Hey guys. Firstly, I am still alive, but still working my way up to feeling 100% again. The stress and anxiety I have been putting myself through over all of this has played a significant part in me feeling miserable. So, I have been doing my absolute best not to focus on every little thing that feels wrong and just focusing on relaxing and distracting myself.

It hard to believe that it has only been seven days since my MMR Vaccine Shot, but it has felt like a life time ago. It also has not been too fun wondering how I would be able to afford groceries or pay off the loan that I owe while I am feeling sick. It has been a very rough start of the month for me and all I want right now is to feel better and to know that I will have what I need when I need it most.

With that said, if anyone would be able to send me a donation, or purchase one or two of the adoptable’s I still have available, it would mean a lot to me and would also help ease my stress and anxiety so I can hopefully recover much quicker. But that is only if you absolutely want to. Just thought I would put it out there, cause until I am back on my feet again, my options are limited.

With all that said, I hope you all have what you need and that you all are doing well. Lots of love, sincerely, Todd.

Hey guys. Just thought I would let you in on what has been going on with me recently. Back on Friday, I got my first measles vaccination shot, for those who got it themselves, there are some temporary side effects. I am currently four days in and I have been experiencing some concerning stuff, mainly the development of tinnitus in my right ear, It has been constantly ringing since the day after I got my shot and it has been deeply concerning to me.

So much so, that to clear out any potential wax build up that might be causing it, I used a bobby pin to carefully feel around in there. During one of those attempts, I got struck with a bad sensation of vertigo and I called 911 to rush me down to the local emergency room and get me checked out. I was there from 8 PM to mid-night, they checked my vitals, did blood work, and did a CT scan of my head. They didn’t find anything wrong inside my head, I also had an allergic reaction to the medication they gave me for the CT scan, so they have me some medicine to counter act the reaction, then after going over my lab results, I was dispatched. They found no cause for my tinnitus and I am still dealing with it.

I’m going to my local clinic for a follow-up check up with my primary doctor see what they have to say and see if they can help me schedule something with an ear specialist about this damn tinnitus. To tell you the truth, its deeply troubling to me and I don’t want this to be something I’ll have to live with for the rest of my life. I’m… I’m scared, really scared and I don’t know what to do.

Hey guys, hope you all had a great Halloween. I myself had a pretty mellow Halloween, normally, me and my best friend would get together every Halloween and hang out. But this year, it had to be postponed because his infant son had come down with the measles and I wasn’t vaccinated for it. So today, I got my first Measles vaccine shot. The next one will be sometime during the first week of December, so I got a little bit to wait until then. I was told that for the first two or three days after my initial dose, I would possibly come down with a fever, it would be an indication that my immune system would be integrating the vaccine into my immune system. So I got that to look forward to. But aside from that, for those who are interested in claiming my last two Halloween adoptables, you will have until November the 3rd before they will no longer be available for purchase until next Halloween, the same also goes for my Vampire Xenomorph adoptable. If any of them sound like a potentially great addition to your OC roster, you’ll have til November 3rd to claim them.

Hey guys, just thought I would make another journal entry to let you all know how I’ve been fairing. I’m still dealing with on and off bouts of anxiety mostly when I first wake up and several hours after waking up. I’ve been doing a lot of meditating to help bring myself back into balance with myself mentally and emotionally. It seems like the only times when I feel the most at peace are when I am asleep or meditating.

I will be speaking with my therapist tomorrow, hopefully after our session, I will feel a lot safer in my own skin and not worry so much about what is currently going on, or what could happen. That’s been a constant struggle I have been dealing with, just revisiting anxiety inducing thoughts and concerns about the future while trying to remind myself of the fact that I am here in the present and I am perfectly safe and that what I have been most freaked out about is highly unlikely to ever happen.

Just a lot of catastrophizing about a whole bunch of What-Ifs? I am continuing to work with myself to stop thinking about those terrible things and to get back to enjoying life again, hopefully it will all work out. Cause I want to live a life where I am not paralyzed with fear over what could happen at any moment. I want to be able to do what I love to do without having such horrible thoughts hold me back. And I wish the same kind of happiness and prosperity for everyone else who may be going through what I have been going through.

Hey gang, I just wanted to give you all an update on how I am doing. The good news is, I am still alive. I’m doing a bit better now, still anxious about that whole nuclear posturing between the US and Russia, but I have also been doing some research that is beneficial, mostly regarding all the safeguards put in place to help prevent Nuclear War from ever happening and it has given me some much-needed reassurance.

