We all look back and regret things in our lives. We regret lost loves, lost friends, and some of the choses we have made. There are people that where in my life for a long time and I regret that they are not now. But as I look forward I'm very happy where I am now. The things that I have gone through in my past have made me who I am now and I have learned from them and grown.
I'm looking forward to the future and It looks so bright. Our family is moving in to a bigger house with more space. I'm looking at going to back to school for my vet tec. I'm so excited to be going back to school after being a Stay at home mom for that past 3 years. LIFE IS AWESOME!!!!

So it's been a good 2 years since I have written a journal on here. Life is good. Hope everyone is doing well.
I'm excited for Halloween, as I always am. Stephan is 11 now and decided to go as Finn from adventure time. Chris, Stephan and I are going over to his best friends place after trick-or-treating. It is to bad though that after so little rain over the last month that it is raining today.
Have a fun and safe Halloween everyone

So,
life changes. You think you have it all worked out then it changes. Who you trust, who you love and and even good Friends come and go. Sometimes people just move on and other times its more painful because of what they do to loss your love, trust and friendship.
It can be hard to move on when someone hurts you but you do over time even if you never want to trust them with your feelings again.
But everything happens for a reason and in the long run it all works out for the best

I think it is odd that my last journal was about how great rainfurrest was going to be and now I about to wright my first journal since then and its on how we are not going this year and it sucks . due to some unforeseen and expensive car repairs we just can't afford to go now. :(
So everyone has to have twice as much fun to make up for the fun I would have had and take lots of pictures lol XD
and on a totally different note I have my account working again yayaya

I'm so excited. rainfurrest is this weekend and I can't what. this past year has sucked in so much and it will be nice to just take it easy and have some fun with my friends ya road trip with the gang lol. I can't what to go. see you all there. >^.^<

I have been fosteing my friend, Bobbi's, dog roach for her and I have enjoyed having him arount so much I have decided that We are gotting a puppy after roach goes back to live with him mom. And it's perfict timing to cuz a family friend of ours has a dog that's pregnate.
There dog jumped the fence and got nailed by the chocolate lab that lives next door, so the puppies should be really cute. I'm hoping that one of the puppies looks like dad.

So I'm fostering a dog its great. he's a really great dog, well behaved, sweet, great with other dogs.
He has a few issues with his bowl, rodents (he wants to eat them), and he's not good with little kids in his face, but he's great I'm really looking forward to having him over the next little while.

so I'm all moved in to my new place. I miss Alan Soooo much, It's only been like 4 days, lol, such a big baby. planing on haveing some peoples over for a house warming in a few weeks when the place is a little more organized and there aren't boxes all over the place lol.

hey everyone, I'm working on becoming a better artist but I'm needing things to draw so send me a message with requests, It will help me improve and you get free art out of the deal.
adult themes are great, but would perfer single players for now (still needs lots of work when im working with 2 people in a drawing)
beyond that anything is cool
oh and I'm really bad and drawing cub just so you know.
so cant what to see what I get asked to do first.

So life in the last few months has been like something out of a cheesy afternoon soup-opera.
my "bestfriend" convinced my boyfriend of nine years that I had been lying to him and if that wasn't bad enongh he was sleeping with her behind my back and lying to me about it. But the good news is that I have moved on and am seeing some one new and I'm happier then I have been in a long time since i had a feeling that i was being lied to.

on a different note, I got myself a tablet a little while ago and I'm going to start posting some art when I have some that I think is good enough for me to post. and I took up falconry and I'm loving it. I'll post some pics of the beautiful birds that I have been lucky enough to work with when I get to and help out.
there is Sabre, who is a Gryfalcon, Cabal, the Harris Hawk, and the "princess", lol, Mistral, she is a Peregrine Falcon. the wed site for the woman I have had the joy of spending time with her lovey birds is named Joanne, and her web site is www.emrysraptors.com. it has been so much fun so far.

So, Stephan, my 7year old, had his mouse, Ivory, pass away after about 2 years of having her in our family, on the day before Halloween. Well it's been a few Weeks and Stephan asked if we could get a new mouse or maybe a hamster or gerbil after Kristy, my brother's girl friend found a little mouse in her house and got bite by it and now has to go for rabies shots, but thats another story >.<.
So I took Stephan down the drive to the Mr. pets. we get there and he's looking at the mice and they have some teddy bear, black bear and panda hamsters and he's looking at them and he can't decide what to get. While Stephan is trying to decide what little fuzzy rodent to bring home, this little girl comes in with her mom and want's to take a look at the two baby guinea pigs that they have in the store. so they take them out of the cage and put them in a pet playpen on the floor. and Stephan's looking at them and decides he wants one, and some how convinced me that he is going to do all the work and take care of it and everything. and some how we came home with a guinea pigs. it still doesn't have a name but its really cute and has a really neat little personality.
tonight I took it out for a bit and to get it I had to move it's little house and I didn't put it back in to the same spot and when I put it back in the cage it was all mad and was trying to push its little house and wouldn't go in it. when I put it back in the right spot it ran in to it all happy lol
we still don't have a name for it so if you have any good name ideas let me know.

ok due to some drama in my life that I have no control over cuz some people are, well crazy and need to get there own life and move on. I have to use my junk email from now on for everything so if you had me on your msn messenger then feel free to add my new email and if you want to add me and you weren't on my old one feel free to add my as well.
So my new email that I'm going to use is haro_chan[at]live.com .

