Awesome, the commissions are paid off, and the trade are nearly finished! :3 I just wish I didn't have to worry about every looming chapter of college algebra that awaits me... :/

Yah, it's not good. >__> I think I did okay on the Algebra test that I've been studying for since Thursday. But! With the coming of Test week comes the opening of doodle tiems! :D

Still debating on what to draw, but I owe  claudy and  katsuke some trades. *wips out his to-do list and watches it unravel down and out of the room.* Eeeeef. :/ *begins doodlings!*

*needs a hug*

Well just another rant brought from sitting in my little room for long enough doing algebra homework... After a rather long week of working and homework, I findmyself in a strange position. Part of me asking why I'm even trying to do this when I know that I'm still not going to have anything I wanted before. I feel like after everything I've tried to accomplish I've been robbed of everything I worked so hard for. I wanted a family and a life with someone I loved, but now that's no longer possible. 5 years of my life seemed washed down the drain to leave me with nothing. I remeber everything there was to love about her, but it only makes me miss her more. In the sanctuary of her arms I felt peace, feeling her every breath as we would lay togeather... I am just a hollow shell that clings to anyone who offers a bit of affection, because deep down inside there is this little boy waiting for her wisper back softly "I love you" and never let go. But right now I'm fine... I've got everything a person could want. Just my fold out bed and the square room that has everything I need for one person... I guess I should finish Algebra before I get any sleep.

Well aside from the interesting subject line, sex does make babies as my step mother has concluded. I am now the middle child of the family as she had my twin half brothers the other night. They were really small and kinda alien looking O.o;; but cute at the same time I guess. It's something I'll have to get used to and I'm glad I won't be around for diaper duty..

Holy crap I'm old >.o

I'm not a teenager anymore, and it's kinda scary. Yay! Happy B-Day to me! *goes back to work*

Very busy lately... 42 hours of work along with college is kinda getting to me >.o. I hope to get back to drawing soon now that I've fixed my computer and settled into my new schedule. hope all is well with everyone.

I don't get nightmares anymore.. I don't know what to call them. A dream, a flash of non reality? I had a dream I was back home. I was just sitting on the front porch. The scorching heat outside made waves in the distant view of the dirt driveway. I'm just staring down the path just sort of bored I guess. I hear a soft voice "Hey.." from beside me. There she stood against the pillar looking at me like she had been sorry for being late.. I tried to stand up to get to her, but I couldn't move. I just sat there and looked at her. She looked away down the road, then back at me and made a sort of giggle as she covered her mouth shyly with her hand. I woke up to my cell phone ringing from some crazy Chinese lady who keeps dialing my phone number by mistake.

I pray that I see her in my dreams more often, but it only makes it harder.

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I promised that I'd try and help out  claudy on her commissions. She's in a bit of a rut and though I won't go into too much detail it would really help her out. She's offering to do commissions in order to help out pay for her wedding. So I'm all for that, I bought a couple myself and they turned out wonderful. hope you give her page a look and I hope everyone is doing alright this week.

Bleh, random streak of feeling bad. I'm going to take a break for a little bit.

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I promised that I'd try and help out  ninetailscross on her commissions. She's in a bit of a rut and though I won't go into too much detail it would really help her out. She's offering to do commissions in order to help out pay for her wedding. So I'm all for that, I bought a couple myself and they turned out wonderful. hope you give her page a look and I hope everyone is doing alright this week.

Hey guys, sorry for not being around so much, I'm catching back up with work on Tuesday. I've been on vacation, and I'm coming back from San Antonio soon. I hope everyone is doing fine, and I can't wait to get back to drawing. ^^ Best wishes guys.

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I promised that I'd try and help out  ninetailscross on her commissions. She's in a bit of a rut and though I won't go into too much detail it would really help her out. She's offering to do commissions in order to help out pay for her wedding. So I'm all for that, I bought a couple myself and they turned out wonderful. hope you give her page a look and I hope everyone is doing alright this week.

Trades/Gifts:

1)  kazykoku On Hold
2)  pseudoDead On Hold
3)  royal-sovereign Gathering Resources

The 1st player of this starts with the topic weird habits/facts/dislikes about yourself; and people who get tagged must write in their journals about their 6 weird habits/facts/dislikes as well as state this rule clearly.

"In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list to their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says you're tagged"

1. I have strange tendencies to be completely happy one moment, and in a deep depression the next.
2. Very quiet and bashful when it comes to meeting new people.
3. I tend to mumble when I'm tired and I have a natural scowl to my look when my face relaxes.
4. I'm too emotional
5. I know that some things will wind up going wrong and I still try to do them
6. I'm gullible

I tag:

 verminpatriot  arch  aryte  crimmy  Royal-Sovereign  pseudoDead

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Vacation in two days yeay!

I promised that I'd try and help out  ninetailscross on her commissions. She's in a bit of a rut and though I won't go into too much detail it would really help her out. She's offering to do commissions in order to help out pay for her wedding. So I'm all for that, I bought a couple myself and they turned out wonderful. hope you give her page a look and I hope everyone is doing alright this week.

Trades/Gifts:

1)  kazykoku Sketching in progress.
2)  aryte Complete
3)  pseudoDead Collecting resources.

Ah things are calming down and I have a week off ahead of me. So thank god.

I promised that I'd try and help out  ninetailscross on her commissions. She's in a bit of a rut and though I won't go into too much detail it would really help her out. She's offering to do commissions in order to help out pay for her wedding. So I'm all for that, I bought a couple myself and they turned out wonderful. hope you give her page a look and I hope everyone is doing alright this week.

Trades/Gifts:

1)  kazykoku Sketching in progress.
2)  aryte Complete
3)  pseudoDead Collecting resources.

Ever just sit in the silence of nothing staring blankly into your hollow existence? I think to myself, and sometimes talk with myself. I wonder, after so many years of living an honest life and having the perfect girl, why god would take her from me. Years have passed since then and I still wish just to move on with what I have. Why am I plagued with these horrid dreams. Why is what used to be the peaceful serenity I have spent with her now the shallow grave in which I bury myself? I figured god had his reasons for taking Lisa... Why must he rub it in my fucking face every singe night? This is why I'm thinking... This is why I stare at the wall and do nothing.

Meh, I hate bitching but hey I guess that's what I use a journal for.

Not feeling too good. I haven't slept well in the past few nights and I feel alone. It's never been the same, and I feel like the harder I try to make myself happy the harder it gets shoved back in my face... Just been doing what most people do when they have nothing left to look forward too. I sleep, but sadly I can't even do that anymore.

I'm currently in progress with two trades at the moment but I'm not taking anymore for a while (at least until my computer gets fixed). Sorry if I bummed anyone out but I'm kinda busy during the week.

I'll keep you guys posted when I'm gong to get to work on some of these.

This marks my first journal here on FA! I'm working on several things at the moment, one of which is a character reference sheet for Xaios. Once I get this up, I was wondering if anyone would be interested in an art trade or something. I have several of my drawings in the coloring stage but I thought it'd be fun to exchange artwork with someone. ^__^