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Posted 10 years agoStill alive, that is all :3
Tripping at the finish line
Posted 11 years agoMade it through 2013 fairly quietly.. then I go and screw it up in the end stretch. Here is hoping 2014 is a year of second chances and renewal. I hope time fixes everything as it tends to do, but until it does expect pretty much silence from me until I'm sure I've got my head on straight again. I don't want to risk ruining more friendships due to my own ignorance and poor judgement. I'll still be around for those that want to talk, but don't be surprised if I'm not much for conversation. I will delete this journal when something changes. Until then, isolation seems like the safest course of action until I rediscover the value of friendship and once again consider others' feelings/well-being/desires a greater value than those of my own. Or better yet a happy medium to where I'm not in a constant fear of ruining things for everyone.
Happy New Year, yay...
~Veon
Happy New Year, yay...
~Veon
$100 Raffle - Free Entry :3
Posted 13 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3438348/
Neato freebie raffle! Let's hope the RNG looks favorably on me when it chooses the winner ^^; Artist is also worth poking around the gallery if you like chibi stuffs :3
Neato freebie raffle! Let's hope the RNG looks favorably on me when it chooses the winner ^^; Artist is also worth poking around the gallery if you like chibi stuffs :3
Turnabout 'Vee
Posted 13 years agoMcJob Rant - So fed up with the nonsense that I'm actually standing up for myself with the use of logic, policies, and even law if it gets down to it.
<TL:DR version in advance> This branch of McHell is treating me like shit, unlike my former one before corporate takeover, but as a result it seems I have grown a bit of a spine. I may quit soon, even without two weeks notice, and I won't even be upset about it, it will all be determined by the next schedule that is made.
My McDonald's manager's definitions:
"Competitive Wages" - minimum wage, with promised raise at 30 day review, which has never been mentioned again nor happened since then. Minimum wage is by no means competitive, since it is mandated by law, unless the "competition" is against hobos, and even then some hobos make quite a lot per hour.
"Free Uniforms" - It is plural because when we sign on we are supposed to get 2 as part time, 3 as full time, as per the agreement we sign to work there. When I asked why I only had one, I got "You haven't been here 30 days, so we don't wanna give you the second till we know you'll stick around, regardless of what written agreement was signed." 50 days in, subject is dodged anytime it is brought up. To be fair, I do intend on leaving the moment I am hired somewhere else, but that is no excuse to ignore policy.
"Flexible Hours" - I gave full availability at the end of orientation, and then they abused it 4 weeks running by scheduling my shifts 8-9 hours apart (and on a few occasions less because they NEVER factor in time to count my drawer, so I am always kept at least 5-10 minutes late without consent, usually longer), alternating days. I bring it to their attention to please at least keep me in similar shift daily, they apologize and say okay, we will fix it. Each week we go through this, still no change. 4th week I become fed up with it and submit a change in availability to guarantee it won't happen, and simply get a "I don't know if I can approve this, when we hired you, it was for full availability." They seem to forgot that my answer to availability in the interview was, "I want some consistency, but have no preference of night/day shift," and that the only actual availability I agreed to was in orientation, and was told could be changed at any time with written notice. I submitted a notice, in writing, effective 4/18 (or more appropriately the next schedule that is produced and any thereafter). The next schedule will come out on Tuesday, April 25. If that schedule does not reflect these changes (which I have a spare picture of the notice, just in case they try to write in their own idea of availability) then I will flat-out quit, I'm done with trying to reason with them and be an adult about things, I have done quite literally everything asked of me, and then some, put up with so much breaking of policy (and in some cases borderline law) on their part towards me. I ask them for a simple, reasonable request well within policy and they treat it as if I am kidding. If a future employer asks to call them I won't give them the number and will tell them exactly the same stuff reflected in this journal (ie, they are greedy jerks that care only for themselves and disregard ALL else, including policy/procedures/customers/employees).
