So, while I have moved out and been in a much better situation with my roommates and my friends being so supportive along the way.

However, December of last year I lost my Father. He passed away around Christmas and I can't travel back for any reason. But, there were some 'circumstances' that surrounded this that I can't forgive him before he passed.

But now... another problem: My mother was diagnosed with Spinal Cancer. She got out of the hospital and now she's back in... and not doing well. I'm prepared for the worst, I did not expect either of these things to come to pass, but I would rather her no longer be in any pain... or suffering as she has been.

To everyone ahead of time: Thank you for your wishes, prayers and support it means a lot.

I'm just gonna probably need time is all.

Edit:
It is with a heavy heart, 6/16/2025 that my Mother has passed away. Last year was my Father and my Mother followed not too far behind. Neither of them will be able to see their Grandchildren if I have any or if my little brother and sister have any. I can't hear her voice one last time and tell her I love her. She's gone. He's gone.

My lack of posting here will probably still be kind of 'ghostly' where I haven't been able to. Besides that I still can't go out there because it's just... that expensive. I will be taking my time to mourn, but... again... Thank you all.

If you've heard it from before from someone else: You really don't know what you've had... until it's gone.

Hey there everyone, so some new updates:

I got a new job, and I was surprised when I applied as a Cashier but they told me “You’re overqualified, but we think you’d be a great fit as a Front End Manager!” To sort of explain what this means: We have Courtesy Clerks (those who do the bagging of groceries, help you to your car if you’d like, as well as fetch carts from the lot and do some of the trash if we have full bins), Cashiers (self explanatory, but they can also act as courtesy clerks too), Front End Managers (Take on responsibilities from the Courtesy Clerk, Cashier positions as well as supervisor responsibilities I won’t get into), Head Cashier which is my direct supervisor. So this is honestly a major step up living in TN now as compared to CA and my previous job. I’m working full time now, but I also already make more every week than I did on a bi-weekly pay! I’m going to keep doing my best and see where it takes me, I am getting exhausted but more so because I’m learning so much in two weeks than I was ever taught at any previous job.

Now onto the shouts I want to give.

To my two roommates who have been so awesome, can’t thank them enough for taking me in. I didn’t want to just be a bump on a log, just wish I’d have found work sooner.

To my friend who drove me out here, you’re one in a million. I’m gonna find a way to give back.

To every single person who has been helping me or helped me, who wished the best for me and cared, stood by me and more: You all are amazing. I can’t express into words how grateful I am that I had so many people pitch in, give me assistance and support. I’ll give back as well, I’ve got some people I need to prioritize first but I pay back my dues.

Artist Shout Outs and Spotlight:
This time I’m doing on and they have helped bring to life a few characters along side with my awesome friend Azria.

 Pieismyfave The Argent Dragon has already been bringing to life some more of my cast that was in my mind, this includes so far: Asami the Magnamalo, Cassius LeBlanc and Estella LeBlanc, Belladonna the Brachydios (I’ve yet to post them but will be coming), as well as some more that will be seen in the coming days/months/years as I want to continue to work with them and support their art.

Please give them a follow, ask them about their Custom Character Commissions, they do Monster Hunter and Pokémon but I’m also sure they do more than that as well. They deserve the praise for helping bring words into a visual, their style continues to develop as well as finding innovation for their style while still retaining such a unique style. I want to encourage them not only to keep going but to also continue to be an artist who I can say beyond doubt is amazing.

And if you see this friend, never give up and follow your heart. The only opinion that should matter is yours, but I also know for a fact you take criticism and will learn from it. I’ve seen that.

Their socials are on their page, I wanna fight the algorithm or at least get more people aware of artists who in my eyes are not just artists: But they’re also wonderful friends of mine.

I do know some would rather keep their art as a hobby, and I will have their works in my gallery as well. But for today this is about  Pieismyfave I want to try and update maybe once a month about this. I know I’m not very big, but I can at least show all of you who watch or don’t and have read this journal how wonderful and awesome these artists are.

Much love to everyone.

So I've made it out of the horrible situation! Now it's establishing myself in my new living arrangements and pulling my own weight.

It's a big step in the right direction, I wish to have a Job secured soon (it's being a little tough right now so I just have to keep applying around each day)

Besides that I've been eating a bit better, I'm in much better company and most importantly I'm not around an allergen that could possibly physically do harm to me anymore!

I have SO many people to thank for helping me out and getting me where I am.

Those of you know who you are as I've thanked you all in prior journals too, but I really cannot express my thanks especially with hopefully, just maybe, standing on my feet and getting to a place where I can live my life and enjoy it for many years to come.

