In the past couple months I've had some fairly major changes in my life one of the largest being a move across the country. It took me a while but I managed to find a job in my new location; however, the unfortunate part is that I only get roughly 15 hours a week at the moment. I plan to try and find a better or second job to be able to earn more money and get myself in a more financially sound position but beyond doing that I'd still like another source of income regardless of the stability of it.

Keeping that in mind I've decided to open up commissions. I honestly don't expect much if any interest but even if I only get one from this I'll still have more money than I would have otherwise. Right now I'm not completely sure how I want to go about doing these commissions or the prices on them but I figure the prices will be fairly cheap, any advice on pricing would be appreciated. I'll be posting a few examples of recent work in the next day or two and I'm also working on some other more polished pieces to post as reference as well. Another journal will be posted soon after those pictures are up going more into detail with commission information but anyone that might be interested feel free to drop me a note.

tl;dr:
I moved, not making enough money, decided to open for cheap commissions.

So I realize it's been ages since I posted any art or put up a new journal and that's partly due to work and mainly due to laziness and lack of motivation. Anyway figured I'd give an update on what's all going on in my world.

First major thing is that I am moving away from what has been my home for a good 3/4ths of my life and am moving to another state which is an extremely large change for me and though I'm excited I'm really nervous about the whole thing too. Second major thing is that, as I doubt anyone has noticed, I haven't drawn anything in over six months due to lack of motivation and laziness. With a few new things happening I decided to try and draw something again and I came to kind of a terrifying realization, I really can't draw anymore. So as it stands I have to completely re-learn how to draw more or less which will be interesting.

That's basically the only two new major things with me, when I first started writing I expected more and realizing that those are the only two major changes in almost a year now is somewhat depressing. Well that pretty much wraps that up but if anyone is interested in a song I've been obsessed with recently check this out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jm2eNxjKC-Y

This isn't the kind of thing I'd normally complain about but fuck it feels so hot where I am. I mean it's 9 pm right now and the sun is pretty much gone but it's still like 90 something and this coming Monday and on it's supposed to get to like 103 F which is just ridiculous. Even worse the humidity is pretty much zero so it's a dry heat, the kind of heat where it's hard to breath cause it's so hot and it dries out your throat.

Alright I'm done bitching now but damn it's hot ono'

So as it stands right now I'm starting to really not be able to stand my job anymore. Due to circumstances I can't just quit as the individual I'm living with demands that I keep a job so in order to quit this job I need to find another; however, I don't want to get another job cause I know it'll be the same crap I'm dealing with now but in a different package. I've been trying to think of a way to get out of the crappy situation and so I decided that I'd try to do commissions to get some money that way I'd technically have a job as a freelance artist and I'd be making money.

So my question mostly is what do you think would be a good amount to charge to start out as well as a good way to get myself out there for people to see. Any advice is greatly appreciated in this situation and thank you in advance.

Normally I have bad dreams fairly often but I can usually get over them easily or not even get bothered by them at all. I don't know what triggered it but last night I had the most horrendous dream I've had in ages. To make a long story short pretty much everyone I knew was betraying me in one form or another and over time I slowly was driving me into despair. Near the end of my dream I couldn't take it anymore and I guess I doused myself in gasoline and lit myself on fire to kill myself.

I know this journal is kinda random and pointless but I had to talk about this dream somewhere.

Hotel
The Grand Sierra Resort (if I can snag a room otherwise someone's couch)

Arrival/Departure
I don't live that far off so probably going to get there on the first day

Means of transportation
Driving

Sharing a room with
No clue

Who do you hang out with?
Not sure if I'll hang out with anyone or just be a loner in some corner and draw

Gender
Male naturally

Preference
N/A

Relationship Status
N/A

How old are you?
21

How tall are you?
5'10-3/4"

Are you an Artist?
Yeah

Do you take commissions?
Don't really think I'm good enough for them but if someone asks I figure I can do something

Do you do trades?
Sure, why not

Are you a Fursuiter?
Kinda but probably won't suit at the con

Attending parties?
Doubtful

Do you drink?
Catch me upset enough and I'll probably be drinking like a fish

Can I buy you a drink?
If you want to

Do you smoke?
Nope, smoke and me don't get along

Are you attending any panels?
No clue

Stage or public performance?
Nah

How do I identify myself to you?
Just say hi and who you are

Rules of engagement (physical contact)?
I'm alright with hugs so long as you ask or at least warn me