"Open Interviews" - even those with scheduled interviews have to sit in our lobby and ask a certain cashier semi-frequently pester the manager for about an hour and a half, where the manager claims not having known about the interview (technically it was a scheduled interview, but the big "Open interviews today!" sign means he should have been ready regardless). I was shrugged off for like 10 minutes, which is reasonable because it was busy, it seems I was "lucky."
"5-Minute Breaks during your shift" - If you are a smoker, sure, you get like one or two of these every hour, and if you don't you can throw a nic fit and get them still, and they always go over the five minutes.. These are supposed to be cycled in every hour or so for all employees. Non-smokers maybe get one per shift with most managers, if that, and 90% of the time must wait until they are told it is okay. If a non-smoker asks for even like half-a-five to get some water, there is a slim chance the average manager will let them get it.
The only true benefit I have gained from working here (other than a little bit of cash flow to pay back rent and such) is learning to be assertive towards those with authority over my source of income (which may or may not be a good thing in the long run, but me being assertive at all is a step up).
Earlier this week, the store manager called me before one of the short-gapped shifts wanting me to come in three hours early to fill in for a position I've never done, I said no. He then wanted me to stay three hours late, putting a 6 hour gap between shifts, and I said not unless he was going to take me off of the early morning shift the next day. He got really angry that second time and tried arguing with me about the human body needing no more than 4 hours of sleep daily, and that anything over that was "unnecessary and detrimental." I laughed and asked him his source "My Doctor" to which I replied "Oh, what psych journal did he read that in?" "What the hell does Psychology have to do with sleeping?!" "Quite a bit, actually, would you like me to get some articles on it? I could have them by tomorrow if you REALLY want to keep pressing this, but even then I am still not staying any later" Then he mumbled something under his breath that sounded an awful lot like "Fuck you" walking away scowling, but said "NOTHING! Get back to work" when I asked him to speak up.
The franchise owner came in this week for some sort of visit from the super-duper higher ups of McDonald's. After the visit, the super-duper higher ups wanted some food to go, I took their order, asked the owner if the got some sort of discount or something and he shook his head. After the order, the owner scowled at me and said "You forgot to suggestive sell!" with an angry "I'm so firing you after they leave" look in his eye. (For those who don't know, suggestive selling is asking (or in this owner's case demanding) to add something to the order like fries or dessert). Higher up man totally had my back though and said "I think he (the cashier) read the situation right, we were very clear on what we wanted, and said 'That is all' (the magic words to make a cashier shut up)." I grinned and said "Yep, just following experience and training, and they very clearly didn't want to spend anymore time or money on that order" The look on the owner's face was priceless (think a Phoenix Wright Turnabout/"Take That" moment).
I was already kinda disliked by both of these individuals, but both since then have seemed to leave me alone more or less rather than barking orders at me like. One even "asked" me to do something, which still was a "do this now" objective, but still an improvement from "Hey <insert male name that isn't me> do this now!" That is right, 50 days in, Store manager the guy who hired me, takes at least three tries to get my name right (I am now Zach, Steve, or <actual name> it seems), although this is improving because I have been purposely ignoring him until he gets it right.
I cannot wait until that Parole Officer test thingamajig, if/when I pass that, I will be able to escape the clown's clutches once and for all (of course, I mean Ronald McDonald, and 'clearly' not some other person in my establishment).
<TL:DR version in advance> This branch of McHell is treating me like shit, unlike my former one before corporate takeover, but as a result it seems I have grown a bit of a spine. I may quit soon, even without two weeks notice, and I won't even be upset about it, it will all be determined by the next schedule that is made.
My McDonald's manager's definitions:
"Competitive Wages" - minimum wage, with promised raise at 30 day review, which has never been mentioned again nor happened since then. Minimum wage is by no means competitive, since it is mandated by law, unless the "competition" is against hobos, and even then some hobos make quite a lot per hour.
"Free Uniforms" - It is plural because when we sign on we are supposed to get 2 as part time, 3 as full time, as per the agreement we sign to work there. When I asked why I only had one, I got "You haven't been here 30 days, so we don't wanna give you the second till we know you'll stick around, regardless of what written agreement was signed." 50 days in, subject is dodged anytime it is brought up. To be fair, I do intend on leaving the moment I am hired somewhere else, but that is no excuse to ignore policy.
