are just as good, but something about going more feral than staying humanoid appeals to me more.
I like gender TF...
4/5 - Originally; I wasn't really a big fan of TG. I really can't explain what changed, only that I've gotten more comfortable tapping into my feminine side (and happy a few of my buddies tolerate it ^__^ ).
I like inanimate TF...
0/5 - Sorry; not a huge fan.
I like latex/rubber TF...
0/5 - Also not really interested. I'll admit depending on the artist style that it can look pretty neat, but not really my thing.
I like monster TF...
1/5 - Depends on the kind of monster and how explicit it goes.
I like cartoon characters TF (MLP, pokemon, etc)...
2/5 - *sigh* ...I do remember having a bit of a unusual fascination with Pokemon tfs, but never anything adult in nature. Otherwise; I'm not a huge fan on cartoon character tfs either.
I like size change...
1/5 - Eh. I might dabble in RPs, but also not really "huge" on this one.
I like tail growth...
5/5 - It's SO FLUFFY (or exotically scaly or elegant)
I like bodily covering change (fur, feathers, scales, etc)...
5/5 - Please get this fleshy skin off of me. I want my FUR!!!
I have a favorite body part TF...
3/5 - I'm also not too certain I understand the question. If it's what I think it means, Other than the tail growth; Paws and muzzle can be considered a favorite. Though...I also don't mind if a particular part also conformed with the animal I've become ^__^;
I like other types of changes...
0/5 - Other than animal, anthro, and TG; that's really where the list of TF fetishes go.
FAVORITE TRIGGERS
I like magic-based TF (spells, curse, etc)...
3/5 - These are fine triggers, though it means you're either forced or need the help from supernatural forces to make it happen.
I like science-based TF (injection, etc)...
3/5 - These are also fine, considering that may be the closest possible reality we might see in the far future.
I like goo-based TF...
0/5 - Sorry, not a goo fan.
I like sex-based TF...
5/5 - Read my stories and most of my favorites...the answer is obvious.
I like hypnosis TF...
2/5 - Not that its a bad trigger, just that I don't have as much faith in hypnosis as I once did...not that I believed it could actually work, just that I don't seem to be easily hypnotize. So the trigger isn't much of a favorite.
I like other TF methods / don't care how it's started...
5/5 - Honestly; I prefer a primal tf, one where you gradually begin to embrace the animal side inside. A willful or progressive transformation of the body, mind, and soul.
FAVORITE PROCESS
I like TF that occurs in less than 5 minutes...
4/5 – Less than five minutes is actually quite doable. I don’t care much for “POOF” TF’s, but as long as the metamorphosis takes at least some time for the subject to experience then under 5 minutes is perfectly fine.
I like TF(s) that takes much longer...
3/5 – Depends on the situation. Might get a little tiring after a while anticipating when the final changes are going to come, though the perspective on the subject dealing with a slow change would be amusing to watch. But if the changes are also taking a mental hold on the subject (acting more like the animal the subject is becoming; succumbing to instincts and urges of the animal) then it would be an interesting experience to see how the person handles the transition (fighting or embracing it).
I like when changes take place heterogeneously, or each body part successively...
2/5 – It’s ok, Bu-u-u-ut…I prefer that the entire body is experience the change at the same time, not just the hands first, and then the feet, and then the butt, and then ect. Ect.
I like forced TF...
3/5 – It’s become a staple of most transformations, so I don’t mind them. But it’s not my favorite reason…
I like when the subject is resisting/not enjoying it...
3/5 – Also ok but again not my favorite type. However; I will admit a TF story involving such a theme can be entertaining to read if the character development or plot and such are constructed well enough.
I like consensual TF...
5/5 – Why not? :P
I like painful TF...
3/5 – Honestly; no pain would be great…but I suppose without it wouldn’t feel real.
I like pleasurable TF...
5/5 – Pretty much.
I like when the victim loses their human mind...
3/5 – Again; if the plot leads to a very intriguing development with the character it can be good. But I feel like I prefer going half way. I wouldn’t mind beginning to think and behavior more like an animal, but I would like to keep most of my personality and memories. It would make a decent story with the subject experiencing what it’s like to be living as an animal but observing such a lifestyle with a partially human mind intact.
I like permanent TF...
3/5 – Another mixed feelings on this. Growing up as a human being makes it hard for someone to accept staying an animal (or whatever) forever missing out on the human conveniences. Although; I have wondered what life might be like if I spent the rest of my life away from humanity. There have been days like that.
I like temporary TF...
4/5 – Less mixed on this as I agree, I like to try out things first and have the option to go back before I committed to anything (at least if the choice was given).
I like bondage during a TF...
1/5 – Depends on the bondage…but that’s just mainly tied up by chains or such if the TF made me go wild and aggressive.
I like clothes ripping during a TF...
3/5 – So many mixed feelings suddenly. I’d probably be smart enough to get my clothes first before it became too late, wanting something I can wear if I change back the next morning or so. Think of the embarrassing predicament having to bum a ride from a stranger while making excuses to why I was buck naked. However; tearing through my clothes by my own fangs and claws, or because I was too late and my increase mass and/or changing posture, does feel like it would add to the rush of pleasure of going primal.
I like sex during/after a TF...
5/5 – Again; read my stories. That’s my answer. …ok; so WHY do I like this kind of TF? My best answer is…well, sex is the most primal desire in any animal. Sure I still like a romantic passionate experience, but becoming a feral strong, sleek and lithe, scaly or furry animal just makes the experience so much more erotic. I’m…just a weird person >__>
I like group TF...
3/5 – It’s hard to get over being around other naked people when changing (unless I’m around females than it’s a different story XD ). But…even then; I can’t lie saying it wouldn’t be thrilling to become an animal with like-minded others (like a lone wolf united with a pack changing back into their natural forms howling together).