How can I find you?
I'll probably be bumming around the con area somewhere, most likely wearing a green hoodie with a face on the front and carrying a sketchbook

Can I talk to you?
Sure, I don't mind a conversation though I doubt anyone will start one with me

Can I give you lots of money?
Don't see why you would but if you want I won't argue, though I'll probably doodle something up

Can I give you stuff?
If you so truly desire

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hug is alright with warning though snuggle is a bit pushing it

Can I come to dinner with you?
I don't think I'll go out to dinner since I'll be by myself but if you want sure though you have to pay for yourself

Can I hang out with you?
If you want to

Can I take your picture?
Eh, if you really want to

How do I know if you're not looking to socialize (angry, busy or upset)?
You can mostly tell by a change in my voice though I'll probably just say I'm upset

Personality Type?
I try to be happy and friendly but life has a way of beating it out of me

What's your goal for the con this year?
Not sure, honestly I don't know why I am even going as the whole thing will probably end up depressing or upsetting me in some way

If you have any questions, feel free to ask or if you want to try to set up a meeting to hang out then feel free to ask about that too

So I decided that tonight I'm going to be doing a stream of Skyrim while chatting and junk. Feel free to stop in and watch, chat, etc.

http://www.livestream.com/gamestrea.....andpossiblyart

Edit: It was fun and I enjoyed it, hopefully I can get more people into the stream next time and get some good conversation going~

I've got work for a bit today and then I have turkey dinner but after that I was thinking about possibly streaming a game. I'll put up a new journal once I start streaming so be on the lookout for that.

[] Acousticophilia: sexual arousal from certain sounds.

[] Agalmatophilia: sexual attraction to statues or mannequins or immobility.

[] Algolagnia: sexual pleasure from pain.

[] Amaurophilia: sexual arousal by a partner whom one is unable to see due to artificial means, such as being blindfolded or having sex in total darkness.

[] Acrotomophilia: sexual attraction to amputation or amputees.

[] Andromimetophilia: sexual attraction towards women dressed as men or who have had a sex change operation.

[] Aquaphilia: arousal from water and/or in watery environments, including bathtubs and swimming pools.

[] Aretifism: sexual attraction to people who are without footwear, in contrast to retifism.

[] Autogynephilia: love of oneself as a woman.

[] Autoassassinophilia: sexual arousal from fantasizing about or staging one's own murder.

[] Biastophilia: sexual arousal from assault and rape.

[] Chronophilia: sexual attraction to a partner of the same chronological age, but whose sexuoerotic age is discordant with that chronological age.

[] Coprophilia: sexual attraction to (or pleasure from) feces. It's strictly related to Fecophilia, sexual arousal from defacation or watching a partner defecate, particularly on oneself.

[] Covert incestiphilia: arousal from non-contact sexual behavior with a child.

[] Dacryphilia: sexual pleasure in eliciting tears from others or oneself.

[] Dendrophilia: sexual attraction to trees and other large plants.

[] Emetophilia: sexual attraction to vomiting.

[] Ephebophilia: sexual attraction towards adolescents.

[] Erotic asphyxia: sexual attraction from asphyxia (also called "breath control play" or "strangulation"), including autoerotic asphyxiation.

[] Erotic lactation: sexual attraction to human milk or lactating women.

[] Exhibitionism: sexual arousal by engaging in sexual behavior in view of third parties (also includes the recurrent urge or behavior to expose one's genitals to an unsuspecting person).

[] Food play: sexual arousal from food.

[] Formicophilia: sexual attraction to smaller animals, insects, etc. crawling on parts of the body.

[] Forniphilia: sexual objectification in which a person's body is incorporated into a piece of furniture.

[] Frotteurism: sexual arousal from the recurrent urge or behavior of touching or rubbing against a non-consenting person.

[] Gerontophilia: sexual attraction towards the elderly.

[] Homeovestism: sexual arousal by wearing the clothing of one's own gender.

