Initially, I just paused the August billing cycle over on Patreon as a lot of things have happened within the past few months to slow me down, the biggest of which being damage to my kidneys that in one fell swoop put me in Stage 2 Kidney Disease. While that’s considered mild kidney disease, I have other health issues that complicate it, and it’s been a lot trying to get used to it, and trying to do what’s best for my health going forward to make sure my quality of life now is frankly IMPROVED and my life in general gets to be as long as it can be. I’m not saying this to worry anyone, these are just the facts, and anyone with the ability to WebMD things can figure it out. August in general is a busy month for me: My birthday was yesterday, it sucked and no it’s not because I’m LOL OLD NOW, my anniversary is later this month, and my father died in August. So there’s a lot of emotion in this month, and with me already being behind in my work, I knew better than to continue piling on Patreon responsibilities when I need to be knocking out current ones already. However, looking at things now and how they are going, I’ll likely be pulling the Patreon for a bit for several reasons I’m about to get into in this journal.

I have not been able to keep up with personal projects, and I think when an artist can’t do that, you’re signing on for trouble in the long run. Yes, it’s the “American Dream” if you will to find something you love to do and make a “living” doing it. But when the thing you love is both your hobby and your paycheck, the lines between work and play blur and all too often you end up doing too much of one and not enough of the other. If you end up doing too much work for others, your personal work stagnates and because so much of your personal hobby is wrapped up in your art, all you do is work. And that’s been me for literal YEARS. Every time in the recent past I said I’d take a break, I didn’t. This time I’m being firm. The details of the break will follow soon after all of this as well. Companion was something I loved doing, something that brought back my confidence in my art and proved to myself that I could learn to do things I was too afraid to do, and I have not had the time to sit down and continue it. I love the other stuff I’ve done, but Companion was/is special, and I’m not willing to let it go. It has a definite beginning, INTERMISSION, filler arc, and end, and I want to complete it. It’s an important and pivotal part of Iona’s journey and explains so much. While I would have loved to not be a dumbass lol and start her story properly, this was a good place to experiment and start if that’s where the inspiration took hold. I need to have time to be able to work on my own stuff again in addition to building a daily routine in my real life that is healthy for me. I have a life here in NJ I love now. I’m not miserable like I was in GA, and I want to enjoy being not a complete sadsack. I also have two loving dogs whose lives and happiness depend on me, and I want to do more with them. And I have another little critter I want to introduce you guys to whose life depends on mine, but that’s another story for another time. Regardless, my hands are full, really HAVE been full, but I’ve been neglecting so much because my work mean so much to me, but I can’t anymore.

My current commissions deserve priority over a lot of new paid artistic responsibilities. I will still take on small pieces like the Broncos and maybe some sketches at time permits while I knock out the old list, but these people have been very patient and friendly with me, so I’m going to concentrate on finishing what is on the list here that you can see linked in the queue on my profile. I DO NOT FORSEE MYSELF TAKING ON ANY MORE BIG PROJECTS UNTIL THESE ARE FINISHED. IF WE HAVE ENGAGED IN TALKS AND GONE SO FAR AS TO START DISCUSSING PRICING ABOUT DOING YOUR PIECE, NO SWEAT, YOU’RE INCLUDED IN THE LIST. I’VE ALREADY AGREED TO WORK FOR YOU, AND I’M NOT GOING BACK ON THAT. However, I won’t be entertaining new big pieces until these are done or at least mostly done. I will be revamping the commission menu and the prices so that everything is fair to myself and to the commissioner. My goal has always been to offer a little of everything so that people regardless of how much money they have can get something they’d like from me, and I’m going to keep it that way.