I appreciate you all for reading,
GiGi/GB/WhiteFox

So, as it stands I am still unable to transfer from the store I currently work at to another so that I have work when I move out of my current awful living situation. I put in the request up around Monday the 13th of November, my HR never sent the information requested until Monday of the 20th, a week of no action with an E-mail from the store I was transferring to sitting in their mail box. Which in turn left no positions open in any department, which I expressed I would be glad to take. The workplace I was transferring to was on the ball, being very helpful and wanting to get the ball rolling. However, my current workplace was absolutely (as it felt by me) hindering this all just so that positions closed before I could transfer.

So this leaves me in a conundrum of a situation especially as things are coming more and more to a head in my living space too. And it is very bad for my health so I am going to still risk everything to leave on the 11th of December as planned. But I need to also request that I have a Leave of Absence because I am moving out of state and will have no way of coming into work because ai will no longer be living in this state. I have so many people helping me and I felt like I was so close, just to have things dashed and plans unable to work out again. But you know what, fuck it. I can’t stay here, I can’t just keep working here where I keep constantly being told I’m never doing enough when I am putting everything into my job. Then getting nothing every week, every day I work there except ‘You don’t try hard enough.’ Or ‘We just aren’t making the numbers.’

So the good news is if I can get my leave of absence approved, which they better damn well do, I am going to hopefully be out of here and away from the 11th to probably the 13th or so of December. And getting situated until I can find work or get this transfer done in March/April of next year. I hope to find work sooner than that, but as it is now I’m needing to move forward with step one: Get out of Here.

You can still find the GoFundMe here on this journal https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10596941/ but other than that, I’m hopeful that I’ll be able to get everything sorted and done with before the year is over. It has been a very rocky road.

UPDATE: I am about 800 USD Short of this move. I REALLY want to make this a last push! I'm not backing out of this now but again I REALLY do appreciate everyone who has donated so far and I couldn't ask for more but I really, really have to. PLEASE HELP. -> https://gofund.me/1ab07376

Edit: I typo'd in my panic. The correct total needed is about 800 USD

Edit 2: A bunch of my friends have come together and helped me make that push... I'm now... this is the homestretch and I just need to pack. Only bringing what is essential for me. My grandfather (the only person who has been supportive of me and been helping me in any way besides my amazing friends) has told me that anything I'll bring later (Send through postal or USPS) will be kept in totes here and that is also in case I don't feel I can do this but: I assured him that I NEED to do this. I'm not backing down now. I have come too far and I have too many people who I really need to thank, pay back and just go above and beyond after this is all said and done with. I will be creating another journal when I'm settled in and start my job. Because this was just the first step... steps two through ten are the challenge.

As the title says, it's very hard for me to ask for help. I've been living in a very abusive household for the past 10 years and haven't had a means to try and escape and move out until now. My very good friend  Sonyasha made a GoFundMe for well... me. I'll go over some things in this journal and I'll state: You do NOT have to donate, just spreading this around will help. I have been trying to keep this quiet from my family as well so I've been very worried that if my Mother or Step Father got wind of their 'sack of money' that keeps paying for bills when they are busy buying their vices. So, even with my job, all of the bills I keep paying end up leaving me with NOTHING to move out on.

So I have been attempting to stash away money there. Telling them that I only made so much so I can't pay for a whole lot. I've had A LOT of help from my friends  xenon-the-wolf  ToaOfSpace  Azria, Funbox, a funny owlbot friend and more... I will keep putting money away every two weeks: Update: we are nearing 1,000 mark of the 4,400 needed. Anything extra is still helpful as well as word of mouth!

If all you can do is spread the word by all means please do, this will be getting me into a much better living situation with two people who I can trust as well as work together with to have a stable, more relaxed and healthy living space. GoFundMe <- Use this link to go to the page, and this will have more details about the situation and my goal. ANYTHING ELSE will go towards furniture as well as even some new clothes and if I have anything else I'll put it towards a new PC that will actually be able to stream because that's what I want to do besides my Retail Job at Home Depot.

Thank you all so much for reading and again... this was very hard for me to type up because of how worried I am that my family will catch wind of it or see it somehow. I'm still afraid, but... I'm going to try and be strong.

Edit: WE HIT 1,000!!!! Thank you to everyone who has been helping, still this is only 1/4 of the way on the way to the goal.
I have been putting in 200 myself every paycheck. it's been keeping me tight on funds which is what I expected, but for everyone who has donated and sees this journal: Thank you ever so much.

