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Posted 14 years agoOut of these, which would you like to see me turn into a Character? I'm looking to get back into Anthro's and was fiddling with a random Generator lol.
* The creative male anthropomorphic Sea Serpent bodyguard who has an inherent knowledge of technology.
* The intelligent, self-righteous male anthropomorphic Manticore marksman who was ressurected from the dead by the power of science.
* The wise, playful male anthropomorphic Cerebus noble who is the victim of a strange experiment.
* The experienced female anthropomorphic Roc marksman who is seeking meaning in life.
* The hateful, sheltered female anthropomorphic Hippocampus adventurer. She has an angular build. Her wardrobe is practical.
* The cunning, world-weary male anthropomorphic Tengu swordsman. He has a feminine build. His wardrobe is risque.
* The introverted male anthropomorphic Hydra reporter whose body was rebuilt with steampunk technology.
* The tactful male anthropomorphic Feathered Serpent mad scientist who hates animals. He has a narrow build. His wardrobe is severe.
* The uneducated male anthropomorphic Nightmare witch-hunter who tends to annoy divine beings. He has a plump build.
Help an Artist Out
Posted 14 years agoNormally I don't do these, but this is someone I admire and greatly appreciate on this site. I would hate to see Hotaru lose her net.
Commissions
If you have anything to spare, help her out. She needs 90$ by Friday to keep her net. And she has wonderfully AWESOME artwork!Alien VS Ninja
Posted 14 years agoI'll admit, I only watched this because I saw Funimation on the trailer but... Good lord in bloody heaven I am permanently SCARRED FOR FUCKING LIFE!
It's good, if you enjoy comedy horror stuff but the last 6 minutes will make you wish you didn't have to sit through those minutes and see the horrors that you see.
The Aliens... look like a hybrid of a Dinosaur that fucked a Grasshopper, had a baby, and got infected by a face hugger. And this thing was born. I'll admit, it was rather amusing looking (For the most part) but it's a basic rip off of Alien. I'll leave it to your imagination just what the thing does.
The good side of it was that I was laughing so hard for the most part that the disturbing shit that came out scarred me even more! But I guess the female 'eye candy' makes up for that since she seems to get off on... a couple choice scenes. And before you say it, this is BEYOND SyFy Original Movie feature... this is a class all in it's bloody own!
Apparently it came out on DVD on the 22nd of this month, do yourself a favor and rent it before you buy it. Or better yet Watch it Online FirstMagicka Do Want
Posted 14 years agoFor this Very Reason
What's better than going around as a Wizard and just blowing up freaking everything? I can't help it XD Ever since I saw TB's WTF of this game I've wanted to grab it and play it myself.
Multiplayer just makes it that much more entertaining, especially when there's no such thing as friendly fire. Stay out of my way... I'll shoot you with deadly Fire beam!
Ah well, I can't quite get it yet... maybe next month. Still suffering from the 280$ of getting Zack fixed lol
Anyway, Enjoy~No Water...
Posted 15 years agoWell... apparently either due to Cold Weather or otherwise, one of our Water Pipes decided to BURST, literally. Nothing but massive amounts of water gushing out all over our back porch.
Either it Ruptured due to the Cold Weather, or due to just some unknown reason. Oddly enough, they have NEVER broken before due to the cold weather so it's odd that it would happen now.
Either way, me and my mom are without water due to this and I don't know when we'll be getting it back on. If anything, we might not have it for awhile. Since my uncle isn't the most reliable tool in the shed.
SO! Yeah, not the best of things to fucking deal with... Luckily, I have my Tax thing, so I should be safe with the net if I can get that done...
Either it Ruptured due to the Cold Weather, or due to just some unknown reason. Oddly enough, they have NEVER broken before due to the cold weather so it's odd that it would happen now.
Either way, me and my mom are without water due to this and I don't know when we'll be getting it back on. If anything, we might not have it for awhile. Since my uncle isn't the most reliable tool in the shed.
SO! Yeah, not the best of things to fucking deal with... Luckily, I have my Tax thing, so I should be safe with the net if I can get that done...
Just a Fair Warning...
Posted 15 years agoBasically it's coming down to this. If I do not get my hands on a job come February, I'll be without Cable or Internet for that month. The reason is because I have a young male dog who needs his knockers taken off before he can do anything with them (As I have two unfixed females at the moment and cannot afford to get them all into the vet to be fixed)
It'll cost 150$ to get him Neutered alone... I can't imagine how much it'll cost to get the two girls fixed. It's so much of a damned hassle. Basically in the end it's my mom hounding on me for something I simply cannot control and she has basically said "Next month I'm not paying Cable to get him fixed."
I don't care either way (A month without the net and being able to draw you might see a spam flood if I ever get back online afterwards) but it's frustrating that since August 4th of last year I havenot been able to get a job. And I am still trying, I've gone to a few places earlier this week (Pizza Hut being one of them) and still nothing.
