I figured I might as well put up a list of dreams I have, although I admit I doubt they’ll come true with the way my life is and tends to be.

1.) Having a boyfriend. A girlfriend works too, but I admit I’ve been more in to guys lately.

2.) Having a found family. I’d love to have a group of close friends to live with and enjoy my life with. That of course does include that boy/girlfriend I mentioned earlier.

3.) Finding a passion. I currently don’t have a passion per se, but I would definitely love to someday. Especially if I can end up making a career out of it and GET IN that career.

4.) Getting rid of my depression and anxiety. I HATE living with anxiety and depression, and would love to get rid of them for good someday.

As I think I've said in past journals, I love playing Final Fantasy XIV and VRChat. However, I don't really have anyone to play the former WITH, and I seem to be having less and less people to play the latter with. I'd love to play/hangout with others more in them and figured I'd reach out and see if anyone here would like to do so. If you're interested, please let me know.

Just want to say, for VRChat, I'd especially love it if I can find macros to hang out with, lol. And for Final Fantasy XIV, I have a maxed out character in the Crystal data center, but I'm working on a character in Primal as there seem to be a lot of people there, heh.

Well, I don't have too much different going on in my life since the last journal, but I wanted to put up at least some kind of update. I currently no longer stream, as I was tired of not getting views and playing Final Fantasy XIV started feeling more like a chore than playing a game I honestly love playing. I do still play that game, though, as well as VRChat, where I still hang out with friends and have even made some new ones kind of recently.

Speaking of, I did go to Furality, which is a VR furry convention. It had great worlds to go to and fun panels, and I did make some new friends. However, I didn't hang out much with people I did know, and my anxiety kept getting the best of me and causing me to just stand away from everyone. Overall, it wasn't too bad of a con, though.

Can't think of much else to say other than I've been putting myself out there more to find someone to be in a romantic relationship with, heh. Mostly using Facebook Dating, Kippo, and Ferzu at the moment, but may branch out even more soon. Otherwise, that's about it.

Just wanted to let anyone who might be interested know that I've tried starting up streaming on Twitch again lately. I've been playing Final Fantasy XIV, specifically working on Reaper. It's been alright so far, but I felt I'd at least see if others would be interested in watching and chatting with me while I play. I usually stream 3pm-5pm-ish EST.

As much as I love VRChat, hanging out with friends, trying to make new ones, etc., I really want to find more macros to hang out with in there! ^^ I figured I'd post a journal just to see if there were any macros that might see this and play VRChat, and would be willing to hang out with me someday on there.

So, I really love playing Final Fantasy XIV, and was wondering if anyone else here did, as I'd love to play with fellow furries, and maybe even find a friendly FC to join sometime. I'm currently on the Coeurl server in the Crystal data center, but I definitely don't mind making another character and starting over, heh.

So, for those who don’t know already, I’m actually an Otherkin. No, I don’t mean that I think I’m “trapped in a human body”. I’m well aware that I’m human and I accept that (at least mostly, lol). What I mean is that I believe/know that I used to be something else. Specifically, I was originally a kitsune named Tsukai.

I was curious if there were any other Otherkin here, and if we could possibly talk about our experiences or just talk, heh. If you have VRChat, then hanging out in there would be especially nice. ^^

I know I asked this before, but I figured I'd try again anyway for the hell of it. I play a lot of VRChat, at least at night, and was wondering if there was anyone here that played and would like to hang out with me on there sometime. Keep in mind that I usually just like to hang out and relax, so no game worlds or anything like that. If you're interested, my username is Sukotto13 (no additional letters/numbers), but please let me know here or through notes before adding me.

Well, it's been a bit since my last journal, so I figured I might as well try posting another to update people on what's been going on. Lately, I've been mostly playing/hanging out in VRChat, especially now since I've gotten a Quest 2 and can actually be IN VR. I've still been dealing with anxiety, but I have also been making new friends, including one I recognized from YouTube videos. ^^ I've also been finding mutual relationships as well, in the sense of finding some of my older friends are already friends with the new ones I'm making, heh.