Hey there folks so as the title says

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....qf6nTShhQ/edit

Doing a casting call for prey for this comic. Need 8 people, have a read and let me know which slot you would want from slots A through H for two large Lagiacrus gals. Feel free to DM me, or @ me if you're unable to DM. No the prey are not 'permanent' there's a reformation thing, would rather always be able to have people come back and enjoy participating in these gifts. No, you don't have to pay a dime. I'm footing the bill for this entire thing out of my own pocket, it's all in good fun for folks.

Slots:
Prey A: Bright
Prey B: Hal (Funbox)
Prey C: Areanthorn
Prey D: Amp
Prey E: Iota
Prey F: Jack
Prey G: Jake
Prey H: CaliGator

All slots are filled!

I really appreciate everyone that joins in.

Okay, I dunno how many people do read these things but I want to give some love and shout outs to some of the awesome artists I've worked with. I know not EVERYONE has had the same experiences as I have but from Experiences I've had these are some folks I recommend because of communication, customer service, pricing and more. Some artists I don't list is for another reason entirely, and the order I put everyone has no weight on who I like more or less, but for now ONTO THE LIST:

 Jest56 They're a fantastic artist, prices are very affordable and the quality of their work is damn well up there. They did an action oriented piece of GiGi, a few pregnancy related images as well as some wonderful YCH's. They give updates with major points of the project, they ask if you need anything changed, and they work very easily through Boosty for payment.

 TacticalFur The man who has done many Ref Sheets for me, takes time but communicates with many updates, as long as you take the time to communicate and keep in touch with them as well as even setup time/dates with them they often have fantastic turnaround at that point. Mostly do things involving food/stuffing but also dabbled in things like vore, preg and some other things. Give them patience, but like I mentioned you just got to keep in touch with them. Their work is worth the price it's set at as well, every penny.

 caligator Another artist to be patient with, but their painted style of work is still pretty damn great. They do a variety of kinks as well as variety of body types. Streaming their work usually and doing in-stream comms. If you got questions about their prices or anything just send them a note, but I've worked with them in the past and I have had some great experiences with them. Even gave GiGi her Wolf/Werewolf form, the lad Cal is.

 StormyRange He's done 3 little pixel animations for me and they are AMAZING I want to get more in the future. They've got a price sheet and menu regarding these and they've also got new reference sheets people can grab! VERY fast turn around, pricing is very affordable and deserves tips as do the other artists in this list. CONSTANT communication and customer service. Check them out. Do it.

 Sonyasha She has done SO MANY PIECES FOR ME an has worked with me on so many things. I super appreciate how flexible she is and how she takes her time to make some PHENOMENAL images. $30 Sketch Streams on her days off, SHE ALSO DOES ACCEPT COMMISSIONS and has a new discord server as well, send her a note and ask about the server too. I'd put my name for her quality and attention to customer service for her clients. SHE ALSO does physical items as well. Shawls, Ornaments, and more.

 Ronnie92 This artist is purely awesome and FULL of Gremlin Energy. Also known as muhboobz, and her commiss.io fills up fast. She has so many listings for what she can do it's awesome. She's done Ref Sheets, a few comics for me and done some AMAZING single images for a character or two. But that's just a TASTE of what she can even do!!!! If you can grab yourself a slot on her list it's worth the wait and she ALSO has awesome customer service. Communication is top notch, updates YOU approve before they continue to the next segment of the work!

 zicnoracel You like big an soft? Then Zane's the one to do it! He did a sequence for my Crime Boss Aellai! Like I've mentioned a few times, be patient with them. They do get a list of Comms at a time and will work around different images so they don't burn themselves out. Never be afraid to poke them either, gentle poke to get them in gear if need be. Prices are awesome, works very well with poses and giving references to what you want the image composition to be.

 Rd406 I've gotten a YCH from them and done a few little comms with them here and there too. Super soft art style and they do awesome on making characters cute and adorable. Pricing is where it should be for the quality, and the quality is only getting better so their prices are gonna go up probably! Grab a comm or somethin' if you get the chance and watch for YCHS too!

 ribbonfemale Fast turn around, definitely talk to them about if there's something they WON'T do. Sketch styles like this are neat, I like 'em because it makes me think about pen to paper art. Prices vary but DM them for details!

 whiterabbit95 ANOTHER really awesome artist. They do curvy gals, dad bods, AND MORE. Hyper Preg, Vore, NSFW and SFW content. Ref Sheets. You can see their commission list as well and they update it regularly! Primarily speaking Spanish, however they also know English but if they get confused don't feel bad about trying to translate it! I really enjoy their comics as well as they have made a captivating story telling of the History about his world. Check it out!


