Every month at least once my partner goes up north to visit his family and help them finish their new house, drink and have a good time. I stopped being invited because they don't like me (they have never liked any of my partners love interests) so he goes by himself.

Every time he goes up there they persuade and convince him to leave me. Saying things like I am not meant for him, he could be farther in life without me...that sort of stuff. It hurts so much...I can't explain...like I'm almost in tears right now because I know it's going to happen again just like the last time he went. Last time he went, he called me and told me he wanted two months to save and he was going to break up and move out with his mom.


Here's the thing about his family....I try to see good in everyone. While they do have good qualities, their intentions are selfish. They want him to leave his job that he is about to become supervisor in, to move up into bumfuck nowhere..literally, a town with under 3000 ppl in the country, just to help them financially because they are struggling. That's the real underlaying reason, so he can help them. But they say it's for his own good..it's really not at all. Because they are sinking they want to sink him too, to keep themselves above water for a while longer.

Like I literally want to cry my eyes out....I feel so sorry for him that his family controls him this much...he needs to break off of it...

I am deeply, DEEPLY sorry for disappearing..
Honestly...It wasnt right. I dont know why I did it....it was incredibly irresponsible..and just a slap in the face to everyone who supported me..

I left so many people in the dust...

Please let me make it up to everyone. All of you. Because I owe it to you, yes you, and you deserve it.
From the bottom of my iddy bitty pink heart <3


Do I owe you a commission?
Please note me ASAP! I will finish it for you WITH something extra (art of your choice) to make up for it.

Do I owe you something else?
Again, note me ASAP!!! I will clear any issue you may have!

Have any questions? Anything at all?
Shout on my page, note me, comment here, whatever you would prefer.


I want to fix this everyone, please allow me. You dont have to forgive me but please let me right my wrongs.

Vaughn out!

Need more people to go with me but sadly no one wants to go.

Greeeeat.

So far it's going to be my friend and I, and we'd like another person or two to join us!

Hotel price will be split amongst us all. The con takes place in London, Ontario.

You don't have to suit with us, but we will be so if you're not going to, 'tis okay!


If money might be an issue for you, (after paying for a plane ticket & your not left with enough money for food or something) my friend and I can probably help you out.

But yeah, this is gonna be really fun! I'll be going as Misfit of course. :B



If you're interested, comment/note and I will provide more details for you! :3

my dad really needs to consider my feelings and stop treating me like trash. i honestly dont do anything to bother him, and he just barges into my room, starts shouting at me and....ugh. dont even want to explain the rest..

I honestly need a friend who likes to suit with me. :(

I want a suit buddy! We could go to cons together and such.

Aaaanyone?

So the past week I haven't been getting anything done because of school. I have a week and a half left to catch up on numerous assignments and then I need to study for exams.

Remember how I said that boy asked me out? Well, turns out we were better as the best friends we were before we dated. I still like him a lot and he still likes me, but we just don't wanna risk our good friendship. But yeah, I'm moving on. My feelings are diminishing as days go by. He's moving on as well. It really sucks though..because I think we would've gone far. But then if something messed up, I'd go insane if I lost him as a boyfriend and a best friend.

So yes...I'm single, and looking. Male pref..Not to discourage the gurlies out there..but yeah. i feel like some mandick. okthnx.
I'm actually trying to get in contact with one of my ex's who I never really stopped liking, some of you may know him. (bobcatgoaliesw1)
He disappeared from Furaffinity after an incident which I'm not willing to go into detail about, had something to do with his parents knowing about furry stereotypes & freaking out, but yeah. I think I found him on Facebook. Sent a request, all I can do is wait.

Lets see...What else has been going on...

Ehh idk. I'll update this later.. I have a big urge to go lay down and watch movies till I fall asleep, cuz I feel kinda depressed right now about my best friend and I not wanting to step further. Oh well, it's a good choice in the long run right? Who knows, maybe in the future something will change.