I like TF that occurs in front of people...
2/5 – Depending on the person. Otherwise; I’d be too shy or embarrassed if I was changing in-fornt of random strangers (or even certain friends or family).
BONUS QUESTION
I've withheld my answers/lied about some of them...
2/5 – I’m certain I’ve held back some info…but maybe it’s best some things remain secret >__>
Busy Busy Busy; I sure am Busy A Lot lately!
Posted 11 years agoHey all,
So even though I have since recovered from my dastardly bad cough cold and aches, work has been driving me up the wall and chipping away at my sanity. With my Lead on vacation herself, I doubling as a co-Lead and normal associate while trying to answer questions on the clock at from home for my co-workers that are still relatively new or struggling to understand something. I had to go in for a hour today on my free time to sort out a supply issue and a bad job. Blargh....at least I got a tasty Habit burger out of my spent time.
Anywho; trying to sort out some finances and go over sites I haven't visited in a while. I don't know what I'm doing for the rest of the day; thought maybe I do a gamestream, but of what I don't know. Might just try to write again tonight...or I'll be visiting a friend if I ever hear back from them.
Again; apologies for my absence and non-repliness. I hate keeping my friends in the dark or procrastinating to getting back to you all. I need to learn how to better adjust my time and priorities.
Hope you all have been having a great summer so far!
So even though I have since recovered from my dastardly bad cough cold and aches, work has been driving me up the wall and chipping away at my sanity. With my Lead on vacation herself, I doubling as a co-Lead and normal associate while trying to answer questions on the clock at from home for my co-workers that are still relatively new or struggling to understand something. I had to go in for a hour today on my free time to sort out a supply issue and a bad job. Blargh....at least I got a tasty Habit burger out of my spent time.
Anywho; trying to sort out some finances and go over sites I haven't visited in a while. I don't know what I'm doing for the rest of the day; thought maybe I do a gamestream, but of what I don't know. Might just try to write again tonight...or I'll be visiting a friend if I ever hear back from them.
Again; apologies for my absence and non-repliness. I hate keeping my friends in the dark or procrastinating to getting back to you all. I need to learn how to better adjust my time and priorities.
Hope you all have been having a great summer so far!
Out of Commission for another day -RANT--FILLED-
Posted 11 years agoHey all,
For those of you not in the small loop I apparently have, the past week I was away. I was invited to a friend of a friend's wedding at a small town beach house that took place on July 4th. However; I took off Thursday morning for many reasons; one being to beat any possible traffic instead of any hullabaloo on 4th of July, two that I wanted a spot at the beach house to bunk with my buds so I didn't have to rent out a motel/hotel room, and three being I was two other peep's ride to and throe (or at least for one of my driving buddies). The wedding went well without too much drama and I got to hang with my buds while admiring the bay window (or backyard) view of the beach and ocean horizon (better than tv when there is none). The only gripe I can give (other than wishing I had brought an extra pillow) was the bed arrangements. It was between a too soft or too firm mattress, but that didn't matter because without an extra pillow the only one I brought did zilch to support my neck and back. And it squeaked every time I moved so tossing and turning was announced promptly to others while I tried to sleep.
And to make matters suck harder; I caught a cold the day before Thursday. I picked up on it rather quickly and bought some Zicam and drank plenty of Vitamin C juices, making the days I was at the beach house bearable. But I guess this cold is a late bloomer (or troll) because after I got home Saturday afternoon I became drowsy and achy. And then Sunday morning it kicked my tail with heavy stuffy nose and a bad cough...and I had to work that day too.
AND; work kicked my ass just as hard with none of my associates doing anything with large orders they took in since THURSDAY...which left me to complete as much as I could SUNDAY for a MONDAY morning pickup. And along with that, my cold dragging me over the floor like a mop, and some communication inconsistencies between my associates and customers... I came THIS CLOSE to breaking down again. I did try to contact anyone that was willing to cover the rest of my shift Sunday. However; one was out of town, one never contacted us back, and my lead that has stated I could call her anytime I was in need of help had gotten sick around the same time I did bed ridden since Thursday. In fact; half the associates in my store Sunday were sick as dogs like me. It was an epidemic here. But I'm still miffed at my associates; only Lead and I had gotten sick, the other two were working Thursday to Saturday. What the F*$^ were they doing during their shifts to leave such large orders unintended!
And finally; just to add to my stress for a short more time, I get a notice from my Medical Insurance about needing to pay my current monthly bill....DUE JUNE 30th!!!! NOW THEY FINALLY GET ME A DAMN MAILING STATEMENT!?!?!?!? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU......
*clears throat* Actually; I had paid my June bill online July 1st when my Auto Pay option never went through, and after talking to a HUMAN ASSISTANCE at their hospital about never receive any notices about my monthly payment until NOW and the troubles I had trying to do so Online two weeks before, the assistance cleared up that I had no penalties for paying a day late AND that I am 1 of 1000's upon 1000's of people who had the same problems I had since the Obamacare/CA Covered switch occurred earlier this year. So that's at least one mess I sorted out.
But still...FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU....
And last night *starts laughing manically* My Vixen Goddess, what the hell throat? What do you want from me??? I've been drinking my OJ and keeping you hydrated. I even took NyQuil as a last resort. But NOOOOOOO!!! I had to deal with a cough to end all coughing fits for three hours straight. And to make matters worse (yes, still worse) our weather here sucks...or my bedroom temperature sucks...or my mattress and sheets...or my body...IT Was UNBEARABLY HOT!!! Is KNOWING coming true? Are we all going to die a solar flare fiery death??? I did have both the window and fan on, but I couldn't keep it on too high because...get this...when I was too hot I had to sleep without sheets. But after awhile, it got TOO COLD and I had to cover myself again. And then it got too hot. and then too cold...and too hot again. and then TOO COLD again!!! And my mattress was drenched in sweat. And....Uh....GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
*Falls back in bed about to pass out* ...I want this cold and cough to DIE!!!!!