It's starting to wear on me... ugh...YOU HAZ BEEN SPAMMED!
Posted 15 years agoMWAHAHAHAHAHA! Yes... all my art has been uploaded from the ending of last year to my newest from this year BPUrgh...
Posted 15 years agoUrgh... yeah that's how I feel for the most part. Sunday I was basically bed ridden with some NASTY damned bug of god knows what... honestly, I blame the ham I had on Saturday for it B| Seriously that stuff was EVIL I swear to god.
Basically it was honey 'glazed' ham however... it was almost 99% honey with 1% HAM. Seriously... do you want some HAM with your HONEY? Or do we just want to overpower your taste buds into a doomed state of OMFG THIS IS WAY TOO STRONG @_@ Ugh, I didn't mind it but after awhile that flavor was just too overpowering to bear.
So yeah, Sunday I was completely bed ridden for the most part, I started doing the typical thing of upchucking anything that I forced down my throat at like 4am in the morning. And I couldn't keep anything down for the majority of the day, it was a routine... really. About every 2 hours I would get up, hobble my way to the bathroom and just blech. Sure, at 4am I had stuff in my stomach (not that you would want to know that) but after the first two waves, all I was doing was letting out the liquid I drank (Which was a little bit of water) and after that? Just whatever would come up @_@;;;;
Monday, feeling a bit better. After taking medicine (And miracles happening to keep it DOWN) but I was still for the most part bed ridden and in my attempts to stand for more than 5 minutes without getting a terrible wave of Dizziness were failed. However I was capable of sitting at my computer for a short time before having to hobble my ass back to bed and lay there for the rest of the day. I fell asleep after taking one last kick of medicine and woke up around 11pm. Heated up some soup, and now I'm seemingly recovering from it for the most part.
I'm capable of walking around, no dizziness, etc. and am capable of sitting for awhile without going BLARG. But I'm not quite up to par, I know I'm still a bit sick (Still have a bit of a fever) but at least for the most part it's done. Ugh, I hate being bed ridden... it's annoying as fuck. Literally... @____@;;;;; My aunt mentioned that my cousins wife is also being hit with the same thing. So it must be some kind of nasty flu or cold bug running around the area. Who knows, either way. Yeah I'm up and about for now.
Though it SUCKS BALLS because now I have a fucking art block B|
Comic :O (Pimping out)
Posted 15 years ago
avinz has a nice little thing going for anyone who desires to be in a comic possibly.
Pop over and take a gander at the journal, who knows maybe you'll be able to get into a Comic :3
Click eet~
avinzTo Be Perfectly Honest...
Posted 15 years ago
If the holidays are supposed to be the 'best time of the year' then why do I always feel so fucking pissed off about them when they come around? To be honest... I fucking hate Christmas... with a damned passion...
There is no fun to be had for me, no family that cares about me and there is nothing that I ever do that shows importance anymore. I guess you could call me the 'Scrooge' of Christmas in the family. With a bitter taste in my mouth and a hate for anything related to the Holiday.
But, I guess you could say that my bitterness has come from how my family has slowly fallen apart ever since the death of my Grandfather in 1998... without my Grandfather everything started to crumble. Bullshit started to happy and the family slowly began to get away with things that otherwise wouldn't have happened with my Grandfather around.
Thinking about it, I hated his death... and I despise doctors for the most part because of it (not to mention I don't trust hospitals period anymore), don't ask me why. I don't want to delve into something that will only make me more upset than I already am.
It's during these times of the year where I'm ultimately... at my weakest... I am almost constantly either pissy or just upset due to the thoughts of 'If my grandfather was still alive this wouldn't be happening' and while my family 'tries' for get togethers... it always fails in the end.
If I ever go to them, I'm generally always ignored... always and I do mean it.I can try to socialize with those of the family but it's always the same. Yeah a hello and then nothing...
I suppose this is why I put more love and care into my friends online than I ever do with my real life. Because my friends online, are more of a family than the fucking leeches in my family...
Don't mind me... I'm just ranting and needed to let a few things out... don't take anything of this offensively... please. And if anyone feels that this should be taken down, I am more than willing to do so...Warcraft Players
Posted 15 years agoI'm curious about my watchers here, how many of those that watch me play World of Warcraft? I know stupid question I'm just curious for the most part and wanting to know.
I just rolled myself a Troll Druid with the Shattering expansion on Staghelm (Normal) and already hit level 47 with her. I'm enjoying the new content... GODS it feels nice to be back in the Vanilla zones... it really does. If anyone wants to bother me, I generally get on after 10pm Central time [or around Midnight or later if I take a nap before then] and her name is Menathil for those curious. I might not be on her tonight as I've grown fond of my Tauren Hunter again, Drakkena is her name of course. Though I'm just playing her for shits and giggles. Menathil is currently my 'main' for now seeing as I am playing on my moms account and don't have access to any of my other toons.
