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Posted 6 years agoOkay I know you're out there. And this time I'm going to be absolutely blunt. I don't want you to feel like I'm guilting you here, but you should think of this as a contribution, and benefit, to help the creator you love so much create things.
I need money. I mean it.
I don't have a real job. I don't write and video 'just for fun'. I don't have a steady income outside of Patreon and YouTube. It's not a hobby or a side-project. This is literally my only subsistence, at all. SERIOUSLY.
Now that I'm disabled from diabetes (take care of your body, folks, you don't know how great simply walking can be until you can't anymore...) Well not totally disabled but with the neuropathy in my feet I can't walk properly or stand up straight... it's really terrifying, walking is a conscious effort... and that means I'm unsuited for many jobs.
And before you talk about what about disability, well, it has been tried, tried and failed, because I am just in the right (wrong?) spot where I am not too disabled to work at some menial job but not disabled enough to be worth welfare. I mean it, I have tried and applied and failed fail fail fail fail FAIL.
So please, please, please find it in your giving heart to sponsor me on Patreon. I am literally talking about my actual existence here. I don't know how long I can cruise around my parent's coattails, someday they will die or need medical support. And where would I be? I need a home, a shelter to live in, to make these works for you, the bills don't pay themselves.
Just... please, let the fox be worth a dollar. Just a dollar is helpful. Please please please please, I have thousands of subs on here and YouTube, just please please please donate a single dollar, if every one of you helped out I could have some stability. Just think of your budget, think of a candy bar, or a bag of chips, or something small you don't really need, and think how much benefit that would be to the fox. With the help of many I can be supported, please. By your powers combined...
I love you all and I want to continue going on providing great content for free (mostly) for you but for Max's sake, I can't do this alone.
Please please please please please consider donating just a single dollar.
It really is a matter of life and death.
www.patreon.com/L1011Widebody
I need money. I mean it.
I don't have a real job. I don't write and video 'just for fun'. I don't have a steady income outside of Patreon and YouTube. It's not a hobby or a side-project. This is literally my only subsistence, at all. SERIOUSLY.
Now that I'm disabled from diabetes (take care of your body, folks, you don't know how great simply walking can be until you can't anymore...) Well not totally disabled but with the neuropathy in my feet I can't walk properly or stand up straight... it's really terrifying, walking is a conscious effort... and that means I'm unsuited for many jobs.
And before you talk about what about disability, well, it has been tried, tried and failed, because I am just in the right (wrong?) spot where I am not too disabled to work at some menial job but not disabled enough to be worth welfare. I mean it, I have tried and applied and failed fail fail fail fail FAIL.
So please, please, please find it in your giving heart to sponsor me on Patreon. I am literally talking about my actual existence here. I don't know how long I can cruise around my parent's coattails, someday they will die or need medical support. And where would I be? I need a home, a shelter to live in, to make these works for you, the bills don't pay themselves.
Just... please, let the fox be worth a dollar. Just a dollar is helpful. Please please please please, I have thousands of subs on here and YouTube, just please please please donate a single dollar, if every one of you helped out I could have some stability. Just think of your budget, think of a candy bar, or a bag of chips, or something small you don't really need, and think how much benefit that would be to the fox. With the help of many I can be supported, please. By your powers combined...
I love you all and I want to continue going on providing great content for free (mostly) for you but for Max's sake, I can't do this alone.
Please please please please please consider donating just a single dollar.
It really is a matter of life and death.
www.patreon.com/L1011Widebody
Why don't people like me?
Posted 7 years agoOh no, here it comes again, another journal of the Trick Fox complaining about how life isn't fair and everybody else gest to have nice great things BUT NOT YOU TRICK YOU ARE JUST NOT ACCEPTABLE HERE
I cry a lot. I really do. The fox has feelings and emotions and painful things done to him, but nobody can hurt the fox more emotionally than himself. I am the greatest at everything I do, even the things that are terrible!
Like hating myself.
Being banned again and again from social places.
There is nobody out there that can suck at life better than me, damnit!
I always get told the same things. That was great, your work is excellent, superb, and we love it! The writings, the roleplays, the videos I put so much heart and love and dedication to them. You are a great person Trick!
I would miss you if you were gone.
Miss me...
Miss the place I held for them, that they felt always reliable Trick will be there to do whatever and such, he's so dependable! He doesn't ever let anyone down if they task him with a project. He is just so enthusiastic about everything, he really tries so hard to make people happy.
And I get nothing in return.
No, that's not fair, not really nothing. I get accolades and thumbs-ups and approval for my work, all the time. I just want to make the best possible experience, that I am making your world a better place with me in it. I put so much effort and work into my writing and videos and other creative projects, you know.
I want you to be pleased with the outcome.
I just don't understand why this all happens to the Trick Fox, the friendly fox that wants to make you happy and do great things with you and for you. I just don't understand how I am that lacking of respect from people. What is so repulsive about me, what is so distasteful, that people shove me away and don't follow through with promises, when all I do is give them everything I can, to please them and make them happy.
Make you happy.
That's all I really want.
There must be some kind of disconect for them, for you. That this fox doesn't really exist as a person, just a costume, a facade, a fake shield of armor that takes all the damage while the fox is safe inside.
I open myself and acknowledge my flaws, and this seems to be the worst possible thing for people. That honesty and attempts to rebuild bridges (because you can't really drive over a bridge in the past, that would require a DeLorean) are seen as some kind of attack.
I just... I just don't understand people.
All I want is to make you happy.
But don't worry! The fox is here, everyday, just trying to improve people's lives. I wake up every morning wishing I hadn't, but I'm here I guess so I want to make this day the best possible day it can be.
I love you all whether you like it or not. :P
Just... don't forget about me?
I cry a lot. I really do. The fox has feelings and emotions and painful things done to him, but nobody can hurt the fox more emotionally than himself. I am the greatest at everything I do, even the things that are terrible!
Like hating myself.
Being banned again and again from social places.
There is nobody out there that can suck at life better than me, damnit!
I always get told the same things. That was great, your work is excellent, superb, and we love it! The writings, the roleplays, the videos I put so much heart and love and dedication to them. You are a great person Trick!
I would miss you if you were gone.
Miss me...
Miss the place I held for them, that they felt always reliable Trick will be there to do whatever and such, he's so dependable! He doesn't ever let anyone down if they task him with a project. He is just so enthusiastic about everything, he really tries so hard to make people happy.
And I get nothing in return.
No, that's not fair, not really nothing. I get accolades and thumbs-ups and approval for my work, all the time. I just want to make the best possible experience, that I am making your world a better place with me in it. I put so much effort and work into my writing and videos and other creative projects, you know.
I want you to be pleased with the outcome.
I just don't understand why this all happens to the Trick Fox, the friendly fox that wants to make you happy and do great things with you and for you. I just don't understand how I am that lacking of respect from people. What is so repulsive about me, what is so distasteful, that people shove me away and don't follow through with promises, when all I do is give them everything I can, to please them and make them happy.
Make you happy.
That's all I really want.
There must be some kind of disconect for them, for you. That this fox doesn't really exist as a person, just a costume, a facade, a fake shield of armor that takes all the damage while the fox is safe inside.
I open myself and acknowledge my flaws, and this seems to be the worst possible thing for people. That honesty and attempts to rebuild bridges (because you can't really drive over a bridge in the past, that would require a DeLorean) are seen as some kind of attack.
I just... I just don't understand people.
All I want is to make you happy.
But don't worry! The fox is here, everyday, just trying to improve people's lives. I wake up every morning wishing I hadn't, but I'm here I guess so I want to make this day the best possible day it can be.
I love you all whether you like it or not. :P
Just... don't forget about me?
Last Night, Pepsi Saved My Life.
Posted 7 years agoSo, the Fox has a problem. Possibly some of you out there know where this going already.
I'mma just lay it all on the table here. The Trick Fox is addicted to DXM.
I know, I know, it's stupid and dumb, and only stupid and dumb teenagers do that. Over the counter cough mediciine to get high? What a loser you are Trick you're not even hip to the newer drugs or whatever.
Last night, I overdosed on DXM.
Last night, I felt what it was like to die.
I could feel it, that cold sensation, I felt my body's organs shutting down like they were off the clock. That certainty that you are going to die. I was so dehydrated that my tongue felt not of this world. I could feel my tongue seizing up, and going limp, just like my Scamper Dog did. That I was going to choke on my tongue with no-one to save me, no one there to help me up.
I even said it out loud. "So this is what it feels like to die?"
...
Fortunately, I'm an engineer.