Anyways; the point of my long rant is to let you all know what happened to me in my latest disappearance and that I may not be coming back to chat for at least one more day. I just really want to go back to bed and try to get some hours of sleep without coughing up a lung like last night.
I really hope your July 4th weekend went better than mine. Pray that I live.
For those of you not in the small loop I apparently have, the past week I was away. I was invited to a friend of a friend's wedding at a small town beach house that took place on July 4th. However; I took off Thursday morning for many reasons; one being to beat any possible traffic instead of any hullabaloo on 4th of July, two that I wanted a spot at the beach house to bunk with my buds so I didn't have to rent out a motel/hotel room, and three being I was two other peep's ride to and throe (or at least for one of my driving buddies). The wedding went well without too much drama and I got to hang with my buds while admiring the bay window (or backyard) view of the beach and ocean horizon (better than tv when there is none). The only gripe I can give (other than wishing I had brought an extra pillow) was the bed arrangements. It was between a too soft or too firm mattress, but that didn't matter because without an extra pillow the only one I brought did zilch to support my neck and back. And it squeaked every time I moved so tossing and turning was announced promptly to others while I tried to sleep.
And to make matters suck harder; I caught a cold the day before Thursday. I picked up on it rather quickly and bought some Zicam and drank plenty of Vitamin C juices, making the days I was at the beach house bearable. But I guess this cold is a late bloomer (or troll) because after I got home Saturday afternoon I became drowsy and achy. And then Sunday morning it kicked my tail with heavy stuffy nose and a bad cough...and I had to work that day too.
AND; work kicked my ass just as hard with none of my associates doing anything with large orders they took in since THURSDAY...which left me to complete as much as I could SUNDAY for a MONDAY morning pickup. And along with that, my cold dragging me over the floor like a mop, and some communication inconsistencies between my associates and customers... I came THIS CLOSE to breaking down again. I did try to contact anyone that was willing to cover the rest of my shift Sunday. However; one was out of town, one never contacted us back, and my lead that has stated I could call her anytime I was in need of help had gotten sick around the same time I did bed ridden since Thursday. In fact; half the associates in my store Sunday were sick as dogs like me. It was an epidemic here. But I'm still miffed at my associates; only Lead and I had gotten sick, the other two were working Thursday to Saturday. What the F*$^ were they doing during their shifts to leave such large orders unintended!
And finally; just to add to my stress for a short more time, I get a notice from my Medical Insurance about needing to pay my current monthly bill....DUE JUNE 30th!!!! NOW THEY FINALLY GET ME A DAMN MAILING STATEMENT!?!?!?!? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU......
*clears throat* Actually; I had paid my June bill online July 1st when my Auto Pay option never went through, and after talking to a HUMAN ASSISTANCE at their hospital about never receive any notices about my monthly payment until NOW and the troubles I had trying to do so Online two weeks before, the assistance cleared up that I had no penalties for paying a day late AND that I am 1 of 1000's upon 1000's of people who had the same problems I had since the Obamacare/CA Covered switch occurred earlier this year. So that's at least one mess I sorted out.
But still...FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU....
And last night *starts laughing manically* My Vixen Goddess, what the hell throat? What do you want from me??? I've been drinking my OJ and keeping you hydrated. I even took NyQuil as a last resort. But NOOOOOOO!!! I had to deal with a cough to end all coughing fits for three hours straight. And to make matters worse (yes, still worse) our weather here sucks...or my bedroom temperature sucks...or my mattress and sheets...or my body...IT Was UNBEARABLY HOT!!! Is KNOWING coming true? Are we all going to die a solar flare fiery death??? I did have both the window and fan on, but I couldn't keep it on too high because...get this...when I was too hot I had to sleep without sheets. But after awhile, it got TOO COLD and I had to cover myself again. And then it got too hot. and then too cold...and too hot again. and then TOO COLD again!!! And my mattress was drenched in sweat. And....Uh....GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
*Falls back in bed about to pass out* ...I want this cold and cough to DIE!!!!!
Anyways; the point of my long rant is to let you all know what happened to me in my latest disappearance and that I may not be coming back to chat for at least one more day. I just really want to go back to bed and try to get some hours of sleep without coughing up a lung like last night.
I really hope your July 4th weekend went better than mine. Pray that I live.
Romantic/Erotica Writing Questions
Posted 11 years agoFirst off; apologies again to my friends online for not being very chatty this past week. Work, family, and a wedding took most of my time. Laziness and heat the other. And my week is going to get hectic again as the next week comes up (I have another wedding to attend to on the 4th of July and I have no clue what will play out >___> ). So bare with me as I try to get my schtick back together.
Now for the main meat of the journal. I'm trying my best to improve my vocabulary and descriptive scenes...including in sex and passion. I feel like I'm getting to bodily functions and straying from my original intent in my erotic fiction (to tell a good story that has sex in it)...well, maybe I still do that. But I would really like to know how to better describe an certain act more sensually; less mechanically. I know the best start is to better write how the characters are feeling in the certain experience they are in, but when I do need to at least reference the actually act I can't think of better words to describe certain body parts, or other adjectives to describe how it feels to a character to be...well, you get the idea.
I remember finding a website that had some perfect references and ways of describing sensual and sexual acts and touches and emotions, as well as better descriptions of the use of anatomy during so. But I can't seem to find the site anymore and I'm trying to find new sites that can do the job.
I question to you viewers is do you have any good suggestions for sites or such to help me touch up on my erotic writing (and descriptive as well for scenery and clothes and whatnot, to better improve my writing as a whole). That's all, lol.
