of art and such

Just been really busy and not feeling the best. I am slowly doing everything, but it might take a little bit

I was talking with my best friend (who is like a twin to me), and decided that I'm going to come out in about two weeks.
I feel it's time, I'm ready, and I can't wait any longer. She's gong to be there to support me while I tell our mum

I'm so nervous but I'm really tired of just holding everything in any more


I'm also going to try and get my GED this summer, once I get back from AC.
I'm have trouble concentrating on more than three classes and I just feel so confused and dissociated with everything going on at school. My anxiety's been horrible, I'm falling behind, missing school, and just been really depressed...

I just want to have a break from everything. 1 year, and then I'll get back on my feet. And if getting my GED would help, then I will gladly take it. Take "senior year" off to just take a break from everything. After that year I will go to the college I have selected.

I just need a long time for myself, and I'm not getting that when I'm stressed over grades, passing at school, teachers not using correct name/pronouns and such..


sorry for the little vent.. I needed to get that out..

I'v been so tired lately, like right after school I want to go to bed and sleep the whole night away

Might be because of getting sick for a couple days

might be cause I'v been stressed for a long while and I'm going into Exhaustion stage.
(ARE (alarm/stress stages))

Anyways, I'm gonna go take a nap and when I get up (if it's not too late) I'll work on some stuff and post it

sleep is calling

So I got sick and there was nothing to do here at home besides homework..

so I'm on here again! Yay!

Anyways, once in a while I will do a hiatus because I need a break every couple weeks.

And I think I got a little mojo back!
Atleast a little bit of it

I'm kind of stressed right now and can't seem to get my drawings right so I'm going to take a break from here, FA, and drawing all together. For 2 days.

See if it helps any, maybe I'll get the creative juices flowing again, as they seem backed up right now.

(Like an art-clot, pfft)

But no seriously, I'm gonna take a break, get some sleep, do my school work, and relax. Once I get back I will be working on small things, one at a time, starting with my really old owed work.

I'm sorry guys, but I just can't draw how I want to right now.

I need a break..

so my mum's been home for the past two days and I haven't come out to her yet, so I haven't been able to wear my binder. And if I can't get myself used to it, and able to wear it for more than two hours, then I won't be able to wear it to school next week and that just...

that makes me really upset..


I need to come out soon, but I have no clue how..

How did some of you guys come out? And how did it turn out...?

least there is some good news to this week

My binder came (of course) and I am officially allowed to use the unisex bathroom(s) at school! My teachers are all going to be trained to know what to do and not to do (concerning my "status"), and they'll be using my preferred name and (hopefully) pronouns.

(back to the bathroom thing)
I was told by my councilor not to ever use the males bathroom because he doesn't want me to get hurt or harassed, and I understand that. I do, but once I pass, like full on pass, I want to get used to using the males bathroom.

There is only 2 unisex bathrooms in the whole entire school. One is the "special" kids room, which I would fee really awkward using, because I'd be taking their bathroom away from them. And one near only one of my classes, which is really big and kind of like a fancy restaurant bathroom. It's really clean and nice, but the thing is; it's so far away from all of my other classes that I practically have to run to it between some of my classes if I don't want to be late to the next one.


On other, happy notes,

I also might be getting my hair cut real soon, and (maybe) next month I'll be able to get more masculine clothing.



God, I'm crying
I'm sorry.

today's been a really long day, full of too much thinking..



I'm really happy that so much is going well, and that those I'v told have accepted me, but I'm so scared of that one person who finds out and starts hating me. And then the numbers grow


*hug*

I just don't like being rejected before people even get to know the real me..

I'm sorry for ranting so much

for having a small chest.

MY BINDER CAME TODAY

I got a medium Ultimate Tri-top Chest binder in black, and it completely flattens me out.

I was afraid it wouldn't fit, when I was trying it on, cause it seems a little small on me, but it fits perfectly.

Doesn't put too much pressure on my ribs, mostly just the front area.

I'm only gonna leave it on for a hour, maybe two, and then take it off and do the same tomorrow


But no seriously, if you have a smaller chest, get the binder I got from Underworks. It's amazing

I still have to focus on my breathing a little bit, but not too much. And it's a bit long, though I can fix that (it goes half past my butt)

Pictures!!

http://sta.sh/2tj1hn62abr?edit=1

I'm so happy

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15704346/

$5 for #1
$10 for #2

And if you buy now, I'll throw in a 100x100 icon of them!

today was really awesome

just saying

I'v found old files of commissions I hadn't finished, and so that is what I'm doing. I have the WORST memory you could imagine. Seriously. If I don't get something done within a week, half the time I forget it, or forget where I put the file.

Like three of the ones I found, I had lost.

I'm working on these ones tonight:
 lykenzealot's fundraiser pic
 rottie.' flat colored gift
and a couple of  Friendly_Neighborhood_Nobody's commissions


and maybe some other ones, some of the more recent ones