Some time ago I sold my old Wolico head http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9446005/ to  rhysookami we were friends at the time and it was supposed to be for us to run around at cons and be almost like twin sisters. But due to certain circumstances our friendship has been rocky and we no longer speak to each other. The original head does not exist anymore because he made a new head and changed up all of the original markings http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12750390/ and I know a good select few of you have notified me about this but need not worry I am aware of everything. He does have rights to the Wailico character but not to my original design. I do thank you all though for having my back but it's nothing to be concerned about and I really hope no one has confronted him about it either, I'd rather not have any unnecessary drama.

This is one of the reasons why I decided to change my colors and markings, so we no longer will look alike. And well hey I needed a change :P

The new design of Wolico will be revealed sometime this week at least I hope to have to get something together. :3


Thx everyone for your concerns<3 It's good to know I have some good friends who have my back ^^

Stream will start sometime around 5 or 6 ish and will end at 9pm :P

I apologize to my commissioners for taking so long on these commissions. I just really haven't had the time to work on them but I promise I will not let you guys down! This next batch of commissions are going to be my best and I have been working hard on all of them and I promise to make the long wait worth it! I do humbly thank you all for being so patient<3 Between keeping my grades up in school and job hunting and trying to get these commissions finished I have been big flurry trying to get everything done within a timely manor. Also I'm going to be working on my new fursuit too since it needs to be finished in a month x.x so I'm doing the best I can to manage everything in my life here >.<

SO YEAH...
I'm gonna have a stream this Sunday Feb 16th @ 4-8pm EST (A journal and a submission will be posted when I'm up and live)
I'm just going to be working on my current commissions so nothing special :P But i promise porn! ;D LOL

See you all then!

Hey everybody I hope you're all doing well! Things are still kinda rocky over here but I'm slowly smoothing things out. I'm still job hunting things are going well I guess. I was able to get food stamps for myself so that is going to be a big help to me. Got some other good things going on but i'll save you all the boring details and get down to the amazing news I have.

Ok so first off *drum roll* ....... I'M GOING TO BE AT FWA!!! Gonna be there with  zambarau and most possibly  n3m1si5.Let me know if any of you plan on being there I'd love to get to meet some of my watchers and friends!<3 ALSO! I have completely changed all of the colors and markings of my fursona Wolico, and i modified her hair a bit.. yeah no more mohawk. BUT! Its an awesome improvement I haven't truly raveled her publicly but I have shared her with a few of my friends and it seems everyone likes my change so far. I will be revealing her soon I promise ^^ AND ALSO! If I can make it happen.. I'm going to be making a fullsuit of my fursona hopefully before FWA if not I'll at least have a partial. I'm so excited I can't wait to go! this will be my 2nd furcon and many many more to come ;)


Not for the not so awesome news... After I finish up these last 5 commissions I will most likely go on a break for at least a month maybe two. I need to finish up and work on alot of personal projects I have been trying to work on for like a year now so yeah xP



Okies you guys I wish you all well and Let me know if any of you are gonna be at FWA! :)

Super duper excited this year!<3 Even though it will be the first time I'm not spending Christmas with any of my blood relatives, but at least I get to spend it with my amazing mate and his family and friends. :) Apparently I have lots of presents but sadly this was the first year I wanted to give back but my financial issues got in the way of that. Oh well there's always next year right? ;)


So me thinks I'm going to officially open up commissions soon, but keeping myself to a limited number of people at a given time. It might not happen till some time at the end of January, so by then I will know whether or not I will be able to do them in a reasonable amount of time. I still plan on doing more YCH auctions since people seem to like them so much. ;) As far as my current commissions I plan to have most of them done before my holiday break is over. I also plan on streaming once or twice this week so you all can watch! ;D

I hope you all have an amazing Christmas or whatever it is you celebrate for the holidays<3 *fluffy hugs for everyone*

I just don't know what to do...
I really REALLY need a job right now...
But I still don't have a car nor any closer to getting my license but there are places withing walking distance from me but..
I have no references or any job history... I mean I'm a hard worker but there's no way of me showing it...