DO IT. She has amazing art. She's extremely nice. GO NOW D:<

say that i wanna make a ref sheet for my World of warcraft worgen character, if i screenie her and place different shots of her on a ref sheet, maybe draw some stuff on it too, put info, etc, will it be acceptable? cuz i know game screenshots arent allowed, but its my furry character and it'd be a ref sheet.

im 18 now :3

This boy I really like at school asked me out today! :D
Expect photos sometimeeee.


*So happy*

hooray! x3
i'm really excited. I'm gonna be 18.




ALSO VERY IMPORTANT!
there is a chance i'll be kicked off of Furaffinity. I have been working my ass off on stuff that I owe, and a certain person is overly fed up.
I did explain my situation and I tried to get them money to refund them but no luck...and i've been doing things in order...their piece is 3rd on my list if i remember correctly. and they've threatened to report me. i dont blame them.

so. if it comes to me being banned, you can always get ahold of me at my MSN: Jazzy.Demise[at]live.ca (or you can email me)
When/if I'm banned, email/MSN me and I will give you my Deviantart where I will be posting everything.
all i can say is sorry. i was going through a rough time and i'm trying to pick up the pieces. but anyways...yeah. -shrug- there's not much i can do really except for get stuff done. in the order they were purchased.

for those who have given me an extreme amount of time and patience, you don't know how much it means to me. thank you so much for being patient. you take alot stress off of me.

and i'd like to give a shoutout to
this guy is flippin amazing. he's stayed my friend and been supporting me even though im a complete bitch, ily Will. C': <3


I'll probably update this later. till then, much love.

i'm workin my ass off lol.

no seriously.

i cant even cook hot dogs on the stove by myself. and I'll be 18 in a month.

fucking stupid.

Thanks for caring. I didn't really reply to anyone because I couldn't think of anything good to say..


But knowing that people care about me & want to continue supporting me even though i'm a bitch...it makes me feel really good about myself..idk..


thank you. so much.

i'm having ipod issues and i need help...



it was working fine this morning and it's been working fine since i got it. It's the old ipod video, before classic, 30gb. I dont know how old it was prior to when i got it because it was given to me by my dads gf.

so yeah. working fine this morning. died at lunch, so i just got home now, i go to connect it to my computer to charge and it starts making these really loud clicking/grinding noises.

i checked tech support on apple's website and they said i need to force it into ''disk mode'' on my computer and restore it.

THING IS. they said it needs to be charged to do that.....YEAH ITS DEAD AND WONT CHARGE CUZ IT KEEPS CLICKING.


WTF?

i cant even express the way i feel right now.

ugh..its just...-sigh- i never feel good anymore. i cant think, cant focus in school, my body aches.

i don't know what to do. i can't get a therapist to talk to because my dad wont let me. he thinks im ''perfect'' and i dont need it.

im so unhappy guys.. and i really have no one to talk to about it outside the internet. no one understands.

ugh..

i'm getting close to doing something im gonna regret.

hey guys here's a quick update.

Xavier's partial: %5 complete

Miri's ears/tail: %95 complete

Jewels art commish: %40 complete

Leon's art commish: %30 complete




I do remember everyone and I'm only listing the ones I've been working on recently. The others that arent listed here are next.

thank you for putting up with me and I will try my best to upload something tonight. school is almost over and taking a toll on me.

but i'm workin!

alright. before everyone attacks me with notes and shit about how i owe you this and owe you that, just hear me out.


everyday, starting today, i will be finishing/posting something i owe.

today was Paw's commission.

i am deeply sorry. i know that means nothing to all of you, but i am. and i just want everyone to know that.

at this point in time i cant hand out refunds.

i have no job. never have actually...well once but i quit cuz the lady kept yellin at me and i was payed 4$ an hour to do cashier and clean the whole restaurant.


ANYWAYS.

next will be miri, since she's been waiting the longest and I was almost done her ears and tail last time i worked on them. really sorry hun.

but yeah. again. sorry sorry sorry. i wish this never happened...i fucking hate how i procrastinate and this will NEVER be happening again.

ttyl.