I had the foresight to take the Diet Pepsi 12-pack out of the refrigerator and to my bedroom.
I don't normally do that. I usually take a can or two with me, in my pockets, it's efficient and easy to carry them and such.
My god...
I had a can of Diet Pepsi, opened, on my desktop. Liquid salvation! It was the only thing that saved me from actually dying.
I have never felt so close to death before.
It terrified me.
It horrified me.
To be so close, to be *certain* this is how you will die, a stupid and dumb way...
The Trick Fox will be away for a little while, so he can deal with this. Okay?
Not like away-away but sort of distant in tone... my god, would it have come to that...
The Trick Fox will always love you and always will, no matter what.
The Fox needs some time to recover from this. No, no ambulances or hospitals were involved. I am dedicated now more than ever to be the best Fox I can. I need to sober out.
I *need* to sober... for you. I love you.
I will always love you.
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
I'mma just lay it all on the table here. The Trick Fox is addicted to DXM.
I know, I know, it's stupid and dumb, and only stupid and dumb teenagers do that. Over the counter cough mediciine to get high? What a loser you are Trick you're not even hip to the newer drugs or whatever.
Last night, I overdosed on DXM.
Last night, I felt what it was like to die.
I could feel it, that cold sensation, I felt my body's organs shutting down like they were off the clock. That certainty that you are going to die. I was so dehydrated that my tongue felt not of this world. I could feel my tongue seizing up, and going limp, just like my Scamper Dog did. That I was going to choke on my tongue with no-one to save me, no one there to help me up.
I even said it out loud. "So this is what it feels like to die?"
...
Fortunately, I'm an engineer.
I had the foresight to take the Diet Pepsi 12-pack out of the refrigerator and to my bedroom.
I don't normally do that. I usually take a can or two with me, in my pockets, it's efficient and easy to carry them and such.
My god...
I had a can of Diet Pepsi, opened, on my desktop. Liquid salvation! It was the only thing that saved me from actually dying.
I have never felt so close to death before.
It terrified me.
It horrified me.
To be so close, to be *certain* this is how you will die, a stupid and dumb way...
The Trick Fox will be away for a little while, so he can deal with this. Okay?
Not like away-away but sort of distant in tone... my god, would it have come to that...
The Trick Fox will always love you and always will, no matter what.
The Fox needs some time to recover from this. No, no ambulances or hospitals were involved. I am dedicated now more than ever to be the best Fox I can. I need to sober out.
I *need* to sober... for you. I love you.
I will always love you.
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
And nobody gives a fox
Posted 7 years agoSo like nobody donated to my moving fund, even when I asked really nicely. But that's okay, I mean, I am going to be totally honest here. This just further validates my perspective that people love what I do and tell me I'm great, so long as they don't have to actually do something.
This is the story of my life.
I do great and awesome things and write cool stuff and people are like 'that's super, Trick, now to spend my money and time frivolously on whatever'. The fox is used to it by now, that the fox has zero monetary value to people, that people just want to care about me like that has any tangible benefit to my real life.
'Oooooh, I care about you, Trick, I think about your feelings, but I can't be bothered enough to actually do anything about it. But I care! So much! That helps, doesn't it? Look at how much compassion and concern I have for you! Just not enough to actually, y'know, do anything. But I care about you Trick.'
I feel that people only want me around so much as they benefit from my attention to them, and I don't mind that, really I don't. I want to benefit other people, I want to be a positive influence in other people's lives. I want everyone around me to feel that life is better with the Trick Fox than without.
But so few ever seem to return the favour...
This isn't intended to be some sort of guilt-trip give-me-money-please thing.
I am just trying to understand why people do not want to support the Trick Fox monetarily, that I have no value to these people, that this disabled (yes IRL diabetes is not my friend) fox isn't even worth a dollar. I don't understand that. I see people spending enormous amounts of money on commissions and fursuits and travel and when I ask for a dollar a month they treat me like I'm extorting them.
I really mean it, I don't have any other income or have any future job prospects besides the kindness of those who have pledged to sponsor me.
I should put my patreon link here, www.patreon.com/L1011Widebody if you're interested.
Also, super duper ultimate awesome thanks to all my patreon sponsors so very very VERY much!!!!!!!!!!!
This is the story of my life.
I do great and awesome things and write cool stuff and people are like 'that's super, Trick, now to spend my money and time frivolously on whatever'. The fox is used to it by now, that the fox has zero monetary value to people, that people just want to care about me like that has any tangible benefit to my real life.
'Oooooh, I care about you, Trick, I think about your feelings, but I can't be bothered enough to actually do anything about it. But I care! So much! That helps, doesn't it? Look at how much compassion and concern I have for you! Just not enough to actually, y'know, do anything. But I care about you Trick.'
I feel that people only want me around so much as they benefit from my attention to them, and I don't mind that, really I don't. I want to benefit other people, I want to be a positive influence in other people's lives. I want everyone around me to feel that life is better with the Trick Fox than without.
But so few ever seem to return the favour...
This isn't intended to be some sort of guilt-trip give-me-money-please thing.
I am just trying to understand why people do not want to support the Trick Fox monetarily, that I have no value to these people, that this disabled (yes IRL diabetes is not my friend) fox isn't even worth a dollar. I don't understand that. I see people spending enormous amounts of money on commissions and fursuits and travel and when I ask for a dollar a month they treat me like I'm extorting them.
I really mean it, I don't have any other income or have any future job prospects besides the kindness of those who have pledged to sponsor me.
I should put my patreon link here, www.patreon.com/L1011Widebody if you're interested.
Also, super duper ultimate awesome thanks to all my patreon sponsors so very very VERY much!!!!!!!!!!!
Time to give a Fox!
Posted 7 years agoSo I'm progressing forward to my impending move to Alabama, because as many of you know, I can't really take any more of the stress of living with my parents. I love them so, they are so cool and awesome and supportive, but this household is just not big enough for three adults.
Anyway, if you ever had any thoughts of contributing financially to the fox to ensure his continued existence (I really mean that, my life here with the parents shows no prospect or future...) now is most certainly the time to do so. I know it is hard for people to part with money, and put a monetary value on our friendship, but gosh darnit this would be a wonderful time to help the fox out, seriously.
If you don't like the idea of charity, then, consider it an investment, or a loan. If you give me money I will definitely pay you back, if you'd like, otherwise think of it as a donation (that's tax-deductible you know).
polarisslbm@gmail.com is my PayPal for that, thank you for reading so far, also https://www.patreon.com/L1011Widebody if you would like to make a more steady donation to the fox.
I mean it here, I will not lie, this is my only source of income right now. I don't have a job and I don't know if I ever will again. The fox is disabled and can't walk properly thanks to the diabetes (seriously, take this shit seriously you don't know what it's like to lose the ability to walk without having to think about it and make it a conscious action...) but he still loves you all and tries his best to be a positive influence on your life I love you all you know that?
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
Anyway, if you ever had any thoughts of contributing financially to the fox to ensure his continued existence (I really mean that, my life here with the parents shows no prospect or future...) now is most certainly the time to do so. I know it is hard for people to part with money, and put a monetary value on our friendship, but gosh darnit this would be a wonderful time to help the fox out, seriously.
If you don't like the idea of charity, then, consider it an investment, or a loan. If you give me money I will definitely pay you back, if you'd like, otherwise think of it as a donation (that's tax-deductible you know).
polarisslbm@gmail.com is my PayPal for that, thank you for reading so far, also https://www.patreon.com/L1011Widebody if you would like to make a more steady donation to the fox.
I mean it here, I will not lie, this is my only source of income right now. I don't have a job and I don't know if I ever will again. The fox is disabled and can't walk properly thanks to the diabetes (seriously, take this shit seriously you don't know what it's like to lose the ability to walk without having to think about it and make it a conscious action...) but he still loves you all and tries his best to be a positive influence on your life I love you all you know that?
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
My Obituary (not really)
Posted 7 years agoALSO I WILL RESPOND (or at least try to!) TO EVERYTHING YOU SEND ME I MEAN IT PLZ <3 although please keep in mind it may take some time please be patient for the Trick Fox who loves you. <3
The fox is going through a lot of upheaval right now. This is not a bad thing, this is just a major turning point of change in the navigational path of the fox's life.
That being said, I've recently been reflecting on and evaluating my relationships with people... who is good/healthy for me, who I want to be around, who I don't want to be around, and so on.