The friend I'm staying with just got hired and I'm still sitting here with my thumb up my ass not knowing what to do with myself x.x
I'm so broke my bank account is in the negatives and will continue just to get lower if I can't put any money into it and I'm not going to make enough money in time to fix it so I'm just getting more screwed more and more by just sitting here.. I am going to try to talk to the bank and get it fixed but I doubt there's anything i can do but I'm going to still try.

On top of all this i have a bunch of school shit just hanging over my head and i gotta keep up with it to ensure i graduate on time :\

I don't know how to help myself.. I don't know how to fix any of this :C

Ok first off welcome back! :) I have some good news to share with everyone! Yes I know finally! XD

So I got an abdominal ultrasound a couple weeks ago and got my results back and it turns out that all my stomach issues are being caused by a polyp in my gallbladder. Now i really should do more research on this but it seems to be the cause of my issues however there really isn't anything I can do about it other than watch it and hope it goes away. I get another ultrasound in a year to see if its grown at all and if so worst case scenario i will have to get my gallbladder removed... but hey! At least i know now it cant kill me! :) I should though do more research because my doctor says it cant become cancerous but certain things that iv read said that it can and I just yeah, it's another ball of stress I will have to deal with later but for now I'm super relieved to know whats wrong with me now :P

I have some other things going on and I have accidentally royally fucked myself over financially and I'm over 60$ in the hole right now and I'm gonna need to take on some more commissions to get myself going again.. I think I want to host another YCH auction with a least 2 different poses to choose from and hopefully that helps me out and gets me what i need ill hopefully be posting that within the next day or 2 so if you wanna commission me and help me out just let me know i might take on actual commissions too. sound good?

So far on my TO Do list i have~
 tasunka: YCH lineless bondage piece
 n3m1si5 Lineless Apocalyptic war scene

And I will be on winter break for two weeks starting this Friday so ill have plenty of time to work and also stream! :D
So yeah COMMISSIONS ARE KINDA OPEN I WILL ONLY ACCEPT A FEW!
PLS READ MY TOS http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4217065/
AND GO HERE FOR MY PRICE GUIDE>>> http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/toxicpup/

I just realized that i had some art is haven't uploaded yet so yeah.. ^^'

And hello and thanks to all of the new watches!<3

Ah well lets see the people I'm staying with have agreed to let me stay till the end of the school year! :D Which is awesome so now I have nothing to worry about other than finishing school and now of course I can go out and find a job. I have applied to a few places already but IDK how good of a chance I have of getting one since I have absolutely no work history. But I'm willing to learn and work hard so then I can get a car and also get my license and help contribute to the house since I am and extra mouth they need to feed >.> Also still struggling to get answers out of my doc about my health issues I'm going to be seeing him a few more times and hopefully I'll get some answers soon. I haven't been able to get my stomach medication for over a week now and thankfully I'm keeping it together but experiencing some abdominal pain and it's more severe than before but I'm still able to eat occasionally and I'm less nauseated. I still believe this is stress related but we will see with some testing and whatnot >.> And I'll be sure to keep you all updated of course! ;)

I wish I had more time to work on art so I can open up and take regular commissions. But it's looking like that's not gonna happen for a while however I'm able to do a YCH piece here and there and commission streams on the days where I'm not busy. So those of you who are interested in commissioning me just keep an eye out for my submissions and journals for info! :3

And yeah I'm trying to practice using grammar since I suck ass at it hehe. WOO! Now hopefully you guys can understand what I'm saying a little easier. ;P

im in the process of scanning some sketches and such :P im gonna be uploading a few of them so im just giving everyone a heads up ^^

woke up this morning to find 11 new watchers! :O and i had received just as many new watchers last week so i must say THANK YOU!<3

i hope you all enjoy stalking me :D

EDIT: now iv had about 30 new watchers in the last 2 weeks :D ... i must be doing something right hehe x3