I will be delivering on my last Patreon responsibilities. I’m keeping my server up. I figure if you supported me this long in the Patreon, the least I can do is have that server. I will try to be more active in it, but probably not RIGHT now other than posting updates as they come. I WILL be finishing last month’s piece, doing the custom rewards for the highest tier, and doing a sticker design that was voted on. I have not forgotten those, and I won’t let my Patrons down on that. When the Patreon relaunches, it WILL BE RETOOLED. As of right now, I want it to be personal project driven. Of course I have my Skyrim stuff that I really want to focus on, but I also have a few other projects I want to develop and showcase there, some new characters that I think people would like to see with their own stories. I also want to find a way for people who join the patreon to be included in at least one of the projects. I know some folks do that neat thing where there are cameos in projects, and I’d love to do something like that, but I’d have to figure out the logistics of it. We’ll see. I’ve also thought about doing merchandise such as more stickers, hoodies, enamel pins, etc. As far as custom personal art and commissions through Patreon, I never want access to art from me to be through a paywall. So what will happen there is probably a discount if you are a Patron for commission work, early access to slots or special offers/commission TYPES, and IF I FEEL LIKE I’D LIKE TO DO IT, that might be the only way for people to get a slot for me to do Adult Rated artwork for them. For right now, those are the ideas I have that are relatively new for the Patreon once it goes live again. I’ll let at least let the Patreon Discord know as I have more ideas and will ask for feedback over there.

Now to the nitty gritty. I’m not in the best mental state right now. I’m much better at dealing with my various mental issues than I was not even a year ago much less like two or three or FOREVER ago, but I know from past experience, I need a break NOW or stuff is not going to get better, so I am going to be TOTALLY UNREACHABLE FOR A WEEK. Seven days. So this is not my typical “hey, you can reach me Monday through Friday, I’ll get back to you in 12-24 hours latest” type situation. This is a hard, I’m not contactable. This is not unlike if I was in the hospital, if I had a family emergency, etc. because it’s for my health to frankly keep me from having to be away for longer. IF YOU HAVE CONCERNS ABOUT THIS RIGHT NOW, MESSAGE ME TODAY. BY TOMORROW MORNING I WILL NOT BE RESPONDING. IF YOU NEED A REFUND, CONTACT ME AND WE’LL TALK ABOUT A PAYMENT PLAN IF I CANNOT REFUND YOU IN FULL RIGHT NOW. I WILL LINK THIS JOURNAL TO EVERY SITE I CAN THINK OF THAT PEOPLE HAVE MADE CONTACT WITH ME THROUGH SO THAT PEOPLE CAN HAVE A CHANCE TO SEE IT.

I’d like to thank everyone for their support and their patience with me. I’m not in “crisis” right now. I’m not doing WELL, but I’m mentally healthy enough to realize that if I don’t take measures to care about myself right now, I will be in crisis, and then I won’t be good to anyone including myself for a very long while. I will still be working soon. As I said, this month is busy, a lot is going on. Pets have vet appointments, I have appointments still because of my health, husband does too, etc. While I might not be personally contactable, if things come up that are of note during this time, I will make another note of it here and I will post it to the other sites to keep folks in the know. Thank you so very very much.

Yup, old girl has a new home! If you're really gonna miss seeing the character around AND you wanna see some cool art, go on over to ! He's the dude who adopted her and he has some plans for her!

That’s right, there is a new profile set up over at . The plan is to within maybe two months, stop uploading over here. During that time, I’ll be uploading at least a little here, but everything will be uploaded over there. I’m also going to try to upload all the Skyrim stuff and all of the recent work over there over time as well. I’d love it if you guys would follow me over there so that we can continue to interact. All you guys mean the world to me, and I cannot thank you enough for your support.

Okay so of course I’ve gotten some questions as to why I sold Wielder, so I’ll do a brief synopsis here. After this, and I’m not being grouchy or snippy when I say this, I won’t answer any more questions about it. This is the reason I’d like to state and beyond that, I’m not really going to talk about it.

The last few years, maybe six or so, have been really hard on me for various reasons, a few of which involved the dissolution of some relationships that was quite messy to say the least. A couple of these people I had fallings out with had not respected my intellectual property at all, Wielder being a big part of that. The last straw involving this kind of thing left me completely unable to connect to Wielder as a personal character/representation, and I just knew it was not going to be comfortable to step back into her as a very personal representation of myself. I had HOPED that maybe I could keep her around as just a character, an OC if you will, but that proved recently to be pretty much impossible as well. Despite friends trying to help me find a way to make a story around her, despite my own great effort, it just was not happening.