 Azria One of a few Colorists I know, ask them and show them what you want colored and have permission from the artist first. They have things they will and won't do. That being said, they give updates and ask questions, they work with other artists to learn tricks, use new tools and more.

 MattFolfsky ANOTHER Colorist, has also learned a lot from other artists. Be sure you have permission obviously to get it colored by another person. Will often communicate and ask questions, progress updates and more.

If you see a piece in my gallery of an Artist I didn't mention GO CHECK THEM OUT!!!! I know I can't list everyone here but these are the people that really stand out at the moment and as I can't spend thousands of dollars just supporting them all... this is my Gift to every single artist I can do. I appreciate you all so very much.

Hey folks, just throwing it out there for an awesome friend of mine  Jest56 https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50086563/ They're holding their own Holiday Sketch Sale! $10 on sketches, and they do some awesome stuff. Show 'em some support please! Grab a sketch or two! Or maybe a bigger image! They've got amazing turnaround and the art itself has such a soft style to it, makes it super huggable!

IF you want to find them they're also on  PregINC

So, time does fly.

I got a new job, my Ex and I broke up, family has passed away, so many things but yet here I am still alive and kicking.

I wonder what this year has in store for me...

Hey there folks, we got someone who is trying to improve their Anatomy thus improve the quality of their work!

Throw a character at 'em, get them some interesting things to work with! HERE -> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48150468/ <- HERE

I'll say that helping an artist improve on their work is one of the better parts of this Lottery.

MAKE SURE TO FOLLOW THEIR RULES!

Edit: Third Lottery Concluded! HOWEVER go support them in the FOURTH LOTTERY!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48254474/ <- HERE Seriously, go support them. They do some awesome work and it's only going to become MUCH better quality!

I wish everyone best of luck and enjoy!

Alright everyone, so while I may have a bunch of images still on the way I also am wondering something else in regards to all of the new ladies that have been popping up:

What do you folks think of each character? I'm listening, and I just want to know what folks think of them. So the list of characters are as follows:

Sharon Shaw -> Here
Lira Shaw -> Here
Tessa Shaw -> Here
Melanie Shaw -> Here
Carli Gatsby -> Here
Daliah Cain Ashbrough -> Here
Cassidy Ashbrough -> Here
Tyanna LeBlanc -> Here
Fabian LeBlanc -> Here
Jennetta Hyde -> Here

I'm not including the others that I've yet to have ref sheets of yet because I feel that's unfair for them to get judgement. Other than that, I'm just glad to continue growing my world for my writing, may you all have a good one. Remember that there is always a brightness in the air wherever we go.
-GiGi

So uh... yeah I uh... didn't notice I broke 300 Watchers... I'll be damned. It's really been over 6-7 years since I came here. I've met a lot of good friends, met some interesting, not so interesting and... other types of people. But that's what a fandom is I guess, lots of people from different walks of life.

Thank you, everyone who follows me and to all of you who read these journals, for how few and far between they are I appreciate everyone. At times I know I'm protective of what I've created, but that has come with a lot of stuff that happened a long time ago. I'm still protective to this day, all the characters are like my children. Precious to me. I want to give them all my attention, but at the same time I want to give ya'll attention too if people speak up. So really, thank you all. I hope to continue to see new faces, see new comments and generally enjoy art from around the community while getting more to share as well.

Sincerely,
WhiteFoxofSimi/GiGi

So got some big news from TacticalFur doin' some Animated Icon/Gif's as a YCH! All the rules and guide lines are in the descriptions and such so browse through and check it out! These are some QUALITY pieces too! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43207061/ https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43207081/

Just hit them up, it really helps them out you'll be helping them move out, get away from their part-time job AND afford a new computer that will allow them to do EVEN BETTER work. Believe me, they deserve it too, TacticalFur's the guy who did justice to GiGi's ref AND the Update with her natural hair colors too!

Please check them out!

So, this is a bit of real talk. I enjoy my own work, it's fun and especially when my muse hits me after a new piece is done by one of the artists I've commissioned and I make sure all the credit is out there for them. My main question is to all of you reading this: Have you been enjoying things? Have I been too bland with any of the structure or made some awful choices in dialogue? Is there any improvements I can make so that you all are drawn into these stories more or should I keep improving them the way I have been going? I do realize that the three different things I've covered in the past few images have been Stuffing, Pregnancy and Vore. Would you all like to hear more slice of life type stuff or action oriented? I do need to try and have a variety of works for you all because I want not only to have something that's great for my own enjoyment but so that others can enjoy it as well. Gifts for my friends or Commissions if anyone is ever interested. PLEASE do not be afraid to give me criticism as this is the only way I can improve and make sure I'm giving you all my very best.

