so i have been looking up controlling relationships and psychopaths and my step mom fits the bill to a T. she has always made it a big deal that if i need something as soon as i start looking she does it without my asking then holds it over me for the rest of my days. the house i live in was one of those things. i needed a place and was having some trouble with getting a loan so not even a month into this indever she bought a place for me to stay. under the guise i would be renting to own. btw i am still not renting to own and i have lived here three years. just renting. now she storms in here every chance she gets and yells at me for hours. also she has taken my son. if he is not returned by 2 today there will be hell to pay. so needless to say i need a place though i have never had a credit card so my credit is nonexistent. but i will get a place make or brake. i found a few places near here that are only 20k to buy that are 4 bedrooms so my brother can stay as well as anyone else who helped me get the place. i can't live like this under consent fear she is gonna get inside. that she will take my son home and job. i need to get out now. this isn;t an option. i make more then enough to support myself. even if she takes my job i have two lined up just i do not know how to go about getting the loan i need to move out. but i will not take no for an answer. so advice help anything right now please. if i get the cops involved i fear my mother will be the one most hurt. i really have no idea what else i can do.

this may or may not be the end for me. tonight i learned that my step mom may truly move to take my son away from me. if this happens my world will be gone. nothing matters if that happens and what little light i have left in me will fade. i have little faith that without my son that i'd have the will to continue. so just a heads up i am sorry...

seems like people need more time and yes i am willing to give it. i will move it to next month the 15th, if you enter before then i can make you a v-day themed thank you ^.^ CANDY and HARTS lol

i have something wrong with me a mild fever nausea dizziness and i am so sleepy i think i will rest up more today hopefully i feel better in the morning

Draw my Characters from the comic any one of them Kat Leaf Rognear or Amiena With the character you'd like to add to the comic.
They have reference sheets http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5643862/

there will be a number of winners they will get a spot in my comic.
I simply do not have enough people in my world to flesh it out even some main characters have no face. i do need more canines then anything else but i can provide a place for most.

Top Winner Will have a MAJOR part in my comic.

Runners up (there will be many) Will have small parts and help flesh out the world.

I am giving you all a Whole month. that means, Monday January 18th i expect your entry in.

This is NOT about How good you are with drawing. Tell the story. be the story inspire me. Everyone who enters will get a thankyou art regardless. so please enter the more the merrier.

i need some anime to watch. i am in a slump the holiday is bringing back to many memory's of dad it hurts to much need more anime to drowned it out. i have been crying on and off for the last few days can't do this right now. i gotta be strong. for mouse boy during the season. (afterwords he is going to grandmas for a week then i can melt down.)

http://www1.flightrising.com/

is having open registration tomorrow ^.^

i will be attempting to stream nightly. any commissions and donations are always welcome. i did end up going with the 52 dollars a month plan cause then i can stream but it comes straight out of my account so i have no room for error. i will need to earn that much a month to keep from draining my emergency funds. also my new style is very time consuming so i need to get better with it though i do hope it will get enough notice to sell some. though i have yet to choose a price it took me 3 nights on rose guarding a nature egg. but i am sure i will keep improving. hopefully someone someday will buy my artz untill then all i can do is work as hard as i can to get a goal no matter how hard it seems.

$45 a month is all i need to keep net i do not know what nights i will be on but i am offering

$10 full color pictures with upto two characters
$5 flat color art with upto two characters
$1 color sketch art single characters

IF i can maintain and exceed my goals i will goto Novi,MI con this year ^.^ i really wanna goto a con

so on the 2nd i will have net so i will need to make 45 a month. and i will be able to stream and such ^.^ so i will be attempting to do at least 4 artworks a month should be no problem once i have net. any ideas what i should do to assure that i can keep my net.

yesterday we had a big windstorm some people lost power trees where knocked over and leafs flew. a tree in our front yard dropped a large branch on our roof luckily we where not home or it would have landed on the car as well. after work today i will assess the damage. hopefully nothing broke other then the branch.

so the YCH still has some coloring and touch ups left. but as i said it will be out before Halloween.
i also have a trade and a freebee still to do but the ideas are there.
MAIN ISSUE
my lap top (my only computer) is dieing >.> i knew frankenputer was a temporary thing but i wish he wouldn't just randomly quit. i loss alot of work due to that.
anywho i may be getting a desktop for the main bulk of my work and still haul this shotty thing to get all the stuff i need elsewhere. as it stands i still need a tiny bit more before i can do that. >.> so hopefully i can also due a quick sale of some artz of some kind >.> may need to due another YCH before to long. anyways here is hoping.
Thank you for reading cookies to you all