I am also going to try to completely avoid the news all together, since it has just been doing me more harm than good. I still have the compulsion to check the news to see what the status is on that subject, but I am trying my absolute best not to give in. Rather, whenever I feel the need to check the news, I’m instead going to focus on what I learned about the various nuclear deterrence that are currently in place and do my best to move on.

Hopefully, I can kick this whole worrying thing all together, after spending the last few days waking up scared and feeling uncomfortable facing the day, and the constant high blood pressure, I can safely say that I do not want to live like this. It’s not living, it is hell.

Hey guys, just wanted to take this time to get something off my chest. As I’m sure a lot of you probably know, our “President” Donald Trump has announced on his Truth social, addressing the former President of Russia, who has been egging Trump on over the deadline to ceasefire with Ukraine. Trump said he ordered two “Nuclear Submarines” near Russia in response to the quip make by the former Russian president.
Basically, toying with instigating nuclear war with Russia. This news has really gotten me super worried, so much so that I am barely able to keep any food down, or even be awake during the daytime, with sleep being the only time I feel at peace. I am not doing well at all. I don’t think I have been more scared than I am right now. Nearly every minute of my waking time has been worried about shit going south and our president plunging us headfirst into Nuclear War over a social media post.
I hope beyond hope that nothing will come of this, that Trump will TACO once again and that this can all be averted. Even he, in his addled state of mind would know better than to risk all out Nuclear War and Mutually Assured Destruction. Certainly, wouldn’t be good for his grifting/business enterprise. I dunno. I just don’t know, all I know is that I don’t want to die like that and i don’t know how much more of this I can take, its been so bad that I have even contemplated suicide of all things. I don’t want it to come to that, I’m terrified and I don’t know what to do. :’(

Hey guys, just wanted to let you all know that i still have a plethora of adoptables that are still available for sale, Including my newest promotion the Tyraclaw Warrior Adopts: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61565169/ A lot of time and work went into these beauties and each Adoptable sold, is more money to help me get by. So if you, or anyone you know, would like to either claim one of my premade adopts, or order a personalized one based off of the ones i have done over the years. Please do reach out to me and let me know. It would mean the world to me.

Hey gang, TR69 here with a quick little announcement for you guys. Once again, I find myself in need of some monies, so I am currently working on a new and exciting custom adopt sale I think you guys will really like. I certainly am excited about it. So be sure to stay tuned and keep an eye on my gallery for when the price sheet for this new promotion drops.

Hey everyone. Just wanted to take a minute to make a little announcement. Considering the hard times I currently find myself in, I have decided that it is time for me to up my prices on my art commission services effective immediately. As before, alternative payment installments can be arranged for those who are not able to pay the full price of commissions upfront. I also would like to take this opportunity to get some feedback from you concerning art commissions and adoptable’s. Seeing as I seem to be getting more returns on adopts more than commissions.

I would genuinely like to know who amongst you would favor more? Art Commission’s from me? Or Adoptable’s? This would really help me know what to put my focus on from here on out, as far as making money goes. And to those who have already commissioned art from me and are waiting for their respective pics to be completed, rest easy, I am doing my absolute best to get around to each one of them as best as possible. I hope that with an improvement to the income I make from art commissions and/or adoptable’s from this point on, will allow me to more easily work on current art commission’s and to churn them out much faster, without having to scramble to whip up a whole new adopt or two that may or may not sell at all.

I am also hopeful that I will also have more time to focus on more personal projects as well, because I have had so many amazing ideas for new pieces of art and never have had much time or mental/emotional drive to work on them, either due to trying to rake in some extra money or doing catch-up work on commissions. For those considering commissioning me for some new pieces of art, be sure to stay tuned for when I upload my new art commission price sheet, and we can go from there. Also, while you are here, some feedback on this would be immensely appreciated by your old pal, TR69. And as always thank you all for your continued love, support and interest in me and my work. You guys are awesome.

Hey gang, after some time to mull things over, I have decided to finish Mega’s comm and to also take this time to let everyone know that I didn’t want any of this to happen and that I have been doing my absolute best to make the best out of this situation. And I also will be updating my commission info to include a disclaimer regarding my clinical anxiety and how it might effect my ability to perform my artistic duties for any potential new clients to see, if there be any after all of this BS. But regardless I want this all to be done and over with, I do not have the time nor the energy to put up with this any longer.