So the fox wants to open the forum and let you speak. I want to hear what you think exactly about me, no holds barred, open truthful honesty. If it's positive, great! If it's negative, so be it. I have many flaws and I've hurt many people and I know that. I want you to feel like this is a safe time to vent your frustrations at the Trick Fox. I will not block anyone or ignore anyone for this, consider this a confessional. You have my utmost confidentiality that I will not disclose any comments made to me.
I do this because I love you so much, so very very much, that I open myself up to this as a way to improve myself and hopefully improve you too with a better performing Trick Fox.
You could say this is a very... Nobel project. And if you get that reference you are my best friend forever. Anyway, I'd prefer you do so in notes, so I have a record, and that thus it is private. If you'd like to respond here, heck, go ahead, I don't mind, I just want you to really think and make absolute sure that what you post is what you really really think, yerla yerla?
Love and foxie hugs~
TrickTheFox
P.S. I am serious here please respond, I really really really really want this and to read your thoughts and I would be devasted if you don't respond... here I'll even make it easy for you, http://www.furaffinity.net/newpm/TrickTheFox
P.P.S. ALSO don't be afraid to ask the reciprocative! If you'd like my honest thoughts and opinions about you please ask! Just append like... I dunno, [honest] or something to it so I know to be fully transparent. I hope I don't hurt anyone's feelings but sometimes feelings need to be hurt to repair into a stronger state I LOVE YOU ALL <3
The fox is going through a lot of upheaval right now. This is not a bad thing, this is just a major turning point of change in the navigational path of the fox's life.
That being said, I've recently been reflecting on and evaluating my relationships with people... who is good/healthy for me, who I want to be around, who I don't want to be around, and so on.
So the fox wants to open the forum and let you speak. I want to hear what you think exactly about me, no holds barred, open truthful honesty. If it's positive, great! If it's negative, so be it. I have many flaws and I've hurt many people and I know that. I want you to feel like this is a safe time to vent your frustrations at the Trick Fox. I will not block anyone or ignore anyone for this, consider this a confessional. You have my utmost confidentiality that I will not disclose any comments made to me.
I do this because I love you so much, so very very much, that I open myself up to this as a way to improve myself and hopefully improve you too with a better performing Trick Fox.
You could say this is a very... Nobel project. And if you get that reference you are my best friend forever. Anyway, I'd prefer you do so in notes, so I have a record, and that thus it is private. If you'd like to respond here, heck, go ahead, I don't mind, I just want you to really think and make absolute sure that what you post is what you really really think, yerla yerla?
Love and foxie hugs~
TrickTheFox
P.S. I am serious here please respond, I really really really really want this and to read your thoughts and I would be devasted if you don't respond... here I'll even make it easy for you, http://www.furaffinity.net/newpm/TrickTheFox
P.P.S. ALSO don't be afraid to ask the reciprocative! If you'd like my honest thoughts and opinions about you please ask! Just append like... I dunno, [honest] or something to it so I know to be fully transparent. I hope I don't hurt anyone's feelings but sometimes feelings need to be hurt to repair into a stronger state I LOVE YOU ALL <3
Awesome Friendly Available Artist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 7 years ago So there is a guy who is a TOTES AWESOME ARTIST he is the best his name is :Tokalub: and he is in need of commissions pronto.
If you like supporting artists, this is the guy, I mean seriously he is just the best GO GIVE HIM YOUR MONEY NOW!
Also, moving to Alabama in September oh noes the Trick fox crosses the Mason-Vixen line
or something also you are all great and thank you for supporting me I really mean it I
LOVE YOU GUYS. I say it in a general sense, everyone is welcome to the Trick Fox. I want to make people happier for having me in their life, and I learned that from Mr. Rogers.
I wish maybe there could be rings like What Would Mr. Rogers Do...
Also check out his other stuff he did for me
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5933886/ sexy enormous COYOTE
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6065127/ this one's real cool like super awesome attention to details I LOVE IT
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5878268/ SO MUCH ATTENTION TO DETAIL HAVE I SAID THAT ENOUGH also this one is kind of sad because Sebastian is all alone in his cockpit and the only time he could have to himself........... buy my novel if you haven't already RICH HANES FOXHUNT! you go find it yourself, yerla?
And this is the point where I accidentally let my Volpa heritage override my own language, yerla yerla?
Anyway, Tokalub is an awesome person so GO GETCHA ARTS RIGHT NOW end of line
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
If you like supporting artists, this is the guy, I mean seriously he is just the best GO GIVE HIM YOUR MONEY NOW!
Also, moving to Alabama in September oh noes the Trick fox crosses the Mason-Vixen line
or something also you are all great and thank you for supporting me I really mean it I
LOVE YOU GUYS. I say it in a general sense, everyone is welcome to the Trick Fox. I want to make people happier for having me in their life, and I learned that from Mr. Rogers.
I wish maybe there could be rings like What Would Mr. Rogers Do...
Also check out his other stuff he did for me
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5933886/ sexy enormous COYOTE
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6065127/ this one's real cool like super awesome attention to details I LOVE IT
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5878268/ SO MUCH ATTENTION TO DETAIL HAVE I SAID THAT ENOUGH also this one is kind of sad because Sebastian is all alone in his cockpit and the only time he could have to himself........... buy my novel if you haven't already RICH HANES FOXHUNT! you go find it yourself, yerla?
And this is the point where I accidentally let my Volpa heritage override my own language, yerla yerla?
Anyway, Tokalub is an awesome person so GO GETCHA ARTS RIGHT NOW end of line
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
Commissions!
Posted 7 years agoSo I finally got off my stupid arse and set up the commission thingie for story-writing stuff, you should commission me to write I would love to do so, and with the new year brings a new drive to be the most excellent person I can be!
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
Communications Breakdown
Posted 8 years agoWhy is it that it seems that the more and more methods and means we have to communicate to each other, it feels harder and so much more difficult to get in contact with people? It is like, more people are online than ever, but nobody is ever there or present. What is wrong with people? I hate to say 'back in my day' but back in my day when you ran a messenger program, you ran it with the actual intent to USE it. What is wrong with people? If you're not there, set your friggin' status, that's fine, why don't people have basic responsibility anymore, using messengers when they want to be available to message. It angers me so.
Tooth and Tail is great!
Posted 8 years agoIf you have any interest in talking animal people, World War 1 weaponry, the people's revolution of rodents and other small woodland critters, and real-time strategy, you should definitely check out the game I was privileged to get a review copy of early - Tooth and Tail
Check out my video of it https://youtu.be/suBFI7A-JRw
And relevant links
http://www.pocketwatchgames.com
http://store.steampowered.com/app/2.....ooth_and_Tail/
http://www.gog.com/game/tooth_and_tail
Where the animal species have traits that are actually relevant to their species, and make sense. And as always, if you like that sort of thing with intelligently-crafted talking animal people, do check out my legit sci-fi writing at www.writing.com/authors/L1011Widebody and also my novel at Rabbit Valley https://www.rabbitvalley.com/item/9.....-By-Rich-Hanes do please read I ever so love to entertain people.
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
Check out my video of it https://youtu.be/suBFI7A-JRw
And relevant links
http://www.pocketwatchgames.com
http://store.steampowered.com/app/2.....ooth_and_Tail/
http://www.gog.com/game/tooth_and_tail
Where the animal species have traits that are actually relevant to their species, and make sense. And as always, if you like that sort of thing with intelligently-crafted talking animal people, do check out my legit sci-fi writing at www.writing.com/authors/L1011Widebody and also my novel at Rabbit Valley https://www.rabbitvalley.com/item/9.....-By-Rich-Hanes do please read I ever so love to entertain people.
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
Just a Push to Look at my New Profile
Posted 8 years agoSo I updated my profile to not be so much about how I suck, and maybe be better?
You should really check out my writing!
Posted 8 years agoI write some great science fiction you know. I have created this entire universe that I call Wildstar (no not that one) of realistically created animal-human hybrids, where their animal traits matter and are very important.
But because it is science-fiction, we are advanced into the future! So foxes and dogs pilot mechs, which I call titans (the combat is portrayed in a very realistic way, while also being highly action-packed, it's a lot like fighter jet encounters). There's interstellar space ships and nations that span many planets. All the cool things Geordi LaForge told you about.
Look I even made videos to introduce you to my setting!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Od3-jLotXzQ&; an introduction to my philosophy that I tackle this writing with
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LoEN8r5Aa7M spells out more exposition and also alternate history
But the best thing about my novel, have I mentioned my novel? https://www.rabbitvalley.com/item/9.....-By-Rich-Hanes I wrote a novel you know. But I went to great lengths to build a cohesive, realistic society for these Created to exist in. So my first novel feels like it is already in an established setting, that world and universe setting matters.
