Hey Checking in here. I know, i know. Its been a while and i mostly be on Twitter(not really). My computer ended up dying on me. More info here:

https://twitter.com/TruffleBear/sta.....649984002?s=20

I got 3 bats up for adoption, maybe go check those out? :]

If you can spare some coins, i'd really appreciate it. You can donate through my Ko-fi link https://ko-fi.com/cocoabear

Or directly to my paypal via ChunkyTruffleBear@gmail.com!

Ty for reading! I hope you are Healthy and Staying Safe. We in a Panoramic afterall. <3

The CocoaBear and her refsheet i created long ago has become the blueprint to alot of yalls fursonas and yall refuse to admit it. Honestly, it don't bother me too much but when you are actually tracing over my hairstyles and outfits and not even crediting as at least reference'd? Petty.

At the end of the day, i cant stop you or anyone else but it really sucks to see instant pay off for someone else for something you worked on for weeks that wasn't intended to be shareable.

Im glad i was of some use to you.

lmao, Its just as the title stated. I have some inspo to do some adopts but i cannot for the life of me get em started. I was wondering if some adopt artists out there wanna collab? Ive been wanting to collab with another adopt artist for a while but never had the courage to follow through.

I have few examples of content in my gallery but [NSFW] https://www.furaffinity.net/view/34593564/ Is a pretty good example of what i can bring to the table content/skill wise. I also dont mind using bases or original lines. I enjoy both. :]

I tend to shine with Outfits, Hairstyles and Little items/object that can describe the OC and add value to the adopt. I want to do at least 5 adopts, more if we vibe together. Show me some of your examples in the comments maybe then we can move forward. :]

Just updating you guys because you deserve it. Im doing better. My mental and physical health is on its recovery. Ill go through my private messages soon but i can guess what most of them contain. So expect a generic copy/paste message in regards to that subject.

Im doing much better you guys. :]

Also, you ever want a CocoaBear for yourself? Welp, you're in luck. I'll be posting two beautiful Cocoabear adopts. I am very much in love with them and They have finished refs as well as a Badge and Icon that can be used for Toyhou.se, twitter, ect. Im not sure if i should post and auction or just have a flat rate buyout.

I love you guys and i hope your holidays are going well. Thank you for your patience.

Im not in a good place mentally. Physically, im still hurt. Ive tried to resume my life as best i can but i cannot do things that require a full range of motion and its very depressing. Im sleep 80% of my day, ive gained so much weight these past few weeks. Due to my adopts not doing well and constant complications with selling my possessions, im way behind on payments which is adding fees and penalties. Im very angry and sad. Im afraid. My life had been so quiet and mellow for a while and suddenly im hit with so much tragedy, in such a short time and its alarming. Friday, i got the ambulance bill and it was friggin $3050. My heart sunk. I hate living in the middle of nowhere. What am i suppose to do? How do i fix this and resume my life? I just want everything to go back to normal. Its hard to cry and be upset about these things because im always told life is suppose to be tough so when these things happen, "you just gotta power through them". I feel so weak. Afraid and alone. Its hard knowing that anyone who wants to help is unable to help due to their circumstances but feel like their not doing enough. How am i suppose to reassure them that its ok that they cannot remedy the problem? Its a gut wrenching feeling.

My due dates are creeping up on me and im running thin on options. Between art and working small jobs i was able to support my portion of bills. Everything is crumbling down and im at a loss.

Things havent been going too well for me since the accident. Been feeling really useless and depressed since. Last week i injured myself worse trying to resume my regular activities and that really took my morale into a negative state. Ive been meaning to post this update journal sooner but ive been sleeping alot. I cant even enjoy my usual vices because it either hurts or its hard to adjust to using 1 hand.

Im still asking for donations. I really need you guyes and gales help. Any help received is greatly appreciated.
ChunkyTruffleBear[at]gmail.com is my paypal. I have some notes to reply to but please be patient with me. I spend 70% of my day sleeping because, as dramatic as it sounds, being awake is painful. It even hurts to swallow when i eat or drink. My Muscle relaxers/pain pills dont work well and Ive had to resort to other means of easing my discomfort. Thank you so much for reading my update and i hope you all are well.

Hey guys, i havent really been active. Its been a very tiring few months. Sunday night, My husband and I were driving home and hit a deer. Husband swerved and hit the brakes to try to avoid the deer but couldnt. Husband is fine but I ended up in a shitty situation with whiplash.

https://www.dropbox.com/s/n8tevocww.....91806.jpg?dl=0 They ended up having to cut my shirts off because they couldnt move my neck. They did xrays and a ct scan and In the end, i was sent home in a hospital gown, a bruised collarbone and a small injuries on my forearm/elbow. Im currently taking pain meds as needed throughout the day. They dont really work that well.

I apologize for this but i am asking for donations... again. I cannot draw right now so i cannot take on any commissions/ make adopts to cover my bills and our car insurance deductible is 500$ for the damage the deer caused. I am so sorry you guys.

ChunkyTruffleBear[at]gmail.com is my paypal if you'd like to help.

I am also taking offers on my Personal CocoaBear to help with the expenses. i really don't want to let her go but i need to handle business.
http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....onBon-Truffles

I really hate having to use FA as a last ditch effort but Ive exhausted all of my resources. I have til the 15th to come up with about $350 or Ima get hit with a massive penalty. Its not too life threatening or risk of being homeless(i hope not) type emergency, but it will make my life significantly troublesome financially. I ended up quitting my job about 2 months ago due to stress and having to travel for family. I tried to rely on art to get my last bit of coins to pay this bill down but, ive run out of time.

Ive run out of time and am asking you guys for some help as a last ditch effort. You absolutely do not have to donate and i will appreciate every cent of kindness. Ive been down and out these past few weeks with multiple unfortunate events happening. I dont want to turn this journal into "woe is me" with a list of problems but it would be nice to talk to someone about it. My Discord is BonBon#2771

My paypal is ChunkyTruffleBear[at]gmail.com or https://ko-fi.com/cocoabear thankyou.

Edit: I noticed that i haven't been receiving some notes via FA. ..which would maybe explain the lack of replies... Send me an email or discord if you've tried to get in touch with me.

EDIT TO ADD: I feeling so overwhelmed with the friend request and words of confidence and good wishes. Thank you so much. i managed to reach my goal and i cannot express properly how i feel! Im really exhausted so i think i will use this time to sleep and rest up. Thank you so much Q_Q

Im feeling alot better now, still a bit of garbage in my system that needs to be flushed but none the less, i feel good. Gonna start working on some refsheets for adopts to increase their value so look out for those.

Thank you for being patient with me with the notes! <3

Yo, Im back! Sick AF but im back. Ive been drinking tons of cold medicine so im just down for the count atm. I'll be responding to some of yalls messages inquiring about customs and ref sheets quotes!

Be patient with me please! thank you! (Hearts)

Love,
Super Sick Bear

Yo so im gonna sell some of my Characters and linearts i did for potential characters and adopts. Im also open to doing customs lines for base packs for your personal use. I need to make about 400$ so if you could even donate/tip, i'd be real grateful as well. ChunkyTruffleBear[at]gmail.com is my paypal :]

Characters im selling:

1) PuppyBear - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28435372/ $45
Or for 100$ she can come with a bigger ref to be completed https://www.dropbox.com/s/mjlim3jq1.....Maybe.png?dl=0

2) Wereworlf Boy - https://sta.sh/01mdn5xj3z0m 35$

3) Pitbull - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/28198297/ 25$

4) Madam Bear - https://sta.sh/01wapsamhaia 85$
She comes with 4 extra pieces of art as well as i can make a full refsheet(Front back 3 chibis and closeups)
for an extra fee upon purchase. :]

I also have some WIP for adopts i never got to finish if you want to offer on them:

Sunflower Lion : https://www.dropbox.com/s/kyap90wq7.....s_WIP.png?dl=0

Puffball Bat : https://www.dropbox.com/s/wrfl7t87c.....BaWIP.png?dl=0

2nd Bat : https://www.dropbox.com/s/pwka82bwr.....ptWIP.png?dl=0

I can make these into customs or i can YCH refsheet them for you. Note or Comment with offers.

I will like to mention that i am desperate enough to open up for a refsheet like this: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26170794/. Let me know your budget and i can try to work with you in notes. :]

Yo! I need some extra funds for FWA. Ran into alittle bit of badluck and had to make a tough decision. Anyways, i need a bit of cash to comfortably attend FWA(Gas and Food). This isnt an Emergency™ or an anything. Just me reaching out and asking if anyone wants to sponsor me going. Hugs and Butt Squeezes will be returned :V

Donations are welcomed i am also willing to do some custom edits to any bases out there especially if they belong to Geekidog. I am also not against taking on a ref sheet or two using her base. I have some adopts ive been working on so hopefully i can get those done and sell them in time.

I will legit do just about anything to see my friends. So feel free to PM me :D

My Paypal is ChunkyTruffleBear@gmail.com~ If you Tip/Donate note me so i can thank you. :]

Alright so, My grandmother passed away yesterday at 5am and my brother called me and told me the news. Honestly, i did not care for this woman deeply, she was an evil soul who tormented my Mother and I. My brother on the other hand loved this woman and in return she loved him as if he were her only child. Its probably because she had 2 sons and our father passed away while we were young and he took his place. Im not certain about her motives but all i know is that she loved her grandson like he was her son. I was gonna visit my family in california this summer but now i see i have to see them sooner for the funeral arrangements as well as to support my brother. I would do anything for my brother. We are very close and ive never heard him break down this hard. Hes been there for me when it came to issues at school with bullying and even when i was at financial/mental hardships, he'd check on me. i just want to be there for him like he was for me. If you guys can help make that happen, i would be forever in your debt.

My paypal is ChunkyTruffleBear@gmail.com. If you cannot donate that is ok, its not a massive emergency. This isnt something that NEEDS to be done but i am willing to go the extra mile if that means i can be there for him.

I am also selling EVERY character i own. Feel free to comment below if you have any condolences, questions or offers. Thank you for reading.

These are characters also for sale

(WEREWOLF BOYFRIEND) https://sta.sh/01mdn5xj3z0m - $35

(Madam Bear) https://sta.sh/01wapsamhaia - $100 (comes with 4 other pieces)

(Nadopt Pup) https://sta.sh/01zne3v6cjub - $90

(Cocoa Monkey) https://sta.sh/01zvv5kmufza - (Offers below for finished Refsheet)

I may have more, i need time to look for them - Again, thank you for reading.

I need about... 1200 dollars so ima make some adopts. Probably open for a pre-pose refsheet or 2 or something. It would be of the same quality of my current refsheets. Maybe not as much stuff due to time constraints but yeah.

Any suggestions for species? Yall still like CocoaBears? She might be up for grabs. I may also sell some or all the characters i own. Pretty much you can offer below or send me a note. Note that the 2 bears i have are DIFFERENT characters, Ones a regular bear and the other a CocoaBear.

Im tempted to "clean house" and start fresh fursona wise...possibly. I just want to be a simple Bear or Dog. No complex or Unique™ markings. So like the current Bear i have so im leaning more towards Bear of course because i just gotta be different but Dog is kind of calling me, ya know? Just whispering in my dang ear... haha.

Anywho, Thanks for reading! I missed yall. :]

Yall should send me some moneys so i can buy a cake and a halloween costume. Also birthday wishes are good too.

Chunkytrufflebear[at]gmail.com is my paypal. :)

Ay, If you've ever adopted something from me, did you know that you can add a "completed" ref on the side for a discounted added price? I figured id let yall know since it was asked recently and YES. If you got an adopt from me, and you'd like to upgrade the commission, id be happy to add Items, Likes/Dislikes, and small details for a fair price. Im not against adding extra outfits or Alt forms but im really bad with "Iuno, pick something" commissions so, i would prefer if you were really specific about what you wanted. Like, Linking me actual color swatches or outfits either similar to what you want or very close.

At the Moment i am working on a batch of adopts(10-12 total) and i will be giving the option of having a refsheet added if the buyer requests it.

I have a old $2100 credit card bill coming up in November. I wanna do MFF but i'd rather pay this bill to avoid more interest build up and transferred to collections. Also, not having a room for the con also help the decision become easier, Lol.

So yeah, Ima be making adopts and selling stuff on the side in hopes to make that $2100. if i make enough and them some for the con, maybe ill go but its really looking like ima just pay this bill and keep it pushing. Im even open to the idea of a Custom CocoaBear if any one is still interested in those. It wont be a Base Custom so it'll have Original Lines an all. :]

I miss editting bases. I used to edit the CRAP outta bases. I was super excited when i collab'd with Geeki to make my very own base. Sad thing is, i lost motivation to edit lines now.. its been like that for a few months now. Its to the point where i cant even complete personal projects(Husbands and Gfs Refsheets) and im looking for a way to get rid of this block so i can complete these things and move on to updating my current base. I bought a few of the newer bases and i was wondering what adopts should i make? I kinda go into the groove with Teils base - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27936542/ and added a bunch of stuff to it. Anyone have any suggestions for adopts? Or any suggestions for other bases?

Ay sooo! I been gone these past few weeks because... I MOVED! :D ...not to a new state or anything but i wanted to get out of these apartments. I moved in officially on the 1st. We get internet at the new place monday morning so thats cool and all. Yall should send me house warming gifts/coins! :U

https://cash.me/$TruffleBear or P.O.box 3457 Minot ND 58701

New Oc- I really want a Dog sona super badly. Dont worry, i will always be a bear at heart. Both her designs will be used regularly BUT i kinda want a side sona. For those days where i wanna experiment and such. Thinking about hosting a design contest or something with a cash money winner. Ive noted a few artist but to no avail. Ah well, its something to think about.


Ok so, i will address something. I had someone in my DMs this morning(thank you by the way) tell me they were interested in me but didn't pursue because i was in a relationship with Geekidog and didnt quite fully understand nor "accept" that i was OPENLY polyamorous. Like, let me tell you something, not only am i in a relationship with Geekidog, i am also married to a husband! They know about each other and respect their relationships with me. I dont say it enough outloud often but I love both of them very much. Despite the burning love, i feel like i have more room to love. Its always so upsetting to meet someone i vibe with then i tell them i am married with a GF and they back away because of an ex who "was poly and she cheated on me" or "i dont think i can have a gf and not get the same attention as her other partners". Like... I get it, i really do BUT do you know how crushing that is to me?

I hate peoples misconceptions of what they are allow to call poly. I hate that people openly blame being cheated on or hurt as poly or as an excuse to run and hump on things and dump them at moments notice. Mind you, you allow to do whatever you want with your life so long as you being safe, responsible, and not creating victims. If you want to be open sexually, go for it! Just be careful and use protection. Shiiit, if STD/STIs weren't a thing... Whew... But yeah dont call it what it isnt. Now Poly, IS defined by the parties involved. You can be sexually and romantically active with 1 of your partners but just be emotionally and romantically involved with the other. You can be not sexually involved with any of them or vice versa! Its still poly and valid. Just communicate and you'll be fine(maybe). I can tell you what isnt poly though. Having 5 Gfs/Bfs that dont know about eachother ISNT poly. Forcing your boyfriend to get a girlfriend so you can have multiple partners because "ITS EQUAL!" so you don't feel bad ISNT poly. Actually, Thats straight up evil... Being in relationship with 2 other people who hate each others guts due to a disrespect of their very existence(i.e. A TERF and a transwoman and cis woman in a relationship) may be a poly relationship but isnt a Healthy one. Stop saying its "poly relationships ruining your love life". NO. Its shit people ruining your love life! Regardless if you are Mono, Open, Poly, ect. If there are shit people in the relationship, you will have a shit relationship.

Its really heart retching because i do want more partners but, im afraid. Im afraid ill fall in love with someone then be denied their full affection in return because of fear or misconceptions. Its bad enough that im a black woman in this fandom, which already is a huge negative here(and pretty much everywhere on the planet),now add that i am Gay™, disabled, & poly . Shit, Im not a perfect person, i make a ton of mistakes but that's life. I may not cheat, lie or physically abuse but i know ive said some mean things to upset my partners, on purpose, when they've hurt me. I can be careless sometimes. I dont say "I love you enough" or know how to publicly declare my affection. Its not something im used to but i am willing to learn for those i care about. I'd love to care about more of yall. Its not that my currents cant satisfy me or anything i just want more. I want to love more people differently. I want to grow as much as i can and be loved and love in every way possible. Im always open to add people to my life.

Its not just about the physical attraction. Each of my partners fufill a kind of love i look for and im 100% open for their specific type of love to change. I am Omnisexual. My preferences have alot to do with Physical preference as well as Emotional standards. I am still learning alot about myself and i would love to have some A1 people in my life i can learn them with.

TL;DR - Give me stuff. I want to be a doggo sometimes. Please stop blaming and labeling your toxic "relationships" as poly.

Also, Date me you cowards!

Ay, tell me. I might have a crush on you too.

Also, This journal is just an update kind of. Sort of a "proof of life" if you will. Im doing ok. Getting ready for FWA coming up soon as well as working on some personal projects. Got a toyhouse account and gonna start uploading my characters there.

How do i get on Toyhouse? I want one now.

Yeah so, i been gone for a long minute. Some events took place which lead me to go dark for a bit here and there. I prefer not to get into detail but i can if needed. Im back hopefully but now i am without my(hubs) computer and a means to make money. I want to set up a goal thing and donation thing so i can obtain the funds needed to purchase parts. i figure building a pc would be better in the long run. A while back My motherboard failed on me and tbh it was expected but i was in denial. My Harddrive is still functional, thank goodness. I didnt lose any PSD, SAI files, or other important documents.

I'll also be selling some of my characters to come up with money as well as a few other things i own. A kind user, who wishes to remain anonymous, is donating some of their older PC parts so i wont need to raise much. Possibly Custom CocoaBears if anyone is interested but it would be after im able to draw reliably ifyou want quality work. I also have a few "YCH" type refsheet lines i could just plug your character for extra cost if you wish. I have a laptop i can use but i cant run anything 3000x3000px without the fan kicking on and acting a fool.

My goal is $1100. I already have $400 put away. So, im getting there. :]

If you'd like to donate then you can. ChunkyTruffleBear[at]gmail.com is my paypal.
I'll release more info when i get more time to figure things out. Just wanted to post something.

https://pcpartpicker.com/list/P6z3nn

Heres a build from a long time ago. I wanna start saving so ii can stop using my husbands PC. Luckily, The parts became alot cheaper but i was wondering if this build is good enough for :

Photoshop CS6
PaintTool Sai
Premier Pro
Vegas Studio
Recording and Editing HD files
Video Game / Art streaming
Playing videogames with Above Average Settings
3D Designing and Sculpting

Any Brands you guys have a preference for?

ok so. Its another Character Creation journal!

I was messing around with my fursona and ive noticed that when i make small changes i really like them but i also like how the original looks. It would be something as small as changing the color of a marking, adding one, removing one or just a overlay over the original colors. I used the same template, for consistency sake, and made small changes to the copies and i love them all to death.

I'd love some input on things like this. How does one figure how to handle this? I have like 5 i really like alot but they are all slightly different.

Man... about a good 75% of the adopts i make are just reject fursonas for myself. Sometimes i catch the feels when i see those adopts again in my PSDs and im like, "Wow, i should of kept that". It really hit me when i was looking for Adopts i never uploaded or Adopts i sold privately and started to get sad. I think my mind set of what was going on through those days were "You only need one OC!!!"

Now im like, "Lemmie upload all these characters i got from Geekidog or Made myself". But the regret is real and still there. I checked up on some of my favorite ones and see that they arent even being used. Maybe its for RP, but no art is being commissioned that i know of. I know it would be real scummy of me to just make a character that's only slightly off the original so, it makes me sad. I mean i know its well within my rights to do so because i am the creator of these character but, its a honor system so i have to respect that.

So, I dont wanna be sad anymore. I think i will upload some of those adopts i couldnt bring myself to sell or never posted because they were too close to my actual fursonas design due to me trying to look for the PerfectFursona™

...man, the regret is super real. All i can do is learn from my mistakes.

So expect a few new characters or something. I Dunno.

So! Lemmie start off by saying, sorry for the upload spam! Geeki keeps urging me to upload the art i have. Thats is for now though.

Alrighty then. I made it to my new location! Im currently staying at a hotel until i can find a place to live. Its pretty pricey but i just gotta deal with it for hopefully a few more days. I will be more active here despite not having a place. Gotta keep myself entertained to some level so i dont go insane.

I guess that wasn't much of an update...

OH! I need someone to draw this character for me! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/22383769/ Im willing to pay ($35-$50) for a sketch (up to +$90) if its a lil sketch page of him. (Cough Geeki COUGH) (COUGH please COUGH) (COUGH COUGH)

But yeah, thats it for now. Take Care!