"Flexible Hours" - I gave full availability at the end of orientation, and then they abused it 4 weeks running by scheduling my shifts 8-9 hours apart (and on a few occasions less because they NEVER factor in time to count my drawer, so I am always kept at least 5-10 minutes late without consent, usually longer), alternating days. I bring it to their attention to please at least keep me in similar shift daily, they apologize and say okay, we will fix it. Each week we go through this, still no change. 4th week I become fed up with it and submit a change in availability to guarantee it won't happen, and simply get a "I don't know if I can approve this, when we hired you, it was for full availability." They seem to forgot that my answer to availability in the interview was, "I want some consistency, but have no preference of night/day shift," and that the only actual availability I agreed to was in orientation, and was told could be changed at any time with written notice. I submitted a notice, in writing, effective 4/18 (or more appropriately the next schedule that is produced and any thereafter). The next schedule will come out on Tuesday, April 25. If that schedule does not reflect these changes (which I have a spare picture of the notice, just in case they try to write in their own idea of availability) then I will flat-out quit, I'm done with trying to reason with them and be an adult about things, I have done quite literally everything asked of me, and then some, put up with so much breaking of policy (and in some cases borderline law) on their part towards me. I ask them for a simple, reasonable request well within policy and they treat it as if I am kidding. If a future employer asks to call them I won't give them the number and will tell them exactly the same stuff reflected in this journal (ie, they are greedy jerks that care only for themselves and disregard ALL else, including policy/procedures/customers/employees).
"Open Interviews" - even those with scheduled interviews have to sit in our lobby and ask a certain cashier semi-frequently pester the manager for about an hour and a half, where the manager claims not having known about the interview (technically it was a scheduled interview, but the big "Open interviews today!" sign means he should have been ready regardless). I was shrugged off for like 10 minutes, which is reasonable because it was busy, it seems I was "lucky."
"5-Minute Breaks during your shift" - If you are a smoker, sure, you get like one or two of these every hour, and if you don't you can throw a nic fit and get them still, and they always go over the five minutes.. These are supposed to be cycled in every hour or so for all employees. Non-smokers maybe get one per shift with most managers, if that, and 90% of the time must wait until they are told it is okay. If a non-smoker asks for even like half-a-five to get some water, there is a slim chance the average manager will let them get it.
The only true benefit I have gained from working here (other than a little bit of cash flow to pay back rent and such) is learning to be assertive towards those with authority over my source of income (which may or may not be a good thing in the long run, but me being assertive at all is a step up).
Earlier this week, the store manager called me before one of the short-gapped shifts wanting me to come in three hours early to fill in for a position I've never done, I said no. He then wanted me to stay three hours late, putting a 6 hour gap between shifts, and I said not unless he was going to take me off of the early morning shift the next day. He got really angry that second time and tried arguing with me about the human body needing no more than 4 hours of sleep daily, and that anything over that was "unnecessary and detrimental." I laughed and asked him his source "My Doctor" to which I replied "Oh, what psych journal did he read that in?" "What the hell does Psychology have to do with sleeping?!" "Quite a bit, actually, would you like me to get some articles on it? I could have them by tomorrow if you REALLY want to keep pressing this, but even then I am still not staying any later" Then he mumbled something under his breath that sounded an awful lot like "Fuck you" walking away scowling, but said "NOTHING! Get back to work" when I asked him to speak up.
The franchise owner came in this week for some sort of visit from the super-duper higher ups of McDonald's. After the visit, the super-duper higher ups wanted some food to go, I took their order, asked the owner if the got some sort of discount or something and he shook his head. After the order, the owner scowled at me and said "You forgot to suggestive sell!" with an angry "I'm so firing you after they leave" look in his eye. (For those who don't know, suggestive selling is asking (or in this owner's case demanding) to add something to the order like fries or dessert). Higher up man totally had my back though and said "I think he (the cashier) read the situation right, we were very clear on what we wanted, and said 'That is all' (the magic words to make a cashier shut up)." I grinned and said "Yep, just following experience and training, and they very clearly didn't want to spend anymore time or money on that order" The look on the owner's face was priceless (think a Phoenix Wright Turnabout/"Take That" moment).
