So quite a few things added since the last developer log!

I can now add a secondary texture, and change both the main texture, second texture, main color, and second color in run time.

There are collectible gems with a counter, and a checkpoint (the star) so when you either fall or get hit by something (obstacles etc) it will reset you to the most recent checkpoint.

I have upgraded the animator and put in some better animations, with custom crinkly sounds for better affect.

Added an NPC, that will look at you and can be interacted with.

Still, many many things to do, but fairly decent progress thus far!
Made a little music track to go with it too, not sure where I will use it yet.

That's right, today marks the first day of my journey to create The Diaper Chronicles as a playable mobile game.

I'll be spending the odd day or two off each week, so it may take a little while! But I'll be sure to update with each day's progress!

Today has been lots of setting up and making sure the model bones and things are all working ok! Set up the basic working scene with movement and viewing buttons and a character! Much more to do, but it's a start :)

Merry Christmas everyone! I sincerely hope everyone has an amazing day :)

I know my AWOL session was a bit longer than expected, but I have some plans to hopefully come back into the community, and more likely than not what everyone is expecting, but hopefully something a lot of people will enjoy!

I can make no promises, as it's quite a big undertaking, but I think it will be worth it!

Either way, love you all and I hope to start making an appearance again :)

I'll keep it fairly brief, in the assumption I would need work I started applying, and was offered a job within several days, so naturally I said yes.

It's unfortunately working 6 days a week and I frankly won't have time to keep doing 3d work, I can only say thanks to those who did show interest and had been with me on Patreon.

I won't say its googbye for ever, as I have a habit of coming back, but it may be for some time, as Im going to take a break from this for some time.

Farewell FA!

I hate to openly admit, this is kind of my last shout-out for work, although hopefully not.

I have been off work for some time since covid, and have been under increasingly heavy financial pressure with each passing month.

To put things simply, if I cannot at least get a few commissions, a dozen or so patrons, or one larger commission, I have no choice but to put all of my Babyfur projects on hold (and probably for good) so I can search/get employment. I feel like I have been setting fair prices for what I am offering, yet I get little to no interest at all and I feel like I am wasting my time.

So I am asking of you all please consider signing up to Patreon or asking for a commission, or if you know anyone who wants a 3d model made, to send them my way! I am essentially deadlining this to the end of the month, and if still no interest, chances are I won't be able to return for a long time, if at all.

Commission Prices
Patreon

(I have posted this on my image also)

Thank you so much for all those who have been waiting patiently as I work on a new project, and although it is still fairly early stages, boy have I learned a lot over the past couple of weeks!

As it may be fairly obvious, I am going to be working on 3d renders and models, with the aim to render and continue the comic and other commissions with 3d models. (This is a basic model for Artus as a bit of a test)

I also have some long term aims and plans that I think are different enough to be worth mentioning, along with my long term goals.

Comic content will always be free, and up to date for everyone. Previously I had the next two pages up for Patreons, where as now I plan to have it at the same time for everyone.

However, characters in the comic (or renders in solo situations if there is no story for that sona) will be Patreons. This will be Patreon only, as it is clear that designing, sculpting, rigging and texturing 3D models takes quite some time, and this does not include the world itself and the environment.

Long term I would also like to create a VRCHAT world that can be used for all Babyfur's to hang out in, as from what I have found, a decent hangout place for Babyfur's seems hard to come by, and I would love to be able to create a safe online place for Babyfurs to meet up. (Patreon's who have a model will be able to use their model here too)

Last chance for your chance to win a free drawing of your Sona! 8am to 4pm UK time, Don't leave me on my own!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9910233

So last night I really struggled with this question. While I am typically fine with the concept that there is no real purpose and does not need to be, that does not mean the things I do should be meaningless. And that's exactly what I felt about my drawings/comic. What is their point? Do they make anyone truly feel anything?... Needless to say, I was in serious need of snuggles and warmth.

Like so many, I spent a long long time trying to figure out what I want to do and what I want to be. But it's more than just that, does what I do have any purpose or meaning at all? So I ask all you,

Why do you read comics?
Do you find any meaning in them? Any purpose?
What do you WANT from a comic?

So, for those that do follow me, it's clear that I have been gone for some time. Those of you who were Patreon's knew of this and I thank all of you for the support given to me.

Like many in the ABDL community in general, I often suffer from trying to deal with the psychological effects of being ABDL. Guilt, shame, hatred, depression, joy. It was because of this that I had to get out, I had to distance myself from anything ABDL-related to try and settle my head and try to "deal" with it. Which again like many know, never works. It's always been a constant mind battle of who wins, but in the recent months it has begun to settle and for me, I have begun the process of actually accepting it, truly.

It's taken many hours sitting in the garden, just listening to nature, and many more hours listening to Buddhist-type teachings (I am in no way a buddha, far far from it) to try and help settle things. While it is obviously clear I have way more to learn about "me", I am on the way to at least beginning to accept parts of me that I cannot control. I have always been one to live in the present (I'm quite tunnel-visioned in all honesty), but that does not stop bad thoughts and bad emotions from happening.