Until then; you all take care and have a good start to your summer!
Now for the main meat of the journal. I'm trying my best to improve my vocabulary and descriptive scenes...including in sex and passion. I feel like I'm getting to bodily functions and straying from my original intent in my erotic fiction (to tell a good story that has sex in it)...well, maybe I still do that. But I would really like to know how to better describe an certain act more sensually; less mechanically. I know the best start is to better write how the characters are feeling in the certain experience they are in, but when I do need to at least reference the actually act I can't think of better words to describe certain body parts, or other adjectives to describe how it feels to a character to be...well, you get the idea.
I remember finding a website that had some perfect references and ways of describing sensual and sexual acts and touches and emotions, as well as better descriptions of the use of anatomy during so. But I can't seem to find the site anymore and I'm trying to find new sites that can do the job.
I question to you viewers is do you have any good suggestions for sites or such to help me touch up on my erotic writing (and descriptive as well for scenery and clothes and whatnot, to better improve my writing as a whole). That's all, lol.
Until then; you all take care and have a good start to your summer!
I don't want to go to work....WTF??? (3 hours later)
Posted 11 years agoI don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work I don't want to go to work...................
*Tabby cradles in the corner feeling like he is going to be sick* "No secret message here. I just REALLY don't want to go to work right now >___>
(3 hours later).........I had to stay late last night cleaning and organizing my department the way my boss need it to be for the big wigs and suffer through nuasea all morning up till 1 hour into work...and the big wigs canceled their visit. And this was on a day where my lead is unfortunately taking time off due to a loss in the family and one of our backup associates suddenly needing to leave at the same time as the big wigs were supposed to visit for a dentist appointment. I literary thought I would be the only one working today and having to know everything.
'Punches a hole through a wall'
*Tabby cradles in the corner feeling like he is going to be sick* "No secret message here. I just REALLY don't want to go to work right now >___>
(3 hours later).........I had to stay late last night cleaning and organizing my department the way my boss need it to be for the big wigs and suffer through nuasea all morning up till 1 hour into work...and the big wigs canceled their visit. And this was on a day where my lead is unfortunately taking time off due to a loss in the family and one of our backup associates suddenly needing to leave at the same time as the big wigs were supposed to visit for a dentist appointment. I literary thought I would be the only one working today and having to know everything.
'Punches a hole through a wall'
Writing Spree Days (Life and Wolfhood)
Posted 11 years agoHey all,
This is just a general update on my current status and all, nothing too big to talk about. First off; anyone that celebrates Memorial Day weekend I hope you are having a blast and staying safe; having fun and what not. I'll be working this weekend and Monday (and it's going to be an extra headache because my store is installing a new categorizing program in my department that is certain to piss a lot of my customers off >___> ). Woo-hoo...
Second off; I've managed to get back one of my artistic skills in motion again. Still need to find the time and patience to try drawing again without being annoyed at how crappy I still am -___-, so I've turned back to my writings. In case you didn't know; and for those who are fans of Werewolf TF sexy time plots :P , I've recently uploaded a few stories. Breeding Grounds was inspired by one of
LoboLeo LoboLeo's photomanipulations. The other two are revisions of my old Wolfhood Book One series I did a long time ago. Chapter 1 and 2 ARE up; note that both chapters are pretty much a extension of the original Chapter 1, just edited and added some new material and a fuller opening to try and make the narrative flow a bit more professional and whatnot (plus a kinkier twist to a certain unsuspecting character). I'm working on Chapter 3 now, might be ready for posting tonight if not tomorrow evening, all depends on what will distract me.
I'm gonna put of my gamestreams a little while longer while I focus on my writings, but expect a continuation of my Dead Space Personal Challenge and more Monaco with my buddy
wrathofautumn in the future, as well as some other possible games with other friends in mind.
Also; too everyone that has been writing me notes and comments, apologies that I haven't gotten back to you yet. My mind is constantly chasing that red dot nearly all the time that I forget or loose attention to follow up. I hope all of you are doing well.
That's it for now. Have a great weekend peeps >^__^<
This is just a general update on my current status and all, nothing too big to talk about. First off; anyone that celebrates Memorial Day weekend I hope you are having a blast and staying safe; having fun and what not. I'll be working this weekend and Monday (and it's going to be an extra headache because my store is installing a new categorizing program in my department that is certain to piss a lot of my customers off >___> ). Woo-hoo...
Second off; I've managed to get back one of my artistic skills in motion again. Still need to find the time and patience to try drawing again without being annoyed at how crappy I still am -___-, so I've turned back to my writings. In case you didn't know; and for those who are fans of Werewolf TF sexy time plots :P , I've recently uploaded a few stories. Breeding Grounds was inspired by one of
LoboLeo LoboLeo's photomanipulations. The other two are revisions of my old Wolfhood Book One series I did a long time ago. Chapter 1 and 2 ARE up; note that both chapters are pretty much a extension of the original Chapter 1, just edited and added some new material and a fuller opening to try and make the narrative flow a bit more professional and whatnot (plus a kinkier twist to a certain unsuspecting character). I'm working on Chapter 3 now, might be ready for posting tonight if not tomorrow evening, all depends on what will distract me.I'm gonna put of my gamestreams a little while longer while I focus on my writings, but expect a continuation of my Dead Space Personal Challenge and more Monaco with my buddy
wrathofautumn in the future, as well as some other possible games with other friends in mind.Also; too everyone that has been writing me notes and comments, apologies that I haven't gotten back to you yet. My mind is constantly chasing that red dot nearly all the time that I forget or loose attention to follow up. I hope all of you are doing well.