People change and sometimes the things that they once associated with themselves just don’t work anymore. Sure I could have just changed her up, could have revamped her, etc, but after so much trying I did not want to engage in the effort of another failed attempt. Despite that, I don’t HATE Wielder. I know people love the design, I know people still want to see her around, so this SEEMS like the best course of action.

As of now, I’m Pidge. I’d appreciate if people call me this both out of respect for me and respect for the person who is buying Wielder as I think they might want to keep her name. This profile here on FA will still be mine, but eventually I will be moving to a new profile as an active one. I’ll let you guys know when that happens. Porting the stuff I want over to that profile is going to take for FUCKING ever, so we’ll see.

Thank you all so very very much.

Yup, selling Wielder as I just do not connect with her anymore. If anyone wants her, I’m not accepting anything under $700 dollars. There’s ton of art of her and she’s recognizable in the fandom if that means something to you. You can keep the first name, but none of the last ones or the “titles” she’s been seen with. If you’re interested in her, please not me!

Yup, selling Wielder as I just do not connect with her anymore. If anyone wants her, I’m not accepting anything under $700 dollars. There’s ton of art of her and she’s recognizable in the fandom if that means something to you. You can keep the first name, but none of the last ones or the “titles” she’s been seen with. If you’re interested in her, please not me!

Ray and I had to put Ammy/Old Dog to sleep a couple of days ago. Just letting you guys here know. I'm going to need a bit of time. I'm going to try to keep up with Inktober as I need to keep my pen moving, but I'm taking at least the long weekend to grieve. Thank you guys so much.

There are hills worth dying on and fences you don't straddle. I've always believed this way, and I've always tried to stick to my guns about things I truly believe in. Those things have changed over time, some of them, but there are some that have not.

I've been bisexual ever since I can remember. My first crush was on a girl in my first grade class. I'm married to a man. I have been blessed with some great lovers and partners of many gender identities. Some would say that makes me pan, but eh, these days I just say I'm queer as fuck.

Most of this you guys already know. I've never been shy about it. And I'm not shy about this next part either, but it's just something I've never really talked about because it literally does not matter to me at all. But I've seen some particularly hateful rhetoric spoken about people who I at least partially share a label with, and when that happens, you say something about it. That's what you do. You kick a little. You don't stay in the shadows while others are being treated like shit.

You can use any pronouns with me. She. He. They. Whatever. I'm not Binary. Never really have been. The most correct term would probably be Gender Apathetic, and it's kinda in that NonBinary area. People who do not subscribe to a binary gender seem to have a target on their backs lately, and I've got something to say about it.

IF SOMEONE DOES NOT MAKE THEIR GENDER YOUR BUSINESS, IT IS NOT YOUR BUSINESS.
IF YOU ARE NOT FUCKING SOMEONE, THEN IT IS NOT YOUR BUSINESS.
RESPECTING WHO SOMEONE IS SHOULD NOT BE "WOKE", IT'S CALLED RESPECT.

If you make fun of someone purely because of the pronouns they prefer to be called by, don't cry like a little tittybaby when they in turn do not respect you.

So yeah, if you're the kind of asshole who'd like to say that Tumblr defined any gender identity other than "you are what you were born with", I'll draw you a fucking map to the unwatch button on my gallery page.

So people over on my Twitter already know, but I need to let you guys here know too. Ray and I will be moving to New Jersey in the first week of July. Rent here has gone up $300+ dollars (an over 30% increase), and the rest of rent in the area is not any better, plus we have nothing really saved for security deposits because we used every bit of extra money last year to pay down debt. BECAUSE NO ONE EXPECTS RENT TO JUMP UP 300 DOLLARS IN A SHIT AREA. Anyway. The only other choice we'd have is to buy a house here, and we don't want to be stuck in Newnan. Even if nothing broke in the house and we sold it during a seller's market so we could move away, that's still a pretty final decision, and we don't want to stay here.