I just rolled myself a Troll Druid with the Shattering expansion on Staghelm (Normal) and already hit level 47 with her. I'm enjoying the new content... GODS it feels nice to be back in the Vanilla zones... it really does. If anyone wants to bother me, I generally get on after 10pm Central time [or around Midnight or later if I take a nap before then] and her name is Menathil for those curious. I might not be on her tonight as I've grown fond of my Tauren Hunter again, Drakkena is her name of course. Though I'm just playing her for shits and giggles. Menathil is currently my 'main' for now seeing as I am playing on my moms account and don't have access to any of my other toons.
Question for My Watchers
Posted 15 years agoThis is for everyone who reads this Journal. Please answer it, I'm trying to convince my mom to go back into drawing again and she's been thinking about doing Commission should she get the urge to do so again. Like me my mom is a Traditional Artist working with Materials such as Pens, Markers, Color Pencils and just plain Pencil.
She has also dabbled in making images in MS paint but doesn't do that anymore.
My question is, to you all, if I can get her back into drawing WOULD anyone be interested in commissioning her and for what price?
Examples of her Art:
MS Paint Wizard
MS Paint Dragons
Pen Dragon
Color Pencil Winger
Pencil Deer
Pencil Lady
Color Pencil Mech Dragon
My mom WILL Draw Nudity, Female Nudity mainly tasteful only. I doubt she would want to draw any sex XD Since we both kinda fail in that department. I tried to pick out several of her pictures to show how she works with things, again, the MS Paint ones are likely to not be done.
Now then, more than likely if you GET artwork from her, it is going to be a ONE OF A KIND picture as my mom would never be able to duplicate it, or the character, again. She might ship it to you, if desired but I don't know.
Anyway... again would anyone get a commission from her if I get her back into drawing and how much would someone pay for one? If you like her artwork, post around and see if anyone else would enjoy it, I'd really like to help her in her boredom because we are BOTH still without a job.
She has also dabbled in making images in MS paint but doesn't do that anymore.
My question is, to you all, if I can get her back into drawing WOULD anyone be interested in commissioning her and for what price?
Examples of her Art:
MS Paint Wizard
MS Paint Dragons
Pen Dragon
Color Pencil Winger
Pencil Deer
Pencil Lady
Color Pencil Mech Dragon
My mom WILL Draw Nudity, Female Nudity mainly tasteful only. I doubt she would want to draw any sex XD Since we both kinda fail in that department. I tried to pick out several of her pictures to show how she works with things, again, the MS Paint ones are likely to not be done.
Now then, more than likely if you GET artwork from her, it is going to be a ONE OF A KIND picture as my mom would never be able to duplicate it, or the character, again. She might ship it to you, if desired but I don't know.
Anyway... again would anyone get a commission from her if I get her back into drawing and how much would someone pay for one? If you like her artwork, post around and see if anyone else would enjoy it, I'd really like to help her in her boredom because we are BOTH still without a job.
I would like to Thank
Posted 15 years agoEveryone that helped me when I was in need. It means a lot, I will be working on a big picture for those that had helped me out as my way of saying thanks.
I'm still unemployed... the School sent me a letter stating that the position I had applied for was no longer Available for me. But there is still a high promise that my mom will be working sometime this week.
Hopefully she receives a phone call sometime over the weekend. But with the extra help, we've gotten ourselves situatated until we get the Child Support Check from my father.
We are also going to try going to the Open House again, with a proof of Income to see if we can get onto that for awhile at least until I get a job as well. It's better than nothing, and even though I hate taking free hand outs of food, it IS something that keeps us going.
I'm still unemployed... the School sent me a letter stating that the position I had applied for was no longer Available for me. But there is still a high promise that my mom will be working sometime this week.
Hopefully she receives a phone call sometime over the weekend. But with the extra help, we've gotten ourselves situatated until we get the Child Support Check from my father.
We are also going to try going to the Open House again, with a proof of Income to see if we can get onto that for awhile at least until I get a job as well. It's better than nothing, and even though I hate taking free hand outs of food, it IS something that keeps us going.
Let's See If I get Any Attention (3 Slots Remaining)
Posted 15 years agoAll Right, I may have spurred the Bill this month but I need to make at least 200$ for next month so that I can pay the Cable/Net Bill once again. In such an event. I am going to open a series of Commissions. 5 Slots at a time, and when I get all of them done I will open 5 more slots.
Here's how it goes as far as Prices:
Simple Sketches - 10$ Example
Detailed Sketches - 15$ Example & Example 2
Simple Lineart - 15$ Example
Detailed Lineart - 20$ Example
Simple Colored Picture - 20$ Example
Detailed Colored Picture - 25-30$ Example & Example 2
Sketch Character Sheet - 20$ Example
Lineart Character Sheet - 25$ Example
Color Character Sheet - 30$ Example
Additional Characters - 5$
Added Details to Character Sheets - 1-5$ depending on Complexity.