Hey gang, just wanted to take this time to give you an update on how I have been doing, been taking a plethora of supplements and have also been going on a bit of a diet at this time as well. So far, it has been a long and grueling process. Especially in regards to my current sleep schedule and being able to function without having to worry about something. It’s also affected my ability to draw much of anything at the moment, but I am hoping that won’t be the issue for long. Though I cannot help but feel a bit anxious about where my next bit of money will be coming from, especially since I have a dentist appointment on the 26th of this month and I need $200 for that. But yeah, that’s pretty much where I am at now. Broke, still recovering, and not quite all there sometimes.

Hey gang, Todd here with an update. So I recently relapsed in regards to my anxiety and it has been hitting me super hard. So I am once again putting myself on leave once more till I can get back on my feet again, this means that I will be unable to resume work on my current art commissions and devote my time towards getting better.

And because I know how this new would make some of you feel, especially those who have been waiting patiently for your comms, but all I can say is, im so very, very sorry. I certainly have felt pretty shitty about that for a while and the recent turn of events certainly hasn’t helped with that.

All I can do is ask that you continue to be patient with me, I know it has been a long time, but my primary obligation at this time is to my health, wellbeing, and sanity. You have not been forgotten and I will be true to my word. But for now, I just need to take a break and get my life put back together. Thank you all for your love and support, it means an awful lot.


TR69.

Hey gang, Todd here to let you know that I am ready to resume taking and working on art commissions now. Still dealing with little bouts of anxiety here and there, but for the most part, I am feeling much, much better. So, for those who have already commissioned something from me, I will be resuming work on those starting today (Monday) and for those who have been waiting to commission something from me recently, I am ready to do business with you.

Also, for Halloween this year, I would like to hear from you, my followers and watchers, what would you like me to put up for sale this Halloween season? More standard adoptables? Chibi adopts? Or another pop culture based personalized adopts promotion? I would love to hear your suggestions. But yeah, I just wanted to let you guys know that I am doing better, minus a few moments of anxiety here and there, and I am eager to get back to creating again and making some monies from my work again.

Again, I would like to thank you all for your continued patience and support. I do not know where I would be without you guys.

Hey gang. So, I managed to make my follow-up appointment with my doctor earlier today. I told him what happened to me over the course of the weekend. He agreed that he took me off my meds faster than I was physically ready to be and has recommended that I stick with 75 milligrams of my old meds to get me back on track with myself. I also received the results of the bloodwork he did for me during my last visit. For the most part, I am physically healthy. I just need to do more moving around, get more sun, and more water during the day and that should help my overall mental and physical health. Especially my cholesterol. So, for now, I am still picking up the pieces and getting my new routine put in place. So, I will be taking at least another week to recuperate before I pick up doing art commissions again. As before, I am deeply grateful for your continued love and support, and I am looking forward to getting back on the horse soon.

Hey gang. Hope you all are doing well. Yes, I am still alive. But I am still trying to find my mental, emotional, and physical footing. It’s been a hell of a nightmare to get through. Still fighting bouts of borderline panic attacks, nausea, cold sweats, and overthinking. Thankfully, I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow, hopefully I can get some answers on how long these lingering symptoms may last and what I can do to help myself get back to my normal, mentally stable, self. As always, thank you all for your love and support. You guys are awesome.

Hey gang, just wanted to let you know that I will need to take an extended break due to a medical related incident that has occurred over the course of the last two days. Basically, I was supposed to change my meds, as prescribed by my doctor, but the new pills I was supposed to start on made me feel even worse than before. Heightened anxiety, insomnia, along with nausea and constipation. Basically, nothing short of a living hell. I am in the process of getting myself back to normal. I don’t know how long this will take, but I am in no condition to work on any kind of art whatsoever for the time being.

That means I am unable to continue work on any current art projects and commissions I have, nor will I be able to tackle any new commissions for now. For those who are curious about what meds I was taking and what meds have led to this current issue. I was taking Sertraline, and I was going to transition over to Wellbutrin, long story short, the Wellbutrin was a terrible mistake and only made my existing condition worse. Thankfully, I no longer am on the stuff and back on the sertraline. Hopefully within the next few days or weeks, I will be back to normal. Till then, I just need to rest and take it easy for a bit. This has been the scariest, most traumatic medical related experience I have had to date.

So, with that said, I just want to let you know that I am still alive, and I am slowly recovering. Till I am fully recovered, I will have to refrain from tackling anything art related. Thank you all for the support you have given me, and I hope I will get better soon. Nobody should ever have to endure what I have; it was horrific on so many levels.

