One year wiser... no, just older. It's been a good one, rather uneventful, I have some new propositions for my 36th year of life, I want to lose some weigth, get a bit fitter and be less of a jerk. Anyway, I'm going to post a few items I or my friends got me over the year and I was always too lazy to post. They all brought a smile or a tear to my eye (and in most cases, both).

I woke up in the morning to an unpleasant surprise. I found four notes in my inbox, all bearing the same title, "Submission rating change". They all read several of my submission were rated incorrectly and so were changed to respect the guidelines. I found over a dozen pictures updated from blue border to red and several other going from white to blue, pretty much resulting in an almost all-adult gallery. Pictures almost a decade old were posthumously evaluated and changed.

I am not challenging the moderator's decisions, if the rating was incorrect and changed, fine by me. But it could have been handled much more tactfully. I have been an impeccable member of this community for over twelve years and receiving several automated messages laden with thinly veiled threats of potential disciplinary actions was unpleasant to say the least. The distinction between blue and red border is a matter of opinion, what is tasteful to me could not be to someone else, it's heavily subjective. Considering this, I shan't use the "mature" classification anymore in the future, should I choose to upload more content to this website. Anything that is not a portrait or anything aimed without the shadow of a doubt to a general audience will get a red border.

I would have greatly appreciated a note from an actual person instead of discovering my gallery "moderated" afterward. I am not unreasonable and I would have happily complied, it's in my best interest to keep the quality of this archive as high as possible. I enjoy browsing it as much as anyone else, although this unsavoury episode will surely affect my future decisions.

Good evening, mortals. Recently one of my hard drives died, and although I had backed up pretty much everything I ended up losing a few pictures. Sketches, mementos, still valuable art that never got to be exposed. It breaks the heart to lose such things, especially if they were kindly drawn for me.

So, starting today, I shall reorganize my account, create folders and upload everything! Expect a small flow of assorted pictures, old and new, for your enjoyment.

At last, after several years of procrastination and indecision, I am seriously in business for a fursuit. I've already been searching thoroughly for the right maker and I have located more than a few I really like, but I'd like to ask you for more I might have overlooked.

I am looking for a maker able to make a full, digitigrade, semi-realistic dragon fursuit. One with previous experience and I STRONGLY favour Europe-based ones, because shipping and customs from overseas can easily throw the price up of another 1000USD.

If you have any suggestions please let me know!

Patreon. Aren't people abusing it a little? Yes yes I know, artists need donations to buy pencils and easels and poptarts, but honestly, isn't coercing your fans money to SEE your sketches a bit excessive?
Back in the days I was drawing I would have paid people myself to get some feedback, and now all I see in my inbox are previews to paid collections of mystery sketches I may or may not like.

I'm not telling you guys to work for free, but at least share with the rest of the community. Not everyone earns more than 50k a year and your fans would like to just follow you... this trend is just impoverishing the fandom, both literally and in spirit.

Or maybe I'm just a greedy bastard and I should go back to scavenging discarded porn mags in the bushes around parking lots to sate my fapping needs. Who knows.

Isn't it weird there's still a snowman in the banner?

I have a new job and so far I like it.

Well then, here's a mandatory seasonal journal.

I'm still here, although not very productive, this summer I've been working a lot on a project which, unfortunately, doesn't look well (and I'm probably not going to get paid) and I've had some health issues, luckily recovering.

So, if you want to keep in touch, I'm often on Skype. And for whoever is interested, I do write and post quite regularly on Twitter, although the site enrages me more often than not. I'm MisterWhip there.

4957-4288-9962

Send me yours, come and wipe the floor with my chespin. He needs to be taught humility!

And I kinda want presents.

As the title says, I'm in need of a nice pair of fursuit eyes. Can anyone direct me into the right direction?

Somebody gave me a watch 3 days ago, then removed it. In my notification I can only see REMOVED by the user and of course I can't remember who I was. So, sorry if I wasn't all that productive in these last three days.

Just know I will be looking for you and I WILL find you.

But seriously, FA needs to get rid of this anonymous "favourite has been removed by the user" bollock. It is really quite offensive, at least let me know who he was, so I can hire a hitman or something.

I don't write journals unless I have something meaningful to say, which is uncommon, that's why my entries are really quite rare, in the order of a handful a year. I believe journals should be used sensibly, as too many pointless entries will be ignored altogether.

This is an exception. I have nothing really important to say, my life is still on hold, I'm still unemployed and the future looks quite grim, but that's not really relevant on a furry porno-social site, is it?