Ok well heres whats up... remember this?>>> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5127943/

Well i got kicked out of that house and im currently living with a friend who i haven't known all that long but her and her parents have pretty much completely taken me in and for the first time in months i have my own room to myself!<3 Iv been living here for about 4 days and counting. I didn't plan to stay longer than 2 weeks and if im lucky i can move back in with my mom into the other house we have been waiting on to be built but thats only if im allowed back and honestly idc if i am allowed back or not i absolutely love it here im so much happier than i was and i would like the chance to able to stay here till the end of the school year and im sure they aren't going to have a problem with it especially if im able to make my own money and support myself. which kinda brings me to my next order of business... im thinking about doing a stream this next Tuesday (thats Nov 19th) and i want to take on sketch commissions where i can have the first 4 people reserved for it and take on anymore right on the spot if i have enough time. I just need a little bit of help here so i can get myself some well needed essentials ^^' ill be posting a submission with more info and such on that later on today

yeah it was too hot to wear most of my costume but that didnt stop me from getting candy (which was the smallest amount of candy i have ever gotten) i had a good time running around with my friends and im really happy that got to tag along with us ^^ i made him carry my candy hehehehe and so after our trick or treating was done we sat around a bonfire and smoked idk how many joints lol (i lost track very fast) and i got to watch a couple of my friends trip on acid which was pretty entertaining and all in all it was a good peaceful night

my weekend so far tho has been a complete disaster and its got me pretty down right now... im just hoping it gets better

and im sorry i havent made much progress on my commissions and i failed to finish them all in time like i had promised :( i will have at least 2 uploaded by next weekend and have the other 2 posted in the next up and coming weeks and its looking like i wont open back up for commissions till the beginning of next year (i have alot of personal stuff to work on plus a comic commission that is nearly a year overdue) and when i do open up im going to take commissions in small lists so that i dont overwork myself and hopefully after i graduate ill be able to take commissions regularly and produce them in a more reasonable amount of time xP and ill need to update my TOS and FAQ my prices will stay the same but i might change up the commission types BUT in the mean time im gonna try and sell lots of adopts and iv got a couple more YCH pieces in mind that i want to do and they will be up within the next month or so (maybe longer)

so thats that.. i hope by the next journal ill have something more positive to talk about :P

so i have to get a job
but i have no car or any means of transportation
but i need money to get a car
but i dont have my license yet
and im terrified of driving.....
and i only got 1 person helping me learn right now
and hes only had me drive his car once x.x

ontop of all this we still dont have a house to live in
im still busting my ass to earn good grades

i just wish i had something good to talk about for once other than making progress on my art and commissions


well no i take that back.. tomorrow is my favorite holiday and i just hope i get lots of candy

ill get stoned and eat all of my candy and be fat for the rest of my life


sounds better than busting my ass and stressing over all the stupid little shit...

Im not going to mention any names cuz i dont want to start any unnecessary drama...


so apparently artists are using other artists to promote them and get them more watches/ commissions?

like.... i stumbled upon this pretty well known furry artist through a pic i had seen them submit of another artist work (which i recognized immediately) and the pic description has absolutely nothing in it. well no i take that back they had a link to the other artists DA so i take a good look through their gallery for further investigation and see their own work with this other artists work sprinkled in there and even a commission page where it has their work and the other artists....now off the bat i was assuming this person was stealing the other artists work claiming they are them and such because theres NOTHING that states otherwise :I so as every good person should i notified the original artist telling them about this person who i believe is stealing their art and i nearly reported this guy because im in love with the original artist but they replied to my notes very quickly explaining how they are having them submit their art because they dont get enough commissions and the other artist has more watches than them.. i get the idea of the advertisement and such but why would you let someone else take the credit of your amazing work???? It does literally look like they are stealing the other artists work and it... eh it bothers me so much... idk why.. i would never let anyone do that.. i mean couldnt this person at least write a description explaining they arent the artist they are just promoting their work? this person is literally taking the credit and not denying it AT ALL.. even when i confronted them about it they shooed me away and was very rude about it >.>

im seriously starting to loose respect for some of my favorite artists.. i mean ill keep watching them but i dont think ill ever respect them as a working artist...

is this bad? am i the only one who feels like this?

