Today, as the title may hint to, is my birthday! Fun times with good friends to be had. Also this is the first time I've posted anything in a long while so I might post an update journal thing later for those interested. :3

Seems I haven't done one of these in a long time and after seeing others I figured I could post one too. If anyone is interested feel free to ask me about anything and I'll do my best to give a good answer. :3

Taken from  hornetv2

Arrival/Departure
Arrive on December 1 in the morning after taking a night flight on Nov 30th. Will be leaving on the 5th to make my way back home.

Means of transportation
Plane from PDX

Sharing a room with
I'll be staying with  shibarin another named Raptor.

Who do you hang out with?
Some friends that will be going as well.

Gender
Male

Preference
Males

Relationship Status
Single

How old are you?
27

How tall are you?
Basically 6ft but just a tad under that.

Are you an Artist?
I've drawn art, played music, crafted things, and taken photographs so I would say so. :P

Do you have an artist table?
I do not.

Do you do trades?
If someone really wants to do some kind of trade with me we could possibly work something out. :3

Are you a Fursuiter?
Yes and I will be debuting my fursuit officially for the first time at a con for MFF. Be sure to look out for a large fluffy snow fox tail. ^_^

What's your fursuit?
Xander Frost, arctic fox.

Attending parties?
Possibly.

Do you drink?
I may partake in some drinking of the alcohols, yes.

Can I buy you a drink?
If you would like to, sure.

Do you smoke?
No.

Are you attending any panels?
I'll be exploring around and such so maybe. :3

Stage or public performance?
I may try to hop on the stage during dances and such but no scheduled performances.

How do I identify my self to you?
If I know you then you won't have to but if we haven't chatted a lot or if I haven't seen what you look like you may need to remind me who you are. >.<

Rules of engagement (physical contact)?
If I know you I will probably try to hug you and you may hug me as well. If I know you well enough, snuggles may be brought up and asked about. All others please ask for hugs first and overall no unwanted/inappropriate touching. That is for more private times.

How can I find you?
If I'm in suit just look for a big white fluffy snow fox with a giant tail. Otherwise it's best to contact me via Skype, Telegram, Twitter, or text if you have my contact for any of those. If you don't then you may ask for them if I know you because I will otherwise be running around a lot and most likely won't be in the same place for long unless it's an event.

Can I talk to you?
If you are physically capable of doing so then sure. :P Jokes aside I don't mind conversation with others so long as I'm not preoccupied with something else. :3

Can I give you lots of money?
By all means, do so. :D

Can I give you stuff?
So long as it's not something bad like garbage then I like stuff. Foxes, food, hugs(see above), or gifts are great.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
So long as you're not dirty or overly sweaty and you shower then yes. Though, repeating above, I have to know you or be more comfortable with you for snuggles.

Can I come to dinner with you?
Sure, if you'd like to. It's nice to have company.

Can I hang out with you?
If you enjoy going around and exploring a lot, playing games, and having fun then absolutely. ^_^

Can I take your picture?
Sure, though I'd prefer to be asked or to be told ahead of time so I can prepare. Different if I know you and you're doing a drive by photo sneak shot. X3

How do I know if you're not looking to socialize (angry, busy or upset)?
If I'm not looking to socialize then chances are you probably won't see me around. Though if I do get upset for something I like to talk things out or at least have a good friend to talk to about it.

Personality Type?
I'm not really sure how I would describe that. I can be really introverted but also playful and social, fun and bouncy but I can also been calm and collected, and overall weird. It really just depends on what's going on or what's happening around me/going on in my mind. X3

Any goals?
Participate in fursuit events, have fun and break out of my shell more, and hopefully meet some people in person and have fun.

This will be my first time at MFF and my first time going anywhere east passed South Dakota so if anyone that knows the area, and knows what's good and such, would like to guide me a little then I would appreciate it. This will also be my second hotel con ever so I'm a little nervous and excited and if you see me off to the side being quiet and looking around don't worry, I'm just taking everything in. Don't be afraid to approach me. :3

As the title states, though not stating much, this is about MFF. I'm wanting to attend but need a room and would preferably like to get one with those I know. If you have a room or would like to get one close to the con please let me know and we could work something out.