I will only take up to 2 characters at a time on Sheets.
At this time I will only do Nudity, Tasteful Nudes or the like. I am not overly up for drawing anything Sexual at this time.
Paypal Address: shadow_dragoness[at]yahoo[dot]com
Note: When sending payment please post your Username for me so I know who it is from.
Current Slots: All 3 Open
1)
The_Lost_One Two Character Simple Sketch (95% Complete)
2)
necrosisdemon - Two Characters Detail Color (Test Sketching phase)
3)
4)
5)
If you stop by, and aren't interested in a commission if you would be so kind as to help me out. If you have me on your IMs and Wish to still talk to me next month, please feel free to post this on your own journals or whatever you like. I am trying to find a job, but as of late... NOTHING is hiring and I am doing this as a means of trying to help and support my mom and to get food in the house.
Here's how it goes as far as Prices:
Simple Sketches - 10$ Example
Detailed Sketches - 15$ Example & Example 2
Simple Lineart - 15$ Example
Detailed Lineart - 20$ Example
Simple Colored Picture - 20$ Example
Detailed Colored Picture - 25-30$ Example & Example 2
Sketch Character Sheet - 20$ Example
Lineart Character Sheet - 25$ Example
Color Character Sheet - 30$ Example
Additional Characters - 5$
Added Details to Character Sheets - 1-5$ depending on Complexity.
I will only take up to 2 characters at a time on Sheets.
At this time I will only do Nudity, Tasteful Nudes or the like. I am not overly up for drawing anything Sexual at this time.
Paypal Address: shadow_dragoness[at]yahoo[dot]com
Note: When sending payment please post your Username for me so I know who it is from.
Current Slots: All 3 Open
1)
The_Lost_One Two Character Simple Sketch (95% Complete)2)
necrosisdemon - Two Characters Detail Color (Test Sketching phase)3)
4)
5)
If you stop by, and aren't interested in a commission if you would be so kind as to help me out. If you have me on your IMs and Wish to still talk to me next month, please feel free to post this on your own journals or whatever you like. I am trying to find a job, but as of late... NOTHING is hiring and I am doing this as a means of trying to help and support my mom and to get food in the house.
BAH! Why me!?
Posted 15 years ago18 days until my 23rd Birthday... Fuuuuuuuuuuuuck it's coming by too soon D| I don't want to be another year older damn it!
The Short And Simple Truth
Posted 15 years agoI'm not going to butter things up... I don't want anyone to worry about me or anything like that but I'm going to tell the flat out truth.
I had filed for Unemployment awhile back, after I had been terminated from my previous Job at Wal-mart. 2 days ago I had a phone interview that would determine if I was qualified or if I was not.
Spent about an hour talking with the person and got explained things and was told to wait for a letter that would be sent in a couple days after the interview. Well... I waited, hoping that I would at least get something to boost me and my mother until I got back on my feet.
I was disqualified...
I won't go into the details but it hurts and takes a major sap out of my mental health. So... just to let everyone know.
My internet needs to be paid on the 18th, if you do not see me ONLINE anymore after that day. Odds are I have not found a job and was unable to pay to keep my internet access. My net/cable alone cost me about 116$ a month, and while me and my mom get a Child Support once a month that is not enough to cover both the bills and keep food in my house.
I would offer emergency commissions... but I wouldn't be able to get any of them done... I wouldn't be able to do anything for anyone and I don't want resort to what I'd done last time for my hospital trip...
If the worst of it comes guys, I will be forced to move in with my Grandmother and that means I WILL NOT have an internet for an unknown period of time. I would lose everything if I moved in with my grandmother...
I'm just... so utterly sick of these things and just... at my wits end.
I had filed for Unemployment awhile back, after I had been terminated from my previous Job at Wal-mart. 2 days ago I had a phone interview that would determine if I was qualified or if I was not.
Spent about an hour talking with the person and got explained things and was told to wait for a letter that would be sent in a couple days after the interview. Well... I waited, hoping that I would at least get something to boost me and my mother until I got back on my feet.
I was disqualified...
I won't go into the details but it hurts and takes a major sap out of my mental health. So... just to let everyone know.
My internet needs to be paid on the 18th, if you do not see me ONLINE anymore after that day. Odds are I have not found a job and was unable to pay to keep my internet access. My net/cable alone cost me about 116$ a month, and while me and my mom get a Child Support once a month that is not enough to cover both the bills and keep food in my house.
I would offer emergency commissions... but I wouldn't be able to get any of them done... I wouldn't be able to do anything for anyone and I don't want resort to what I'd done last time for my hospital trip...
If the worst of it comes guys, I will be forced to move in with my Grandmother and that means I WILL NOT have an internet for an unknown period of time. I would lose everything if I moved in with my grandmother...
I'm just... so utterly sick of these things and just... at my wits end.