Even tho im sure you all are tired of seeing these vent journals iv tried to hold off on doing them but i just gotta vent i cant take it anymore... i confess... i hate my life...

i hate almost everything about it right now....
My living situation is worse than it was before we got kicked out of our house.. as of right now i am currently sharing a 2 bedroom 1 bath trailer with at least 5 other people although most of the time i have a room to myself but no means of privacy at all x.x the cops have already been here twice and the first time they showed up (thank god i was at school at the time) they searched the whole house found all of my smoking stuff and confiscated it.. and the second time i had skipped out on school and no one really knew i was home (i could hear them outside of the room) and i was smoking in the bedroom but quickly covered the smells and locked myself in and tried to act like i was sleeping.. i started to cry.. i dont want my life to be ruined over things that im not even involved with.. not to mention i have a firm belief that the people im staying with are selling meth to make money cuz no one has a job around here except for my mom.... so im staying in this trailer for now until our house is done being fixed up for us to live in and the guy who is working on the house is the same guy who we are living with... i mean dont get me wrong i look up to this guy almost as a father since my real dad chooses not to be in my life and hes done so much for me i couldnt be anymore grateful... but hes such a asshole sometimes.. he completely despises my mother but loves me a 100% thats why hes fixing up this house for us but last week or so him and my mother got into the most ridiculous argument and he stops working for like a week and lays on the couch and does nothing o.o so.. were still waiting

And with my health.. my doc says i might have ulcers... i firmly believe this because im more stressed out than i have ever been and thankfully the meds my doc prescribed are helping somewhat but i dont want to live on pills for the rest of my life nor do i want to eat nothing but rice and water..... my stomach is the least of my worries right now tho.... iv been experiencing alot of nightmares and iv been depressed for the last week or so and its just getting worse.... im having nightmares about so many things i dont want to happen like the most reoccurring ones are about me and Ichis relationship ending over stupid stupid arguments and situations... and not to mention i start to over think things between us alot and im always constantly worried when legitimately our relationship is fine.. i mean he is one of the only things that bring me true happiness right now and im so grateful i dont kno where i would be without him right now<3 although other than him i am excited for halloween im already starting to order parts for my costume hopefully i can get it together before the month is out xP and i cant wait to show you all what im making :P

Theres good days and theres bad days but overall i feel like im stuck in neutral and i just want time to go faster so me and mom can have our own house where i can have privacy and a place to work and not have to worry about anyone else other than me and my artwork

ok so i went to the doctors today to get my blood test results back and im completely fine other than i need to eat more food x.x well isnt that why im here? ...so im getting a CAT scan done sometime soon hopefully i can figure out whats been causing my stomach problems

but other than that iv been kinda down but im hanging in there im focusing on getting work done and pumping out new art and stuff if you didnt already see i have 3 new exotic character adopts for sale right now C:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11747839/ (CLAIMED!)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11747855/ (CLAIMED!)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11747862/

and i have lots of other awesome stuff in store i hope you all enjoy it ^^

So iv had alot of people ask about buying art from me in the last couple of weeks so i decided instead of overloading myself with too much since i already have alot going on personally ill just open up for 3 different people

KEEP IN MIND that i do have 2 other commissions i have to work on as well so the waiting time might be a bit stretched out but i plan to have all of these done before Halloween next month and also take note that this will most likely be the last time anyone can commission me for now because after October i plan to take a month or two off to work on my own personal stuff :P so commission me now while you can! AND later on this week i have 2 YCH pieces im going to auction off along with a some new exotic character adopts! :D so keep an eye out for those if your not able to grab a slot now ^^