I was already kinda disliked by both of these individuals, but both since then have seemed to leave me alone more or less rather than barking orders at me like. One even "asked" me to do something, which still was a "do this now" objective, but still an improvement from "Hey <insert male name that isn't me> do this now!" That is right, 50 days in, Store manager the guy who hired me, takes at least three tries to get my name right (I am now Zach, Steve, or <actual name> it seems), although this is improving because I have been purposely ignoring him until he gets it right.
I cannot wait until that Parole Officer test thingamajig, if/when I pass that, I will be able to escape the clown's clutches once and for all (of course, I mean Ronald McDonald, and 'clearly' not some other person in my establishment).
I don't want the damn lemons
Posted 13 years agoAs some of you may have noticed, my online and/or social presence has become even more lacking than usual this past month, so I think a "State of the Eevee" sorta thing is in order, kinda to update why I've been so.. non-existent as of late. Life keeps handing me lemons, but there is no lemonade, only piles of lemons. >.< Some of them combust, some make me do the "expensive-luxury cat" angry face, and some lemons have been useless at doing their citrus-ly duty in fighting disease..
About a month-ish ago I got sick, really sick, like the flu and bronchitis had a baby (last time I got this sick was after playing through Sonic '06, which is another story and illness all its own, and this was somehow worse). I spent almost two weeks being super fevery, congested, coughing out lungs filled with smaller coughing lungs, and generally miserable, I couldn't say half a sentence without a coughing fit. But eventually, I got better. After finally getting over this, I decided to fire up my ol' laptop in celebration to play some League of Legends, then suddenly my video card took that 'fired up' bit almost literally. After my card was torched that cut of the only convenient communication I had with most of everyone, other than my phone which is slow for typing and my dinosaur of a desktop. <.< About a week later I started working again, unfortunately for.... the clown *shudders* (the fast food establishment one). The hours are long, at odd increments end (shift at 7pm, come back at 7am, I swear they have a secret dartboard somewhere to determine one's shifts), the required shoes make my footsies sore, and dealing with rude customers and sometimes even ruder managers/higher-ups can wear a guy down pretty fast. So more-or-less between pain, stress, and general blargh-ness my days have been: wake up, work, stupidly early break, work, come home, sleep. Leaving very little waking time for this 'vee to do well... anything :/
So in short, apologies to those I've fallen out of contact with, once I get everything back up to speed on the laptop I'll be on a bit more. In the meantime I'll be fighting to keep my job until I find a real job suited to my field (Psychology - mostly suited for Developmental/Educational Psych and Industrial/Organizational Psych work.... so social worker, counseling/consulting, HR, etc). If anybody, even out of state, knows a decent/good company hiring specifically for a Human Resources type position (or anything that says B.S. in Psych is a qualification) please, PLEASE let me know so i can shoot a resumé in that direction. ^^; The sooner I can put in my two weeks at this place the better x.x Now I get to go back to bed, to wake up even earlier for my next shift <.< I really do miss talking to all of you :(
About a month-ish ago I got sick, really sick, like the flu and bronchitis had a baby (last time I got this sick was after playing through Sonic '06, which is another story and illness all its own, and this was somehow worse). I spent almost two weeks being super fevery, congested, coughing out lungs filled with smaller coughing lungs, and generally miserable, I couldn't say half a sentence without a coughing fit. But eventually, I got better. After finally getting over this, I decided to fire up my ol' laptop in celebration to play some League of Legends, then suddenly my video card took that 'fired up' bit almost literally. After my card was torched that cut of the only convenient communication I had with most of everyone, other than my phone which is slow for typing and my dinosaur of a desktop. <.< About a week later I started working again, unfortunately for.... the clown *shudders* (the fast food establishment one). The hours are long, at odd increments end (shift at 7pm, come back at 7am, I swear they have a secret dartboard somewhere to determine one's shifts), the required shoes make my footsies sore, and dealing with rude customers and sometimes even ruder managers/higher-ups can wear a guy down pretty fast. So more-or-less between pain, stress, and general blargh-ness my days have been: wake up, work, stupidly early break, work, come home, sleep. Leaving very little waking time for this 'vee to do well... anything :/