EDIT: I've gotten a room and will be attending for sure. :3

I'm not even sure what to put here other than I seem to keep messing things up or doing/saying things at the wrong time. I just needed to let things out. I'm trying to get better and make things better for myself but it always seems like a constant struggle or a fight, people abandoning me without any word even when they said they would have my back, constant bombardment of thoughts and feelings, and things are moving very slowly. I've managed to fix some things in my life but other things seem to be moving at a snail's pace if even at all and I feel like I'm messing things up with people. I try not to be a bother and try to make sure I'm being a good friend but I even wonder what that means to people. I've heard so many different variations of the meaning for "friendship" and with how some act toward me I don't know what I am to them. I really hope I'm not so bad that people don't feel like they could or should associate with me. I guess I'm just really lost with things or haven't developed the proper skills for stuff. I also wish I could get help if there are things I do that are bothersome so that I might grow and be better.

To add to it I always feel lonely cause I don't have someone to share my life with and grow with/help one another. I feel like the things I listed here get in the way of that along with my constant worrying and overthinking mind. I also seem to only be attracted to the seemingly unobtainable and can't ever seem to get that right either. I long for things but don't even seem ready let alone someone that I like even returning the feelings and liking the enigma that is me. I hope people can really see past all the mess and notice that I am trying and can be a great mate or even just someone to know.

What ever the case I guess I still have tons to learn and must continue the seemingly never ending battle for happiness and love. I hope there's a silver lining soon or for something to at least change for the better a little.

So I just learned today that my dog, Lucky, passed away yesterday morning on July 4th. I was told that he went peacefully in his sleep and was laying comfortably on the porch when it happened. I'm very sad that he's gone and will miss him very much but I'm happy to have met him. He lived a good long life for a dog of his breed, so I'm told, and would have been 16 on August 1st.

I still remember the day I met him when he was just a puppy all those years ago. We were at the place where we got him and looking at his other brothers and sisters and when I sat down he was the only one to really come up to me and he jumped into my lap, wagging like a happy little puppy does. I knew from that moment that he was the one that I wanted and from that day on he and I were friends.

No matter how long we were apart, and I feel bad for not being able to be in his life more despite trying to find places that would allow me to have him, he was always super happy to see me and would whine if I didn't come over to him when he heard my voice. Any time I was around him he would always try to be by my side and would get in my lap, partially since he wasn't the smallest of dogs :P, when I would sit down, most times. He was also a great snuggle buddy and thinking about it now I can still feel his fur against my cheek when I would lay against him sometimes.

He was/is a very special dog and I will never forget him. He is and always will be my "Luckers," "Lucky Dog," and my "Lucky Pup." I will always love and miss you very much, Lucky, and you will always have a place in my heart.

Rest in Peace, Lucky. August 1st, 2000 - July 4th, 2016

So after thinking about it for some time I've decided to take a break for an undetermined amount of time from things. Some things have happened and other things have been said and let's just say it hasn't left me feeling too good. It's been a multitude of things but whether it's feeling like I'm not good enough to keep around, like I'm not good enough to be mentioned, or that I don't feel like a good friend or something it makes me feel bad. I'm going to try and focus on other things and spending time to myself for some time and hopefully sort things out.

If you really need to reach me there's always my phone or something and I'll be around for emergencies. If you want clarification you can send me a note or something.

I know this is fairly late but I hope everyone had a good holiday, what ever that may have been. Also may you have a great New Years day and may the new year bring new and bright beginnings.

Best wishes from a fluffy snow fox,
Xander~

So it's that time of year again and my birthday is coming up very soon! It also ties in with my first going to Rainfurrest, which I like to call my birthday con. ^_^ The con happens either on or around my birthday, which is Sept. 23rd, so that's why it's my birthday con. As such I want to do something special and am looking into throwing a party. Details are still being figured out and will be announced once I know for sure.