Our friend, Jamie, had offered for us to move in with her in New Jersey, and we took her up on it. So big life changes ahead. I'm going to try to keep up with my art this month and even in July while we are moving. If any of you have any questions or concerns, please do let me know. I appreciate all the support you guys give me.

This week is mainly going to be about getting this month’s Patreon rewards done (mainly halfbody sketches) and a few Bronco Bitch batches as well! I’m also going to be sketching Jamie’s full illustration out, so get ready for that.

During my off time…I’ve really enjoyed dabbling in traditional art again, so I’ll probably be playing around with that! I have been doing some dual streams with friends that have been fun, so if you want to see them, I pretty much always announce them on Twitter, but I’ll try to remember to announce them here as well. If they are dualstreams, they are public.

I JUST caught up on replying to your comments! Time just got away from me, and I forgot how long it had been since I'd responded to you folks.

Thank you for every comment you leave, every favorite you give me. It is totally appreciated.

I JUST caught up on replying to your comments! Time just got away from me, and I forgot how long it had been since I'd responded to you folks.

Thank you for every comment you leave, every favorite you give me. It is totally appreciated.

In 72 hours from the posting of this journal, all of my adult feral artwork will be deleted from this gallery. It's simply something I don't really want to do anymore, and I don't want it to be a part of my "brand". I'm not looking down on anyone who likes it or draws it, it's just something I don't really want to do anymore. So anything beyond a male dog simply having a sheath is going to be gone.

Thanks so much, everyone!

https://www.patreon.com/wielderofthewind

That's right! I'm doing Patreon now! What that means is from now on, I will be uploading any art that I do there first. You guys WILL see it, but that means you'll see it a week later. All commission opportunities will also be uploaded there 48 hours before they are advertised anywhere else. That's also where you can see WIPs. The upper tier gives you a guaranteed flat colored headshot each month and the chance to vote on the subject of a monthly pinup.

Things I'd LIKE to offer there soon include:
-High-Res Prints of the previous month's pinup
-Access to a Discord community
-Weekly art streams (at least once a week)
-Eventual commission discounts
-Patreon Exclusive Adult Art

So, if you'd like, go on over there and support me! Thank you!

Hey, guys! Long time, no see...well, in journal format anyway.

Ahem. First off, I'd like to thank all of you who really enjoyed my Star Wars Fan Stuff for all those years. It really means a lot to me, and I'm proud to have shared stories and characters with you. That being said, I'm no longer interested in being a part of the Star Wars community AT ALL. I'm done with it. I'm not trying to be a jerk when you guys ask me questions about my fanon and I tell you that I don't know. I literally don't. The whole story was going to be MASSIVELY retconned, and then I just lost interest in Star Wars damn near completely.

So, I'm going to give it about a week, and then I'm removing everything Star Wars related that was NOT a commission from this gallery. So if you want pictures and stories from the descriptions, grab them while you can because they are going to be gone soon. Sorry, I just don't want to continue to get questions about a fandom I'm no longer interested in, and I think taking all of this stuff out of my gallery will probably curb that.

Thank you so much for everything.

Hey, guys, I know I haven't been uploading much lately, but that's because I'm experiencing some pretty major burnout either due to life stress (yet another family member is sick/possibly dying), medication changes, or just being burnt out in general. I have a very short commission list right now, and I'm either going to take a bit of a break and try to finish those commissions, or I'll be refunding them. Please, if you're a commissioner, please feel free to contact me. You guys know how, and I'll be in touch with you soon.

Thank you for the interest in my life and my art. I'll be working on some future personal projects soon to try to get my drawing mojo back.

Those of you who follow me on twitter already know, but my husband and I are off this week so no paid work is going to be done this week. We're going to be out of town for a portion of it, and the rest will be a well-needed break for my fingers and wrist lol. But I look forward to getting back on the sketchpad for you guys next week! You all be safe!