The idea is for my writing to seem less like individual fictions, and more like a real, fleshed out history. Like you would just go read about what happened on Earth from 1800 to 1860, and it's just there already and established.
Anyway you really need to buy my novel, you will love it. I am working on other projects that I want to share with you as well. For instance, a certain Famous Fox inspired me to write a real realistic field guide manual to introduce people to the setting.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing that's the field manual
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing this here is my prequel of sorts with an alive Adrian
I also have stuff at https://www.writing.com/main/portfo...../l1011widebody
It's huge, you're gonna love it.
But because it is science-fiction, we are advanced into the future! So foxes and dogs pilot mechs, which I call titans (the combat is portrayed in a very realistic way, while also being highly action-packed, it's a lot like fighter jet encounters). There's interstellar space ships and nations that span many planets. All the cool things Geordi LaForge told you about.
Look I even made videos to introduce you to my setting!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Od3-jLotXzQ&; an introduction to my philosophy that I tackle this writing with
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LoEN8r5Aa7M spells out more exposition and also alternate history
But the best thing about my novel, have I mentioned my novel? https://www.rabbitvalley.com/item/9.....-By-Rich-Hanes I wrote a novel you know. But I went to great lengths to build a cohesive, realistic society for these Created to exist in. So my first novel feels like it is already in an established setting, that world and universe setting matters.
The idea is for my writing to seem less like individual fictions, and more like a real, fleshed out history. Like you would just go read about what happened on Earth from 1800 to 1860, and it's just there already and established.
Anyway you really need to buy my novel, you will love it. I am working on other projects that I want to share with you as well. For instance, a certain Famous Fox inspired me to write a real realistic field guide manual to introduce people to the setting.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing that's the field manual
https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing this here is my prequel of sorts with an alive Adrian
I also have stuff at https://www.writing.com/main/portfo...../l1011widebody
It's huge, you're gonna love it.
Today I decided I should not suck
Posted 8 years agowhat the frig Google crash??????????? why would you stop working all of a sudden anyway yes please this is where
I will write my cool stuff maybe and you guys can check it out if you want etc etc
NO I DIDN'T WANT TO ENTER THERE AND END IT FRIG
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
Also please leave comments and feedback? The fox treasures and reads every single one even if I don't reply directly.
I love all you guys.
Also if you like my style you should check me out on www.youtube.com/L1011Widebody and also maybe pledge to
sponsor me at www.patreon.com/L1011Widebody
that would be super rad. But don't feel like it's an obligation or begging, it really makes me happiest when you tell
me you enjoy my works, I want to make the world a better place with the Trick Fox L1011Widebody in it than without
it. I just want to share some of my awesomeness with you.
I love you so much. <3
I just want to make you all feel better and happier than I am. No one should suffer the trials
and ordeals the Fox Widebody has endured. No one should have to wake up every day
wishing you hadn't, nobody should feel my real pain and anguish that I am such a burden on
people. I just don't want you to end up like me, sad and alone and crying because I do not
understand how the socials work. I love you all so much, so very very much,
just don't... just don't worry about me. I am fine. Every day I wake up above ground, I feel, I
should make the utmost of it. Nobody else will do it for you. But please don't hurt me so much more
I hurt myself more than you ever could. Just accept me as I am, please?
I think this is better than the thing that Google ate. Ha ha. Whatever!
I love you so much.
no there is no suicidal intents or plans or things for the Widebody Fox. Why, that would be the last thing
to quote Groucho Marx. I suffer on and on but I will keep going because it is the engineer in me
You have to make the most and utmost of your resources and materials, anything squandered
is a waste, is the ultimate insult to the engineer Widebody Fox.
I'm an engineer, you know. That means I solve problems. Practical problems.
Just be excellent to each other, quiaff?
fox is in most productive mode, also http://tinyurl.com/gtt2c5q watch me write in real time also notes on the Volpa language go like http://tinyurl.com/y9ogxq8c and such!!!!!!
I will write my cool stuff maybe and you guys can check it out if you want etc etc
NO I DIDN'T WANT TO ENTER THERE AND END IT FRIG
Love and foxy hugs~
Trick The Fox
Also please leave comments and feedback? The fox treasures and reads every single one even if I don't reply directly.
I love all you guys.
Also if you like my style you should check me out on www.youtube.com/L1011Widebody and also maybe pledge to
sponsor me at www.patreon.com/L1011Widebody
that would be super rad. But don't feel like it's an obligation or begging, it really makes me happiest when you tell
me you enjoy my works, I want to make the world a better place with the Trick Fox L1011Widebody in it than without
it. I just want to share some of my awesomeness with you.
I love you so much. <3
I just want to make you all feel better and happier than I am. No one should suffer the trials
and ordeals the Fox Widebody has endured. No one should have to wake up every day
wishing you hadn't, nobody should feel my real pain and anguish that I am such a burden on
people. I just don't want you to end up like me, sad and alone and crying because I do not
understand how the socials work. I love you all so much, so very very much,
just don't... just don't worry about me. I am fine. Every day I wake up above ground, I feel, I
should make the utmost of it. Nobody else will do it for you. But please don't hurt me so much more
I hurt myself more than you ever could. Just accept me as I am, please?
I think this is better than the thing that Google ate. Ha ha. Whatever!
I love you so much.
no there is no suicidal intents or plans or things for the Widebody Fox. Why, that would be the last thing
to quote Groucho Marx. I suffer on and on but I will keep going because it is the engineer in me
You have to make the most and utmost of your resources and materials, anything squandered
is a waste, is the ultimate insult to the engineer Widebody Fox.
I'm an engineer, you know. That means I solve problems. Practical problems.
Just be excellent to each other, quiaff?
fox is in most productive mode, also http://tinyurl.com/gtt2c5q watch me write in real time also notes on the Volpa language go like http://tinyurl.com/y9ogxq8c and such!!!!!!
A Special Friend Of Mine Needs Help For His Pupster
Posted 8 years agoHey guys, I know I don't normally ask for stuff like this, but I am reaching out to every one of my followers and supporters. A very special friend of mine, 
SneakCoyote needs help raising funds for his pupster's medical treatments. I ask that you take a look at the Go Fund Me https://www.gofundme.com/parvo-trea.....2826b92b86bd9f here, cuz he's a real special guy to me and I hope for the best.
SneakCoyote needs help raising funds for his pupster's medical treatments. I ask that you take a look at the Go Fund Me https://www.gofundme.com/parvo-trea.....2826b92b86bd9f here, cuz he's a real special guy to me and I hope for the best.To My Number One Fan~
Posted 8 years agoI made a video out of it, if you think you are devotedly loyal to the Trick/L-1011 thingamajig, well you ain't got nothing on this person's devotion to me! Catch the video at https://youtu.be/aIYWdDV-QGs or you can read the text version at https://pastebin.com/HuJNFnnb whichever is your preference but I hope you watch my YouTube video and thumbs-it-up because it will *really* make this person furious. I am just so delighted to have someone so obsessed about me, it's great! I want to make him feel as awful as possible!
The Trick Manifesto
Posted 8 years agoI should probably post this here as well, but the link is http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23294540/ and it really is an important writing. EDIT APRIL 24TH 2017 to make more better again?
So here it goes. And while these interactions are exaggerated to better show the details and effects, this is really not too far from what people are like with my interactions.
The Trick Manifesto
I am here to write sexy things for people to make them happy and/or masturbate. I ask for little in return because I gain more personal satisfaction at seeing them enjoy my gifts to them without charge.
I do not come here to talk about my real life problems, I want to get away from them, yet people keep asking me how I feel and when I respond they are like 'why is it always about you'.
I do not want to talk about my feelings, but people ask how I am. Even in the literal sense, not the proverbial 'hey what's up' kind of why. They continue and repeatedly try to ask about my feelings. I don't understand why people are angered when I give them what they asked so many times for.
They accuse me of being selfish when I tell them my honest feelings, that it is all about you Trick, that you want to have this pity party all for yourself when I asked 38 times how are you feeling, gah Trick why is it whenever we talk it's about you?
And I further confused because I did not volunteer or offer such emotions in the first place, now I am labelled selfish when I tell people my emotions after they ask so many times?
Then they accuse me of wanting to play the victim. How could you be so callous and self-centered, Trick, why is everything always about you? People think that they are so valuable and that denying me interaction is the ultimate insult YAY I WIN FOREVER TRICK THE FOX WHO DIDN'T EVEN SHOW UP IS THE LOSEREST LOSER EVER. That'll show Trick! I will go to extensive lengths of effort in order to make sure I do not receive contact from them again HA HA I WIN FOREVER YOU LOSE TRICK
And meanwhile I'm just sitting on the park bench outside the stadium being all... 'Eh maybe I won't go the football game today, there'll be another soon' and shrug my shoulders and just wander off. It's not like there won't be more football games, why is this one so special? SPOILER ALERT: It's not.