OMFG!
Posted 15 years agoThis came out of the blue at around 2am in the morning.
A person that I've known on Facebook for awhile had messaged me and asked ya know if I took on commissions for my artwork. And as I'm talking, ya know I explained depending on the situation I would take them on and at the moment without a job it's a good time to ask.
So it goes into discussion that he has a Death Metal Band and is looking for someone to do Cover artwork for it... I flip out O_O I didn't think my artwork was THAT good to, you know go for anything like that.
Anyway, we're talking a bit more and the ideas he has... OMFG I love them!
1) For the cover art he has this idea with a half man/half serpent (Naga) that is crawling on his stomach and 'slithering' as well trying to hide in a storm but he cannot. The storm being too much for him as he's changing.
2) The other idea he has is a 'Tree of Life' with a half man/serpent feel to it. Angered nature and the 'Tree of Life' being in pain and misery.
God these are just so... tempting... I want to know more of the ideas he has but I'm working with that first idea for a bit... it's just utterly... morbid and awesome |D
A person that I've known on Facebook for awhile had messaged me and asked ya know if I took on commissions for my artwork. And as I'm talking, ya know I explained depending on the situation I would take them on and at the moment without a job it's a good time to ask.
So it goes into discussion that he has a Death Metal Band and is looking for someone to do Cover artwork for it... I flip out O_O I didn't think my artwork was THAT good to, you know go for anything like that.
Anyway, we're talking a bit more and the ideas he has... OMFG I love them!
1) For the cover art he has this idea with a half man/half serpent (Naga) that is crawling on his stomach and 'slithering' as well trying to hide in a storm but he cannot. The storm being too much for him as he's changing.
2) The other idea he has is a 'Tree of Life' with a half man/serpent feel to it. Angered nature and the 'Tree of Life' being in pain and misery.
God these are just so... tempting... I want to know more of the ideas he has but I'm working with that first idea for a bit... it's just utterly... morbid and awesome |D
The Days... Just keeping getting worse...
Posted 15 years agoAs my back pains continues to worsen with each day (Thankfully I'll be going back to the doctors tomorrow) today the mother of all bombs has just hit onto me.
Let's start off with my work, job and all that lovely stuff. Today, everything just seemed to fall apart. I'd been pulled into the office once that day, explaining that I'd accidentally messed up on a WIC check... all right. I went off, did my thing, went to lunch, came back... did my work, went to my last break...
Come back and I am told that I was needed in Personal. All righty... what the fuck did I do now? So I go back... see Mrs. Becky (My manager) and another manager... we go into the Managers office and I am being spoken to. It comes up to Termination... what? Why? I didn't have anything that would warrant this.
So, after about 20 minutes of fighting the computer we pull up my main screen and find out things. Still no true reason to Terminate me... so... she goes off... comes back and the reason for my Termination? A D-Day that happened LAST YEAR! Apparently the 11 days that I 'missed' last year (6 of which I was so sick that I was BED RIDDEN mind you) is the reason for this. Now, November of last year on one day I was apparently 'non-existent' because I was a no-call/no-show on the day.
But... with all of that I am now Unemployed. Yet again... but this time I do have the bonus of actually filing for Unemployment until I get a job.
But the pile onto my misery (And current pissed off attitude) my mom has been having a severe chest pain in her chest where her breast bone is. AND to add to EVERYTHING Else my Grandmother is now urinating BLOOD.
So, I'm stressed... I'm worried, I don't know WHAT the fuck to do... I'm just... I don't know anymore... this is all piling on and I simply cannot do anything...
Let's start off with my work, job and all that lovely stuff. Today, everything just seemed to fall apart. I'd been pulled into the office once that day, explaining that I'd accidentally messed up on a WIC check... all right. I went off, did my thing, went to lunch, came back... did my work, went to my last break...
Come back and I am told that I was needed in Personal. All righty... what the fuck did I do now? So I go back... see Mrs. Becky (My manager) and another manager... we go into the Managers office and I am being spoken to. It comes up to Termination... what? Why? I didn't have anything that would warrant this.
So, after about 20 minutes of fighting the computer we pull up my main screen and find out things. Still no true reason to Terminate me... so... she goes off... comes back and the reason for my Termination? A D-Day that happened LAST YEAR! Apparently the 11 days that I 'missed' last year (6 of which I was so sick that I was BED RIDDEN mind you) is the reason for this. Now, November of last year on one day I was apparently 'non-existent' because I was a no-call/no-show on the day.
But... with all of that I am now Unemployed. Yet again... but this time I do have the bonus of actually filing for Unemployment until I get a job.
But the pile onto my misery (And current pissed off attitude) my mom has been having a severe chest pain in her chest where her breast bone is. AND to add to EVERYTHING Else my Grandmother is now urinating BLOOD.
So, I'm stressed... I'm worried, I don't know WHAT the fuck to do... I'm just... I don't know anymore... this is all piling on and I simply cannot do anything...
