surgery went well...
laproscopic as planed only took like an hour to an hour and a half...
so my gallbladder is gone...
i have the general aches and some pain but its a walk in the park compared to the gallstone atacks i had in the past...

now i recover for a week or 2 or so then get back on the diet i still got alot of weight to lose...

and yes i know no one reads these things... im a more or less unknown... and realy no one has a reason to be intrested in my life... but and this is whats important ... it makes me feel better... so i dont mind looking foolish by writeing these for no one cept me...

sigh... tommrow is the day...
i go in at 6:15am with surgery set for 7:30am...
i know its just gallbladder surgery... i know its planed to be laproscopic... i know the risks... and i know i need the surgery after 4 atacks and a minor infection...
but im still scared... and part of me still wants to run away from it...

well its been decided..
after 4 gallstone atacks i knew this is where it would lead...
so i go in for pre tests on friday...
and surgery is set for nov 4th...
and yea still scared about surgery...

well i can now say i have slept in an ER...
to make a long story short i went in late thurs with sever pain...
i was discharged at 10:30 am friday with a diagnosis of gallstones a script for antibiotics and contact info for a surgen to consult with on posibly having my gallbaldder removed and i have to admit i am a little scared... the thought of surgery realy scares me ...

while i am not one to write many journals mostly cause i dont realy think i have any thing important to say..
but i am realy happy right now ....
i have been working on my weight since feb 1 as of yesterday the 22nd i am down 48.4 lbs
granted i still have around another 100 or so to go before i am finished but still i have to be happy with my progress....

i realy have nothing else to write about and i am proud of my weight loss so far

i am down 30.4 since i started on feb1 currently at 293.7 and i dont plan to stop loseing weight till im in the 170-180 range

back in feb i started working to lose weight there are some points that are like a line in the sand 300 is one of those lines.... today i weighed in at 299.4 down 24.7 since i started...
for me i will be happy as i pass the points i noted going up 295, 265, 250, 230, 186... with 186 being my weight back in my senior year of highschool....

now taking commissions for beadwork bracelets.
the typical sizes for beadworks are
25 tall x 61 long or a little over 1.5in tall x just under 5.5in long...
and
15 tall x 61 long or 1in tall by just under 5.5in long...
from there I mount it on a leather band and attach snaps to make a bracelet.
examples can be found in my gallery.
for the 25 x 61 bracelets i charge 40$
for the 15 x 61 bracelets i charge 20$
other sizes are negotiable
I take paypal
any questions just ask..

special deal since I haven't shipped any before the first one gets free shipping...

so halloween grows close and as i sit here wondering how bored i will be siting here handing out candy this year... i was wondering what others will be doing come halloween.
the last time i got to do anything fun was back in 06... oh the fun i had around halloween back in college...

why is it right now when ever i see journal space i wana get on a soapbox about this or that... mostly things relating to me and my past.......
why can't i just forget everthing wouldn't it be better if i could forget.
then there would be nothing holding me back.
then people wouldn't be saying its the past get over it.
and recent events couldn't remind me and get me all worked up.
why do i want to get on my soapbox and talk about things no one wants to hear about.
no one wants to listen to me any way....
why do i bother....