[] Human animal roleplay: sexual arousal by having oneself or a partner taking on the role of real or imaginary animal.

[] Hybristophilia: sexual arousal to people who have committed crimes, in particular cruel or outrageous crimes.

[] Incestophilia: sexual attraction to a member of one's own family.

[] Katoptronophilia: sexual arousal from having sex in front of mirrors.

[] Kleptophilia: sexual arousal from stealing things.

[] Klismaphilia: sexual pleasure from enemas.

[] Lust murder: sexual arousal from committing (or trying to commit) murder. It also appear to be strictly related with others similar paraphilias like sexual sadism, necrophilia, vorarephilia and Blood fetish.

[] Macrophilia: sexual attraction to giants or giant body parts (such as breasts and genitalia).

[] Masochism: the recurrent urge or behavior of wanting to be humiliated, beaten, bound, or otherwise made to suffer.

[] Microphilia: sexual attraction to miniature people or miniature body parts the opposite of macrophilia.

[] Modzeleskphilia: sexual attraction to food. Namely cheese, nachos, and red wines.

[] Mysophilia: sexual attraction to soiled, dirty, foul or decaying materials.

[] Narratophilia: sexual arousal in the use of dirty or obscene words to a partner.

[] Necrophilia: sexual attraction to corpses. It includes necrosadism, sexual gratification derived by mutilating and dismembering corpses.

[] Odaxelagnia: sexual arousal associated with biting or being bitten.

[] Olfactophilia: sexual stimulus with smells or odors.

[] Paraphilic infantilism: sexual pleasure from dressing, acting, or being treated as a baby.

[] Parthenophilia: sexual attraction to virgins.

[] Pedophilia: sexual attraction to prepubescent children. It includes Nepiophilia (also infantophilia), sexual attraction to children three years old or younger.

[] Pictophilia: sexual attraction to pictorial pornography or erotic art.

[] Plushophilia: sexual attraction to stuffed animals and/or people dressed in animal costumes.

[] Pyrophilia: sexual arousal through watching, setting, hearing, talking or fantasizing about fire.

[] Racial fetish: attraction to someone of a different colour.

[] Sadism: deriving pleasure, or in some cases sexual arousal from giving pain.

[] Salirophila: sexual arousal by soiling (only the appearance of) the object of one's desired partner.

[] Schediaphilia: sexual attraction to animated characters.

[] Sitophilia: sexual arousal by involving food in sex.

[] Somnophilia: sexual arousal from sleeping or unconscious people. It appears to be related to necrophilia.

[] Sthenolagnia: sexual arousal from the demonstration of strength or muscles.

[] Telephone scatologia: being sexually aroused by making obscene phone calls to strangers.

[] Teratophilia: sexual attraction to deformed or monstrous features.

[] Transvestic fetishism: sexual arousal from the wearing of clothes typically associated with the opposite gender to the wearer.

[] Trichophilia: sexual arousal from hair.

[] Troilism: sharing a sexual partner with another person while looking on.

[] Urolagnia: sexual attraction to urine, including urinating in public, urinating on others, and being urinated on by others; it includes Urophagia: sexual attraction to drinking urine or watching others drink urine.

[] Vorarephilia: sexual attraction at the thought of being eaten by or eating another person or creature. It includes endosomataphillia, a sexual fetish of being within someone.

[] Voyeurism: sexual arousal through secretly watching others having sex.

[] Scoptophilia: the recurrent urge or behavior to observe an unsuspecting person who is naked, disrobing or engaging in sexual activities.

[] Xenophilia: sexual attraction to foreigners.

[] Zelophilia: sexual arousal from jealousy.

[] Zoophilia: sexual attraction to animals.

[] Zoosadism: sexual gratification derived from causing pain and suffering to animals. Necrozoophilia (also necrobestiality) strictly applies to killing animals.

[] Anesthesia fetishism: sexual fetish for anesthesia.

[] Blood fetishism (also haematophilia): sexual fetish for blood (also known as vampire fetish, hematolagnia and haematophilia), and is an anthropological term used to describe the belief within a society or culture that blood in itself (as a material substance) possesses powerful and magical properties.

[] Breast fetishism.