So in short, apologies to those I've fallen out of contact with, once I get everything back up to speed on the laptop I'll be on a bit more. In the meantime I'll be fighting to keep my job until I find a real job suited to my field (Psychology - mostly suited for Developmental/Educational Psych and Industrial/Organizational Psych work.... so social worker, counseling/consulting, HR, etc). If anybody, even out of state, knows a decent/good company hiring specifically for a Human Resources type position (or anything that says B.S. in Psych is a qualification) please, PLEASE let me know so i can shoot a resumé in that direction. ^^; The sooner I can put in my two weeks at this place the better x.x Now I get to go back to bed, to wake up even earlier for my next shift <.< I really do miss talking to all of you :(
It are my birfday
Posted 14 years agoSo I thought I would celebrate it daedric prince style X3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKPJsTLGtNU
On a side note, I'm 23 now, I feel old o.o
On a side note, I'm 23 now, I feel old o.o
Because now two people I'm watching have done it, bandwagon!
Posted 14 years agoWhere are you staying?
The Hyatt
What days will you be there?
Friday - Sunday
Who will you be with?
My mate
Who will you hang out with during the convention?
My mate mostly, and the two people I know that are going if they aren't too busy hanging with other friends
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I'll attend a lot of panels, just unsure which ones, many to choose from
Will you be suiting?
Nope :(
Do you do free art?
I can draw stick figures if someone really wants o.o
Do you do trades?
If someone wants to trade for stick figures X3
Do you do badges?
Nope
Do you do commissions?
Stick figures, $500 bucks Mwahahhahhahhhaha
What is your gender?
Male
Can I talk to you?
Sure
Can I touch you?
Um..probably wouldn't have a problem with it ^^;
How can I find you?
Look for the shorter guy clinging to the tall guy with Pikachu ears/tail
Can I visit your room?
You can I guess....but if I'm there it wil only be to sleep :P
Can I buy you drinks?
<3 Yep
Can I give you stuff?
Free stuff?! Yay ^^
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Of course ^^;
Are you nice?
I like to believe so :P
Do you have an artist table?
Nope
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
You'll probably have to grab/tap my shoulder or arm. I am terribly inattentive
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
I'll be around somewhere :P
What/where will you be eating?
Um...food places I assume
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Sure
Can I look in your sketchbook?
My stick figure doodles will never see the light of day (unless for a nominal fee of course)
Can I take your picture?
I'd rather you didn't, one of my biggest pet peeves is having my picture taken. I not photogenic in the slightest.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To be a little be more social-ish maybe
The Hyatt
What days will you be there?
Friday - Sunday
Who will you be with?
My mate
Who will you hang out with during the convention?
My mate mostly, and the two people I know that are going if they aren't too busy hanging with other friends
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I'll attend a lot of panels, just unsure which ones, many to choose from
Will you be suiting?
Nope :(
Do you do free art?
I can draw stick figures if someone really wants o.o
Do you do trades?
If someone wants to trade for stick figures X3
Do you do badges?
Nope
Do you do commissions?
Stick figures, $500 bucks Mwahahhahhahhhaha
What is your gender?
Male
Can I talk to you?
Sure
Can I touch you?
Um..probably wouldn't have a problem with it ^^;
How can I find you?
Look for the shorter guy clinging to the tall guy with Pikachu ears/tail
Can I visit your room?
You can I guess....but if I'm there it wil only be to sleep :P
Can I buy you drinks?
<3 Yep
Can I give you stuff?