Dealing with the Pain
Posted 15 years agoLet me put things in a simple manner, I am in utter pain. Doctors in this town are shitty and nothing but a waste of money for myself as well as my mom. Because the majority of the time they don't really diagnose someone with what is actually wrong. A perfect example of this is what recently happened to a dear friend of mine.
Her mother, now has the entire left side of her face paralyzed. When in the hospital the Doctors pretty much didn't do much to help and basically came up with the 'statement' that is was a low sodium problem. I doubt low sodium would be enough to paralyze the ENTIRE left side of her mothers face.
I've gone to the hospital once, and got basically almost the same treatment. Oh yeah we'll look you over, oh hey it's just such and such (Not even giving me the real problem really) here take this pain medication such and such times a day until it stops. It's not going to stop... a very dear co-worker of mine has grown EXTREMELY concerned about me and the fact that I've /not/ been getting better and it's been about... 4 weeks now I think. Almost an entire month basically.
From what my co-worker says he believes that I do have a Disk out of place in my spinal cord. And when one of those disks slips out of place your muscles will tighten, thus causing immense pain and discomfort for the person that has this problem. The longer this carries on, the worse it will get and there is likely a very big possibility that I will suffer permanent damage from this.
My co-worker suggested that I go to a Chiropractor, one that is a very big professional at his job. This person takes X-rays before even working with you and then when he does work with the person he will explain what he is doing and why he will be doing it. Going also in depth as to how to keep your back in a better condition. The problem with this lies not in the fact that I don't want to go, but in the fact that I CANNOT go because my income is so piss poor that I cannot afford it.
Yes, while working at Wal-mart and all that, I make 8.06/hr but they BARELY give me 30 hours a week... in fact, within the past few weeks they have actually CUT everyone's hours so most of us are barely breaching 25-27 hours... I'm lucky enough to get 33 if they think I'm 'valuable' enough to earn it.
So basically to sum things up... this is going to keep getting worse... I'm broke and I cannot afford the treatment that really needs to be done. Thus I must stick to taking pain medication to ease my pain, and even that isn't working. Today at work I could BARELY pick up a 1 gallon jug of milk, and after that... I couldn't even pick up anything that was 'sorta heavy'
Her mother, now has the entire left side of her face paralyzed. When in the hospital the Doctors pretty much didn't do much to help and basically came up with the 'statement' that is was a low sodium problem. I doubt low sodium would be enough to paralyze the ENTIRE left side of her mothers face.
I've gone to the hospital once, and got basically almost the same treatment. Oh yeah we'll look you over, oh hey it's just such and such (Not even giving me the real problem really) here take this pain medication such and such times a day until it stops. It's not going to stop... a very dear co-worker of mine has grown EXTREMELY concerned about me and the fact that I've /not/ been getting better and it's been about... 4 weeks now I think. Almost an entire month basically.
From what my co-worker says he believes that I do have a Disk out of place in my spinal cord. And when one of those disks slips out of place your muscles will tighten, thus causing immense pain and discomfort for the person that has this problem. The longer this carries on, the worse it will get and there is likely a very big possibility that I will suffer permanent damage from this.
My co-worker suggested that I go to a Chiropractor, one that is a very big professional at his job. This person takes X-rays before even working with you and then when he does work with the person he will explain what he is doing and why he will be doing it. Going also in depth as to how to keep your back in a better condition. The problem with this lies not in the fact that I don't want to go, but in the fact that I CANNOT go because my income is so piss poor that I cannot afford it.
Yes, while working at Wal-mart and all that, I make 8.06/hr but they BARELY give me 30 hours a week... in fact, within the past few weeks they have actually CUT everyone's hours so most of us are barely breaching 25-27 hours... I'm lucky enough to get 33 if they think I'm 'valuable' enough to earn it.
So basically to sum things up... this is going to keep getting worse... I'm broke and I cannot afford the treatment that really needs to be done. Thus I must stick to taking pain medication to ease my pain, and even that isn't working. Today at work I could BARELY pick up a 1 gallon jug of milk, and after that... I couldn't even pick up anything that was 'sorta heavy'
This Is...
Posted 15 years agoIs why I hate doctors so much.
I won't go into details or the like but let's just say, since my last journal on July 18th my condition has gotten /worse/ how much worse? Well let me go into some minor details here.
All was fine and dandy until recently within the past few days. At work, I've requested things (Which go unheard mind you) and never really got what I needed in order to help my back with less strain. Basically when I requested to go on a smaller 20 items or less lane all I got was getting put on the larger belt lanes. In turn, most of the customers I've dealt with have always had extremely /heavy items/ in their carts.
And ahahahahahaha you know how people are. Lazy sacks of shit that get pissed if you attempt to tell them you cannot do something. Rather than put their /heavy shit/ in their carts they will sit and wait for you, yourself... to do it for them. Luckily it's just about 6 inches from my scanner to the turn table. Most of the time I DO NOT lift their shit back into their carts, just onto my Turntable where THEY can put it in on their own.