[] Breast expansion fetishism.

[] Crush fetish: a paraphilia which primarily consists of the desire to see others (generally a desirable potential partner) crush small creatures such as insects, mammals and reptiles.

[] Diaper fetishism.

[] Doll fetish.

[] Fat fetishism.

[] Foot fetishism.

[] Garment fetishism: sexual fetish that revolves around a fixation upon a particular article or type of clothing, a collection of garments that appear as part of a fashion or uniform, or a person dressed in such a garment.

[ ] Hand fetishism.

[] Hip fetishism.

[] Hypnofetishism: sexual fetish for hypnosis and similar forms of mental persuasion, therapy or mind control.

[] Impregnation fetish.

[] Medical fetishism.

[] Navel fetishism.

[] Nose fetishism.

[] Panty fetishism.

[] Pregnancy fetishism.

[] Robot fetishism

[] Shoe fetishism

[] Silk/Satin fetishism

[] Smoking fetishism (Capnolagnia).

[] Spandex fetishism.

[] Tickling fetishism (also acarophilia).

[] Total enclosure fetishism: sexual fetishism whereby a person becomes aroused when having entire body enclosed in a certain way, hence the name.

[] Transformation fetish.

Sometimes you have moments where you see or experience something that hits you deep near your core. It stings at first and then after a while subsides to a dull pain but it's there always poking at you. Every time something close to that experience or thing you saw comes up you get that stinging pain.

Today I had one of those moments and its still bugging me. It's something that stings quite deep and makes me... I suppose some kind of jealous and melancholy. I haven't drawn for about 2 months now but this feeling stuck me hard enough that I had to draw something out to relieve it, I drew something selfish naturally, something I want very dearly but don't believe I'll ever have again in my life which makes me quite sad. I've tried filling the void but nothing else fits quite right and it's a mix of frustration and feeling dumb for ever letting myself let go of what it was. It was something precious you could never truly hold in your hands, you may hold what it is that causes this but you can never truly hold it in your hands. If I were to ever get back what was lost I would hold it close and guard it with my life but although my hold would be tight it would also be tender and caring.

-sighs- I hate feelings sometimes, they can bring you the greatest of joys or the deepest of sadness. If I had to choose what my single greatest regret is it would have to be what I lost since it's so close but yet so far away from me just always a bit out of reach. I can touch it but never truly hold it, I can see it but never truly feel it.

Te desidero~

I figure not really anyone will read this so I'll be brief. I'm feeling. . . something and I need a break so I'm liable to barely be around for the foreseeable future. If you have need to get in contact with me I have my phone or you can leave a note on here, I'll check them every so often.

Not sure how well this will go over but I'm gonna set up commissions for icons. I don't currently have any examples uploaded but I should have one up on the day this journal is posted.

Anyway I'll be taking icon commissions for headshot style icons. At the very least I'll accept $2 since I think that's fairly reasonable but I'm willing to adjust price depending upon how much you think it's worth.

I will have payment information posted later on but if you're interested than leave a comment on the journal and when it's all updated with examples and payment info you will be notified.

-IMPORTANT-
This journal has been edited from it's original form so if you read the original please re-read and review the changes made, thanks.



I figure most of you saw the "free drawings" and that's why you're reading this so I'll just get straight to the point. So basically I have free time (also i need to stop playing monster hunter tri so much) so I've decided to try improving my style and expressions.

I'm going to do this by offering you, my watchers/potential watchers, some free artwork. The basic premise is that you give me a reference pic or pics, a game or game character, and a song from the selected game if you want. I will draw the character from the reference pic in the style of the game universe or as the chosen game character. This is how it's going to work, provide the information in the numbered list below in the form of a comment and I'll work on the drawing.

1. Original character reference pic(s) (i.e. sona or character you created)
2. Game or game character
3. A song if you decided to pick one from the selected game
4. Give a direction or idea that you have for the drawing

So yeah drop some stuff on me and save me from the addicting nature of Monster Hunter Tri. I look forward to seeing what you guys can all come up with. Just put all the info down in a comment and if I have any further questions or clarifications I'll note you about them.

Progress List:
1. Not Started Yet
2. Not Started Yet
3. Not Started Yet
4.
5.
etc.