Free stuff?! Yay ^^
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Of course ^^;
Are you nice?
I like to believe so :P
Do you have an artist table?
Nope
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
You'll probably have to grab/tap my shoulder or arm. I am terribly inattentive
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
I'll be around somewhere :P
What/where will you be eating?
Um...food places I assume
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Sure
Can I look in your sketchbook?
My stick figure doodles will never see the light of day (unless for a nominal fee of course)
Can I take your picture?
I'd rather you didn't, one of my biggest pet peeves is having my picture taken. I not photogenic in the slightest.
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
To be a little be more social-ish maybe
I'm a horrible person according to this meme journal thing
Posted 14 years agoIf you have 00-10 ... write [I'm a goody-goody]
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]
HAVE YOU...
[ ] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[ ] tried drugs
TOTAL SO FAR: 8
[x] taken painkillers
[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[ ] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die
TOTAL SO FAR: 14
[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[ ] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[ ] been to a club
[x] been to a bar
TOTAL SO FAR: 21
[ ] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida
[ ] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[] wore arm bands
[] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD
TOTAL SO FAR: 23
[ ] dressed gothic
[ ] dressed girly
[ ] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[ ] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbor (I'm counting dorms here)
TOTAL SO FAR: 25
[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[ ] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
TOTAL SO FAR: 32
[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[] gone to court
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping (once didn't tip for horrendous service)
[x] caught something on fire
[] lied about your age
TOTAL SO FAR: 39
[x] owned/rented an apartment/house
[x] broke the law in the police's presence (I didn't know my car could handle speeding, but the cops didn't seem to care, never got pulled over)
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[ ] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed
TOTAL SO FAR: 47
[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[ ] drank and drove
[x] prank-called someone
[ ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[] cheated on a test
TOTAL SO FAR: 54
If you have 11-20 ... write [I'm still a goody-goody]
If you have 21-30 ... write [I'm average]
If you have 31-40 ... write [I'm a bad kid]
If you have 41-50 ... write [I'm a very bad influence]
If you have 51-60 ... write [I'm a horrible person]
If you have 61-70 ... write [I should be in jail]
If you have 71-80 ... write [I should be dead]
If you have 81-90 ... write [I got a ticket to Hell]
HAVE YOU...
[ ] smoked
[x] consumed alcohol
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
[x] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] had sex
[x] had someone in your room other than family
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn
[ ] tried drugs
TOTAL SO FAR: 8
[x] taken painkillers
[ ] taken someone else's prescription medicine
[x] lied to your parents
[x] lied to a friend
[ ] snuck out of the house
[x] done something illegal
[x] felt hurt
[x] hurt someone
[] wished someone to die
[ ] seen someone die
TOTAL SO FAR: 14
[x] missed curfew
[x] stayed out all night
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
[x] been to a therapist
[x] received a ticket
[ ] been to rehab
[ ] dyed your hair
[x] been in an accident
[ ] been to a club
[x] been to a bar
TOTAL SO FAR: 21
[ ] been to a wild party
[ ] been to a Mardi Gras parade
[x] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night
[] had a spring break in Florida
[ ] sniffed anything
[ ] wore black nail polish
[] wore arm bands
[] wore t-shirts with band names
[x] listened to rap
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD
TOTAL SO FAR: 23
[ ] dressed gothic
[ ] dressed girly
[ ] dressed punk
[ ] dressed grunge
[] stole something
[x] been too drunk to remember anything
[ ] blacked out
[ ] fainted
[x] had a crush on a neighbor (I'm counting dorms here)
TOTAL SO FAR: 25
[x] had a crush on a friend
[x] been to a concert
[x] dry-humped someone; been dry humped
[x] been called a slut
[x] called someone a slut
[ ] installed speakers in a car
[x] broken a mirror
[x] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
TOTAL SO FAR: 32
[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
[x] seen an R-rated movie
[x] cruised the mall
[x] skipped school
[x] had surgery
[x] had an injury