However the /strain/ on myself has tripled due to the fact that we had at least... 9 cashiers quit.
I have extreme trouble getting to sleep now. Because of the amount of pain I am in while I wait for the pain medication to kick in. I /cannot/ turn my neck at all. Lean it sides, turn to look to a side... no, ain't happening. If I do that, I am jutted with a massive amount of pain that you couldn't imagine. And I am forced to rest a few minutes before doing anything. I have to turn my /entire body/ to a side just to look in that direction now unlike before where I could turn my head slightly and look but still had to pivot to look further.
I wake up in the mornings now with my neck extremely enflamed with pain, I turn and all I feel like is screaming and crying due to how badly it hurts. The pain comes from the center of my neck, it feels like the muscles are extremely tight there but... I'm not doctor... I can't 'analyze' myself without some professional help.
Either way, I decided to give out the update I promised... sorry for the delay on it but... I wanted to hold off for awhile so that no one would worry about me.
I won't go into details or the like but let's just say, since my last journal on July 18th my condition has gotten /worse/ how much worse? Well let me go into some minor details here.
All was fine and dandy until recently within the past few days. At work, I've requested things (Which go unheard mind you) and never really got what I needed in order to help my back with less strain. Basically when I requested to go on a smaller 20 items or less lane all I got was getting put on the larger belt lanes. In turn, most of the customers I've dealt with have always had extremely /heavy items/ in their carts.
And ahahahahahaha you know how people are. Lazy sacks of shit that get pissed if you attempt to tell them you cannot do something. Rather than put their /heavy shit/ in their carts they will sit and wait for you, yourself... to do it for them. Luckily it's just about 6 inches from my scanner to the turn table. Most of the time I DO NOT lift their shit back into their carts, just onto my Turntable where THEY can put it in on their own.
However the /strain/ on myself has tripled due to the fact that we had at least... 9 cashiers quit.
I have extreme trouble getting to sleep now. Because of the amount of pain I am in while I wait for the pain medication to kick in. I /cannot/ turn my neck at all. Lean it sides, turn to look to a side... no, ain't happening. If I do that, I am jutted with a massive amount of pain that you couldn't imagine. And I am forced to rest a few minutes before doing anything. I have to turn my /entire body/ to a side just to look in that direction now unlike before where I could turn my head slightly and look but still had to pivot to look further.
I wake up in the mornings now with my neck extremely enflamed with pain, I turn and all I feel like is screaming and crying due to how badly it hurts. The pain comes from the center of my neck, it feels like the muscles are extremely tight there but... I'm not doctor... I can't 'analyze' myself without some professional help.
Either way, I decided to give out the update I promised... sorry for the delay on it but... I wanted to hold off for awhile so that no one would worry about me.
Thanks Everyone
Posted 15 years agoThank you to everyone who has sent money to help me get into the Hospital. As it goes, I've made arrangements for an Appointment Thursday to get everything checked out.
I'll report later just how I'm doing and what was wrong or is currently wrong.
I'll report later just how I'm doing and what was wrong or is currently wrong.
I hate having to do this...
Posted 15 years agoBut honestly I am going to put this in simple terms.
Over the past 2 weeks I have had immense pain in my neck. Whether this is from a strained muscle, and pinched muscle or myself sleeping wrong I have no idea.
To put it simple. I can only look in a straight forward line. I can turn my head slightly to the left or right, and by slightly I mean just a mere inch or two before I am jutted with immense pain. I cannot look to a side fully unless I pivot my entire body to that side to look. I cannot tilt my head in either direction without immense pain nor can I bend my neck backwards.
Now then, I am going to try what a co-worker from work suggested. And that is to damp a towel and put it in the Microwave for a minute and then lay with my legs braced up on my bed (With the backs of my knees against the bed), staying that way for awhile before having my mom roll me over and apply pressure to my back.
If this doesn't work, I will more than likely have to go to the Hospital and get this looked into. The worse case scenario is that one of my spinal disks has slipped out of place in a manner that is causing all this pain. The cheapest way for myself to get into the hospital however is 20$ and I don't have that...
I hate having to ask... and I am not really feeling up to commissions at this time but should anyone wish to help me in this with just anything really. Words, or anything of that sort, a donation of just a dollar would help me out and everything.
Normally I am not a person to ask for such things, I honestly HATE having to ask for help from others but this is starting to get more and more serious and I'm afraid that the longer I wait, the worse it will get and I could end up truly hurting myself more than I already am.
For those who wish to donate a couple dollars my Paypal would be shadow_dragoness[at]yahoo.com
I doubt anyone really cares, but I am just getting this out of my way and hair. If you don't see me online either on IMs or anywhere else you know of me, I am likely in the hospital. To those who give me their best wishes, thank you in advance.