Well since I don't update too often I figured I may as well let my watchers find some good art in the meantime so I'm gonna start doing an artist spotlight kinda thing every so often.

Anyway the first artist I'm spotlighting is an artist who has quickly become a favorite of mine. Go check out Fuzzzlar's stuff it's cool.

<---- click dat

Okay I want to get my hair cut because it's past my shoulders and is getting rather annoying to take care of but my problem is I don't know how to get it cut. I'm terrible when it comes to making some choices and this is one of them so I wondered how you, my watchers, thought I should get my hair cut. I'm open to any suggestion except for shaving my head. Thanks in advance for the input.

Yeah that's right I'm taking a couple of requests because I want to draw other characters besides Rav, I like to do free art for people, and I need to get some stuff to upload. Just give me a link to the character you want draw and either give me a description of what you want or just tell me to do whatever I want.

1.  kingoneox
Status: Complete and uploaded
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6521543/

2.  ixtu
Status:

3.  TheWanderingAngel
Status:

4.  LadyLaika
Status:

I'm kinda debating whether or not I'll be able to get four people who want requests from me but hey we'll see won't we?

Took this from  Kukari

Basic Statistics

Name: Rav
Nickname: Ravvy or Rav The Toothy
Meaning of name: Rav means "fox" in Swedish
Origin of name: A friend of mine
Age: 18 (nearly 19)
Gender: Male
Astrological sign: Pisces
Chinese zodiac: Rooster
Element: Earth
Nationality: American I guess
Ethnicity: Scottish Irish
Race/Species: Stitch Fox (vieo vulpes)
Sexual Orientation: Pansexual
Current status (marital/dating): Single
Birth date: 2-25-93

Physical Characteristics

Height: 5'10"
Weight: 138 lbs
Posture: Upright with a slight slouch
Build: Skinny
Skin: Dark orange with a creme colored belly and striped tail
Hair: Long (for a guy) creme color shoulder length
Ears: Something of a fox/bat combo
Eyes: Orange gold color
Nose: Light black
Mouth/Lips/Teeth: canine
Describe their smile: Sweet and reassuring
Paws: Has humanistic hands and human-like feet paws
Tatoos/Scars: Stitching on face and other areas
Ambidextrous, left or right handed?: Right-handed
Distinguishing features: Button eye
Style (Elegant, shabby, etc): A style all his own usually reflecting who he looks up to
Jewelry and/or other accessories: Sometimes wears a chain bracelet with a symbol hanging from it or a necklace of similar nature
Weapons: Compound bow and metal baseball bat
Health: Fairly good

Other Characteristics

Is s/he generally balanced or clumsy?: Balanced, he can be clumsy if nervous
Habits/OCDs/Obsessions: He likes to see and/or make patterns out of things
Do they curse, and if so, to what extent: Only when he is really mad
Describe their house/dwelling: A plain one-room apartment. He doesn't need much.
Describe their bedroom: Small but comfortable
Describe their daily rituals: Wake up, get on computer, go to college, come home, get on computer, return to college, come home, get on computer, go to bed.

Psychological/Personality Attributes and Attitudes

Intelligence level: Rather intelligent, but generally acts of average intelligence.
Long-term goals/desires in life: To get a job where he doesn't have to do much and possibly find someone to settle down with.
Secret desires: To manipulate people greatly
How self-confident is s/he?: Confident enough to get by
How do they see him/herself?: Nonchalant
How do they believe s/he is perceived by others?: He believes everyone has a hard time remembering him and that they see him as having no problems in his life
What is the character most proud of?: His ability to help people
What does s/he like least about his/herself?: His shyness around people
How do they express themselves?: Through interesting ideas and the occasional sketch here and there
Is this character generally dominant or submissive?: It depends upon the situation
Describe their level of patience: Very high
Does the character seem ruled by emotion or logic or some combination thereof?: Mostly logic but there are times he gets emotional
Most at ease when: Relaxing, listening to music, and thinking to himself
Describe his/her sense of humor: One-liners
If granted one wish, what would it be and why?: To heal all the world's woes
Character/Personality/Mental/Social Strengths: Friendly, extremely quiet, not nosy, optimistic, and always looks on the bright side of things
Character/Personality/Mental/Social Flaws: Isolates himself sometimes, short times of depression, and not willing to tell things how they are sometimes
Biggest Vulnerability (non physical): He is very trusting and thus can be taken advantage of sometimes
Optimist or pessimist: Optimistic, but also prepares just in case things don't go well
Greatest fear: Being all alone with no friends
Other fears/phobias: Heights and being eaten alive
Emotional/psychological/social peculiarities: N/A
Biggest regret: Not enjoying being a kid enough
Other regrets: Not starting to draw earlier
Character's darkest/deepest secret: He won't tell you