That's it for now. Have a great weekend peeps >^__^<
Haphazard Time-Allocating
Posted 11 years agoYeah...I have no real excuse for being silent this time. Well; ok, I do have some excuses, but I feel like I could have made myself more available lately.
Been cleaning out my room of junk and memories trying to feel less cluttered and free so I can feel that Feng Shui vibe clearing out my idle mind so I can focus on writing and drawing again. Course; I have work where it has me keeping me in longer than I need to on projects. And I've had a few friends pulling me away from the computer a lot.
I know there are a few people here been waiting for a response back from me. I will get back to you all as soon as I can. Apologies for my on-going procrastination. I know a lot of you are sick of it now.
Been cleaning out my room of junk and memories trying to feel less cluttered and free so I can feel that Feng Shui vibe clearing out my idle mind so I can focus on writing and drawing again. Course; I have work where it has me keeping me in longer than I need to on projects. And I've had a few friends pulling me away from the computer a lot.
I know there are a few people here been waiting for a response back from me. I will get back to you all as soon as I can. Apologies for my on-going procrastination. I know a lot of you are sick of it now.
Tabby Reviews: Darren Aronofsky's NOAH
Posted 11 years agoMy journal's need something again, something less personally depressing and less weirdness (though I think I have a weird journal coming up in the future...I just have to remember what the weirdness that I was thinking was). So to start the journals fresh again I thought I try doing my movie reviews again. And boy do I have a movie to review!
So, Darren Aronofsky's Noah............ye-a-a-a-a-a-ah. *glances off screen awkwardly*
I have to be honest; I had three moments throughout the film where I was ready to walk out, two of them very early in the film. I stayed strong though to the end, and to be fair this movie was incredible (in good and bad ways). I was still left with mixed feelings, and I feel like part of the negativity (other than one of its main themes with the character Noah) was how I grew up learning about the original story, the Christian version from the churches I attended when I was young (with a friend...my family and I are not really that religious, christian religious anyways :P ). And yet I couldn't help but feel "turned off" by Darren's interpretation, what with the rock creatures and the disgusting display of how low and horrific humanity had become for "the Creator" to want to wash out human's from the face of the earth, to Noah's infuriating belief that "the Creator" wants all human life dead and thus does nothing to save a innocent girl or believes no new life from human's should exist. I left the last line ambiguous for those that wish to see the movie so that I don't completely spoil it.
However; these are just my own personal feelings and a lot of these negative notions are based off my own gripes of what movies I see. If I had to compare what negative feelings I felt from another movie to this, I would unfortunately say Battlefield: Earth (That movie was such garbage with how horrible humanity had gone downhill in that movie...also the plot and acting, those sucked too). But, with my personal feelings aside; on the surface Noah is actually a fantastic movie. I did kind of try to watch the film in a different light though because of how ridiculous the interpretation got in the first half (again, mostly with the rock monsters). I ended up trying to view the movie as if I was watching life on an alternate planet Earth or an alien race that wasn't us. In a way, how the movie plays out it feels like we are watching a fantasy/sci-fi movie more than a religious epic because of how many religious people can find some of the elements of the fantasy portion absurd, and I don't blame them. This goes back to my childhood interpretation of the epic (I might also have strange fond memories of the Disney short cartoon of it.....How LOOK! Here comes the Do-o-o-o-o-ove! ).
But with my negative views already mentioned, here are the positive views that helped me keep my interest to the end. For one, the acting is great; everyone does a fantastic job with the roles they were given. The emotion is balanced and intense and it goes back to a bare-bones human level for what feels like a real situation drama in a fantastic element. Even with my gripes about the Belief/faith theme; that Creator's plans are just to Noah or that his family believes not everything Noah believes is meant to end in punishment and tragedy were still played out well to keep the drama aspect tolerable. Russell Crowe, Jennifer Connelly, Ray Winstone, Emma Watson and Anthony Hopkins all put on terrific performances though my faith in some of these characters became questionable at points. For instance; I've already stated about how sickening I started to get at Noah's devotion to blindly follow his faith in what he thinks the Creator wants from his flooding of the world (and if it wasn't clear at this point, I'm not a big fan in blind faith in something). But it's with Ray's performance as a descendant of Cain that mess's with my head. He is the leader/king of such a fallen disgusting race of lowly humans that makes me cringe and remind me of my hated from the other movie mentioned above. But there are scenes where we are shown that Cain too still wished faith in his Creator, calling him out to explain why the big guy wants to destroy despite believing Cain was following his will as well, that we were made in the Creator's image. He also rallies his men giving a speech about how we human's should have the right to choose to live or die, not some other force. Honestly; I started to feel a little sympathy for Cain, especially near the end when not only he but both of Noah's eldest sons Shem and Hamm planned to kill their own father (again; for those who want to watch the movie I'll leave it at that and you can find out why later). But Cain was the bad guy...I was beginning to feel sorry for the bad guy at the end...though his barbaric mannerism reminded me why I shouldn't.
Now as for these rock creatures...I betcha no one saw this coming as they weren't prominently featured in the trailers, and if they were how big of a role they were going to have in the film. The summarize; the rock creatures are supposed to be the Creator's helpers or Fallen Angels called the Watchers that took pity on Adam and Eve and willingly fled to Earth to help. To describe what they originally looked like, think angels but almost like fiery Phoenix's. But upon entering the planet they were forced into a smashing landing that melded them to the rocky surface, casting them in a rocky shell that I guess is a reminder of their betrayal against the Creator? Anyways; they still help the siblings of Adam and Eve, but as humanity grows the Rock Creatures are then cast out again as inferior beings nearly hunted to death...if not for Noah's grandfather Methuselah and his holy sword that turned a entire land and the armies of Cain into ash and cinder. With the exception of Methuselah, this incident leaves the Watchers to believe there was no saving humanity and despised them, calling human's liars. However; after Noah has his vision of the flood and sets out to talk with his grandfather, taking his family and getting chased by soldier's of Cain into the scarred scared land, they run into one of the Golem Watchers that believes in Noah's story and this, in turn after a fantastic miracle, prompts the others to help in Noah's duty to build the ark.
