not accounts but actual moving from one place to another. From a small cramped as hell 1 bedroom apartment to a three bedroom trailer in another city close by. I'll still go to the same school but I'll have to take the buss instead of walking

and I'm gonna have my own room for once! Well it's only been around two years since I had my own bedroom but still. I can bring all my stuff out and decorate my room for once

and from what I was told, there is this desk like thing that goes from one wall to the other which would be amazing for a work station // trinket area


Anyways, around the middle/end of the month I'll be busy packing so I won't post too much around then so fair warning



also hopefully going to the doctors soon to figure out whats up with my body

mostly looking to sell but also okay with trading designs/characters

If trading, I like designs by:
peaceskiies
cinnabutt
neat-dog
Toothphaste

but anything is good!

Comment of this journal, not the sta.sh files please!!

http://sta.sh/21x2nhey0zs4?edit=1
http://sta.sh/21x2nhey0zs4?edit=1
http://sta.sh/21x2nhey0zs4?edit=1

so I can't take anymore pain pills for a couple more hours because I took a lot yesterday and so I'm nauseous, hurting, and dizzy sigh

I'mma try going to the doctor in a couple days, see whats wrong and hopefully I won't have to pay a shit ton of money to find out but no chances on that..



I'll keep myself busy and work on things today, I have a ton of commissions, saliko things, and personal projects to do and finish up

ugh



gonna listen to relaxing music and sit on my pillow while I get things ready for working


btw, you guys are all amazing people and don't let others get to you or make you feel like shit because they are the shitty people. not you. got it? good

so I can't get onto DA at all, can any of you guys?

I have barely any time lately and a ton of stress so I am going to be refunding some older commissions and some new.

I'v been running into a bunch of issues lately and not enough time to everyone's commissions and I feel terrible for it. I currently only have $16 but I will refund those that I can with it until I earn more money somehow..

I'm sorry guys..

so about those journals..

pretty much if I summarize it, I had a bit of a breakdown. Well a really bad one that lasted around an hour. I'm not going into specifics but just a little thing threw me off and it turned out to be the straw that broke the camels back.

It was all resolved with the issue that had arose and everything is fine now, with them and I. All good, and I was able to talk to someone and vent out all of the issues I'v been dealing with for the past few months and.. talking to someone and just letting it all out made me fee so much better. They helped me realize some things too. Like how I should put myself first for once, specially concerning my abdominal problems that won't go away.

I'm doing okay now, not great, but better. Those funny videos helps a ton haha (and the jokes) Thank you guys for trying to make me feel better. I'm also changing my decision from last night, of leaving deviantart and FA after I finish owed work. I wanna stay, keep in touch with you guys and get better at art with all of you around me, growing too.

I'm talking to my mum about maybe getting something to help my anxiety problems, and so far she says that we'll see.


Anyways! the changes.

So I decided to calm myself down last night and organised all of my submissions here on DA. Like I have it on my computer. Like... EVERYTHING is organised. Which makes me really happy and so I'll keep it like it is now.

Another thing is how I do commissions. (not counting current ones but future)

Mostly having a time limit for myself, after a two week period, I ask if the person wants their money refunded, but I complete it that night) Or whatever, I don't know yet. But I'll work on it.

I also wanna start working with more people. Doing collabs, trades, and maybe even RPing. I wanna get out there, have actual fun and not worry about a lot of things


Thanks for listening guys

I'm sorry for ever bothering any of you I'm sorry for ever offending you I'm sorry for talking to you and bothering you I'm sorry for trying to make you happy and in the end make you sad or mad I'm sorry for ever bothering you I'm sorry


I am so sorry I am so sorry you guys



I'll finish all of the things I owe on here and then I'll get out of you and everyone elses hair, okay?