YCH halloween
10/10 sketched
6/10 line arted
5/10 colored

i am getting there folks

Raven moms dog has been battling cancer for over a year nearly two considering the cancer she has usually kills in a few months she has been amazing. raven though is losing this war. her leg is narcotizing. and she must be put down or she will suffer horridly tomorrow is the day T.T raven was there for mom for many years she was old for a dane. she will be missed.

more sorrow more sadness. i hope soon things will start looking up again.

please help him if you can
info here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7091920/
any little bit helps so please help if you can

Freebe for  katethemarten
YCH for  zombiekitteh13
YCH halloween for lots of folk
Terrance and Philip pony's for my brother

ALL will be worked on this week hopefully some will be posted i am able to draw a little more happy things. >.> needless to say it is hard to heal from such a loss that and i had a minor hart issue last week gave me a bad scare.

in other news, i got another little model to help with movement pictures and a book on how to draw horses and ponys. my comic has a bit of a flash back in it and it is sketched and i have been working on the story.

thank you for reading

I am fine. though i wish there was a guide on how long mourning will last. even trying so hard not to cry just to smile at the memory's of dad i have.. i still cry. sleep is hard art is hard. i spend way to much time just laying on the couch and looking up at the ceiling. but i am fine. everyone has told me this is normal to feel just wish i was over it. ~pouts~ dad you hear me too i know you do. i love ya and miss you. Thank you for listening to my randomness folks it really has meant alot to me.

i do not think i am handling the grief as well as i had hoped i keep going well hay dad did... oh wait no Mary did and yea dad would or dad will...
finding out how he passed did not help. he knew something was wrong he left a lawnmower running in the garage and ran inside somehow pulling the recliner on him just inside the door he was dead under it when he was found. kala his step daughter found him after she had finished mowing the lawn. she said he was already turning blue. she tried CPR but it was to late.
i fully understand heartache now.

yesterday. i'm not doing so good but i am keeping busy. i figure i will be going north soon..

yes new computer is necessary this is getting to hard for me to use i can still art and post but it is frustrating to say the least and time consuming. and i do not think it will get better with time. recently grandma has gotten a little worse so i need to be here even more. so i will be on more but it will be hard to worse to keep in contact. if you have some art from me post it and tell them i am doing art at PWYW prices. please help if you can i didn't think it was gonna get this bad this quickly

 zirra--nova GOOOO ^.^

just as the tittle says my computer is getting hard to use. honestly it has never been a "good" computer. most parts are over 6 years old and have come from several computers. lately i have noticed the performance is horrid. running all my scans and cleaners found very little wrong. just the system it's self is severely out of date. that and it is a junkyard computer that my big brother remade for me after it exploded it really doesn't surprise me. that being said i can hold off on getting a computer for some time. this still works just realizing once i get net that i will need an upgrade. especially if i wanna do anything other then simple art o.0 current issue running music and doing art causes lag running more then two tabs open on net causes lag. so one thing at a time.

so i think 5 or so more pages before the end of chapter cliffhanger ^.^
but i actually made the prolog into something tangible and posted it on my patreon account o.0
so a few extra pages other then what i have drawn honestly now that i think of it it might be a good 10 more pages .-.
now more outfit work. also i will be making little mini writings explaining the flash backs in a little more detail then what the comic shows. oh yea and the world map 0.0 i forgot how much work maps can be. but it's all in the works ^.^ to note a small world map will be in the comic a few times but the one i am making will be used for making all the small maps and whatnot.
but anywho i gotta keep up the work on it. someday i will have patreons ^.^ and i wanna spoil them

https://www.patreon.com/vampirekat2000 <--encase you didn't know lol

I have been there please help if you can
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6940190/

catch if you can ^.^
might have something for you.

also i have a bit of a back log of work >.> mostly my own fault the garden, d20, 3 D&D games, a seven year old, two jobs, and two cats. have been keeping me busy. but i think i am now fully healed. come to find out i bruised the bone in my left leg. little back log is

one request
one trade
one freebe
page 19 of my comic
and the ych background.

yesterday on my way home from work. a dark SUV did not stop at the stop sign i was on my moped to avoid being t-boned i turned the gas up making my turn wide sending me up onto the curb then into a tree. the man sped off as i got a grip on what happened. i stood up my moped got the part that went flying and tried to ride it home. i did make it home on it just the fork is bent and rubbing against the plastic. needless to say it needs fixed T.T
as for me i am very sore but ok