Likes/Dislikes

Likes: Romance, Music, Art, and Retro Games
Dislikes: Loud noises, Stupid people, Arrogance, Egotistical People, and Vegtables

Favorite...:

Color: Green, Brown, White, and Maroon
Place and why: His bed, he thinks more clear and feels calmer while in it
Food/drink: Italian Sausage and Southern Sweet Tea
Music genre: Anything but country and gospel
Greater pleasures: [censored]
Where does this character hang out?: Where friends are or in his room
Where is this character's dream place to live?: He's not sure
Mode of transportation: Feet
Most prized possession and why: His stitching because it shows everything he's been through and survived

Emotional Characteristics

Describe character's sense of morals: Courtesy, honesty, and Pure Intentions are what drives his actions
Describe character's sense of self-control: His self control is in play most of the time minus a few exceptions
How does this character act in public?: Shy but once he knows a person better he opens up
How does this character act in privacy?: Open and speaks his mind most of the time
How does this character act around strangers vs. how they act around friends?: Shy vs not shy.
How does this character act around family?: Respectful but also a bit goofy
How has this character most changed from youth?: He went from being sad all the time to almost always being happy with a smile on his face
How have they remained the same?: Still enjoys cartoons, acts like a kid sometimes, and still is curious about the world
Has this character dealt with the loss of someone they knew?: Yes
Whom?: Relative
How has it affected them?: Not much really

How does this character deal with or react to...:

Conflict/Danger: Tries to work things out for the best
Rejection: Accepts it and moves on with his life
Fright: Doesn't really get scared
Change: Doesn't really like it but manages to deal with it
Loss: N/A
Sex/Flirting: Gets extremely embarrassed and nervous to the point he can't stop shaking and blushes a bunch. After that . . . well actually he has never gotten past that part
Pain: Fights through the pain
Being insulted (superficially: name calling, etc): Shrugs it off
Being loved: Happiness

How does this character express...:

Anger: Just fumes silently to himself
Sadness: Becomes less talkative and isolates himself more
Fear: Shaking
Happiness/Excitement: Smiles a lot
Love (Consider the 'Five Languages of Love'): Lots of physical interaction, hugging, snuggling, and stuff like that
Dislike (of a person, thing, or idea): Avoids them as much as possible
Approval (of a person, thing, or idea): Grinning

What does this character think/feel about...:

Children: Doesn't really like them at all
Sex: Very nervous about it to the point he isn't sure if it'll ever happen to him
Love: Something he hopes to truly attain someday
Friendship/Other relationships: Very strong relationship right up there with family
Homosexuality: Accepts it for what it is
The opposite sex: He believes most of them are ditzy, but some can be awesome.
The same sex: [see above]
Their past: It got him to where he is now so he wouldn't change it
Their future: He isn't really sure
Killing/Murder: He believes it's wrong unless the person did some inexcusable like taking another life, rape, etc
How does the character view life?: As something to live
How does the character view death?: It happens eventually but he is a bit afraid of it
How does the character view society?: Mindless drones who go to the media for "truth"
What does the character want out of life?: Happiness
What motivates this character and why?: The hope to make a change for the better in the world
What discourages this character and why?: His lack of ability to do some things
What makes this character happy and why?: Love, succeeding, and friends
What makes this character sad and why?: Regret, seeing others in pain, and the terrible truths of the world
What makes this character angry and why?: Dumb People
What most describes this character's personality?: One of the most upbeat and accepting people you'll probably ever meet
Psychoanalysis (Describe why they act the way they do): He does things because the way he does because he is himself
Does it stem from childhood or an event, or chemical?: He acts the way he does because of all the different influences from different social classes, people, and events

Relationships with Others

Relationship skills: He thinks he is okay at it but he could be wrong
Loves: Friends and family
Lusts: [unknown]
What kind of person would s/he consider to be the perfect partner?: Someone who accepts who he is and won't get mad at him for silly little things

"Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 30 random things facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 30 people to be tagged."
I'm not tagging 30 people. Do it yourself.