I also need to learn how to deal with my fears. I seem to have a knack of sabotaging anything that seems to be going ok, as if I don't deserve it at all. The moment I felt like my Patreon (and The Diaper Chronicles) was going well, I uncontrollably had to sabotage it, on the very day I was going to Livestream with  Babystar to try and help with the 24 stream. For what ever reason (I'm really REALLY sorry Babystar) I pulled out, quit the lot, and dumped the whole lot into the skip of regret that seems to pile higher and higher.

I am starting to recognize this, and awareness is the first step after all.

I just want to say, I am back, and although a bit timid, it's to stay. Weggley and all my friends I have made through this really is important to me, it's because of that meaning and that love, that I subconsciously tried to get rid. I will do what I can to make ammends for my absence. I have uploaded all my previously drawn pieces for "The Diaper Chronicles" as however I choose to continue with it, the drawing style will be slightly different. This way everyone is up to date :D

Love you all <3

So, it's been a while since I made a journal entry, and really it's quite a short one!

I have decided to pretty much stop using my social media. I have never really been one to use it a lot anyway, and whenever I post anything on there I just get upset and down about how little engagement it gets. So, in light of that, I'm gonna go ahead and throw all my eggs in one basket, and stay exclusive to FA (With the exception of my Patreon page obviously)

I also thought I wanted to drastically reduce the complications of my Patreon tiers, and just offer individual unique commissions for each tier, but different levels of shading to reflect the time taken. I hope that this will offer a far more unique and personal experience for everyone, especially as I get to know them and their fursona's I can really tailor each commission to them.

Anyway, safe wishes to everyone in these rather troubling times!

So, after spending the majority of yesterday in the psychological dumps, I decided I wanted to spend some time developing my own type of style into something more personal, a little easier to do, and more of the cartoony look I really wanted to. I am a stickler for simplicity, so cutting down on shading and complicated details and other stuff really brightened me up, and today I really really enjoyed creating the piece I did for Austin and me.

I am also super proud that everything so far, and I intend to keep it, will be personally drawn, without having to rely so much on other people's brushes, rather I will try and make my own. So while it may take me a tad longer to start with as I have to create the new brushes with the content, it does mean that workflow should get easier as time goes on. This also means I can spend more time working on getting the line art better, which after all in my opinion is key!

In line with this, I have also been spending a little bit of time trying to come up with ideas on how I can really give something to Patreon's, without busting my gut but still being able to offer something worth their time and investment. I am in the process of polishing up what I can offer, and I think it's really cool! As well as this, I am creating a website to be able to use as a central hub for the comic itself, where I can list a database of creatures, a guildhall of Patreon's, lore about the world, forums, and other misc stuff!

So exciting times! I'll be sure to update on here when further progress has been made!

So, been an enjoyable week, the broken old computer then getting broken new computer lol, but it's finally all fixed and it looks incredible, I totally love it! Just need a new keyboard/mouse/speakers to go with my setup and it will all match and look amazing! Perhaps Santa might bring me some stuff.

I have also really struggled to get back into the swing of drawing again, it's been tough going to get into the mind frame and not just want to sit and play games or something else equally as wasteful, but I'm glad to get Page 15 finally done. Will be starting on page 16 tomorrow with a bit more enthusiasm (lets hope). Will be posting Page 11 up on here soon to FA, one of my fav's, although I love all the pages to be honest, so that's a bit of a biased opinion lol.

Anyway. Thank you all for the patience, here's to posting with a bit more consistency :)

So, some of you may have noticed a lack of activity (lol doubt it) but anyway, my computer completely broke, then when I ordered a new one, the ram did not work and I kept constantly getting blue screen of death! Yayyy! So, after god knows how many tests to make sure it was the ram and not the MOBO I ordered some more and finally have a working system, so I can start working on settings things up again and getting those comic pages out again!

Thank you to all those who were waiting patiently!

So it's been a couple of days since I posted my last journal, I thought I should probably update it now! Been a busy last couple days, seeing the in-laws and shopping before lockdown, kept me occupied for basically the entire two days.

I have however managed to at least maintain my meditation every morning. It's shocking how bad my internal chatter is, so I intend to keep this going as long as I can each morning. It's an odd thing really, that the point is meditation is that there really is no point, but I think that's strangely why I like it. Rather than getting up and worrying about my social media and comic etc etc, I can understand that really, everything is unified and that all that worry and stress is meaningless when all I need to focus on is the eternal now.

I have really been enjoyed the last couple of comic pages, and I have so many great idea's I want to get down I can just hope to get them down fast enough and include lots of peeps! :)

Onwards and upwards :)

I remember vaguely of the experiment that came out saying that essentially, life is always a 7 out of 10, and I think like many, I spend way too much time focusing on the missing 3!

So, like many times I have wanted to start a new routine, I have again decided to try it, but, without really putting too much into it. I know if I aim too high I won't follow through or stay committed, so I'm starting small in the hopes it will be easier to maintain.