If you're going to be at RF and would like to join me for birthday events/shenanigans, and I haven't already talked with you, please feel free to message me about setting up something and we can see about spending time together or at least meeting. ^_^ As for the meme, which the first time I've done one for it, it's just below here and is borrowed from.

Days staying:
I'll be at the con area early but will be there through the whole thing.

Staying at:
Main hotel, the Hilton I believe.

How are you traveling?
Staying the night at a friend's place and then driving from Portland with them.

Who are you rooming with?
A friend and some other guests. I'm not sure if my friend has an FA. >.<

Who will you be with?
Friends, I'm not sure specifically cause I'll probably be running around a lot. X3

Where will you be?
The better question would be, where will I not be?

How is the best way to find you?
If you have my phone number you may text me, otherwise through any of my messengers that you have me under of twitter. If you don't have any of those, good luck. XP

What do you look like?
A slightly older version of this. ---> https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7016829/

What is your gender?
Male

How old are you?
25 turning 26 on the 23rd.

How tall are you?
6 foot even.

Can I hug and/or snuggle you?
Hugs are okay and if I know you they're even better. It's best to make sure you are okay to hug me if I don't know you though. Snuggles are to be determined.

Are you nice?
I try my best to be.

Are you cliquey?
If being "abnormal" is mainstream? Then yes. Otherwise I don't think so.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
By saying my name(Xander), shoulder tap, saying my last name(Frost), coming over and greeting me.

Stage Performance?
Possibly. >.>

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
If I bring one, sure. :3

Can we hang out?
With a wang out? But really if someone wants to spend time with me I am not opposed, just so long as I'm not occupied with something else. :P

Can I talk to you?
I don't know, can you? If you feel up to it and I'm not busy trying to focus on something else then feel free to strike up a conversation. ^_^

Where will you be eating?
Where ever I am given food, at food places.

May I come to dinner with you?
Depending on my mood or what may or may not be going on, sure. :3

May I buy breakfast, lunch, or dinner sometime?
I have never been known to turn down a free meal, food is. <3

May I ask ya to dance with me during the dances?
Absolutely, I may just need some convincing to do so. >//>

May I buy you drinks?
If I'm feeling in the mood, and I assume this is for alcohol, then sure. Free food and drinks is awesome~

Do you attend parties?
Depends on who's throwing the party or who will be there but I might meander around from time to time.

May I take your picture?
If we're having a good time then sure. Otherwise I usually reserve pictures for people who I'm familiar with. Either way I would like it if the pictures were shared. :3

May I kidnap you to my room?
If it's for board/card games, video games, relaxing and spending time together, or movies then sure. Otherwise it would depend on who it was and what for. :P

Attending any events?
This will be my first RF so I don't know what will all be happening except the dance(s) and the fursuit parade, which I'll be going to both. Otherwise I'll have to see what's happening. :3

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Have fun, explore, and experience the con for the first time. ^_^

Just as the journal title says there's a fairy new artist to FA, who has some really nice traditional art, who is doing a free YCH raffle. If you would like a chance at getting it I would recommend going to the submission page here ---> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17449681/ <--- and checking it out. :3

Even if it doesn't happen you should give this article a read, especially for those of you who live on the west coast of the US, and spread the word. It's always better to be safe than sorry. http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2.....really-big-one

This is a little later than I wanted but a friend needs and would like help. Go here for details,
---> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6861748/ <---

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6820619/

Just follow the link to get more details, she could really use some help and she has some great art.

Yes as the title says I am going to make it to Rainfurrest this year! I got the time off so now I just need to plan some more things like getting a room and what not. So if you're going to RF and want to meet or come celebrate my birthday with me just let me know. I'm super excited for this and I can't wait! ^_^

So I'm guessing by the title those of you who read this could probably guess what it's about. For quite a number of years I've been wishing/wanting to go to RF. For a few reasons this con is special to me as it's in the city of my birth, it happens around my birthday, and of course it's a furry con. There have been many things holding me back from going but no longer! I have officially decided to do my best to make it to the con and I will be making preparations immediately to give myself plenty of time to prepare for fun and relaxing.