It's just been something on my mind with all the new watchers lately and I want to hear you all out. I do appreciate your time reading this and hope to read what you all think.

-GiGi

Alright so to keep this as simple as possible: I realize that FA hasn't got the BEST format for putting up stories on their website. So I seek aid from those of you who write and post up on here as well: What is the easiest and most accessible way for folks to read a story on here? I dunno if I should type one up on my program I use then transfer it to a Google Doc, continue to use their format here on FA or put it in the description of some kind of picture, of maybe I don't know of one that people find attractive and useful? So please comment down below and let me know.

Also as folks can see I've been giving a lot of love across many different characters AND I've been working with the artist  Sonyasha recently for some works. She's done some great and fantastic work for her sketch streams and I really want to help her out even more because of how she inspired my muse with the last few pieces. Give 'em a follow, or even just tune into one of their sketch streams.

But to touch back on my writings, I really do like to hear any feedback you have. I will not take it negatively, after all it is better to have an open mind in this regard. I know I can always be better and if people can tell me the pros and cons of what I've written it REALLY helps to make the next work I put out even better than the last. So again I appreciate hearing from every one of you who is watching me or given me a favorite. It's you folks that keep driving me forward besides my own volition and confidence.

A very pleasant February to you all!

So, to those who are new: Welcome. I wasn't exactly able to be more active due to not being able to have funds. However now I'm able to do so as I've had a job for about 3-4 months back now. So ya'll can expect to see more in the months to come so long as I keep this job.

Otherwise: Hello everyone who has been watching me for a hot minute, I've been keeping my job for 3-4 months now! SO expect to see more pieces as well as just maybe some general updates. However, it's that time of the year so before I do TOO MANY silly things with my money I'm going to be making sure stuff is squared away. Anyway, thank you all for continuing to follow me, favorite the artwork and of course leave comments.

As to future things I really kinda have a laundry list of things I want to do so to start: I want to get the rest of the Monster Hunter Characters from the world I've been creating over the years made. Currently working on the Kushala gal.
I want more works of Lira, Tessa, Mel and Sharon as well as Carli.
More vore and preg artwork too. I want to have a bit of balance.
Other than that, I want to start working toward getting an actual computer and maybe setting up that live stream I've been wanting. So other than that I really appreciate every single one of you all. Thank you, everyone.

I'll try to post more stories and stuff (and I'm sorry if folks don't like the format FA uses but it's the easiest way for me to do it) but between work and whatnot it is a LITTLE difficult. But until then, thanks for reading!

First and foremost a small update about the going ons in my world. I have a new job, it's gonna leave me with little time to game and what have you, however I'll at least be able to earn money and gain experience to hopefully start working at places that fit more to what I am about (hopefully).

I was SUPER hyped about the live event for Destiny 2 and it was a wonderful way to end the season. Watching the light of our Guardians do something of that scale... it was different which brings me to the story below and I do hope ya'll enjoy!

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Date: Unkown Time: 0900 Hours Location: Last City

GiGi: It had been... a shock. We all felt it. The Darkness clawing its way towards us... toward Earth. The Traveler calling and pulling all Fireteams, ALL Guardians back to the Last City... Warlocks... Titans... even us Hunters who left after our wonderful and spirited mentor was taken so suddenly from us. We were here to protect the people... little did we know we were also protecting life on more than JUST Earth. Those ships... the Pyramids had been standing like Black Monuments of Reckoning since a little over a year ago back when we first found that one... sitting within Luna, our Moon. The changes we saw to the planets... the death (?) of Rasputin, a Golden Age Warmind, even causing the Cabal Emperor to flee us to some reaches unknown. I took Hiu along with me as well as an Exo friend we'd made along the way, we just call him Arcem with how many times he's been Rebooted (the Titan has a one track mind but he does his job damn well, really pulls things together with Hiu an I), but... we stood there watching as wave of light pulsed off of the Traveler. Felt the warmth flood our bodies like that first time when we were brought back... well, I remember that in this world. You'd think someone like me who can trek across the dimensions of Video Games would be used to... spawning into a dead body once in a while only to get pulled back from the brink. Nah, that stuff either hurts or it feels really jarring.

Anyway, we stood by shoulder to shoulder looking up at that large orb in the sky. The one thing that gave us these powers to do good, to protect those around us, to inspire the people to not only fight, protect and rejoice! But to grow, show thanks and teach that even those without light are just as important and strong as those who do. Because in the end we all were without the light at one time or another, but we all can attain that light and beyond if we try. It was calling to us. Everyone stunned and feeling wave after wave wash over us.