Not much else to say that I can think of, sadly. I'm still looking for a job (it's not easy for me), I still tend to feel lonely often, and I definitely still don't have someone I'm interested in romantically, or even someone I'd like to move in with at some point. Anyway, I still figured I'd post something as I said, so here. ^^

I know I tried this before, but it's been a while and I'd still love to ask. I play a lot of VRChat and was wondering if anyone else played and would be willing to add me as a friend there and hang out with me sometimes. I'd love more furry friends to hang out with, especially macros if possible, heh. Be warned, though, that I may prefer our first hangout to be 1 on 1 as I'm still working on my anxiety. If you're interested, my username is Sukotto13.

Just wishing everyone who celebrates a happy Thanksgiving today. ^^

I admit this is probably more of a vent journal, but yeah...Pretty much what the title says. I'm tired of being lonely and not having a boy/girlfriend. For those who don't know, I'm biromantically asexual, which for me means I'm fine with dating either gender, but I don't want sex in the relationship at all. Of course, being a furry makes it much more difficult for me to find someone, sadly. I've tried so many dating apps and other things, but sadly no luck. I just wish I could find someone or they would find me.

As much as I love Final Fantasy XIV, it seems hard for me to actually find people to play with. I figured I'd ask here and see if any others furs play and would be willing to play with me sometime. Data Center doesn't matter as I was already even thinking of making a new character for the hell of it.

So, lately I’ve been thinking more about having Sukotto use his size changing powers more to be macro in roleplays. Of course, I also still enjoy him being the little guy in such roleplays, but a friend of mine pointed out that just because Sukotto’s “big” doesn’t mean he can’t be the smaller one still. ^^

So, I’ve been thinking of an ideal size for him to go to usually for such roleplays, and so far I’m thinking of going with 1000ft. Still huge, and would allow him to look down at other macros, which could be fun, but still smaller than a good number of macros I met are willing to grow, heh.

So, lately, I've been pretty bored (not really unusual for me), and have been wanting more macro/growth-based roleplays to be in. I figured I'd reach out here and see if anyone would be interested. Just to be clear, I mostly use notes and Discord to rp, and may not reply with much as I'm sadly bad at doing that. Also, I will most likely not be the one growing, nor will I be likely to grow WITH you, and/or any characters you bring in. I'll leave my f-list page here in case people want to see a good idea of what I'm interested in specifically. If you have any questions, just ask, and if you're interested, let me know. ^^

https://www.f-list.net/c/Sukotto%20kitsune

I know I’ve posted journals like this before and got no replies, but wanted to try again anyway. I’m still enjoying going in to VRChat from time to time, but I could definitely use more people to hang out with in there. ^^ Especially since my anxiety is still pretty bad and I’m not comfortable going in to public worlds alone. If anyone would be interested, please let me know.

As I mentioned 2 journals ago, I'm biromantically asexual, which of course means that I'd love a relationship with a male or female, but I don't want sex. However, I'm also considering and looking for polyamorous relationships as well. I admit I don't know much about them, but from what little I do know, they do seem to be like a close-knit found family, and I've been imagining one for myself for a WHILE now, honestly. Plus, I think looking for one could help me widen my net, as they say, and look to try dating others who are NOT asexual, as they can have their "fun" without me, and still love and cuddle me, heh.

As for why I even bring this up, well, one reason is that I figured I might as well let people know who might be interested. Another is that I wanted to get past my last journal, lol. The third reason is that it's still Pride Month, so I figured now would still be a good time to say something like this.

Well, I'm feeling lonely and depressed yet again, and figured I'd ask if anyone would be willing to talk, preferably through notes or Discord. I admit I'm not the best at conversation, and my anxiety may make it hard for me to open up right away, but I'd still love to give it a try if anyone else is.