MEANWHILE, BACK AT THE BAT CAVE I MEAN THIS GUY'S BASEMENT
The other person is giddily gleefully taking like, all the time in the world going on about how he has blocked me and isn't that the greatest? I am sol great and important, look at me now. Damnit, Trick, why don't you appreciate the effort I took to remove you from my life?
It is like they want to imagine 'I am the center of their universe' and when I do not act such way, well, we'll just call you that anyway. Gosh, Trick why are you so selfish, caring about other's feelings and not your own?
Like they want to let me know how important I am to their very existence, that I should be grovelling and begging just to spend time with them. Don't you realize, Trick, what a great dishonour and lost opportunity it is for you, me denying you the chance to roleplay with me? Don't you see that?
Meanwhile, I'm sipping some Diet Pepsi (Coke Sucks There I Said It) and am working on writing, or videoing, or whatever the Fox does best.
They act as if this is the ULTIMATE INSULT FOREVER and look at me Trick, look at what great lengths I have gone to remove you.
And I am like, "Huh? Whatever, sure, you really aren't that special to me. I mean I respect your needs and wants and desires, I am patient with you when you disappear or such, I don't let it bother me because those things are in the past, and I would like to look forward to a fun and exciting future with you."
These people really think that I am so obsessed with them that I would die or kill myself if they were not around, YEAH TAKE THAT TRICK. When it is like... these people are of such little importance, sometimes I even forget their names and sometimes forget why they are mad at me.
That's a fun one. 'Hello character I have not approached before, you look sexy and interesting, would you like to roleplay?' "DAMNIT TRICK HOW CAN YOU BE SO CALLOUS AND UNCARING JUST RUDE AND INSULTING TO APPROACH ME AGAIN FOR RP CLEARLY YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO I AM BECAUSE I HAVE AN ALTAR IN MY COMPUTER ROOM DEDICATED TO YOU."
I am like 'huh? Do I know you?" And they are like "Isn't it obvious who this is why do you not have a ginormous rolodex with all my alts so that you should know how much I hate you for some reason across all the universe because I am that important.
So I ask 'okay, sure, if you hate me that much, just tell me who you are and I shall endeavour to avoid you in the future. It is just polite after all, I do not want to bring up old feelings.'
"GOD DAMNIT TRICK YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO I AM AND YOU SHOULD KNOW ALL 37,000 OF MY ALTS WHAT THE FOX TRICK WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID AND dumb, how selfish can you be to not know intrinsically all my alternate characters already? Why are you so self-centered?"
"Damnit, Trick, how can you be so arrogant as to not pay attention to me and the great lengths and efforts I have gone through to remove you from my life, how can you be so selfish!"
"Trick, you asshole, how have you not picked up on the tiny little clues and hints over this time that I do not really like this roleplay and I am only doing it to make you happy. Why are you so demanding in that you should ask me for what I would really like to do? How can you be so selfish, always asking others what they would like and what pleases them. You are a terrible person, Trick. Your emotions are invalid and meaningless so I will stamp all over them in front of you, how does that feel?"
"I just want to make you happy."
"UGH TRICK WHY ARE YOU STILL BEING SO ARROGANT AND SELFISH! WHY ARE YOU NOT LETTING ME HELP YOU WITH YOUR OWN EMOTIONS I AM SO UTTERLY INVESTED IN THEM FOR SOME REASON."
Especially when I do not volunteer such information myself. I do not want to talk about my feelings or emotions, I don't consider them important.
I just want to write the sexy talk. Being a friend is not my primary goal. The interests we share should be in liking me writing big damn prose about sexy foxes and shit, I really do not care about your personal life because I am here to interact with your character, but I respect and appreciate your desires and needs and whatever happens in real life is more important.
And then I am told 'why do you not respect other people's feelings Trick' and it confuses the fox.
Confuse, not anger.
The fox is never angry. No matter how many times people tell him to be, there is really very little that angers or upsets the Trick Fox. And I don't understand why people want to see me as angry and bitter and frustrated and a jerk to other people, when that is the antithesis of my existence when I am all those things to myself because I don't believe my emotions are worth anything compared to others.
That I want to please you and make you happy and smile and that's all, and then people get angry at me, telling me I am selfish for wanting to do what they want, and arrogant and such, and that I am not thinking about other people's feelings when I am only thinking about other people's feelings and not my own, and they get further enraged at me when they try to help me and I say 'no thanks' why is that?
Why are other people allowed to offer support and suggestions for improvement to me, and when I kindly ask them to not worry about my feelings, it is such a grievous insult to their very core?
How is caring about other people's feelings selfish? There is literally no one else that treats me as badly as myself. I don't need anyone else's help to make me feel miserable, I am fine on my own.
I think and feel I deserve this, that this is what I should get for being a terrible person. But it is like when people go 'let me cheer you up Trick how can I help' and I say 'Thanks for the offer but I do not wish to be helped', they react as if I had just raped and killed their mother?
That it is such a personal affront to politely not accept others' help? It is like 'Hey Trick here's $20 you should go buy a nice meal' 'Naw I can afford it myself.' 'FINE THEN NOBODY SHOULD EVER USE THIS MONEY EVER' and they burn it right in front of me and tell me I'm selfish and biased and self-centered for not accepting their offer.
It just doesn't make sense to me.
People get outrageously offended and insulted whenI politely decline their help. Then they go and say 'Fine if you won't be happy on your own I will make happy for you.' And they go to great lengths to try and 'cheer me up' and 'what's wrong Trick would you like to talk about it?' And I say no thank, and suddenly it is "I CANNOT BELIEVE HOW SELFISH YOU ARE TRICK FOR REFUSING MY HELP YOU ARE THE WORST PERSON EVER."
And I am like '...huh? Did you say something?"
"DAMNIT TRICK WHY ARE YOU NOT ACKNOWLEDGING AND APPRECIATING ALL THE EFFORTS I HAVE GONE TO HELP YOU WHEN YOU DIDN'T ASK FOR IT YOU ARE SUCH A SELFISH ASSHOLE!"
I do my utmost to be a kind and considerate and gentle person, and people continually accuse me and label me as being not a kind and considerate and gentle person, and they ask why are you not a kind and considerable and gentle person, and then when I ask what I am doing wrong please tell me so I can see my flaws and try to improve or rectify them, they are like 'ugh you should already know what you have done wrong why are you so arrogant and self-centered Trick I will not help you in any way because you are so pathetic and worthless at this you have no chance to survive make your time and it's like...
I feel like it is like 'hey I went to college and studied hard and got honours degree in thinking about other people see my diploma?' and people respond with 'Why did you not study and earn honours degrees in people's feelings? Why are you so self-centered and arrogant Trick why do you not think about other's feelings ever why are you such a big jerk it always has to be about you' and then they go to their friends and are like 'hey there asshole racist Nazi baby-murderer' and the other person is like 'Hee you are so funny for insulting me I love you forever, let's cuddle!"
And I stand there like a post, saying nothing, because I know if I used such insulting language I would immediately be pointed out as being THE HUGE BITCH NOBODY IS A BIGGER ASSHOLE THAN TRICK SERIOUSLY YOU ARE WORSE THAN THAT GUY WHO HAD THE FUNNY LITTLE MOUSTACHE WHY DO YOU NOT REALIZE THAT PEOPLE HATE YOUR VERY EXISTENCE.
Then there are people who immediately pounce upon me, if I should say a single word in my defence. 'Gosh Trick shut up already why are you dragging this on why can't you let this go, can't you see how posting like two sentences in defence of yourself is dragging this argument through the coals at warp speed SERIOUSLY TRICK SHUT UP.
And everyone goes to soothe said 'victim' while I am here being all 'buh And when I politely ask to know what I did wrong, so I can improve myself in the future.' And people are like 'jeez Trick you're such an asshole, why are you a jerk to everyone? Why does this always revolve around yourself, you are so utterly selfish and egotistical and arrogant for wanting to make other people's lives feel better, what the hell Trick, why are you such a douchebag IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT YOU."
it is like there is no throttle at all, we are either at warp speed or full stop.
I just don't understand.