'It's pretty you know? Weird an wavy, but pretty.' Arcem didn't have a way with words but that was kinda what he said, Hiu just gave a smile and thumbs up... but when our Ghosts spoke up... saying that the last time this happened it was when the World ended... that they weren't afraid, not at all... they were. We all were in some small way. The thoughts going through my head from the Journal I'd recovered in secret off on one of my little hunts along with a... Shard... from one of these damn pyramids. At times it was silent, unnerving. Then it'd be pulsing a calm, in waves. Then came the code, it was talking to us. I did some digging around, talked with other Hunters, Titans, Warlocks and tried to... find a little bit more out about this stupid chunk of metal. But so far... it's not JUST a chunk of metal. The Journal even revealed that there was more to it, and I was finding so many connections to it within... and then I found out everything about Clovis Bray. Several of the Warlocks I'd worked with hard gone really hard onto the codes and journal entries I'd shared and boy did they come back with all sorts of stuff. Stuff... I really didn't like. So I soon shared it with Arcem an Hiu. Ana, or Anastasia, was definitely more than human but... she did have a sister and someone I had met before. Elizabeth... The Stranger... an Exo from some long forgotten time, and who has been missing for quite some time. Clovis even tried to end her life... not just to save her at first but when she'd tried to be more than what her Adoptive Father wanted her to be... especially when she found out about how Vex were a part of the process for Exo's. But that wasn't the half of it, and now all signs are showing us where to go but first we gotta deal with this thing going on in the Last City. These pulses are getting stronger... I can... see... the light... coming right off me... it's so bright... I-... reco-ing-...pulse-...crackling Eris!? What do-interference-healing!! The Traveler-Transmission Ends: Connection Lost

Time: 2300 Hours, 14 hours after incident

GiGi: Okay... that was... RIGHT! The Traveler healed itself, a little bit, and it pushed back The Darkness once more! We... did lose contact with Mars, Io, Titan and Mercury but... I saw that coming. Brother Vance is probably dead if he decided to stay, honestly that fanatic would worry too much about Osiris's teaching especially if it were between losing his texts or his life. Ana... I don't know if she got off Mars before that happened. Sloan stayed behind and definitely is either still out there fighting... I do hope she is at least. Asher... even for how estranged and eccentric as he was I did like the guy, he was more direct in his approach even though he would like to think his ramblings were more... technical. Hope he was alright, honestly we were just starting to get along. My Fireteams that I usually pair up with have all gone dark after that wave... Trace was in a panic, trying to raise someone on comms until I told him to pipe down and let me think. I swear he really is way too uptight and needs to be more like Hiu's Ghost...

"What are we going to do, GiGi?" The little light said, with a shudder in his voice. "The Darkness... it came back, it tried to end the world again. Where do we turn now?"

"I've got a hunch, and you're not gonna like it." I said picking up the dusty journal and tossing it down on the table. "The Answers are on Europa, or more questions to answer... or even..."

"Don't say it..."

"A way to fight Fire... with Fire."

Trace sighed heavily, he hated that... even if I was right. "Guardian, you know that the Light has yet to steer us wrong yet. Why even consider this?"

"Do we really have any other choice!? Trace... buddy... You saw what almost just happened, you saw what happened to all those places, to the people left there. I'm getting REALLY tired of running and hiding... especially when the hiding and running isn't to a surprise ambush I setup. This won't end things, not by a long shot... but it's a start... and right now, we gotta hope that with Europa... we find something beneath all that ice. Or I'm gonna die again and again to keep trying."

Trace's little eye darted around, trying to search for an alternative answer, some other truth or whisper from an unseen voice... he finally caved and gave a bob as if to nod. "Okay... You still need my help. We're still in this together... Partner."

"I wouldn't go or be anywhere else without you." I smirked as he circled around my head before disappearing inside my backpack. "But let's rest now... we got a few hours before we launch. I got the ship set for autopilot."

"Good... you know... there are perks of being in your backpack." He chuckled. "I get to learn new things about the world, and you."

"Thanks Trace... like Cayde always told us..."

~Eye's up Guardian.

Another year has come and gone, I've made new friends, I've fell out of touch with others but am always wanting to get back in touch... yet I never have enough time for everyone. But I know one thing and that is the truth that I care about each person who genuinely has made a friend of me an I to them.