...yeah, see why I had to view this movie as a alternate reality fantasy/sci-fi movie?
Again; I want to make it clear that this movie IS great, but it's only going to connect to a certain amount of people (mainly those that are not hugely religious or can tolerate fantastic interpretations like these). I, personally, may not re-watch to often due to my own gripes. But I will not dismiss the hardwork, creativity, and deeply dramatic elements that does make this movie a definite watch (if not one watch just to get your take on it). In the end, I can't say everyone is going to agree, my best advice is to remember that you are going into a movie that has the familiar religious overtones but that it's interpenetrated in a very stylish and dramatic fantasy epic that it was set out to be. Darren, you crazy warped director you.....I didn't agree with everything, but great job nevertheless.
*DISCLAIMER* I will not be going into any arguments with commenters. I do not mind any form of opinion as we all have the right to free speech, but do not expect me to get sucked into a flame war. Please keep all opinions on a mature level......of course; this is on the possible basis I even get any comments at all :P
So, Darren Aronofsky's Noah............ye-a-a-a-a-a-ah. *glances off screen awkwardly*
I have to be honest; I had three moments throughout the film where I was ready to walk out, two of them very early in the film. I stayed strong though to the end, and to be fair this movie was incredible (in good and bad ways). I was still left with mixed feelings, and I feel like part of the negativity (other than one of its main themes with the character Noah) was how I grew up learning about the original story, the Christian version from the churches I attended when I was young (with a friend...my family and I are not really that religious, christian religious anyways :P ). And yet I couldn't help but feel "turned off" by Darren's interpretation, what with the rock creatures and the disgusting display of how low and horrific humanity had become for "the Creator" to want to wash out human's from the face of the earth, to Noah's infuriating belief that "the Creator" wants all human life dead and thus does nothing to save a innocent girl or believes no new life from human's should exist. I left the last line ambiguous for those that wish to see the movie so that I don't completely spoil it.
However; these are just my own personal feelings and a lot of these negative notions are based off my own gripes of what movies I see. If I had to compare what negative feelings I felt from another movie to this, I would unfortunately say Battlefield: Earth (That movie was such garbage with how horrible humanity had gone downhill in that movie...also the plot and acting, those sucked too). But, with my personal feelings aside; on the surface Noah is actually a fantastic movie. I did kind of try to watch the film in a different light though because of how ridiculous the interpretation got in the first half (again, mostly with the rock monsters). I ended up trying to view the movie as if I was watching life on an alternate planet Earth or an alien race that wasn't us. In a way, how the movie plays out it feels like we are watching a fantasy/sci-fi movie more than a religious epic because of how many religious people can find some of the elements of the fantasy portion absurd, and I don't blame them. This goes back to my childhood interpretation of the epic (I might also have strange fond memories of the Disney short cartoon of it.....How LOOK! Here comes the Do-o-o-o-o-ove! ).
But with my negative views already mentioned, here are the positive views that helped me keep my interest to the end. For one, the acting is great; everyone does a fantastic job with the roles they were given. The emotion is balanced and intense and it goes back to a bare-bones human level for what feels like a real situation drama in a fantastic element. Even with my gripes about the Belief/faith theme; that Creator's plans are just to Noah or that his family believes not everything Noah believes is meant to end in punishment and tragedy were still played out well to keep the drama aspect tolerable. Russell Crowe, Jennifer Connelly, Ray Winstone, Emma Watson and Anthony Hopkins all put on terrific performances though my faith in some of these characters became questionable at points. For instance; I've already stated about how sickening I started to get at Noah's devotion to blindly follow his faith in what he thinks the Creator wants from his flooding of the world (and if it wasn't clear at this point, I'm not a big fan in blind faith in something). But it's with Ray's performance as a descendant of Cain that mess's with my head. He is the leader/king of such a fallen disgusting race of lowly humans that makes me cringe and remind me of my hated from the other movie mentioned above. But there are scenes where we are shown that Cain too still wished faith in his Creator, calling him out to explain why the big guy wants to destroy despite believing Cain was following his will as well, that we were made in the Creator's image. He also rallies his men giving a speech about how we human's should have the right to choose to live or die, not some other force. Honestly; I started to feel a little sympathy for Cain, especially near the end when not only he but both of Noah's eldest sons Shem and Hamm planned to kill their own father (again; for those who want to watch the movie I'll leave it at that and you can find out why later). But Cain was the bad guy...I was beginning to feel sorry for the bad guy at the end...though his barbaric mannerism reminded me why I shouldn't.
Now as for these rock creatures...I betcha no one saw this coming as they weren't prominently featured in the trailers, and if they were how big of a role they were going to have in the film. The summarize; the rock creatures are supposed to be the Creator's helpers or Fallen Angels called the Watchers that took pity on Adam and Eve and willingly fled to Earth to help. To describe what they originally looked like, think angels but almost like fiery Phoenix's. But upon entering the planet they were forced into a smashing landing that melded them to the rocky surface, casting them in a rocky shell that I guess is a reminder of their betrayal against the Creator? Anyways; they still help the siblings of Adam and Eve, but as humanity grows the Rock Creatures are then cast out again as inferior beings nearly hunted to death...if not for Noah's grandfather Methuselah and his holy sword that turned a entire land and the armies of Cain into ash and cinder. With the exception of Methuselah, this incident leaves the Watchers to believe there was no saving humanity and despised them, calling human's liars. However; after Noah has his vision of the flood and sets out to talk with his grandfather, taking his family and getting chased by soldier's of Cain into the scarred scared land, they run into one of the Golem Watchers that believes in Noah's story and this, in turn after a fantastic miracle, prompts the others to help in Noah's duty to build the ark.