And I am probably going to get told 'why is everything always about you Trick' just for posting that I am always constantly concerned and appreciative of others' feelings and needs and desires. I am the only person I can directly control, it would be rude for me to tell others what to think and feel, yet they do so to me and label me as angry and hateful when I am like 'dude I love everyone you are the best you guys' 'UGH STOP SAYING THAT TRICK YOU ARE A TERRIBLE AWFUL PERSON I HATE YOU ERROR CODE 20 BLOCK IGNORE'
I just want to make people happy and feel their lives are better. This seems to be the worst possible insult to some people. I don't understand what I am doing wrong.
Trust me, I'm an engineer what the fuck am I doing here?
Trust me, I'm an engineer, I am the man who arranges the blocks.
So here it goes. And while these interactions are exaggerated to better show the details and effects, this is really not too far from what people are like with my interactions.
The Trick Manifesto
I am here to write sexy things for people to make them happy and/or masturbate. I ask for little in return because I gain more personal satisfaction at seeing them enjoy my gifts to them without charge.
I do not come here to talk about my real life problems, I want to get away from them, yet people keep asking me how I feel and when I respond they are like 'why is it always about you'.
I do not want to talk about my feelings, but people ask how I am. Even in the literal sense, not the proverbial 'hey what's up' kind of why. They continue and repeatedly try to ask about my feelings. I don't understand why people are angered when I give them what they asked so many times for.
They accuse me of being selfish when I tell them my honest feelings, that it is all about you Trick, that you want to have this pity party all for yourself when I asked 38 times how are you feeling, gah Trick why is it whenever we talk it's about you?
And I further confused because I did not volunteer or offer such emotions in the first place, now I am labelled selfish when I tell people my emotions after they ask so many times?
Then they accuse me of wanting to play the victim. How could you be so callous and self-centered, Trick, why is everything always about you? People think that they are so valuable and that denying me interaction is the ultimate insult YAY I WIN FOREVER TRICK THE FOX WHO DIDN'T EVEN SHOW UP IS THE LOSEREST LOSER EVER. That'll show Trick! I will go to extensive lengths of effort in order to make sure I do not receive contact from them again HA HA I WIN FOREVER YOU LOSE TRICK
And meanwhile I'm just sitting on the park bench outside the stadium being all... 'Eh maybe I won't go the football game today, there'll be another soon' and shrug my shoulders and just wander off. It's not like there won't be more football games, why is this one so special? SPOILER ALERT: It's not.
MEANWHILE, BACK AT THE BAT CAVE I MEAN THIS GUY'S BASEMENT
The other person is giddily gleefully taking like, all the time in the world going on about how he has blocked me and isn't that the greatest? I am sol great and important, look at me now. Damnit, Trick, why don't you appreciate the effort I took to remove you from my life?
It is like they want to imagine 'I am the center of their universe' and when I do not act such way, well, we'll just call you that anyway. Gosh, Trick why are you so selfish, caring about other's feelings and not your own?
Like they want to let me know how important I am to their very existence, that I should be grovelling and begging just to spend time with them. Don't you realize, Trick, what a great dishonour and lost opportunity it is for you, me denying you the chance to roleplay with me? Don't you see that?
Meanwhile, I'm sipping some Diet Pepsi (Coke Sucks There I Said It) and am working on writing, or videoing, or whatever the Fox does best.
They act as if this is the ULTIMATE INSULT FOREVER and look at me Trick, look at what great lengths I have gone to remove you.
And I am like, "Huh? Whatever, sure, you really aren't that special to me. I mean I respect your needs and wants and desires, I am patient with you when you disappear or such, I don't let it bother me because those things are in the past, and I would like to look forward to a fun and exciting future with you."
These people really think that I am so obsessed with them that I would die or kill myself if they were not around, YEAH TAKE THAT TRICK. When it is like... these people are of such little importance, sometimes I even forget their names and sometimes forget why they are mad at me.
That's a fun one. 'Hello character I have not approached before, you look sexy and interesting, would you like to roleplay?' "DAMNIT TRICK HOW CAN YOU BE SO CALLOUS AND UNCARING JUST RUDE AND INSULTING TO APPROACH ME AGAIN FOR RP CLEARLY YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO I AM BECAUSE I HAVE AN ALTAR IN MY COMPUTER ROOM DEDICATED TO YOU."
I am like 'huh? Do I know you?" And they are like "Isn't it obvious who this is why do you not have a ginormous rolodex with all my alts so that you should know how much I hate you for some reason across all the universe because I am that important.
So I ask 'okay, sure, if you hate me that much, just tell me who you are and I shall endeavour to avoid you in the future. It is just polite after all, I do not want to bring up old feelings.'
"GOD DAMNIT TRICK YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO I AM AND YOU SHOULD KNOW ALL 37,000 OF MY ALTS WHAT THE FOX TRICK WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID AND dumb, how selfish can you be to not know intrinsically all my alternate characters already? Why are you so self-centered?"
"Damnit, Trick, how can you be so arrogant as to not pay attention to me and the great lengths and efforts I have gone through to remove you from my life, how can you be so selfish!"
"Trick, you asshole, how have you not picked up on the tiny little clues and hints over this time that I do not really like this roleplay and I am only doing it to make you happy. Why are you so demanding in that you should ask me for what I would really like to do? How can you be so selfish, always asking others what they would like and what pleases them. You are a terrible person, Trick. Your emotions are invalid and meaningless so I will stamp all over them in front of you, how does that feel?"
"I just want to make you happy."
"UGH TRICK WHY ARE YOU STILL BEING SO ARROGANT AND SELFISH! WHY ARE YOU NOT LETTING ME HELP YOU WITH YOUR OWN EMOTIONS I AM SO UTTERLY INVESTED IN THEM FOR SOME REASON."
Especially when I do not volunteer such information myself. I do not want to talk about my feelings or emotions, I don't consider them important.
I just want to write the sexy talk. Being a friend is not my primary goal. The interests we share should be in liking me writing big damn prose about sexy foxes and shit, I really do not care about your personal life because I am here to interact with your character, but I respect and appreciate your desires and needs and whatever happens in real life is more important.
And then I am told 'why do you not respect other people's feelings Trick' and it confuses the fox.
Confuse, not anger.
The fox is never angry. No matter how many times people tell him to be, there is really very little that angers or upsets the Trick Fox. And I don't understand why people want to see me as angry and bitter and frustrated and a jerk to other people, when that is the antithesis of my existence when I am all those things to myself because I don't believe my emotions are worth anything compared to others.
That I want to please you and make you happy and smile and that's all, and then people get angry at me, telling me I am selfish for wanting to do what they want, and arrogant and such, and that I am not thinking about other people's feelings when I am only thinking about other people's feelings and not my own, and they get further enraged at me when they try to help me and I say 'no thanks' why is that?
Why are other people allowed to offer support and suggestions for improvement to me, and when I kindly ask them to not worry about my feelings, it is such a grievous insult to their very core?
How is caring about other people's feelings selfish? There is literally no one else that treats me as badly as myself. I don't need anyone else's help to make me feel miserable, I am fine on my own.
I think and feel I deserve this, that this is what I should get for being a terrible person. But it is like when people go 'let me cheer you up Trick how can I help' and I say 'Thanks for the offer but I do not wish to be helped', they react as if I had just raped and killed their mother?
That it is such a personal affront to politely not accept others' help? It is like 'Hey Trick here's $20 you should go buy a nice meal' 'Naw I can afford it myself.' 'FINE THEN NOBODY SHOULD EVER USE THIS MONEY EVER' and they burn it right in front of me and tell me I'm selfish and biased and self-centered for not accepting their offer.
It just doesn't make sense to me.
People get outrageously offended and insulted whenI politely decline their help. Then they go and say 'Fine if you won't be happy on your own I will make happy for you.' And they go to great lengths to try and 'cheer me up' and 'what's wrong Trick would you like to talk about it?' And I say no thank, and suddenly it is "I CANNOT BELIEVE HOW SELFISH YOU ARE TRICK FOR REFUSING MY HELP YOU ARE THE WORST PERSON EVER."
And I am like '...huh? Did you say something?"
"DAMNIT TRICK WHY ARE YOU NOT ACKNOWLEDGING AND APPRECIATING ALL THE EFFORTS I HAVE GONE TO HELP YOU WHEN YOU DIDN'T ASK FOR IT YOU ARE SUCH A SELFISH ASSHOLE!"
I do my utmost to be a kind and considerate and gentle person, and people continually accuse me and label me as being not a kind and considerate and gentle person, and they ask why are you not a kind and considerable and gentle person, and then when I ask what I am doing wrong please tell me so I can see my flaws and try to improve or rectify them, they are like 'ugh you should already know what you have done wrong why are you so arrogant and self-centered Trick I will not help you in any way because you are so pathetic and worthless at this you have no chance to survive make your time and it's like...