On this day I wish to give wishes you all today: Seize the day, make it your own and keep on being who you all are. You will always improve yourself as a person and it means a lot to someone out there that you do so. Never forget that, and cherish those around you. I'm just another person here, surviving day-to-day, trying to figure out my purpose, but the purpose I choose is my own and one day I will attain such purpose by my own means and my own two hands.

I'm not strong physically, at times I am very mentally broken and fragmented, even at times I take my own well being and give a little of it to try and make another person happier because their happiness is my own... it's why I always feel awful when I'm on the receiving end even though I shouldn't but I've been getting better about it. But I still have a great many things I need to improve upon as a person, and I will with time.

Everyone make the absolute most of this day, because that will make me happier than any other wishes I could receive for one reason alone: I take great joy from others making success and improving, so they can do even better next time.

GB/GiGi

So I've been sucked back up into the world of Destiny 2 with the newest Story piece and seeing what new things lie within the darkness. I've missed this game a bit and I'm glad it actually has an actual 'new flavor' to it, just as I have with Final Fantasy 14. It's just having so little time in the day to do everything.

With the way the real world is right now, I do need an escape from the real violence and social media that bombards us and paints so many things in shallow, heavily biased and lost meaning lights. I'm not GOING to go into any of that (and if I see ANYTHING in that regards in my comments I do apologize but I'll need to hide them, I will not debate them on any platform) because it's got no place among the tranquility.

I've been otherwise staying safe, it isn't even July yet and people are already setting off Fireworks like it's Independence Day which still alarms me every night because they sound like other things. Part of me wishes we knew who it was because considering how dry it is here... that's just asking to start a problem for everyone. We were SUPER close to a fire last year...JUST outside the evacuation zone just because of how close things were getting. Never came to be at least, always gonna have some kind of natural problem to be wary of no matter where we go in the end. I'm prepared though, always prepared.

ANYWHO: Destiny 2, Season of Arrivals. This has been a real spot on release so far... SOME things are broken as per normal for a games live as a service BUT It's been an amazing season and we're only closing out the second week in about 4 days. That means next week is either gonna be Iron Banner (more Pinnacle Rewards for the week) OR it'll be something else entirely. Trials is still around, but last weekend there were some issues... people not being able to get to Light House Chest and stuff so that sounded like a pain. I am sorry for the folks that couldn't reach their flawless. HOWEVER I do like the changes to PvP as they've made things a bit more fun. Sure you see the meta BS around but everyone knows that is how it always rolls. BUT with Sunset's coming on the older gear... I'm kinda excited to see the meta and stuff ACTUALLY SHIFT FINALLY. No more 'Oh look, Rangefinder Erentil mapping me.' or 'Huh, Jotunn no aim skill' but everything can also be countered and it just takes a little bit of learning and work.

Still had one of the BEST games in a while a few days ago, hopefully I can get the video up sometime soon because the start of the match I am SURE I made some people very unhappy with me. Especially using a Sidearm that folks REALLY sleep on.

That's really about it, Jobs being very sparse around here hasn't helped either but I got a friend's Birthday coming up soon that I wanna make a happy one so I'll shout 'em out in a journal later when it comes around.

If people are reading this journal I just want everyone to know to please be safe.

Personally: I am kinda scared right now, but it's very normal to be afraid. I don't know what to believe anymore right now, apart from wanting my friends and extended family safe. I've had a very long think about it all and I'm really just going to keep my peace, HOWEVER I will not deny those hurt or in pain and I will not support those who are cruel and unjust. I will be disabling comments on this journal because this is more me venting and generally trying to level my head from everything happening over the past few weeks for me personally and out in the world for everyone. My problems may be one drop in a bucket of MANY buckets everywhere in the world, it's just that and I need to get it out of my head before things turn sideways.

Stay safe out there and remember to stay positive.

New Year and I'm looking to hear from all of you about what YOUR Favorite of my characters are. Link to the Strawpoll will be below.

The reason I'm asking this is because I want to know people's thoughts about my characters. If you wanna tell me why you can do so here in the journal or if I have posted it in a discord server you can let me know there too. I have so many people that tell me how much they like 'Character Name' and I'm really bashful about that because I'll be honest I have each of these characters made as extensions of myself to some degree. BUT I also have them able to do lots of things I cannot or do not have access to. In the end, I just treat them as a real individual and some I know I have to do more with and I WILL BE in the future. But I would still like people's thoughts at the end of the day.

Thanks much!

Edit: Poll has finished! GiGi is apparently the most popular sitting at 4 votes, coming in 2nd is a 3 way tie with Sharon, Lira and Mel with 2 votes, then in 3rd we have Tessa with 1 vote. Lori and Carli had 0 so sadly they are runner ups. Still I appreciate those who voted and showed me who their favorite character was!