Why am I writing... I don't know. I feel like everybody is forgetting about me, so this is sort of a reminder. I'm here and to be frank I'm quite lonely. I'd like... something. Art, company, I don't know, anything goes, I have had little for so long. I really miss some people and yet I can't go back to them or I'll feel like "forcing" myself on them. I'd like not to be ignored. Maybe I'd like some more money, as it seems to be the only reliable way to buy popularity and satisfaction.

A textbook example of deranged byproducts of loneliness and dissatisfaction. And there you have it, my entry turned, as usual, into a raving jumble of unintelligible mindfuck.

Contact me on Skype or Twitter, I'm a pretty pleasant person to have around, most of the times.

I've been using Twitter for a while now and while I enjoy its features and the fact I can share meaningful pictures and get a glimpse of life of the people I like, a few things perplex me. I don't seem to be able to get anyone to watch me, and when I watch or even contact anybody else, they ignore me. Maybe they think I'm a fawning fanboi, it happens often.

Anyway, it's lonely there, so for your daily dose of lizard and food pictures, nonsense, or just to please me, add me:

MisterWhip

It's quick, it's free, you get to know me, I get to know you, you only have to gain, Do it now, before you forget. This is an order.

Begone, depressing journal entry!

I have acquired fur samples. I can't choose, You can't make me choose!

Oh well, Valentine's day's getting closer and with it, the strange mood typical of the period. I don't know... lately I'm getting increasingly annoyed at couples. Not just furry couples, although furries tend to flaunt their relationships in much more obnoxious ways. Matching icons, sexy, sexy commissions and the constant reminder that "No, I RP these things only with my mate (which I've never seen)". I seem to stumble into more and more "happy" couples lately and they are all so enthusiastic to rub in my face how perfect their two week old relationships are and kindly remind me how dreadfully alone I am. Other facts may have aggravated me, but maybe it's not appropriate to divulge everything. Or anything at all.

In truth, maybe I'm only an envious, spiteful, ugly old bastard. Life's really giving me its best lately. Huzzah!

Well then, I rarely use my journal to pimp other artists, but this time I am going to!

 dracostreex is open for commissions, as he needs to bag lots of money to come and visit yours truly in about 10 days. He specializes in MASSIVE muscle art, have an example:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7584052/

He's reasonable, he's cheap, he's good, he's reliable. And he needs your love and funding for his lil trip, to make it even more awesome. So if you are into muscles, go now! If you aren't... why are you here? It's all I draw!

 dracostreex

Click this. Deliver love.

Being an irrational blend of technophobe geek with no money to spend nor resolve to take any decision about big purchases, I've always coveted with seething envy other people's smartphones and tablets while never buying one of my own. I also always watched with disdain Twitter, Facebook and the lot.

I'm also known to be very fickle and suggestible. So now that I managed to acquire an Android, I am into all of them!

I have a Twitter account now. Twitter is amazing, it allows me to ramble about my favourite subject... myself. But it's just me and the Pope, for now... I need more worshippers. I mean, minions. Friends! That's the word *coughs a bit of smoke, embarassed*

So, add me and try the Gold Dragon experience.

MisterWhip

Add me, you won't regret it.

This is an order.

I'm writing this message to thank everyone kind enough to dedicate me some wonderful art and the talented artists who drew it. A special thanks to ben300 for some astounding photomanipulations he tried and I unfortunately cannot post, as real nudity breaches FA's code of conduct (or so I think).
To better organize my gallery and separate the things I drew myself from the work of other artists, from now on I will showcase other's art in my main gallery for a week, then move it into scraps. This is not to belittle a work which is far better than my own, just to keep them better organized. They are always there. And thank you.

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This was the "important" part. Now I'm going to write a bit about myself, read on if you are curious or if you want to get to know me better, but it's by no means important. Writing my troubles down has always been an useful exercise to sort out my mind, I used to do it on LJ but I haven't used it in years.