I feel like it is like 'hey I went to college and studied hard and got honours degree in thinking about other people see my diploma?' and people respond with 'Why did you not study and earn honours degrees in people's feelings? Why are you so self-centered and arrogant Trick why do you not think about other's feelings ever why are you such a big jerk it always has to be about you' and then they go to their friends and are like 'hey there asshole racist Nazi baby-murderer' and the other person is like 'Hee you are so funny for insulting me I love you forever, let's cuddle!"
And I stand there like a post, saying nothing, because I know if I used such insulting language I would immediately be pointed out as being THE HUGE BITCH NOBODY IS A BIGGER ASSHOLE THAN TRICK SERIOUSLY YOU ARE WORSE THAN THAT GUY WHO HAD THE FUNNY LITTLE MOUSTACHE WHY DO YOU NOT REALIZE THAT PEOPLE HATE YOUR VERY EXISTENCE.
Then there are people who immediately pounce upon me, if I should say a single word in my defence. 'Gosh Trick shut up already why are you dragging this on why can't you let this go, can't you see how posting like two sentences in defence of yourself is dragging this argument through the coals at warp speed SERIOUSLY TRICK SHUT UP.
And everyone goes to soothe said 'victim' while I am here being all 'buh And when I politely ask to know what I did wrong, so I can improve myself in the future.' And people are like 'jeez Trick you're such an asshole, why are you a jerk to everyone? Why does this always revolve around yourself, you are so utterly selfish and egotistical and arrogant for wanting to make other people's lives feel better, what the hell Trick, why are you such a douchebag IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT YOU."
it is like there is no throttle at all, we are either at warp speed or full stop.
I just don't understand.
And I am probably going to get told 'why is everything always about you Trick' just for posting that I am always constantly concerned and appreciative of others' feelings and needs and desires. I am the only person I can directly control, it would be rude for me to tell others what to think and feel, yet they do so to me and label me as angry and hateful when I am like 'dude I love everyone you are the best you guys' 'UGH STOP SAYING THAT TRICK YOU ARE A TERRIBLE AWFUL PERSON I HATE YOU ERROR CODE 20 BLOCK IGNORE'
I just want to make people happy and feel their lives are better. This seems to be the worst possible insult to some people. I don't understand what I am doing wrong.
Trust me, I'm an engineer what the fuck am I doing here?
Trust me, I'm an engineer, I am the man who arranges the blocks.
My Novel Is Awesome
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If you like furry sci-fi that doesn't suck you should totally check it out, and if I haven't pimped my writing enough yet go check it out also at www.writing.com/authors/L1011Widebody
Telegram. I HATE IT.
Posted 8 years agoI fucking hate Telegram. It is the worst, most featureless instant messaging program I have ever seen. It is like someone looked at Skype and was like 'hey, what if we did that, but only worse?'. There is literally nothing about Telegram I like. NOTHING. It has no status messages, it has no statuses at all, the 'last seen' is buggy as all shit, it has no support for BASIC INSTANT MESSAGING THINGS like font settings, I can't even believe that! I thought it was awful when Skype started doing automatic adjustments when you put two ** together, like *claps hand* and it turned out bold no matter what you wanted, and strike-throughs were inadvertently triggered by the ~ key. But fuck all that! Telegram just says why even have font options at all? That is probably too confusing and scary for you morons out there on the internet, oh my god can you imagine 'Oh noes my font is in ITALICS HOW DO I FIX IT *calls help desk*'. What the hell. It's so ungodly awful of a program, it is *literally* (and here I use asterisks for emphasis) worse than traditional text messaging. And people are trying to use this to roleplay with me. I have NO idea when you are available or not because you are constantly set as 'available', seriously what the fox who does that? How are there these people who can't go more than five seconds without looking at their mobile or smartphone or tablet or whatever? Are you that self-centered that you think the world is just begging to tell you all the great secrets and you just have to be there all the time to get them? Telegram doesn't even have support for /me messages! This is something that you could do in IRC and MUCKs in the goddamn 90s! And so many of my friends are moving to Telegram, why, WHY? Are you that incapable of having a messenger that has more than one feature besides log in, words go here, enter, lol. Does anything you have to right click scare you? Oh, and it's got fucking 'stickers'. Well whupdy shit, that's totally what I want in my text messenger program, more images spamming everything up and blocking things and they're not even good, what the hell, do you really need a spinning, animating picture up there all the time because you might get distracted and have to actually think?
But that's not the worst of it. OHHHHH NO. Apparently it is so easy to label/report another user on Telegram for harassment/spam that anyone can do it without any proof. Or even a fucking warning. And now suddenly I'm blocked from sending outgoing messages unless someone else sends me a message first. Look, look at this, this is verbatim what the response from Telegram was:
(4/7/2017 10:15:30 AM) Spam Info Bot: Dear Trick Fox,
I’m afraid some Telegram users found your messages annoying and forwarded them to our team of moderators for inspection. The moderators have confirmed that you’ve been sending spam.
Unfortunately, your account is now limited. You will not be able to send messages to people who do not have your number in their phone contacts or add them to groups and channels. Of course, when people contact you first, you can always reply to them.
The fuck. THat's it. I give up. I was just starting to get used to being able to tolerate Telegram by running it through a third-party plugin through Pidgin. AND NOW THIS. Now I can't even fucking send messages.
That's it! I don't need this shit! I am fucking done with Telegram. If you want to fucking contact me, man up and use a real IM protocol or client and not some twitchy 'omg I have to check my phone every two seconds OR I MIGHT MISS SOMETHING OMG AND THE HOSTAGES WILL DIE'. Fuck, I'd even suggest Skype at this point, at least fucking Skype has some basic chat support while it's glitchy as hell!
This doesn't even include the wackier shit like it harvesting through my contacts on my Google phone and adding them to my buddy list in Telegram. No I do not really want to have that guy I once called about a job interview in my Telegram userlist, and I certainly don't want my aunt there, she wouldn't understand sexy giant foxes anyway.
So that's it. No more Trick on Telegram. Sorry for anyone who wished to use that method of communication with me but this is the absolute worst indignity and insult I refuse to partake of. If you want to get in contact with me, note me on FA, Pub me on Eka's, Note me on F-List, hit me up on Skype, hell even AIM I still use that because it does what I tell it to do. The user handle for all of those is TrickTheFox by the way. Hell, send me a text, 313-515-9070. I don't fucking care anything is better than this. Also I am on ICQ now 713879685.
But Telegram?
FUCKING.
DONE.
(yes this means I am deleting my Telegram account, sorry all the cool people I met who only wanted to use Telegram you will just have to contact me a different way or live without the fox because I cannot put up with this shit anymore.)
But that's not the worst of it. OHHHHH NO. Apparently it is so easy to label/report another user on Telegram for harassment/spam that anyone can do it without any proof. Or even a fucking warning. And now suddenly I'm blocked from sending outgoing messages unless someone else sends me a message first. Look, look at this, this is verbatim what the response from Telegram was:
(4/7/2017 10:15:30 AM) Spam Info Bot: Dear Trick Fox,
I’m afraid some Telegram users found your messages annoying and forwarded them to our team of moderators for inspection. The moderators have confirmed that you’ve been sending spam.
Unfortunately, your account is now limited. You will not be able to send messages to people who do not have your number in their phone contacts or add them to groups and channels. Of course, when people contact you first, you can always reply to them.
The fuck. THat's it. I give up. I was just starting to get used to being able to tolerate Telegram by running it through a third-party plugin through Pidgin. AND NOW THIS. Now I can't even fucking send messages.
That's it! I don't need this shit! I am fucking done with Telegram. If you want to fucking contact me, man up and use a real IM protocol or client and not some twitchy 'omg I have to check my phone every two seconds OR I MIGHT MISS SOMETHING OMG AND THE HOSTAGES WILL DIE'. Fuck, I'd even suggest Skype at this point, at least fucking Skype has some basic chat support while it's glitchy as hell!
This doesn't even include the wackier shit like it harvesting through my contacts on my Google phone and adding them to my buddy list in Telegram. No I do not really want to have that guy I once called about a job interview in my Telegram userlist, and I certainly don't want my aunt there, she wouldn't understand sexy giant foxes anyway.