I'm sorry

 ECH00


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16808838/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16629306/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16542240/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16176882/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15921387/


 Ecc


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16789501/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16760822/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16754606/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16746163/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16759843/


 rokito


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16317353/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16057624/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15805335/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14867327/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15322669/


 anev0lk


Whole gallery: http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/anev0lk/



So I just wanted to show you guys some pretty awesome artist

so that really didn't last long

no more school now! though I have to go back tomorrow and get my stuff since I couldn't make it today (I couldn't even walk this morning, let alone go to school) and maybe take a test or two

I'm really tired so I might not do anything for another hour or two but I'll start working on some of the commissions I have

btw my eyeball itself is kind of swelled?? for some reason and I can't really close my eye all the way so do any of you guys know a way to get the swelling down? It's kind of pushing out from between my eyelids too. I think it's from allergies or something but it kind of hurts and won't stop leaking weird clear mucus/tears. My eyelids are swelled a bit because of the liquid too

so every time I try to stream it shows the screen for a few seconds and then freezes on that frame. Doesn't move and if I restart the stream it does it again.

How do I fix that? Ever since I downloaded it, picarto has acted like this for me


I downloaded the Windows Open Broadcaster version of picarto

Everything is all fine when I look at it from this

http://sta.sh/014o8g4id6cq

but when I go to picarto itself and look at my stream it shows that it's frozen itself..

http://sta.sh/02bf4h9h4ael

The only thing I can think about that might make it not be working because of the High encoding warning in the first picture, but thats it...


little help? I hate using join.me to stream...

I'v been very stressed for the past few months and it's finally coming to a huge explosion of anxiety and pain. So I'm gonna take a break from talking to people and having shit loads of stress and worry from doing so.

I'm still gonna work on things and post them for you guys, but I won't e replying to anything or checking my messages for a couple days. I need the break.

I'v been way too stressed and I need to focus on me. I never do and so I need to now before I do something bad. I just... I need a break.


But I promise you, I will work on your guys' stuff. I only have two school days left and then I have summer vacation.





Anyways.. gonna take a break tonight and then work on some stuff and post stuff tomorrow

So I have a lot of problems staying healthy and you know, not sick. So I was thinking of easing into becoming a vegetarian?

I have a friend that is and she says she feels a lot better than she used to, healthier, she lost weight, and she's generally doing a lot better now. I just don't want to miss my life because I'm stuck being sick all the time.

Plus i really don't eat meat all that much (are atleast not often) and I am okay with getting rid of other foods and such (dairies and eggs)


I wanted to ask for help because currently I know next to nothing about it and I wanted to ask real people instead of just searching the internet. (though I'm doing that too so I don't just rely on a few select people)


So my friend has told me about having to take B-12 and some places she gets food but what else should I know..?

I was wondering if you guys had any tips or words of advice to give me on improving my art..?

Like style-wise, anatomy, little things and such

I want to know what I can improve on because I know there is a lot I need to improve on, but I can't pinpoint it

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14692550/

around anywhere else but from me and from  peaceskiies?


The reason why I ask this is because I keep seeing people try selling and stealing thiis character and I'm getting sick and tired of it.

The first one who had been using it didn't know that I was the original owner of her and politely gave her back to me without any trouble. They had also told me that they got the character because someone on here was selling them. Someone with a username that has "watermelon" in it?

And the second time is just a little bit ago, someone was trying to sell a slightly different version of her but with almost exact markings and hair.


If you see this character for sale or as an adopt anywhere, and I mean anywhere, let me know please.


Thank you

I'm gonna have a movie marathon tonight and don't have a clue on what movies to watch. I'll be working in between movies and such but I just wanna relax tonight..

Anyways, what movies would you guys recommend? Plainly like in general, or even just want me to see?

The kind of movies I usually watch are

horror
action
Marvel (anything really)
pixar
Disney

So I am getting more work done and will try to do more than four by tonight. I have some old work that I owe some people that I will be working on tonight, and some newer things too.

I'm gonna try being more active on this site but I truly am more active on deviantart..


my DA

So I had a pretty okay day yesterday until my mum got home

No she didn't do anything! She's been awesome!
She had gotten home 20 minutes earlier than she usually does and our dog Meia was super excited, like it too a little bit to calm her down haha

But around 11:30pm something happened.


One moment she was sleeping on the couch next to my mum while mum watched a movie and ate popcorn, and the next she tried jumping off of the couch and fell. Like couldn't get up afterwards falling. She sat up a little and wouldn't move her back legs, and her eyes had a misty look in them, like she was in a lot of pain.