1. Whenever there is soda in my house I drink soda like a fish drinks water which generally makes me extremely sick for a day or two

2. I will avoid physical labor like the plague but when I actually start doing it I like it to some extend

3. I don't like taking showers and I usually avoid them if possible

4. I don't like having pictures taken of me

5. I get complimented on how I look a lot but I always deny the compliments because I hate the idea of looking really good

6. I have a habit of listening to a single song over and over again much to the annoyance of others

7. I absolutely hate having my hair blown around by the wind

8. I tend to deal with issues internally so most of the time I look calm even if I'm freaking out about something in my mind

9. I like drinking out of glasses shaped like boots

10. I have a severe weakness for italian sausage and will do almost anything for some

11. I hate spending money on myself

12. I hate others spending money on me even more

13. Chocolate makes my teeth feel like they're burning

14. I have a nasty habit of really liking someone up until I'm with them then I just suddenly lose interest in them

15. My grandfather was the first one to encourage me to draw

16. It was my second girlfriend who really got me into drawing

17. I may not seem like it but I'm really competitive and always want to win

18. I have a habit of being nice to people when I'm around them but feeling that they don't deserve it

19. I love it when people ask me questions about stuff or myself but no one ever does really

20. I usually never speak in public unless I'm talking to a friend so I find it hard to make friends sometimes

21. My real life last name means "strawberry"

22. I think Facebook games are a waste of time

23. I'm really into older games and what would be considered "retro"

24. I've always (since he was created) like the Megaman boss Grenademan

25. I get lonely fairly easily

26. I have this weird habit of trying to imagine what things look like if I was in their physical location and I've gotten quite good at it

27. I like to manipulate people but I always try to do it for their benefit

28. I've always wanted to be popular in some respect but I've always known that if I ever do get famous I'll hate it

29. I'm good at fixing computers but I don't really enjoy doing it

30. I have never had any idea of what I want to do with my life

I'm not tagging anyone but do this if you want to.

Okay well this dream last night started out a bit interesting.