...yeah, see why I had to view this movie as a alternate reality fantasy/sci-fi movie?
Again; I want to make it clear that this movie IS great, but it's only going to connect to a certain amount of people (mainly those that are not hugely religious or can tolerate fantastic interpretations like these). I, personally, may not re-watch to often due to my own gripes. But I will not dismiss the hardwork, creativity, and deeply dramatic elements that does make this movie a definite watch (if not one watch just to get your take on it). In the end, I can't say everyone is going to agree, my best advice is to remember that you are going into a movie that has the familiar religious overtones but that it's interpenetrated in a very stylish and dramatic fantasy epic that it was set out to be. Darren, you crazy warped director you.....I didn't agree with everything, but great job nevertheless.
*DISCLAIMER* I will not be going into any arguments with commenters. I do not mind any form of opinion as we all have the right to free speech, but do not expect me to get sucked into a flame war. Please keep all opinions on a mature level......of course; this is on the possible basis I even get any comments at all :P
I'M GONNA TRY IT OUT!....
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Fuck the Day After Valentines Day
Posted 11 years agoYou know how bad the feeling is where you wake up the next day remembering you are still broke (or in my case I have money but I'm not allowed to spend most of it because I have to save up for my final car payment come September), your job sucks (and I still can't feel comfortable anymore after last Sunday), you're still living at home (no matter how much I love my parents...I want my own apartment/house), your drawing and writing skills are still degraded/horrible and still can't find the patience/motivation/energy, fat, and not a cat/wolf/whatever than being human?
Add waking up without a significant other and the day after Valentines just makes you feel 50x more as depressed.
...'buries my head in pillows sulking'...
Don't expect anything worthwhile from btw, like I said; my creativity and skills are crap.
Add waking up without a significant other and the day after Valentines just makes you feel 50x more as depressed.
...'buries my head in pillows sulking'...
Don't expect anything worthwhile from btw, like I said; my creativity and skills are crap.
Fuck Valentines Day
Posted 11 years ago...but to everyone else; have a happy one.
Sorry Justin, but I am a Idiot
Posted 12 years agoOk, this a going to turn into a personal rant so I apologize for a lackluster journal entry. But...I'm sick and tired of myself.
Seriously; I think I have a mental disorder or mood disorder, some kind of psychological problem. I have NO energy, NO confidence, NO focus or concentration, NO willingness to do much. This has been a problem for quite some time, but last night hit me hard over the noggin'. Out of everything I did yesterday; the only thing I accomplished AT ALL was getting my taxes done the moment my W-2 arrived. THAT of its self is technically a good thing (as I avoid the Tax Day Monster for another year and will be getting a hefty refund...that I will have to save towards my Final Car Payment now because I screwed up my original plans), but that was ALL I DID yesterday that was productive and/or social.
My day yesterday was spent getting up, going to work and being lethargic for most of it, coming home, staring at the ceiling for an hour trying to concentrate on writing, staring at my backpack for an hour contemplating getting my paper and pencils out to draw, glued mindlessly to the television for 3 hours watching reruns of shows I could care less about anymore, and 2 hours lying in bed. My taxes only took me 2 hours to complete...2 HOURS (hell, maybe even less; I don't have all this other crap they check for because I'm still just a single living-at-home part-time shlump). I could have easily clicked on Skype to finally talk to friends (one I made a promise the other day to talk). And what do I do?....I STARE at the fucking icon for 30 mins until I decide I can't stay in my fucking room anymore, leave the house and just drive off for an hour to wherever the fuck I want.
I wasted so much precious time; wasted so many opportunities to get any personal work done; betrayed a friend or two's trust for my lack of commitment, tossed out several hours of my life just staring blankly into space. WHY!?!?!?
Sure; I'm depressed right now. I've been thinking about how poorly I've been dealing with my finances/money and how my grand plan to save up enough for my final car payment this coming September crumbled because my job was and still is a piece of shit changing how my boss is allowed to schedule people for work. Part-timers at my job are ONLY ALLOWED to work 25 hrs A WEEK NOW...25 HRS!?!?!? But it's not just my job at fault here; I also have my own blames, spending money on crap I didn't need (food especially...I'm not a cat, I'm a fucking goddamn pig), somehow spending more on my Credit Cards even after I used chunks of my past Tax refunds and extra money that came my way to help reduce my debt ONLY to somehow come back to where I exactly started. How did I even accumulate so much fucking debt in the first place?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*bashes my head against a wall until a gaping hole is left and my forehead is bleeding*
Why am I such a fucking slacker? Why can't I just focus? Why can't I just find time to talk to my friends instead of flaking or jwekndkkl;amf???
My life is like a fart. I need to find some air fresheners or something or I'm never going to get out of this funk I've buried myself in.
Seriously; I think I have a mental disorder or mood disorder, some kind of psychological problem. I have NO energy, NO confidence, NO focus or concentration, NO willingness to do much. This has been a problem for quite some time, but last night hit me hard over the noggin'. Out of everything I did yesterday; the only thing I accomplished AT ALL was getting my taxes done the moment my W-2 arrived. THAT of its self is technically a good thing (as I avoid the Tax Day Monster for another year and will be getting a hefty refund...that I will have to save towards my Final Car Payment now because I screwed up my original plans), but that was ALL I DID yesterday that was productive and/or social.