So we are leaving for rainfurrest on thursday and I so cant what. I get to see all my friends and make lots of new ones yaya.
I'm also going to be putting up the fox paintings that I have done in the last little bit in the art show so come take a look at them and of course bid on them if you like them. hope to see you all there

I recently learned that I have Friends that are two faced and back stabbing and the worst part of it is that they where my closest friends the people that I thought that I could tell everything and would always be there for me. The people that I spent almost all my free time with. The type of friends that where like family.
But when I need them to be there for me they where no where to be seen, With exuses that they where "busy" or that since I had just been dumped by my boyfriend of 8 and a half years, that they where avouding the drama.

In the end the only drama that happened was because of thing that they said and did and now they have all lost a loyal friend that would never do to them what they have to me, as well as the ring leader of the hole thing has lost what she wanted most, my Boyfriend.

But in the end at least I didn't lose my boyfriend, we are back together and working on things. I also learned that I need to be less trusting of people. I also have realized that people are selfish and those of us that aren't are few and far between and I also know who my real friends are and those who are just there when its fun to be.

So, I made so many new friends since AFF, I know its been a while since my last post, and My 24th B-day has come and gone with very little change lol.
I really dont feel any older lol. Rhari came over and hung out for my B-day and we played sing-star for most of the night.
this weekend I'm going to Seattle with Rhari for a BBQ, something to do with rainfurest, should be fun. I so cant what It will be my first time using my passport for trave lol.

I so can't what for next weekend. AFF is going to be my first con and I'll be going with a few friends, Wula, Rhari, and a few others. It's going to be so much fun.

I can't help feeling like I am playing catch up this week in some ways. My best friend is leaving her husband and told him early this week, I still can't get over the fact that he didn't see this coming, and is staying with us for now. We may move in to a bigger place if this turns in to a more long term thing and we can live together with out killing each other, lol.
I got a new cell phone and i am realizing how few the number of people that i phone on a regular bases there are lol, i have no life.
but my new phone is really fun, i got an iphone 3G. I did get annoyed at it but now i know how to use it better its all smiles.lol
hopeful my world slows down a little so i can catch up lol

The egg hunt was so much fun. There was only 6 kids that came instead of the 12 that had been expected, but the kids had a blast there where also 4 furries, 3 of which where fursuiters and my friend Fawn can with her camera and got some great shots. Fawn is a professional photographer and she got some amazing photos of Rhari, Spearmint and I hiding eggs for the kids and looking for our eggs in the adult portion of the egg hunt. I'll post some pics later from the egg hunt.
I had so much fun I am so going to do it again and thank you Rhari and everyone who help I could not have pulled it off with out you, thanks.

So, I'm very sure that I am crazy. I'm having friends over with there kids tomorrow and on top of having 12 kids her I am also having some of my friends that are furries over as well and fursuiters as well and there all coming over for an egg hunt. Oh and if that's not crazy enough instead of it being in my big back yard where it was going to held.......its going to be in the house cuz its pissing out side so.....lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol I have to be nuts to have wanted to do this that's all I'm saying. Well here's hoping that I come out of this one sane lol. Well if all goes as planed it should be fun. well here's hoping

Yesterday was a good day and a bad day.
the morning started off really sad as I went with my best friend to go say good bye to her horse. He was put down for medical reasons and will be missed dearly. he was a joy to be around even thou he could be a brat at time. "love you boy".
After that we all wanted to get our minds off of the hole sad affair and when and bought my new computer and a desk and a really comfy chair yay. My fiance picked up a X-Box x360 elite, it's pretty and black.
Then we got to bring our cats home. My sons cat Blackie has been staying at my mom's house till we could afford the pet depots on our home and our new cats name is Tika, she was my best friends cat but she has been to stressed at her house due to her other cat Taffy beating her up and her 20 month old son chasing her, and to to her being stressed she started pissing all over the place. She is happy here so far and has been walking around the house checking everything out. She is a Bengal and soooo beautiful. My sons cat is not so happy and won't come out from behind the sofa excepted to see Stephan or to eat. I hope he ajusts to the new house ok.

Ok, so this is my first entry, and i fingered I would tell you a bit about my self and what I do.
So I live on the west coast of Canada, about 2 hours out side of Vancouver. I really like it here on the west coast, mostly because the weather doesn't get to cold in the winter or to hot in the summer, plus my dad has a sail boat and I get to go sailing, yay, lol.
I always have something going on weather its house work or just work (I run a daycare out of my home), playing with my 6year old, or having friends over, I hate not having something to do.
My son is Stephan is 6, he loves to play socor and wants to take ballet. my feance, works at a call center and we are getting married summer 2010, we will have been together for just over 8 years by then(he is not Stephan's father).
All in all I have lots of good friends and family that I love to spend time with.
Some other things I'll to do are sca (look it up if you don't know what the is there web site is www.sca.org). As well as painting and drawing. I also did a fursuit head resentlly it was a lot of work but so much fun. I'm thinking I may offer to make them at just over cost but I'm not sure yet.
Well I'm going to go, Rhari is coming over for breakfast. I'm making crapes, nooom nom nom nom lol so yammy