Well, since it's Pride Month and I don't have any art skills to make something, I might as well leave this journal here for the month. For those that don't know, I'm a biromantic asexual, and while I do feel it makes me a bit of an outcast from a lot of the fandom, I do still take pride in it.

Sorry for yet another vent journal, but I really do feel this way a lot. Life just tends to crap all over me all the time, and the few times things LOOK like they're getting better, things happen and it's right back to more crap, with the good things mostly going away or having not been what I thought. I still have no job, despite so many promising interviews, no real relationships or even people to regularly talk to that actually want to talk to me without me reaching out to them first all the time other than Nikita, who's shown in some pics I have in my gallery, and honestly no motivation to keep going.

Well, I admit I’m not usually a fan of my birthdays as they tend to just feel like normal days, but I figured I’d mention that mine was today. I’m now 28.

Well, I figured I’d replace my last journal, but I don’t really have much to talk about as I’ve vented plenty of times before and life hasn’t really gotten better, so I decided to just list more ideas I have about Sukotto.

One idea I’ve actually had for a while is having Sukotto be a deity. I’ve already established that he’s a guardian for a shrine in his forest, which belongs to an unknown deity. I was thinking he could BE that deity, and somehow remembered it, which is one reason he’s now able to change size.

Another idea is also one I’ve had for a while. Instead of all 13 of his tails being ACTUAL tails, he can have 7 be tails, and 6 of the be black, angelic wings. I admit I got the idea from Naruto’s 7 “tailed” bug. They also have 6 “tails” that seem to just be wings, so I figured I could apply that to Sukotto.

My last idea (at least for this journal) is much more recent. It’s having Sukotto use magic circles. I know that idea isn’t super original, but it’s not something I feel I see enough of. Plus, I also feel he could control those magic circles. Like, he can move them around, allow magic (the circle determines the type, I imagine) to come out of either side and from anywhere, not necessarily the center. It could certainly catch opponents off guard, and could make for some interesting fights.

Kind of another vent journal, but also another way to reach out, as I’ve been working on trying to do that lately. The only times I’ve been interested in someone romantically has been for a childhood crush and an online date that turned out to be a catfish. I’d love to try dating again, even online what with Covid and all. Of course, I’d have to find, or even be found by, someone.

As for what I’m looking for, I’m still not 100% sure. I’ve imagined girlfriends AND boyfriends, and both seem nice, honestly. Heck, I’ve even considered a poly relationship for reasons. I feel I should also mention that I’m asexual, but feel that if I do find a poly relationship and the other members aren’t (but of course still respect that I am), they can still have their fun without me and just love and cuddle me or something, lol.

Also, I know this isn’t the best place for this, but like I said, it’s partly me just trying to reach out and talk more, and I don’t know much else of what to say, lol.

Honestly, just making this in case anyone was curious about what kinds of powers Sukotto has in his new hybrid form. I decided to give him wind magic for his scythe weasel half, as scythe weasels are known to create winds and ride on them to quickly slice up and attack unknowing prey. There's also illusion magic from his kitsune half, and protection magic to help him protect the shrine he guards while he's away from the forest.

I was going to leave this one a surprise, but I'll say it anyway, lol. I've been thinking a lot lately about making him a size changer as well! I usually like to be the smaller one in a macro rp, but I admit there are times where I like going to high places in VRChat and looking down, or even the idea of being the macro for once. Of course, there's always the chance I'll end up the smaller of 2 macros or something, which could be fun. ^^ Sadly, though, I don't have the money to show him actually using that power or whatever, so that's why I decided to just mention it now instead of surprising people later, heh. Plus, it's Macro March, so the timing seemed appropriate, lol.

Not so much a vent journal as a way to just put my thoughts out there. I've been getting a lot of ideas for Sukotto lately, including certain powers he could have, and would love to have them be shown off. The problem is that I don't have the money to pay for commssions and my drawing SUCKS! I do hope to get a job again someday, get paid, and finally grab commissions again. I'd love to just have Sukotto shown off and maybe even get popular-ish.