As it happens my birthday is a day before the con but I'm really going to try and celebrate it for the entire con so if anyone is going and would like to do so then let's stay in touch and make something happen. More to come as the date gets closer. ^_^

Things are moving forward, if only slowly, and I'm glad for that. This summer should be a great one so I'm looking forward to that. Until next time, stay tuned. :3

Ranting a little and talking about some fairly difficult things to bring up. Quite a few of these things don't apply to those I've only met recently or ones that I've expressed direct understanding with.

As the journal title stats I'm really starting to feel overwhelmed by everything that has been going on in the last years time. There's been plenty of stress, quite a few deaths of close family/friends, depression, lack of energy to really do anything, bad friends, losing "friends" for seemingly no reason, school, job stuff, bad roommate, and plenty of other things that are going on or being found out. I've said this before but I know I'm not the easiest person to deal with but at least I fuckin try and that's not something many of the people I know can say to my face and for it to be true. There have been a few people who have been able to say some things to me and I'm at least glad for that.

In fact I'm sure people would just rather block me or something and try to act like the "good guy" instead of trying to talk things out or have the fucking decency to tell me things to my face let alone sending me a message. I'm not saying people should be rude about things because there are plenty of ways to talk things out like adults and to not have them blow up. Yes there may be hurt feelings but it would be far better off than what most of the people that I've known have done. I shouldn't have to explain how it would be better but just know that you're not doing anyone a favor by not talking things through and just letting them sit and fester in the hopes, or with the thought, that you aren't hurting someone's feelings because you're wrong.

I know I can be needy, over emotional, or what ever it is that people see of me but again I'm at least trying to fuckin make things work as best as I can and those people that drop me like some germ only make it worse so think about that if you were or are going to be one of those people. Every single person I've tried to have some kind of relationship and hasn't listened or tried to make things work, called me names, made me feel bad, or just plain out dumped on me is not the greatest healing process for someone to go through and almost every time I've tried to open up to people they've eventually dropped me or just faded into the background. So when you ask yourself why I'm like this, just think about all of the things I could have gone through and have cause I've had years of practice to perfect the way I am now.

But don't worry cause by the powers that be it has to be my fault for getting this way cause I have to be the bad guy, for basically putting a target on my back for ridicule or to be abandoned or what ever it is you want to call it cause that's what people want/do. If you're reading this and you've gotten this far and feel offended or angry and plan to block/ignore/drop me? Please fucking do it because even if I feel hurt by it I honestly could not give a flying fuck, please add even more to the shit that I'm dealing with now and just get it the fuck out of the way already.

So again I may not be the easiest person to deal with or the most social at times but at least I fucking try. How many of you can say you've done the same for me? This doesn't mean I've forgotten the good things but really sit down and think about things and if you want to have a conversation then you know where to find me. Even if you just want to talk or think something could be wrong in any form and want to make sure I would be happy to discuss things. If all you want to do is take a whack at me then please feel free to walk away like so many before you.

So I have this special day coming up as most know as a birthday! I'm hoping to get something going the weekend prior as the actual day lands on a weekday but it should be fun none the less. If you would like to get me something I like fun arts(not the naughty kind of fun ;P), music, both video and board games, orange, and fox stuff. Please don't feel as if I require you to get me something because I don't. If you would like to though I would be very appreciative with all the wags and if you're unsure of what to get, if you decide to, please ask me for something specific. That being said I am happy with birthday wishes and if you're close enough you should come have fun on the weekend of the 20th with me and whom ever else can make it.

For the life stuffs. I feel like I'm moving forward with my issues and getting over those hurtles that I've been coming across. Even if it's been a painfully slow process to me it's still some kind of progress and that's good. I'm doing my best to change for the better and although I've had some set backs I hope and like to think that I've grown and continue to do so. So if I've been bothersome in the past for what ever reason I just ask that you have patients for me to work through everything. I've been able to patch some things up with a select few and hope that things continue that way with them and to others as well. This year has been especially rough for me and if it weren't for CFT, supportive friends, and a few other fun/special events I don't know where I would be right now.

That all being said I'm in the process of a new job and am trying to get myself to do more things and realize other things so that being and getting out there more becomes easier and more enjoyable. Also in case you didn't know and haven't heard/read I am now an aspiring musician and have been learning to better play the piano and sing as well as finally learning to play to the violin. I'm having motivational troubles but am doing my best with working through that as well and have learned some tricks to make it easier if only a little bit.

In short I have a birthday coming up, I am working through my issues and wish that you be there with me, having some life changing things happening, working on getting better with music, and am very appreciative of those who stick by me and continue to do so. Please be on the look out for positive things from me! ^_^

I'm feeling in a sharing mood tonight so I'll share some words of wisdom. Have you ever told someone who is troubled by something, "There are people going through worse things," or "Other people are going through the same things you are."? Have you ever been told those things or some variation of them and not know what to respond with or feel awkward? Well it's because saying something like that to someone is wrong.

Just because someone else is going through something worse does not mean a person shouldn't feel bad about what they're going through. Those kinds of phrases do nothing to help the troubled person because telling someone that somebody else is troubled as well is not a "cure all" to people's problems. Not only could it be taken as if you're diverting from the issue at hand, but you're basically slapping someone and telling them that their problems don't matter because someone has it worse and they shouldn't feel bad about their problems.

I've both seen and heard this told to others and myself and it has never made me feel better that someone is trying to make me think about another person's problems. People know that there are others who are worse off, they know that other people are going through similar things, and they certainly don't need anyone trying to downplay or belittle their issues just because someone else has worse or just as bad.

I know the intention behind those words is to be for a good reason, at least I hope, but those are the wrong phrases to use and do nothing to help the person. They aren't words of healing, or courage, or strength, and people should not fool themselves or others into thinking they are. There are much better ways to help someone feel better than saying things like that. Even if you aren't sure what to say to someone, just simply being there as a shoulder to cry on or to just listen is very helpful to someone.

For those of you who have been told this, please understand that your issues are not any worse off just because someone else is going through something more severe or just as bad. But don't mistake this as saying you should dwell and feel sorry for yourself either. What I'm saying is that it's okay to feel bad about bad things happening to you and that you shouldn't have to be told someone has it worse or just as bad as you to feel better. That actually would be a bad thing because that's basically getting better because of someone's pain.

I'm not saying you think that way or that anyone means for it to be like that but if you really think about it, that's almost how it is with those phrases. So for those of you saying them, try actually being there for whom ever it is that is troubled and do something to help them. Even if it's just sitting there and listening. For those of you who are troubled, find someone who will be there for you to do those things for you so that you can really move on and feel better. Do not find someone who uses those back handed ways to try and make you feel better.

So, I've been thinking quite a bit recently and with the help of a few people I've really begun to think about friendships and where I stand in them. I know I've question them in the past and I'm not the greatest friend someone could ask for but I've had a troubled past and still troubled present. I've really been working on making things better for myself and part of that is standing up for what I think is right and fixing what I think is wrong. What I think is wrong is the unbalanced relationships I have with others. For a lot of people It seems like I always have to be the one who messages them, invites them to do something, or initiates any kind of interaction. While that isn't true for a few people I know it is for everyone else. I don't feel it's fair for me to invite people to do things or let them know that I'm in town to do things when almost no one else does the same. I ask, why? Why is it that you don't tell me you're in town or that there are fun things going on that I would like to be apart of?

I try my best to invite people or let them know something is happening so that we could get together and have fun but it's rare that someone does the same for me. If you get upset from this then that's your problem because I don't think it's fair that I put in the effort that I do when I do but it's hardly returned, especially among those who say they're my friend. If you don't want to be friends and just want to be acquaintances or less? Just say so and I'll remember that. All that means is that I know who really wants to be there as my friend and is willing to make the effort. There are plenty of ways to make time to visit other people. I understand that people get busy and have lives but when you're out and in the same area or are wanting to visit friends and you can't bother yourself for two minutes to tell me? I don't want you saying you're my friend because while I may know you, being like that doesn't make a friendship because that's a two way street.