OK SO HERES THE RULES!
~ By commissioning me you agree to my TOS http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4217065/
~ You can commission me for anything! Prices are listed here>>> http://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/toxicpup/
~ FIRST COME FIRST SERVE! Comment below to claim a slot (just say "i want one" or "ill take a slot" something like that then i will comment back and then you note me the details of your commission)


1.  N3M1SI5
2.  danny1988
3.  xylerhusky21

also let me kno if any of you have any questions feel free to ask me! ^.^

well as for the good iv been doing ok i went to the doc finally to hopefully get my stomach issues figured out they took my blood and i get results in 2 weeks! hopefully its not anything too serious and i can get rid of it HOPEFULLY! :P

also im getting caught up on the last few of my commissions so im hoping to open up for more commissions by next weekend! :3


and well as for the bad news...
to make a long story short pretty much 70% of my fursuit supplies have been thrown out... along with other important valuable possessions and furniture i have held onto for years and same goes for my mother... i am thankful however i do have some of my things still but im extremely upset that our stuff was thrown away without warning.. i already kno im gonna need to refund a few people for the things i lost were commissioned stuff.. *sigh* i hope this is the last of the shitstorm iv had to deal with in the last month or so :I


but all in all keep an eye out this next week i plan to post some more art and hopefully have the rest of my current commissions finished :P

yep C:

and iv been working on some new adopts i think you all will like they are very unique and will have some awesome colors! :D ill be posting them within the next few weeks! im also going to be working more on my commissions iv already have made some progress with what little free time i can get xP

i will have something posted here soon i promise you guys! :3

yeah almost there xD
to be finished in order

byere~ Character design
rio13~ YCH piece
SeilunaOmega Adopt reff
thetruebluewolf Lineless portrait

and yeah still working on the comic for jamessnow (working on page 2/6)

life is just a bag of nasty old wrinkly smelly crusty dicks yo....

im still getting shit blown in my face but iv ranted so much already im just ready to accept that my life right now is just gonna be horrible no matter what i do.. well i cant really do anything about any of it..

BUT! on the bright side i will eventually have internet at the new place im staying at currently just dont really kno when that will be xP

AANNNDDDDD!!!!!

Today marks me and Ichi being together for 1 year! C:
this is my first most longest and most successful relationship EVER.....
we have had only 1 true fight over something so stupid and as much as he annoys me and pisses me off i will still love him unconditionally i hope this relationship lasts forever.... I WANT HIS BABIES!!!!! ...not now but eventually hehehe.. >u>

yeah so i only have internet access if im either at school or at Ichis house xP hopefully after me and mom get settled into the new house i will get into a good routine and ill be able to work on art everyday again! C: i really hope to have something uploaded by this weekend :3 nothing else much to report xP hope you all have a good week! :D

well yeah so my mom did the impossible and got us a place to stay and yes its an actual house it need some fixing up but it will be moving in sometime next week! in the mean time were staying next door at a friends house and im am currently back in high school (ironically its the same school that my mother dropped out of) but im doing well C: i like my teachers but all the girls here are bitches but its ok iv made quite a few brofriends so im fitting in well :P (this isnt my first run around iv moved from school to school many times) im the last person on and off of the bus so my ride home is an hour long! x.x and not to mention i live in hot as fuck florida! ... cant wait for the cooler weather and halloween :3

art is very slow almost at a halt because of school and life and stuff so its not looking like im going to be opening for commissions anytime soon.. im trying to get stuff done on the weekends and on the weekdays (when i have time) im sorry guys XP like iv said before once i clear my current que i will open up again but it will be on a journal type basis where i open up for a certain amount of slots and once i finish up those slots ill open up more

so yeah all is well C: