Alright, my mom has graciously let me borrow her laptop so I can get some drawing and work done, took a while to get SAI and my tablet going on it, it uses windows 8 and, BOY DO I NOT LIKE THAT.

But it's only until I get a new PC, so if you're on the queue waiting good news since I can get back to drawing!
Wish me luck, I'm already at my breaking point with patience and frustration but I'm still doing the best I can! <3

-- Tsu

To my patreon!

Took me a while to figure out what I was doing, hopefully I got it, hope I did.
Uploaded some pics, sketches, SAI files, more to come as they are made I guess!

Give it a look if you haven't!
http://www.patreon.com/SimplyTsuperb

Now I', stressed, anxious, and dizzy beyond reason and need to work on a few commissions and other such household nonsense because I'm the only one who does things around here at all, bye! :>

-- Tsu

My patreon!

http://www.patreon.com/SimplyTsuperb

Please consider supporting me, so for many more awesome future times I can draw more and more!

-- Tsu

Heads up, my patreon will be going live tonight, I super nervous and all that jazz about it but I can't put it off anymore for fear of failure.

I have a few pieces done, more will be on the way, juggling commissions and more King Julien art the best I can! So please if you are interested in supporting me I would be grateful and hopefully by the end of the month be able to get a better set up so I can draw and stream and all the good stuff for everyone! <3<3<3

-- Tsu

Nice to know I haven't been missed!

Okay, so the new King Julien series aired and boy did that help me a bunch with all my suicidal feelings, I mean, I actually felt reborn, it was great!

So- still no new PC, with the holidays and - my situation, well, I need like, I dunno. Working on just making my patreon live and stuff. Ugh, I feel so dead right now, full of- not feeling good.

Trying to draw, SAI locks up and crashes a lot on my old laptop.
It's crazy. Sigh and I have all these smutty ideas and god fucking dammit I can't work on those and still have commissions and I feel like- hurting myself so I've actually being kept busy and junk. Not a good mental time right now but, ya know, too poor to help myself so I drown the bad thoughts in sweet Julien booty.

Okay so this was pretty much 'I'm still around but spiraling into depression and bad stuff further but trying my best' sort of thing.
So enjoy the new year, hope your gift giving holidays were great, uhm, I'm twenty eight now and- things, okay bye for not sure how long but okay whatever.

-- Tsu

I just finished setting up the gofundme account, now I just, hope I guess.

gofundme.com/hzmjps

All my time now will be dedicated to finishing up commissions, I only have a small amount of time to work since I'm currently using my husband's laptop but I will do my best.

I'm really not sure when I will be back, I will try to check in from time to time and keep everyone posted or at least do my best to share my sketches or update when my patreon is live.

The guilt about all this is killing me, I love all of you.

-- Tsu

My laptop is dying. It's old, I get that, I took as good care of it as I could and it outlasted my husbands by like, four years but, recently it's taken to freezing and blacking out at random times.

I don't know how much longer it's going to last and, a new PC is six hundred but if I can't work how will I afford that and I have commissions I still need to finish but I won't be able to do any of that on my laptop. Using my husbands right now to just, let people know I guess?

He keeps suggesting I try a fund me thing or something and I'm still working on my banner and introductory patreon package, on his computer so I have like, an hour a day to do stuff.

Does any one have any suggestions??
My laptop is my life line but I don't want to - I don't know, I always feel terrible asking for help, I get so riddled with guilt.

aaaah, I want a ahug.

Been on the fence about it since I always worry that I'm not good enough but- if people want to support me they can and nuts to people who don't.

Working on a banner, a video (like an intro video on who I am and why you might want to support me), some new unseen PoM sketches and basically setting everything up. Since I have no idea who to sell myself or my skills I have a ton of great friends helping me out and I hope I can get everything up and ready soon.

Wish me luck!

-- Tsu

(working on commissions while doing this and all that jazz, no worries! @3@)
(and yes, with the patreon I can dedicate more time to my PoM comics and make more)

Getting back into the swing of things, managed to finish a commission and that gave me a lot more, I don't want to say confidence or motivation, but it made me feel really good about myself.

I really want to finish my backlog of commissions this month because I really need to start saving for a new PC.
I love my laptop, named him Julien, this laptop is my best friend and I have done all I can to take care of him and keep him in top performing shape but he's old, he's going to be six next year and he's already so- my poor laptop.

There's a problem with his display and video card, used to be that whenever I watched a YT video he would seize up and the monitor would go black, scared the hell out of me the first time, now he's starting to freeze and go black even when I'm not playing a video of any kind. I can work and use him just fine, sometimes he freezes when I watch videos in windows but-.

Yeah, I hate to think I need to replace him but I don't want to lose all my work or only means of working.
Found a nice replacement and it's only four hundred but I have no idea how long that price will stay since it may be only for the holidays so I need to kill my body again and push it.

Here's to hoping I can manage. @3@

- Tsu

Managed to clean, dishes, laundry, that old chestnut.

Going to draw for an hour and a half or so, all PoM related. Got season one and two on and my mind is buzzing with Kowalski/Julien scenarios and - ya know, I fucking love that pairing.

All the work and experience I gained from the show and fandom are just super amazing, so I talk about it a ton. At least I will again.
Man this show is so important to me, crazy important.

-- Tsu

you guys want to talk pom with me?? you can.

Working on commissions shows me that even tho I recreated my brushes they aren't the same.

I feel as though I'm learning all over again how to draw and I don't think I'l ever be able to recreate my old tools and make my work exactly how I used to. I feel so impossibly depressed over it.

What a stupid thing I am.

-- Tsu

SO MANY PEOPLE ARE DOING TF COMMISSIONS RIGHT NOW AND I NEED TO FINISH ALL OF MINE BEFORE I CAN TAKE ON NEW ONES DO PEOPLE STILL LIKE PENGUINS OF MADAGASCAR???

I'M GETTING BACK INTO IT BECAUSE OF THE NEW KING JULIEN SERIES IT LOOKS REALLY GOOD I SAW A CLIP AND MY LOVE JUST EXPLODED I CAN DRAW MOR KING JULIEN RIGHT, WE LOVE THAT???

I DIDN'T HAVE THERAPY THIS WEEK AND I FEEL LIKE A WREAK AND I'M SO ANXIOUS AND PANICKED WHAT DO I DO??? I'M SORRY I KEEP DISAPPOINTING PEOPLE I'M DOING MY BEST I JUST WANT TO THROW MYSELF OFF A BRIDGE OR WALK DOWN A ROAD AND NEVER COME BACK HOW DO I EVEN DEAL WITH ALL THIS???

Right after I got paranoid, I can't handle the fallout.

He terrifies me.
When he gets upset and I know from past experience that bring- that up will just make it worse.

I hate myself so much.

My depression has been getting worse and worse lately.

I- seriously contemplated hurting myself last night.
Honestly feel like no one cares, my fiance, my family, I don't have any friends. What's the point?

I don't know what to do but I want to apologize for it all because I should be working but instead I find myself alone all the time, fighting off the urge to self harm and ending up a crying heap on the floor when I really should be drawing.

Drawing is all I can do, if I don't than I really am worthless.

After hours of breakdowns, husband not really caring about my mental state through all this and just- remaking brushes over and over and saving the setting and screenshots anywhere I can, I think I've finally got the new SAI to save my swatches and brushes and it isn't crashing anymore.

I'll be spending the next few hours and tomorrow using the brushes and trying my best to get them the way I want them, I still can't believe this happened and am really hoping I can just fix everything and get back to drawing and working.

This also goes to show me how little the people around me care about my breakdowns and how important my tools are.

-- Tsu

Every single one of my swatches, settings and custom brushes I had over the years are lost.

I had been attempting to update SAI and even with backing up all my files the new version lost them, the old version lost them too and now whenever I try to recreate or add them to either program neither one saves them. The program closes and when it is reopened all that I added is gone.

I don't know what to do and I've been in a terribly depressive and suicidal state because I'm a fucking moron and if I don't have my brushes I can't finish or work on any commissions. I have no idea what to do, even the people around me are ignoring all the self harm tendencies and every hour or so I force myself not to cause any harm to myself.

If anyone knows what I can do to at least have a stable version of SAI, old or new, that will retain all my swatches and brushes, please please please let me know, this is messing me up so badly and I can't even believe this happened. Please someone, anyone help me out.

-- Tsu

Before I continue I want to say that, yes I am working on the backlogged list of commissions I have, clients are more than welcome to contact me and ask about progress or anything else.

Unfortunately for Tsu she has many things in her life right now that are causing horrible depression and memories to resurface but I am doing the best I can, pressure from all side, be it family, my husband and debts are all taking a toll but I won't let that stop me from creating the quality of work my clients deserve.

But right now I do need to take on a little more, I won't go into the details but if I were to livestream for sketch commissions would anyone be interested in them? You can send me all info and payment before I begin the stream (start time would be given publicly of course) and then you can still back and watch me draw.

Sketches would still remain standard price and would be the same quality of posted sketches now.
I'll set up a time and day for the livestream if enough interest is generated. Thank you to everyone for taking the time to read this, I appreciate it like you would not believe. <3<3<3

-- Tsu

Aaaah, I know, been forever!!

I went to the con and it was amazing, I met Jeffrey Combs four times and hugged him twice!!
After the con things just got crazy but I am working my hardest to finish up the backlog of commissions before I can take on new ones!

As a vague update, just five more sketch commissions to go then I have a four part color commission to do, going to do my best to finish them in two weeks time, mainly for the color ones!

Please bare with me and I appreciate everyone's patience!! (hugs and kisses)

-- Tsu

Whew, I can finally get back to drawing!

For those who didn't know, recently my mom's dog took a good bite at my drawing hand and I had to keep myself from using it to do anything if I wanted it to heal right and not scar, but now I can get back to drawing!

So please do not fret my wonderful clients, I will do my very best and get right back to work, thank you for your continued patience! <3

-- Tsu

I'm back and ready to get back to work, current ongoing commissions will be done soon and I still have slots remaining for anyone who would like to commission me!

-- Tsu

June 19th is when I will be closing the PoM art sale, not forever though, I would like to add more to it as time passes!

So have no fear if you don't manage to get it this time around!
Thursday will be the last day I can handle orders for the package as I will be out of town this weekend, I will have my laptop but am unsure if I will have access to the net.

If you aren't the patient sort, believe me I know I'm not, after I return you are more than welcome to still request the package!

And for my clients who have already paid for commissions I will do my absolute best to get them to you before I leave, commissions will be kept open indefinitely and I look forward to drawing for everyone!

Last reminder, if you have sent me an IM or email about a commission and haven't heard back from me please feel free to contact me again, life does get away from us sometimes and I apologize if you somehow got lost in the shuffle, I always try to do my best for everyone so please forgive me if accidentally overlooked you!

Again, thank you to everyone who has helped me out and I hope to be able to come back refreshed and ready to draw more PoM for everyone! A few robots thrown in for good measure too!

-- Tsu <3<3<3

A little journal heads up for anyone who didn't see the recent submission, I was originally going to leave the offer for the PoM art package open until the end of the summer but had decided to keep to keep it available until the 19th of this month.

Sorry for the change of date. >///>

Since I plan on working further on Folks-y Wisdom and delving back head first into the fandom I want to be able to add updates and such as I go along into the package.

I hope everyone considers the offer and thank you so much to those that have already purchased it, I love talking to you all about my art. fan characters and AUs, feel free to email or PM me anytime if you have questions or would just like to know more about the worlds I've built up around the show.

Thank you! <3

-- Tsu

Thanks to all the input and interest I'm going to be releasing my art folders on sale!

I'm working on getting everything together, working out prices and overall just making sure you get everything I've drawn over the years pertaining to the art folders you purchase!

I'll release the information and folder images sometime tonight or tomorrow, thank you again for the interest! <3<3<3

-- Tsu

if I were to put my art folders up for download at a price would anyone be interested in buying them?

Tons of sketches and unseen artwork varying from PoM, TF, StH and even The Simpsons, just putting that out there, let me know what you think.

-- Tsu

Two weeks until Texas Comic-Con, have a few sketches to finish up before I take on my last commissions before the event!!

I've been working myself to death on getting enough funds, planning, saving, there have been emotional and mental breakdowns caused by- things but I'm still keeping on.

It's been nothing but stress and work since the year started and I'll be happy to move onto a work pace that isn't so demanding but- as long as all my hard work and efforts are rewarded and I become stronger for the experience then I don't mind it at all.


Commissions will still be open even after the con and, probably major changes to lifestyle too, these past few months have opened my eyes a ton to the negative around me, those who support me and those who would rather hurt me than help. I thank god for my weekly therapy session or I doubt I would even be here as calm and strong as I am now.

I want to take this time to thank everyone who offered support in commissions, advice, words of encouragement and just being all around awesome people. It means so much to me to have such amazing people who follow and watch me, it's all of you, here, on my tumblr, anywhere, that help me keep going. To keep my head up and not let people or how they treat me keep me down.

It means the world to me.

Well, I shouldn't get to emotional I suppose, best get back to work. Thank you, really. <3

-- Tsu