Hey there gang. You read right, i now have my own Trello and have finally managed to properly organize my workload. From commissions i have yet to work on, to the commissions i am currently working on. Along with the most recent pieces i have completed. So now me and my client's can keep track of the various art commissions we have paid for and started work on. If i missed anyone, please do remind me in the comments and i will make sure to update my info ASAP. Hopefully this will make things a bit easier for all of us. https://trello.com/b/8BHX38RY/my-art-commissions

Hey gang, just wanted to take a moment to say a few things. Firstly, I want to thank each and everyone of you amazing people who have supported me and my work over this year, and many years before, you guys have made it possible for me to get to where I am today. Not only because of your financial support, but for helping me further develop and refine my skills as an artist. When I first took my work to the web, I never imagined I would be where I am now. Although I do not have as many followers like other more popular artists out there, I am extremely grateful to have such a wonderful audience like you all.

With this year ending and the new one about to begin, I would like to also take this time to ask you guys what sort of content you would like to see more of from me in 2024 and what sort of content you would be interested in investing in more between art commission’s and adoptable’s. I ask this because I want to continue to entertain you while also being able to comfortably support myself on a month-to-month basis. Every little bit helps in every way, so long as I can continue to support myself via my art and entertain you all at the same time. And in the end, that is all I really want in life. To continue to do what I love and to make some money from it at the same time.

Regardless of what this new year will have in store, I am still very grateful for what I have and all the amazing people I have in my life at this time. And I could not ask for more than that. With that, I hope each and everyone here has a very merry Christmas and a supremely happy new year.

Wishing you all the very best, Todd Hammon (TodoxasRogue69).

Welp, it has been a week and the results for this years Halloween Adopts theme are in. Based on your votes, this years Halloween Adoptables will be based around “Killer Klowns from Outer Space” Im so excited to start working on these Klown adopts, I was hoping that this would be the winning idea for these adopts. I absolutely love Killer Klowns from Outer Space and with the success of my personalized Predator Adopts that I churned out last year, I am super stoked to put out personalized Killer Klown adopts.

I have spent much of this week working on the cosmetic items for these adopts from the make-up patterns, hairstyles, weapons, to various other objects and outfits. It has been a bit of a grind, but I am super excited with the progress I have made on those. I should be ready to put together and post the price sheet for these adopts soon. So for those interested in getting your own personalized Killer Klown adopts from yours truly, be sure to stay tuned for the official price sheet for this promotion.

And lastly, this service will be available through the entire month of October, starting from the uploading of the official price sheet til the 31st. If enough of these adopts sell well enough, I might extend this service to Saturday November 4th of this year. Either way, I have a feeling this is gonna be a hell of a month, hopefully, a very fun and lucrative one. But I guess we shall see how it plays out. As always, thank you for your continued support and here’s looking forward to seeing who will claim their own Klown adopt/adopts from me. 😊

Hey gang, Todoxas here with a special announcement for this year’s Halloween season. To celebrate the spookiest time of the year, I shall be putting out a special batch, or two of Halloween adoptable’s. But what specifically these adopts will be, that is where you guys come in. Starting today, I will leave open a poll where you guys will decide what kind of adopts you would want me to put out for you to invest in. I got quite a few fun ideas for Adoptable batches for this years Halloween. Now without further ado, here are your idea choices for this year’s Halloween themed adoptable batch made by me for you lovely, lovely folks.

A. Killer Klowns from Outer Space (Sexualized assortment of female/futa/dickgirl klown adopts, with the option to either adopt one of the pre-made adopts, or, for a little extra money, can commission a personalized Adopt/Adopts. Both are completely optional.)

B. Cryptozoological Creatures (Sexualized assortment of female/futa/dickgirl cryptid adopts, Including Dogman, Mothman, The Flatwoods Monster, Reptilian Humanoid, and the Jersey Devil. Other Cryptids are negotiable for either base adopts or commissioned personalized adopts.)

C. Kaiju (Sexualized assortment of original female/futa/dickgirl kaiju adopts, ranging from terrestrial, aerial, and Aquatic type giant monster girls. Base adopts will be based on these three types, personalized adopts are optional if you are hoping to get a specific kind of kaiju adopt.)

D. Sensual Serial Killers (Sexualized assortment of original female/futa/dickgirl slasher adopts, with various themed outfits, masks, and weapons. Want to claim one or two personalized sensual slasher adopts? For an extra bit of money, this will be made available to those who would like to take advantage of this option.)