So the year draws to a close. I've made new friends, I've fallen off with old ones, new watchers an followers, and all sorts of fantastic new family.

To those of you who know the Family you are: Thank you. For putting up with me an what I do, for helping me out, for generally being those who I'd gladly always give back to however I can. I really wish to give back, that's one of the things that as family I know I don't have to but I want to and I will. The future is still yet untold and I hope to keep traveling with you all.

To the friends I've made: I'm super thankful for you all as well. Like above you put up with me, we chat, have fun and generally do many things together. I'm always around and as long as it's not a silly 'Hi' note I'm often one to read and respond as appropriate. Other than that I can't wait to keep traveling onward with you all.

To those who have just begun to follow and watch me thank you, I appreciate it and I'd love to hear comments, feedback, and such on all my work (that goes for everyone, not just followers/watchers) or the work that I commissioned from others. It's all of you that bring things together, don't forget that.

Happy Holidays to all and I'll see you all come the New Year!

EDIT: I'm just gonna say this about the new UI Layout. If it isn't broke, don't fix it. This is not Windows 10, this isn't supposed to be 'Cram everything into one menu to where it's a cluttered mess' the site. I doubt this would be looked at as critique and more so bashing but I'm being honest in that it's not a great look for it. The font choices (across ALL of the styles) are actually kinda hard on the eyes. I also do not like the transparent bar at the top of the page, it is SUPER distracting. Would be different if they could figure out how to make it only appear when you put your cursor up to where it would be. In the end they didn't actually change much apart from clumping it all together and cramming it in worse.

Happy New Year folks, an if you plan to upload anything: Make. Sure. You. Back. It. Up. It's never a bad idea in case we have another site rollback.

So folks, I have hit 150 and I’ll be honest this is a milestone for me. I want to thank everyone who has followed me and given support, each and every person means that you guys and girls are... well, awesome.

So for some rules that you all should read to enter the raffle. You MUST read all rules and follow them if you wish to participate. I will hold the raffle Ten Days from today. Firstly, tell me your favorite drink and why.

Second Rule: Be sure you are a follower, if not I cannot give you a number for the story Raffle.

Third Rule: Stories can be slice of life, action, romance or whatever. BUT there are themes I will not do. Such themes include: MPreg, Popping, Male Pred, Ovi/Eggs, and there are more. When discussing the idea we can go more into detail. You can also include other characters as long as you have permission, if you wish to include my characters I’ll let folks know those ground rules if that happens.

Fourth Rule: Format your entry as such:
Character you wish to use.
Link to their ref or background information
Story Theme
Other character (‘s) you wish to include

Lastly: Let me know what you guys like about my characters. I’ll have a place for comments and a place for your entries defined. Just respond to the correct post and follow these rules!

Edit: Congrats to  Azria ! So as I still have my other pieces to do, it will be done after my prior 4 pieces are done! However I do appreciate everyone who had entered and thank you for letting me know what your thoughts were!

Oh wow, I’m almost at a milestone I feel. 150 followers... well, if we can get to there I’ll hold a free Story Raffle. Subject can be whatever you wish with some minor limitations (No Gore, no scat, no diapers/crinkle, no cub, etc) can be SFW or NSFW. If folks do enjoy what is in my gallery and the person I am, by all means hit the Watch button, I may not thank Watches very often but I wanna be more active with viewers. Comments and such do lemme know what folks like, what they want to see more of. While I am a very Amateur writer, I still like feedback. Positive and negative because there are two sides to every coin.

Anyway, I’ll make another journal with the big 150 and post up how to enter then.

To my close friends and friends I have made through Breed Inc: I do offer something special.

Leave a comment and I’ll directly message you about the special offer.

Edit: That Soecial offer to friends was a freebie Story from me! Here is my list of who is in what order:

1:  Leumas_Setay Finished!

2:  xenon-the-wolf In Progress

3:  MattFolfsky Idea Organized

4:  Azria Idea Organized

5:  DaeBelly IdeaOrganized

gonna cut that off here as 5 is more than enough for now, will update progress on this journal as well so those listed keep your eyes here.

A good friend of mine recommended I give a swing at Lining. So I’m going to take a free Paint app that they also recommended to me for a spin. I’ll be posting up some of the pieces I got from the past year with my lining digitally done from my tablet as that is all I have at present.

I want to thank  Leumas_setay for that and being a great friend, also give them a watch and browse their gallery: THEY LIKE ROUND THINGS!!!