Really quite simple. 6am wake every day, which I have been doing for some time, so that part is easy enough.
The first thing I did and plan to continue is 15 minutes of meditation. Making myself do, well, essentially nothing, puts into perspective how petty my desires are for things that don't really exist in the "real world". I also realized my internal chatter is really quite bad, so I hope that over time I can learn to really be present at the moment, without my ego getting in the way. (Which I strangely also felt while brushing my teeth...)

I wait for my wife to wake, then have breakfast, exercise for 15 minutes, shower, and brush teeth. (I have a terrible habit of not brushing my teeth in the morning, but for some reason, it seems easy after a shower, and doing the exercise kinda makes it essential to shower lol!)

I have also kinda vowed not to check any social media platforms at all until after 12 mid-day, no excuses. I'm glad I looked at them very little today, and frankly, I didn't feel like I missed a lot. I'll have to consider a chat thing for Patreon at some point so that I can still interact with those who wish to, but that's getting way ahead of myself, as that required interest first!

Once I think I have this routine working ok, I'll work on something for the evenings, and perhaps set a sleeping time. I'm half thinking of meditating for 15 minutes in the evening, give me a short rest bite from the computer screen before sleeping (I know it should be much longer).

So, for today a success (yay) and despite not getting as much done as I feel I could potentially have done, my most recent page (13) of the comic is by far the one I am most proud of so far, with 2 panels in particular I think looking great!

So, it's another day. 6AM wake as per my normal everyday alarm and what's the first thing I do? Go to check social media and be instantly disappointed by, well the lack of engagement.

I had spent a lot of the night thinking over this, and I'm a little puzzled at what to do. I agree with all the great advice I got yesterday, keep on slogging, keep on engaging, and eventually, I can hope to get lucky, as if it seems to be down to luck to get popular according to this, and not having good art. (There I go again with arrogant belief my art can possibly be "better" when it's all down to interpretation)

The core of the problem is, I am a recluse. I don't often comment on things, I don't often talk to people. After a lifetime of personally being let down and neglect from my parents and school being a hell hole of being told consistently that I was an issue, not a person, then add to that a decade of experience working in retail, to further add to the feeling of being just another number amongst many.

I know statistically, I'm average and always be, average. Yet I want more, but it's funny that I wonder if the faith in myself has really begun to fade away, day by day, each "look" on social media. Especially when I look at the competition, see them doing drastically better than me, yet still stupidly think that my content really can't be that much worse, can it?

Anyway, despite my ranting, here comes the actual problem.

In order to help quell the constant desire for attention, I need to stop looking for it, and that starts with well, not looking at it. My morning routine has become that, and it needs to change. Each night the last few nights I have gone to bed thinking, tomorrow I will do something dif in the morning, but still I have done the same thing over and over.

So, my thoughts.

Do not check anything in the morning, I need to start a better routine when I wake, then start drawing, all before checking any kind of social media. By the time I am awake, most of my followers are asleep, so I see little harm in starting later. I hate that social media has to be done at "certain times" to be seen, and I guess quality does not matter. So whatever, I will post it so it's up there, use it for the occasional raffle.

Don't look at social media, full stop. I can use Hootsuite to check my own posts and make sure that I engage with everyone that engages with me, without having to actually look at the numbers so much and get depressed looking at the other stupidly successful people. If this really is about doing it for me, then I can just hope that not engaging on other people's stuff (which frankly gets ignored anyway) won't affect me too much.

I might make a Journal entry each morning perhaps for a little while, more for my sake. I think it does help to actually write this down, rather than have it all stuck up and boiling in my head. So, time to clock off, have some breakfast and crack on with doing some art.

No one is going to read this, so why the hell am I even bothering? I guess that's the whole point, no one is going to read this...

I really don't know why that should bother me, chances are I am always going to be a nobody, trying to thrive under the shadow of giants while barely getting the crumbs left behind. I can't help but feel that either I am missing something, or the world really is just against me, ignoring me, as if everything I do is wrong in some way, viewed as fake or trying too hard or not trying enough. I can't seem to win, other people rise to "fame" fast, get all the attention, and despite all that I know of persistence is the keep seeing is very little reward.

Yet, I don't want to just give in to what I "feel" like the community wants, yet in many ways would that actually be better? Do I draw what I "think" the community wants to see, or continue with what I believe might give people some real emotional connection to a plotline? Or does no one really care about the plot, just look at the pictures and move on?

Every damn day is a struggle, every bloody day I hate myself, hate where I am, and hate that I don't seem to be going anywhere. I am trying so hard to fit in, so hard to be someone and it seems the universe is against that. How can I possibly be just "me" when I don't truly know who me is?

It's almost funny really, how the desire to be popular, even if it is so I can make others happy, makes me so sad, so often. Such a first world problem, when so many others don't even have the basics to live. It's not that I do not believe I am blessed to be in the position I am, but, the human brain doesn't work like that, certainly not mine! Forgetful, untalented, and way too often focused on what I am not.

Getting tired of trying, full stop. I am really starting to feel lost and I hate it. Not just lost in the woods, but in the middle of a bustling city full of people doing so much better than me. I want to give up, but some completely stupid part of me thinks my ideas are cool and unique.

B.S. and I know it.

Fuck it...