Some of you might have noticed I recently had my birthday and I subsequentely became, almost immediately, much more silent, colder and distant. I apologize for that and I will try to be a better friend. The truth is, hitting this important deadline, the change of a decade, made me think... long and hard, more than I should have. I realize I'm not all that young anymore and, as in now, I'm living an unsatisfactory, hopeless life.
I have been unemployed for almost two years. The reasons are several, and I'm not completely without blame, as I have been trying to pursue dreams and move out of Italy. Then a combination of global economics, earthquakes, and god knows what else, and I am still unemployed. I have an university degree in computer science, I speak good english and yet I am ready and willing to do any job, with any pay. Even scrubbing down pigs and cleaning septic tanks.
When you are 30 and you feel this... useless, living out of the kindness of your parents, you really feel less of a man. This may explain what appears to be unsavory greed, as I cannot spend for anything superfluous. I'm not poor, not yet, but I don't feel safe spending any money until I have a source of income.
I have forfeited every unnecessary expenses, inculding anything that could bring me pleasure. Trips, gadgets, clothes, fursuits... and art, are all in this category. The few time I visit my friends I try to do it in economy, with great shame. And here, on FA, I have a really complicated life. I envy immensely anyone else getting art, yet I'm too ashamed to ask for some of my own. And while I can draw, I feel blocked and inferior to real artists, so I do not even bother. And, just to be clear, if you have a fursuit you have my undivided envy...
My parents are divorcing right now, and I'm being dragged in a whirlwhind of nonsense and lawyer stuff. I feel tremendously ashamed and guilty, at this age I should be supporting them, not the other way around. I pay my own bills, but one part insists I ask to be recognized "unable to fend for myself" in order to get the other parent to maintain me to some extent. It's degrading, disgusting and very, very stressful.
I don't know. This is not my fault, but maybe, partially, it is. If only I worked! It's this accursed unemployment, preventing me from doing anything. I'm slave to the few savings I have but cannot even dare to touch, as I have to save them for a rainy day, even if now it's pouring.

This is it. Complicated, messy, tempestous mess. It feels nice to write it down sometimes, and reading back makes me realize I'm not completely irrational, just deeply sad.

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All of this with a big thank you for putting up with me, and a promise to get better. Return enjoyable, productive, chatty and drawing again. I'll do my best, I really want that.

... and if you have forgotten, a pox upon thee!

I want to thank all my friends who greeted me into the unexplored land of the thirties. A huge hug to  mtt3 and  wyraachur who got me some beautiful piccies, both from justinfox.

Aside from that, I don't feel any different.

 CoeurdelaVie is a very promising artist and he's in need of inspiration!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4648242/

And here I am, back from oblivion. I dropped from the face of the Earth for the last 20 days and did absolutely nothing, worried about nothing. It did me good, you should all try it sometimes. Now I'm back in Italy, somewhat refreshed, hopefully the beginning of a new, positive period. It could be better, in england I cracked a tooth, I have bills and car insurance to pay, bi-colored eyes (one is red, ravaged by some kind of bizzarre infection) and... I'll be 30 in two days.

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Eccomi qua, di ritorno dall'oblio. Sono sparito dalla faccia della terra durante gli scorsi 20 giorni e non ho fatto assolutamente nulla, ne mi sono preoccupato di nulla. Mi ha fatto bene, tutti dovrebbero farlo qualche volta. Ora sono in italia, abbastanza rinfrescato e spero che questo segni l'inizio di un nuovo periodo più positivo. Potrebbe andar meglio, in inghilterra mi sono rotto un dente, ho le bollette e l'assicurazione della macchina da pagare e occhi bicolori, uno rosso e assalito da un qualche tipo di infezione bizzarra. E avrò 30 anni tra due giorni.

Actually no, I don't have a chocolate factory, hence I cannot close it down. But I am leaving for England in 2 days, and I'll be staying there for 2 weeks. So, don't worry if you see me online less or not at all. I'm fine and having a good time.

I'm going to take a break from everything and enjoy my birthday. Yes, I said birthday, remember? My birthday. 20th of May. My birthday is on the 20th of May, a monday to be precise. I was born on the 20th of May 1983, 30 years ago. Did I mention it's going to be my birthday soon? Yes, just less than a month away!

My birthday.

20th of May.

This should be hint enough...

Dead Diary, they tell me MSN is going down. I shall take advantage of this annoying event to clean up my contact list, which in years of gaming and fandom has collected many hundred contacts.

So, I am NOT importing it all in Skype. If you aren't already there and you still wish to talk to me (which is not advisable, given how insufferable I've been lately) let me know and I'll give you my Skype handle. If you don't know me and wish to do so, by all means, ask me. And, I cannot stress it enough, if you want to get rid of me please do tell me before removing the contact, there's nothing I hate more than seeing someone has stealthily disappeared without a word and for no reason.

That is all.

As the title says, I'm going away for 20 days, journeying to England. I'm going to leave home most tech including my laptop, as I will enjoy the company of my friends. I'll try to pop on, briefly every now and then, on the house computer to say hi to my contacts. So don't be worried if you don't see me for a little while.

See you next year, I love you all.