Comment down below to place your vote, along with any creative suggestions you would like to make for your chosen adoptables theme. Voting will be live from now til 1 AM Mountain Standard Time October 1st. Looking forward to seeing which idea wins. Til then, hope you all have an awesome week and as always, thanks for the continued love and support you have shown me this year. It is deeply appreciated. :)

Hey gang, TR69 here. Just dropping by to let you know that I am still alive and I am working on an exciting and ambitious new adopts batch. This one will be different from the ones I have put out so far. Instead of it showcasing multiple adopts of a singular species, this will be a batch consisting of oc’s of various races. Specifically, those who hail from the single most iconic and beloved Sci Fi franchise of all time. I will not say exactly what it is, that will be revealed when the batch itself is done.

And instead of the usual four adopts per batch, this batch will have six different adopts. Also, due to the insane amount of attention and detail that I am putting into these new adopts, they each will go for $40 each, a price I feel is well worth it for these beauties, as i’m sure you will agree once you see them. As to where I am at now with them, one of these new adopts is completed and I am nearly finished with the second one.

Aside from that, I do not have much to share, side from the current lack of monies I currently have and how I am hoping to get some more work soon. But aside from that, if anyone here would like for me to keep them up to date on the development of this new Adopts batch, feel free to let me know. As always, thank you all for your continued patience and support, I deeply appreciate it.

Hey guy's. I am happy to let everyone know that after a very long week of recovery, i am now all better now. Having recovered from the recent bout of sickness i had beforehand. Granted, i have a bit of a lingering cough, but aside from that, i feel like my old self again. So, starting Monday, i will be resuming work on the current art commission's i have and will also begin churning out personal works of my own as well. To all of my viewers and supporters, i wanna just say, thank you for your patience and i look forward to getting back to what i love to do most. Creating exciting new content for both myself and you guys.

Hey everyone, Todd here. Just writing to let you guys know that i am currently not feeling all too well, so for those who are waiting on art commissions you have paid me to do, i will have to put them on hold until i am feeling better. Thank you all for your continued patience and support. Hope you all have an amazing week.

Hey guys, Todd here with something I feel should be brought to everyone’s attention. Yesterday, I was hired by the manager of my grocery store’s bakery department to do cartoon portraits of customer’s who wanted them for their 10th anniversary celebration. I worked my booth for two hours and did portraits for six people during that time.

At the end of it, I had earned about $200 in total. And from here, this is where I made a terrible mistake. Because i did not live anywhere near my nearest bank, and because I wanted to use the money, I earned to make some online purchases, I bought a prepaid gift card from the same grocery store I did those portraits at and put $196 on it. After heading home and taking a three-hour nap, I went to the website written on the card and activated it. I then purchased four items from ebay, which would have come out to nearly $95 in total, but because one item was cancelled, I only ended up paying only $65 or so for those items.

After that, I did not use my card again until today, when I tried to purchase something else with it, I was unable to and the error message said my card was not valid and that I needed to check my information and/or my available balance, so I tried to do just that, but I got an error message, saying my card info was incorrect, except that I knew it was. So, I did some research to investigate what this issue is and how I can resolve it. But as I did, I began to realize that I had more than likely been scammed and after stumbling across this video, my suspicions were proven correct. So now, I have more than likely lost $130 of my hard-earned money to some asshole scammers in India or someplace. So, on top of having to find a way to recuperate my losses, I felt I would put this out there, so this does not happen to any of you guys. Never use SecureSpend Prepaid Gift Cards at all, if you value the money that you are about to put on there and do not want it to be stolen, just do not use those prepaid gift cards. In fact, I would recommend doing your research on this stuff, so that you do not end up like me and many other victims of this scummy operation.

But other than that, I hope you all are doing well, and thanks for reading this entry.

Welp. It has officially been one week since my last journal entry. You have spoken and the results are officially in. By a landslide victory, we have, not one, but two winners, in a first ever tie. So I will be putting out two batches of adopts, one for each of the winning hybrids.

And what are the winning hybrids you ask? None other than the Stegospinus from Jurassic Park Chaos Effect and the Indotaurus from Jurassic World Alive. And with that, be sure to keep a look out for these two batches, for they should soon be available.

Stegospinus. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1qv.....usp=share_link

Indotaurus. https://drive.google.com/file/d/15l.....usp=share_link