She didn't break anything thankfully, but the story doesn't get better.

Afterwards mum was able to get Meia to stand and Meia tried walking to the back door and her legs practically gave out on her.. Mum and I were even more worried and went over next to her and almost immediately she released her bowels (thankfully not both of them, only 2// easier to clean) and then sat next to the door and proceeded to puke what she had eaten for the time since mum came home.

She started drooling like crazy and tilted her head, was very wobbly, and couldn't use her back legs at all. She stayed right there for almost two hours. Drooling, puking twice more, and eyes twitching.


We are very positive she had a stroke.

Vet wouldn't help us when we called him, because we didn't have the extra $30 at that moment. We gave up on him and started looking on the computer to see what we could do to help Meia.


Eventually we got her onto a puppy padded blanket and covers and tried keeping her warm. She slowly feel asleep that way.


She is almost completely fine today and has been doing really well all day.


I stand home from school to make sure she'd been fine and thankfully she is doing great. Eating really well, she went potty today, no puking or accidents. She wobble legs for a second when I took her for her first walk of the day, but nothing else has happened.


I just wanted people to know one of the reasons why I'v been upset and such


I made a post on tumblr little bit after it happened, and it's more detailed on what happened if you want to read it
http://uselessgecko.tumblr.com/post/117240257383

Sorry I haven't been too active lately, I'v just been getting sick a lot and ever since Saturday I'v been having horrible allergies from being around my boyfriends cat

I stayed home today because it was hard to breathe I kept feeling like throwing up, and I still feel like that even after a few more hours of sleep


Anyways, I'll try working on design commissions today and some other things

My mum is trying to get me an appointment with the psychologist again, and I have to see this one doctor at a new clinic before I can go see them. I'm really nervous, stressed, and hesitant about what they'll say


How have you all been lately? Watch anything new? Do anything fun?

Forgot to post this earlier

https://join.me/186-045-968

I stayed home from school today because of horrible cramping and then proceeded to sleep till 11

I still feel like shit but I might stream soon, since I need to work on things today


oh god I have a lot I need to do

I'll work on chibi commissions today and then I'll do the Orci-is designs later on tonight
maybe my personal drawing can be finished today too, since I'v been holding it off for little over a month now
pffft



Okay but no seriously I'll try seeing if my streaming software will work and then I'll post a journal when I'm ready to stream

If anything I'll probably use join.me
a lot less hassle

So I'v been extremely depressed and anxious lately because I have so much to do and no time to do any of it

and I don't want to do anything
I just want to lay in bed all day and sleep or just escape and watch people without being talk too

So from now till I feel like living correctly, I won't be taking any more commissions. I need to finish the mountain I have already


I'm thinking of applying for my GED this summer just so I can stop getting so stressed out and worked up
I can't concentrate on all of my classes, do my art work, have a social life (which I barely have already), and have time to actually take care of my self. Like my health is getting so much worse and I'v gotten sick so many time just since the year started, and lets just keep the number of days I didn't go to school 'cause I felt like shit out of our heads ya?

I just.. I can't take all of this

it's too much

So after "talking" with my mum and coming out, I cannot go to AnthroCon.

And I'm going to be mentally evaluated and put on meds.

Life's is just so perfect right now..
sarcasm


Well I guess look up on the bright side

I won't have as many panic attacks maybe


sigh...

So for about an hour now I'v been trying to get livestream, join.me and my pacarto to work and none will so I'll be figuring out why the hell not

Sorry guys... Once I do get ONE of them working though, I'll do a free request stream and such

Sorry

I've had some shitty days but I'm going to take a long burning hot bath and relax for an hour or two and then I'll stream and such

I'm sorry for being such a slow poke and dickhead everyone..

I'm gonna take a shower and then start working on commissions

I'v been holding off doing anything for a couple days now and I need to get things done.

now.


What do you guys want to see more of? Like style wise?

Chibi(most-likely mini chibi)

flat colored

shaded

pixel

speedpaints

???