Hey, guys, this is just a journal announcement to let you guys know that I'll be moving over the next week into a new apartment, so there might not be much in the way of art updates from me during that time. I also might be absent as I have to get internet and all that good stuff connected over at the new place.

So just bear with me for a bit while I get situated in a new place and get my life back together. We honestly currently hate where we live, so this has been a long time coming but that doesn't make it any less stressful with a move. I'm so grateful to have such patient and understanding commissioners who I work for, and I promise I'll do my best to make the wait worth it for you guys.

If I block you because you wrote something rude on a commissioner's piece that I did, it's your fault. 110% your fault. Especially if the work wasn't for you. It's YOUR fault.

I'm not your fucking mom. I don't have to put every blessed thing you do on the fridge, I don't have to tiddy feed you, and I don't have to sit here and try to probe the depths of your stupidity trying to understand why you did what you did. I'm not an idiot biologist. I'm a furry artist. I don't get paid enough to study the taxonomy of stupid.

Now, please DO make journals about me where you don't tell everyone what you wrote on a piece that someone else paid hard earned money for. Please DO do that. That shit's hilarious.

And ooooooh, you're having a bad day. Ohhhhhhhhhh I'm playing the world's smallest violin in your honor, pal. Oooooooh you had x number of family members die so people should give you MORE of the benefit of the doubt when you have verbal diarrhea.

Fucker, I was BORN with half of my family in the dirt, I lost over half of it since then. I don't use it as an excuse to treat people like shit or to increase my maximum stupidity levels. So fuck off with that shit. If you're looking for some bunny-hugging hippie party for your feelings, boy did you get the wrong goddamn invitation.

If you want respect, you gotta earn it. I ain't gotta put up with your bullshit, and ain't nobody gotta put up with mine. Go get in your hugbox and shut the fuck up, I'm tired of hearing the fucking sand grinding in your figurative pussy. For fuck's sake.

I don't do these much anymore, so if you like this sort of work and you've wanted some from me, here's your chance!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31972218/

Give it a looksee!

Yesterday, I sent off all commissions that have been finished up until now! Be looking for them, guys! Thank you for the patience.

But I can't post it til next week. I've contacted a few of you who are going to be up in the next batch, and I just wanted you to know a large piece was completed, another one that is also not allowed to be posted until it's finished as it's a surprise is in the works currently as well. But next week I should be able to show most of you who I have contacted a little something!

Thank you!

The two large commissions I am working on right now are ones that cannot be shown WIPs publicly as they are surprises. So even though you might not SEE a lot going on, trust me, it is. I'm trying to work on one of the sketchpages right now too so you guys can see some work!

Also, I have two appointments this week where I was supposed to have only one. My doctor's appointment had to get moved up to this Thursday, so that's time I'm not going to be able to work on commissions. And I'm so sorry for that. Just please keep in mind I'm working on two SUPAH SECRET commissions, and it's going to be a busy week.

I hope to have more progress to show you guys later this week/next week!

Thank you for everything!

Okay, so I enabled these things, and if you guys would like to tip me, I'd be so very grateful! If not, I'm always grateful for every like, comment, fave, whatever. This fandom has been amazing to me. If you'd rather do KoFi, it's linked on my profile. My current rule is if you do 5 kofi for me, and prove it with a screenshot, I'll do you a sketch headshot in return.

So it's been a pretty slow week for me commission-wise, and I know it, guys. You're all so patient with me, and I've been going along at a pretty good clip getting things done. A dear friend of mine needed some help with some medical bills, so I took some chibi portrait commissions on to help them out over on Twitter, and I've posted two of them here. I have one more of those left, and two more other twitter commissions that I'm going to be doing in between work I have over here. So next week, if I've gotten in touch with you to say that your commission is in the next batch to be worked on, then expect to begin seeing things rolling out. I also have a bigger digital commission I've been pecking around one when able, and you guys will probably see it next week as well.

Thank you for everything. I really do have the BEST commissioners, and so many of you come back to me as repeat customers, and I cannot tell you what that means to me. Just...thank you.