[] gone to court
[x] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping (once didn't tip for horrendous service)
[x] caught something on fire
[] lied about your age
TOTAL SO FAR: 39
[x] owned/rented an apartment/house
[x] broke the law in the police's presence (I didn't know my car could handle speeding, but the cops didn't seem to care, never got pulled over)
[x] made out with someone who had a GF/BF
[] got in trouble with the police
[x] talked to a stranger
[x] hugged a stranger
[ ] kissed a stranger
[x] rode in the car with a stranger
[x] been harassed
[x] been verbally harassed
TOTAL SO FAR: 47
[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online
[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight
[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight
[x] been to a fair
[x] been called a bad influence
[ ] drank and drove
[x] prank-called someone
[ ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
[] cheated on a test
TOTAL SO FAR: 54
Happy Birthday Love ^^
Posted 14 years agoToday is my mate's 
plus birthday! Happy 22nd love <3
plus birthday! Happy 22nd love <3IM trimming has begun
Posted 14 years agoAlrighty, now that I actually took the initiative to register new IM's (MSN, AOL, Yahoo), I'm going to prune my old IM lists and migrate those I still talk to on the new accounts, that way I can reduce/eliminate the need for Pidgin or Trillian. Seeing people who idle and never talk/respond makes me a sad Eevee, and then seeing the list of names of now orphaned accounts is even more sad-making. I just figured I'd let those who want to IM me (old and new) know that the new accounts are up and posted on FA, and I'll be abandoning my old accounts completely once I've added and talked to everyone I know already via the new accounts.
EDIT: I haven't actually started this yet, made the accounts still, but haven't added anyone yet. Is a mix of laziness and fear of finding out certain people I add who will likely never accept....
EDIT: I haven't actually started this yet, made the accounts still, but haven't added anyone yet. Is a mix of laziness and fear of finding out certain people I add who will likely never accept....
To Anonymous Individuals
Posted 14 years agoThings that need to be said to certain people, but I'm afraid to say. I doubt the people I'm addressing will read this (except maybe one or two, since only a few of the people here are actually watching me, and only one is a numbered one). I've been rather depressed lately, cried a lot, been avoiding opening up, and been kinda a poor friend... so I feel these things need to be out in the open. I'm hoping those of you who are numbered know who you are.
1) I've been crying a large portion of the past 24 hours. I'm gonna miss you so much :(
2) Sorry I've been so distant lately...a lot on my mind.... I hope I'll be back to my old self here soon *hugs*
3) I still don't quite know where we stand because your actions/inactions heavily imply one thing, and then you say something that is seemingly different. Sorry for being confused/slightly hurt by these things, I know it is a strain on you. Although whether or not you actually see this without a nudge or hint will tell me a lot about how things are between us.
4) I apologize for half-ignoring you, a lot on my plate, you know this, and I try my best not to, just sometimes don't need the extra drama to deal with.
5) Sorry my last chance to visit never panned out, life happens.
A few) I really want to talk to you more, just never seem to see you online at the right time
Many) I wish I could be a better friend to all of you, sorry I've been a failure at asserting myself without hurting you.
On a related note, this music has been running through my head all day, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsh2p_Ku6-w
1) I've been crying a large portion of the past 24 hours. I'm gonna miss you so much :(
2) Sorry I've been so distant lately...a lot on my mind.... I hope I'll be back to my old self here soon *hugs*
3) I still don't quite know where we stand because your actions/inactions heavily imply one thing, and then you say something that is seemingly different. Sorry for being confused/slightly hurt by these things, I know it is a strain on you. Although whether or not you actually see this without a nudge or hint will tell me a lot about how things are between us.
4) I apologize for half-ignoring you, a lot on my plate, you know this, and I try my best not to, just sometimes don't need the extra drama to deal with.
5) Sorry my last chance to visit never panned out, life happens.
A few) I really want to talk to you more, just never seem to see you online at the right time
Many) I wish I could be a better friend to all of you, sorry I've been a failure at asserting myself without hurting you.
On a related note, this music has been running through my head all day, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsh2p_Ku6-w