So that's it. No more Trick on Telegram. Sorry for anyone who wished to use that method of communication with me but this is the absolute worst indignity and insult I refuse to partake of. If you want to get in contact with me, note me on FA, Pub me on Eka's, Note me on F-List, hit me up on Skype, hell even AIM I still use that because it does what I tell it to do. The user handle for all of those is TrickTheFox by the way. Hell, send me a text, 313-515-9070. I don't fucking care anything is better than this. Also I am on ICQ now 713879685.
But Telegram?
FUCKING.
DONE.
(yes this means I am deleting my Telegram account, sorry all the cool people I met who only wanted to use Telegram you will just have to contact me a different way or live without the fox because I cannot put up with this shit anymore.)
I Am Still Here!
Posted 8 years agoI have sometimes terrifying nightmares, a side effect of my creative drive and schizophrenia I suppose.
The fox never has a chance to rest peacefully, even in my sleep I am tormented by these hyper-realistic dream worlds. So someone prodded me to write my dreams down, and... and here it goes.
It all started at 9'o'clock in the morning today.
The first reality dream, there was a gas main break in the street, the line runs in front of our house, and it was so dangerous and there was a guy hacking at the pavement with a pick-axe and hoping we don't explode, me and my dad, my dad was insistent on getting out of the house. But when we got out of the house, it was invisible. Like it disappeared, and I couldn't touch anything and I felt a real sense of loss...
The second was also a gas leak guy, but more realistic, we have to evacuate just in case, standing around watching the guy with the gas line not exploding yet.
The third, now, we (there are other NPCs and such) were all in a classroom, teaching about something, and then a tornado occurred and I held my head down like I was supposed to, to shield myself from flying debris. The roof was ripped away, and then the tornado destroyed the buildings next to ours and I thought 'oh I hope they are in the right position.' And then someone said, I think a girl because her voice sounded female, 'that's not how you treat a tornado', and then she went up and hugged it, the tornado was now person sized and friendly more or less. And then I had trading cards for all the people that were in the tornado like hockey cards. They had red edging, like Donruss used to do.
Next, I woke up to the house in order and everything. Everything seems normal. Now I am in reality, I think. I look at the clock and, and, oh gosh hurry up Rich's dad says, you have to go nownow! Maybe it will be okay still be okay if you show up anyway.
The fifth started with me looking at the clock and panicking because I would be late, can't be late oh no! The rest of the fifth dream is fuzzy, though, but I remember being terrified that I was dead because I couldn't move my arms or legs. I was also asking my dad to punch me so it would feel real, but he never did...
The Sixth dream involved some friendly guys working on my house for some reason, I think they were redoing the bathroom and such, I was told not to interfere with them and go to your room, Rich, and I did.
And I listened to music for a bit (BILLY SQUIER THE STROKE) and then felt the ground rumbling and oh no it's an earthquake! This shouldn't happen in Michigan. I don't remember much of this one.
The final dream felt so much like reality, that I was terrified that it had happened and I'd missed my appointment. Everything looks normal, I feel all the realism, I'm sure I'm awake aren't I? Oh gods I've slept too long and missed my appointment and now everyone will know I'm such a loser because I can't even sleep right.
Then I was awake without being able to move, like I am a human vegetable. I can't move. I can't reach for anything. Oh god am I dying? The blankets are smothering me... I'm going to die somebody help please lift this weight off me!
It was so terrifyingly realistic in my mind. When I awoke for real, in reality, I felt along the sheets and mattress to make sure it was real this time. I almost asked my dad if the gas line is okay.
Then I felt the burning panic panic PANIC to must immediately confirm I am in reality (sometimes, I generate whole instant messenger conversations with people, this is obviously not a good thing when I ask about something that didn't happen yet. I immediately IM'd someone who is a very dear friend of mine, and asked them to tell me about what happened in their last thirty minutes. To make it seem real, you see. Not a generated illusion disguise...
And now I am awake. I think. Right?
So this is what it's like for me pretty much every day. But don't worry! I'm an engineer, you know, I will keep this course as steady as I can. I solve problems. Practical problems. And I hate unutilized resources...
also sorry for terrible formatting, the FA is not nice to me wordtexts...
Oh, also, I did make my appointment. I woke up with thirty minutes to spare. So this all transpires in compressed elongated time for me... anyway,
Love and foxie hugs~
Trick The Fox
The fox never has a chance to rest peacefully, even in my sleep I am tormented by these hyper-realistic dream worlds. So someone prodded me to write my dreams down, and... and here it goes.
It all started at 9'o'clock in the morning today.
The first reality dream, there was a gas main break in the street, the line runs in front of our house, and it was so dangerous and there was a guy hacking at the pavement with a pick-axe and hoping we don't explode, me and my dad, my dad was insistent on getting out of the house. But when we got out of the house, it was invisible. Like it disappeared, and I couldn't touch anything and I felt a real sense of loss...
The second was also a gas leak guy, but more realistic, we have to evacuate just in case, standing around watching the guy with the gas line not exploding yet.
The third, now, we (there are other NPCs and such) were all in a classroom, teaching about something, and then a tornado occurred and I held my head down like I was supposed to, to shield myself from flying debris. The roof was ripped away, and then the tornado destroyed the buildings next to ours and I thought 'oh I hope they are in the right position.' And then someone said, I think a girl because her voice sounded female, 'that's not how you treat a tornado', and then she went up and hugged it, the tornado was now person sized and friendly more or less. And then I had trading cards for all the people that were in the tornado like hockey cards. They had red edging, like Donruss used to do.
Next, I woke up to the house in order and everything. Everything seems normal. Now I am in reality, I think. I look at the clock and, and, oh gosh hurry up Rich's dad says, you have to go nownow! Maybe it will be okay still be okay if you show up anyway.
The fifth started with me looking at the clock and panicking because I would be late, can't be late oh no! The rest of the fifth dream is fuzzy, though, but I remember being terrified that I was dead because I couldn't move my arms or legs. I was also asking my dad to punch me so it would feel real, but he never did...
The Sixth dream involved some friendly guys working on my house for some reason, I think they were redoing the bathroom and such, I was told not to interfere with them and go to your room, Rich, and I did.
And I listened to music for a bit (BILLY SQUIER THE STROKE) and then felt the ground rumbling and oh no it's an earthquake! This shouldn't happen in Michigan. I don't remember much of this one.
The final dream felt so much like reality, that I was terrified that it had happened and I'd missed my appointment. Everything looks normal, I feel all the realism, I'm sure I'm awake aren't I? Oh gods I've slept too long and missed my appointment and now everyone will know I'm such a loser because I can't even sleep right.
Then I was awake without being able to move, like I am a human vegetable. I can't move. I can't reach for anything. Oh god am I dying? The blankets are smothering me... I'm going to die somebody help please lift this weight off me!
It was so terrifyingly realistic in my mind. When I awoke for real, in reality, I felt along the sheets and mattress to make sure it was real this time. I almost asked my dad if the gas line is okay.
Then I felt the burning panic panic PANIC to must immediately confirm I am in reality (sometimes, I generate whole instant messenger conversations with people, this is obviously not a good thing when I ask about something that didn't happen yet. I immediately IM'd someone who is a very dear friend of mine, and asked them to tell me about what happened in their last thirty minutes. To make it seem real, you see. Not a generated illusion disguise...
And now I am awake. I think. Right?
So this is what it's like for me pretty much every day. But don't worry! I'm an engineer, you know, I will keep this course as steady as I can. I solve problems. Practical problems. And I hate unutilized resources...
also sorry for terrible formatting, the FA is not nice to me wordtexts...
Oh, also, I did make my appointment. I woke up with thirty minutes to spare. So this all transpires in compressed elongated time for me... anyway,
Love and foxie hugs~
Trick The Fox
This may be the end...
Posted 8 years agoFRIG I didn't realize how long this was maybe better http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22434622/ yes?
Happy Birthday for the Trick Fox!
Posted 9 years agoSpending it alone as usual. Another year of my life wasted, forever gone, another year of failure and the missed expectations and working on things nobody appreciates. Why can't I have nice things anymore? I'm sorry for being another year of burden upon my friends. I just want to make people happy and I always seem to fail at that...
No Subject
Posted 11 years agoI don't know why they call it 'light rail', I still feel fat after eating a train or two. Maybe I should switch to fat-free rail.
Very rude behavior
Posted 12 years agoSomeone sent me a private message yesterday and then when I went to respond FA said 'this user has declined to participate in the note system' followed by 'this user has voluntarily disabled their profile'. How very rude and selfish behavior. You should be ashamed. You know who you are.
Kanye West is a Furry
Posted 13 years agoHappy Brovember Eve!
Posted 14 years agoThe manliest month. Well, except for naybe Manuary...