My day yesterday was spent getting up, going to work and being lethargic for most of it, coming home, staring at the ceiling for an hour trying to concentrate on writing, staring at my backpack for an hour contemplating getting my paper and pencils out to draw, glued mindlessly to the television for 3 hours watching reruns of shows I could care less about anymore, and 2 hours lying in bed. My taxes only took me 2 hours to complete...2 HOURS (hell, maybe even less; I don't have all this other crap they check for because I'm still just a single living-at-home part-time shlump). I could have easily clicked on Skype to finally talk to friends (one I made a promise the other day to talk). And what do I do?....I STARE at the fucking icon for 30 mins until I decide I can't stay in my fucking room anymore, leave the house and just drive off for an hour to wherever the fuck I want.
I wasted so much precious time; wasted so many opportunities to get any personal work done; betrayed a friend or two's trust for my lack of commitment, tossed out several hours of my life just staring blankly into space. WHY!?!?!?
Sure; I'm depressed right now. I've been thinking about how poorly I've been dealing with my finances/money and how my grand plan to save up enough for my final car payment this coming September crumbled because my job was and still is a piece of shit changing how my boss is allowed to schedule people for work. Part-timers at my job are ONLY ALLOWED to work 25 hrs A WEEK NOW...25 HRS!?!?!? But it's not just my job at fault here; I also have my own blames, spending money on crap I didn't need (food especially...I'm not a cat, I'm a fucking goddamn pig), somehow spending more on my Credit Cards even after I used chunks of my past Tax refunds and extra money that came my way to help reduce my debt ONLY to somehow come back to where I exactly started. How did I even accumulate so much fucking debt in the first place?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*bashes my head against a wall until a gaping hole is left and my forehead is bleeding*
Why am I such a fucking slacker? Why can't I just focus? Why can't I just find time to talk to my friends instead of flaking or jwekndkkl;amf???
My life is like a fart. I need to find some air fresheners or something or I'm never going to get out of this funk I've buried myself in.
Hitmen, Condolences, and Update
Posted 12 years agoScratching ur head on what the hell the title means? Well its quite simple really...(actually its not....well, maybe the condolences and update part).
Woke up with this weird feeling of feeling alive after my latest dream. I was apparently friends with someone who recognized a mob boss that was supposed dead or in hiding, and my friend had a hit out on him because of it. And because he told me about the alive and hiding mob boss, after he was shacked the gangsters were plotting to come after me. Lots of freaking out, fortifying my house, and awkward explanations to my parents. I nearly tried to murder a real life friend to some reason parking his jeep on the tip of my driveway with a stick and heavy pillow. What the fudge was I on last night? I honestly have no idea why my subconscious decided to play a gangster film in my head. All I know is that I felt wonderful when I woke, that I didn't have hitmen breathing down my neck ruining my life for something I wasn't really involved in.
Course now I feel like shiz again as I ponder my finances and my coming final payment on my car...and having to ask my dad to let me dip into inheritance money to help with the payment. Its my money...but I don't like having to explain how I fucked up with not saving enough on my own over the last 3 years.
The second part of the title refers to a recent tragic event in the gaming/reviewer community, the passing of Justin "JeWario". It was a shock to hear he took his own life when it sounds like there hadn't been any concrete evidence from his friends and follow colleagues that he had been suffering from depression. I tried to see any evidence of this in Nash's most recent WTFIWWY segment which guest started Justin...but I just didn't see it beyond a weary face that could be just from long hours of something something. I wasn't a huge fan merely because I hadn't watched his channel, but from the guest appearances and specials he did with his buddies from That Guy With the Glasses, and from the current testimony from various people, he certainly was a very entertaining and lovable gentlemen. You will be missed JeWario, and my condolences to his friends and family.
Finally, an update...um...
Still writing and drawing, just nothing really finished other that posting the Com pics I did for Flowtac and a recent revision of and old pic (which I need to post both I believe). Other than that, its going slow at the moment and pushing to concentrate.
But for now, I'm gonna concentrate on these sliders from Buffalo Wild Wings. Chow!
Woke up with this weird feeling of feeling alive after my latest dream. I was apparently friends with someone who recognized a mob boss that was supposed dead or in hiding, and my friend had a hit out on him because of it. And because he told me about the alive and hiding mob boss, after he was shacked the gangsters were plotting to come after me. Lots of freaking out, fortifying my house, and awkward explanations to my parents. I nearly tried to murder a real life friend to some reason parking his jeep on the tip of my driveway with a stick and heavy pillow. What the fudge was I on last night? I honestly have no idea why my subconscious decided to play a gangster film in my head. All I know is that I felt wonderful when I woke, that I didn't have hitmen breathing down my neck ruining my life for something I wasn't really involved in.
Course now I feel like shiz again as I ponder my finances and my coming final payment on my car...and having to ask my dad to let me dip into inheritance money to help with the payment. Its my money...but I don't like having to explain how I fucked up with not saving enough on my own over the last 3 years.
The second part of the title refers to a recent tragic event in the gaming/reviewer community, the passing of Justin "JeWario". It was a shock to hear he took his own life when it sounds like there hadn't been any concrete evidence from his friends and follow colleagues that he had been suffering from depression. I tried to see any evidence of this in Nash's most recent WTFIWWY segment which guest started Justin...but I just didn't see it beyond a weary face that could be just from long hours of something something. I wasn't a huge fan merely because I hadn't watched his channel, but from the guest appearances and specials he did with his buddies from That Guy With the Glasses, and from the current testimony from various people, he certainly was a very entertaining and lovable gentlemen. You will be missed JeWario, and my condolences to his friends and family.
Finally, an update...um...
Still writing and drawing, just nothing really finished other that posting the Com pics I did for
Flowtac and a recent revision of and old pic (which I need to post both I believe). Other than that, its going slow at the moment and pushing to concentrate.But for now, I'm gonna concentrate on these sliders from Buffalo Wild Wings. Chow!