A guy, a girl, and I were apparently in some ruined factory searching for some type of demon/evil creature that was eating souls. We were supposed to meet up with an old women who had a power that would help us take down the creature. There was some fighting with the creature after that but the old women was too scared to use her powers. To my shame after I woke up, in the dream I told her to give me her soul so I could use her power to beat the creature. In her fear (I would guess) she agreed to it and gave me her soul. With her soul's power we were able to take down the creature; however, when we came back to the old women she was coughing up blood and in obvious pain. At this point in the dream I felt horrible because I basically had killed this old women. Through her crying and pain she managed to ask me to put her out of her misery. I was on the brink of tears and felt horrible but I didn't want her to suffer so I put the scythe I had on her side and swiftly pulled it through her. As her torso slid off her lower body and blood began to pour out of her I could see her mouth the words, "Thank you" before her torso fell to the ground lifeless. After that I almost puked but managed to keep it back. At this point everything went white and the next thing I saw was a large checkerboard-like area in front of me that spanned far off into the distance. Naturally I tried to move but realized that I was sewn to a wall of rather raw looking flesh. To my left was the guy and girl that were with me before except there were different looking. The guy had some red half orb sewn over his left eye and the girl had a bunch of stitching all over her body. I felt sick again and knew that something bad was happening that I couldn't hope to stop. After a little while a black silhouette of a man materialized in front of us. He said, "Each person has an animal that represents their soul and in a way this works quite well with another aspect of the soul: direction. When a soul comes into existence it is a blank slate and from that point it can go in two different directions: purity or corruption or in other words the animal of the soul can become tame or feral." At this point he turned and pointed at the three of us and said, "Your souls are corrupt and you are feral. It has been a long time coming but stealing a pure human soul was the last straw. Look before you on the floor and you shall see your souls in the physical form of a pendant." We all looked down and saw the pendants; however, I could not see what was on their pendants I could only see what is on my own. My pendant was made of what looked like silver and had a wolf engraved into it. The black silhouette explained to us that our pendants would be destroyed and our souls extinguished so our corruption could not be spread. I shut my eyes and all I wanted at that moment was to get away from there either because I was afraid of facing my punishment or because I thought I didn't deserve it. When I opened my eyes I found myself outside of a shack near a beach in what looked like a port town. I felt something in my hand so I brought my hand up and opened it; in the palm of my hand I saw what I least expected to see: my pendant. I noticed then that my hand was covered in grey fur and when I looked the rest of myself over I realized that through some process I was now an grey anthro wolf with a brown stripe running from my nose, over the top of my head, and down my back to the tip of my tail. At first I was a bit freaked out by it and felt rather conspicuous in public but after thinking about what the black silhouette had said and looking around to see other animal anthros I felt better. I kept the pendant in my hand as I started to head towards what appeared to be the middle of town. As I headed further into town another wolf anthro ran up to my side from behind me. He said hi and introduced himself as Chet; while I was looking at him I noticed he had the same fur pattern but flip-flopped with brown being the main color and grey being the color of his stripe. I introduced myself to him as Conrad rather than as Rav because at the moment I was feeling rather paranoid and unsure about everything. Chet then asked me if I was new in town as well and headed to the Wolves Den which was apparently the district in the port town where all the wolves lived. I decided that saying yes was better than wandering around aimlessly through town. So we both headed off into town to find the Wolves Den but after about two hours and lots of directions we still hadn't found it. Through our wandering though we ended up in a very open air shack in the shark district of town. Chet and I started to discuss which direction to go next when we heard someone call to us. As I turned in the direction the call came from I nearly yelled because standing outside the shack was three figures: a wolf, a guy, and a girl. The wolf explained that the two people were looking for a friend named Rav and asked us if we had met anyone like that. I promptly said no and Chet agreed but both the guy and girl glared at me as if they knew; however, the wolf thanked us and the three left in the opposite direction. I let out a sigh of relief and explained to Chet everything that had happened to me which he surprising believed. As Chet and I stood talking the guy jumped through window into the shack saying, "You escaped once but I'm bringing you back now." I turned to Chet and told him that I'd meet him in Wolves Den before I ran out the door of the shack and down the street with the guy giving chase. The guy and I ran around town for about an hour until we both stopped to catch our breaths. I asked him why he is trying to bring me back rather than escape. He explains that if he brings me back that he won't have his soul extinguished and he'll be able to live on like nothing happened. I ask him if he really wants to go back to doing what he did and then remind him of the old lady. This seems to hit him in a soft spot as he says he never wants to see something like that ever again. After he says that he turns and starts walking off; I notice on the ground where he was a moment before there was something on the ground. I walk over and pick it up noticing that it's a small gold pendant. I tell the guy he dropped something and I toss the pendant to him which he catches and looks at. He laughs a bit then remarks on the fact that it's his pendant and that he guesses that means he is free. He leaves and I start to look for the Wolves Den which amazing I find is not but a few yards from where I had stopped to catch my breath. As I go about exploring Wolves Den I run into Chet again who is glad that I managed to make it back without a scratch. In my absence Chet managed to find somewhere for the both of us to live as roommates.

Sadly after that was when I woke up and the dream ended but it was still a pretty awesome dream.

Rules
-Pick ten people to write messages to. Negative or Positive.
-Do not say who they are meant for
-Tag five people

1. We've known each other for a while and honestly you're probably one of my best friends, and I hope we get to meet one day.

2. I think you're really cool but damn you can be hard to start a conversation with sometimes.

3. You seem like a really cool person in the time I talked with you but we never talk anymore. Your feathered self needs to drop a note or something.

4. I've known you practically since I moved from Cali and you're a great musician so keep at it.

5. You always struck me as quiet but you have a good personality and I'm glad we're friends.

6. You were an okay individual but you pushed too much.

(I'm tired so I'll update this later)