Over the past 2 weeks I have had immense pain in my neck. Whether this is from a strained muscle, and pinched muscle or myself sleeping wrong I have no idea.
To put it simple. I can only look in a straight forward line. I can turn my head slightly to the left or right, and by slightly I mean just a mere inch or two before I am jutted with immense pain. I cannot look to a side fully unless I pivot my entire body to that side to look. I cannot tilt my head in either direction without immense pain nor can I bend my neck backwards.
Now then, I am going to try what a co-worker from work suggested. And that is to damp a towel and put it in the Microwave for a minute and then lay with my legs braced up on my bed (With the backs of my knees against the bed), staying that way for awhile before having my mom roll me over and apply pressure to my back.
If this doesn't work, I will more than likely have to go to the Hospital and get this looked into. The worse case scenario is that one of my spinal disks has slipped out of place in a manner that is causing all this pain. The cheapest way for myself to get into the hospital however is 20$ and I don't have that...
I hate having to ask... and I am not really feeling up to commissions at this time but should anyone wish to help me in this with just anything really. Words, or anything of that sort, a donation of just a dollar would help me out and everything.
Normally I am not a person to ask for such things, I honestly HATE having to ask for help from others but this is starting to get more and more serious and I'm afraid that the longer I wait, the worse it will get and I could end up truly hurting myself more than I already am.
For those who wish to donate a couple dollars my Paypal would be shadow_dragoness[at]yahoo.com
I doubt anyone really cares, but I am just getting this out of my way and hair. If you don't see me online either on IMs or anywhere else you know of me, I am likely in the hospital. To those who give me their best wishes, thank you in advance.
Choking Experience... Not fun...
Posted 15 years agoIt's currently... 11:45pm... about... 15 or 20 minutes ago I was in a very VERY scary situation. I was sitting at my computer and just typing away when I was eating a Gobstopper, ya you know... those candies that dissolve into different colors and the like.
Said candy went to the back of my throat and proceeded to go down where it got STUCK... literally stuck... I couldn't reach it. And I started freaking out, yes I was fine. I could breath, I wasn't choking or anything in the general sense but with it lodged there I could not swallow without pain nor could I get it to move or to in the lighter sense of the world. Get vomited out of my throat and out of my throat so I could carry on with life.
I spent about 15 minutes in my bathroom with my mom talking on the phone with my grandmother trying to figure out how to get it out. She tried the typical Himleck or however it's spelled. And even that didn't help to unlodge it.
I think I'm fine now, the initial of it seems to have passed and after barfing up a very nasty stringy saliva it seems to be... somewhat okay. I'm still scared shitless. And I don't want it to happen again...
Said candy went to the back of my throat and proceeded to go down where it got STUCK... literally stuck... I couldn't reach it. And I started freaking out, yes I was fine. I could breath, I wasn't choking or anything in the general sense but with it lodged there I could not swallow without pain nor could I get it to move or to in the lighter sense of the world. Get vomited out of my throat and out of my throat so I could carry on with life.
I spent about 15 minutes in my bathroom with my mom talking on the phone with my grandmother trying to figure out how to get it out. She tried the typical Himleck or however it's spelled. And even that didn't help to unlodge it.
I think I'm fine now, the initial of it seems to have passed and after barfing up a very nasty stringy saliva it seems to be... somewhat okay. I'm still scared shitless. And I don't want it to happen again...
Soooooo...
Posted 15 years agoI'm wondering if someone would like to do a Collab with me :P
I have an image that I've freshly inked and such but... I'm almost deathly afraid of coloring it XD
It's a Ref Sheet for my Dinotaur Arelu... >3>
Lineart:
Arelu Ref
Masera Ref
I have an image that I've freshly inked and such but... I'm almost deathly afraid of coloring it XD
It's a Ref Sheet for my Dinotaur Arelu... >3>
Lineart:
Arelu Ref
Masera Ref
I'm Just...
Posted 15 years agoGoing to keep my mouth shut.
Everything I say is generally something stupid. Everything I do isn't worth it. Because right now, those that I've felt were close to me before just don't fucking care anymore.
So, time to fall off the face of the earth again. I'll likely pitch the TDC stuff I've recently drawn in the garbage... because all it's doing is bringing depression on me from personal things.
So, if anything disappears in my gallery it's because I removed it for a reason and that reason is. I'm depressed, it's hurting me to look at it, and no one really cares about it.
Everything I say is generally something stupid. Everything I do isn't worth it. Because right now, those that I've felt were close to me before just don't fucking care anymore.
So, time to fall off the face of the earth again. I'll likely pitch the TDC stuff I've recently drawn in the garbage... because all it's doing is bringing depression on me from personal things.
So, if anything disappears in my gallery it's because I removed it for a reason and that reason is. I'm depressed, it's hurting me to look at it, and no one really cares about it.