As I said before I know I'm not the greatest friend and I have my own faults but I deserve better than that and you can say what you want but it won't change anything. I don't say all of these things to get attention or any crap like that so if that's what you're thinking if you're even bothering to read all of this then that gives me my answer right there. If you are one of those people then please tell me now so I know.

TLDR: Put effort into friendship with me or tell me otherwise. If you get mad or don't like it, that's your problem and I'll know from that

Got this from  ivashin


Comment with a present below and I'll tell you things about you... or, if I don't know you I'll just make something up.

I will:

1. Tell you what animal/creature you remind me of.
2. Tell you what color I think fits you.
3. Tell you how I feel about you.
4. Insult you.
5. Tell you my favorite OC of yours. (If you have one...)
6. Tell you what season you remind me of.
7. Tell you what food you smell like in my head.
8. Think of a random nickname for you.
9. Tell you what element you remind me of.
10. Ask you to put this in your journal without using the word 'tag'

I wish more people would be like music, music doesn't care about your sexuality, race, or what have you. It also doesn't brake promises, miss special days, forget how to cheer you up, it's comforts you, gives you strength, doesn't hurt you, doesn't play games with your feelings or your mind, doesn't lie to you, cheat or steal from you, is good to go when ever you need it, doesn't make stupid excuses, doesn't harass you for no reason, no disappointment, always comes to you when you call for it, and no matter what kind of person you are, you're never too difficult, or too much work, and you can't beat yourself up too much for music. No matter what, music is there for you.

Thank you music, thank you for always being there

Had a good talk with my dad which helped answer some questions that I didn't even have to ask out loud. I would like to apologize for all of my depressive behavior toward all my friends. Through our talk I had realized I haven't been acting like a complete friend so much as someone seeking counseling from others and that isn't right. Friends are there to have fun and help through the difficult times, not just the difficult times and to just be a councilor and I've been too caught up in the past and letting things affect me too much to really see that at it's roots.

I'm sorry for being so negative and treating people this way and will work to not only better myself, but to treat myself and others better. I'm sure it will take some time but please accept my apology and know I will be working to be myself and to get passed the issues I'm having

So there has been a glitch in the new pokemon games that even though I haven't run into it, thankfully, I think people should be aware of. It apparently involves saving around one of the cabs or other various spots in Lumiose City when you're outside. I would look into the details for this which you can find here ---> http://playeressence.com/beware-gam.....h-pokemon-x-y/ <--- Be safe fellow trainers

So my birthday is on Sept. 23 and I know that's a little over a month away but I wanted to give everyone plenty of notice.

What I would like to do is have a party on the 14th as I'll be gone the weekend of my birthday. The plan is as follows, if the weather is good we will meet at a local park for a BBQ and some fun yard games and music. This will be followed by returning to my place for some board games, video games, snacks, card games, or relaxing as you so choose. In the event the weather is not good we shall be meeting at Putters, an arcade place that has pizza, arcade games, mini golf, lazor tag, and a bowling alley next door. Afterward we would still meet at my place for games and such.

If you would like to go and live in, and or can travel to, the area please send me a note for the address of my place and the times you can make it. The time of the event will start between 1-2pm depending on when people can make it and I will have crash space available for those who want to stay over night. So if you can make it and this sounds like fun please let me know and we can make it happen! =^_^=

EDIT:

I would like to take a vote for those who wish to and can make it. This will be decided even if the weather is good but which set of activities sounds better? Both of them sound really good and have their own appeal to them.

Putters/Bowling Alley: Which has arcade games, mini golf, lazor tag, pizza, and bowling: 3

Skinner Butte Park: Yard games that include croquet, football, volleyball, bad mitten, nerf guns, and a BBQ: 4

If you're coming then please vote :3

EDIT2:

Due to an increased interest in going to the arcade I have decided that the party shall start at Putters around 1pm. Afterward everyone shall head back to my place for a BBQ and games of many kinds or even movies. If you can't make it by 1pm it's fine to show up a little later but let me know okay? Can't wait for Saturday >.<