I haven't been on in forever, but I think I'm going to start being a lot more active. I'm going to post my HTTYD fics here, and that's gonna be a lot more uploads for you guys to look through. Anyway, I do have a tumblr http://xxhaleinaxx.tumblr.com and if you guys like my HTTYD fics, than I would recommend you guys to follow me. I post a lot of snippets of future chapters or things I didn't upload for one thing or another.

I don't usually do memes, but I thought this was awesome

1.How long have you known you are part of the LGBT community?
Late Middle School/Early High School. Confirmed sexuality in college

2. Was it a struggle (emotionally) for you at the beginning?
No, not really. By the time that I started to gain certain feelings for people of the same sex, I understood what it meant, and my sex ed teachers told me that it was completely natural. I was a little concerned about what my conservative catholic parents would think, but if I were to have a female or transgendered life partner and they didn't accept me for it, then fuck them.

3. How did you start to discover your sexuality? (Example, thoughts, feelings…ex)
I had a huge crush on a female friend of mine, like the "I want to spend every waking moment with you, and I dream of you every night" kind of crush. That's when I thought that I had to be bisexual, because I also had those kinds of crushes for the male species. Later in high school I thought it was a one time deal, and so I convinced myself I was straight. But I later realized that if I have to convince myself that I was straight, than I really wasn't.

In college, my psychologist roommate helped me realized I wasn't actually bisexual, but had a sexuality outside of the "normal spectrum". I realized that I could only be attracted to someone that I had strong emotional feelings for, and I have the capacity to have these emotional feelings for any gender (it should also be noted that I can only have sexual desires for one person at a time). She told me that it is known as pansexuality.

4. What part of the LGBT community do you belong to? (Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, ex)
Questioning/Pansexual

5. How long have you been out of the closet, or if your not, do you plan to be at some point?
I came out to different people at different times, so its hard to pinpoint when I exited the proverbial closet.

6. Does your parents/parent know, or will they ever know?
No, and they don't need to know unless I start dating a female or transgendered person. I know it would break their hearts, and if I do marry and have kids with my boyfriend, than it would have been unnecessary.

7. Did they take it well, or do you predict that they will take it well?
No, I don't think they would, but I know that they love me and that they would accept me regardless, and if they didn't, well...fuck them.

8. Would you…
a. Hold hands with your same gender partner in public?
Yup! I already hold hands with my bestie xD

b. Kiss them in public?
Maybe, depends where I am

c. Introduce them as 'your girl/boyfriend' to family and friends that haven't met them?
Yes, its only fair to my partner and my parents

9. What 3 things ANGERS THE HELL outta you about people's terrible 'opinions' about the LGBT community or certain comments, acts, ex…

1. That it is a choice

2. That God wont accept me (did you know that it is also an abomination to eat shell fish?)

3. westboro baptist church ('nuff said)


10. Do you like/love someone right now of the same gender?
No, not right now.

11. If so, do they know?
n/a

12. Have you told someone about your sexuality and they took it badly?
No, everyone has been pretty accepting, but I have a suspicion that if I was dating a person who wasn't a dude than some people would have taken it worse.

13. Are you proud of whom you are?
Hell yeah! I'm the shit, mofo

Okay, so suddenly it seems that I want to continue writing again! You can blame it on World of Warcraft going down (*laughs*). Anyway, I am going to finish my fan fiction first, and I hope to actually get it done today, so hopefully you'll see an update by tomorrow (but again, I'm not promising anything). After that, I'm going to start writing a series of short stories based on my World of Warcraft characters, or the characters that are in my guild. I'm so excited!

Thanks for being so patient with me! <3

I've been desperately trying to write for the last couple of weeks, but nothing is coming. I have even tried drawing, but everything I draw I immediately become unhappy with (except for a kiss drawing I'm still working on). I've been pretty much spending my time either staring at a blank screen or playing World of Warcraft with my boyfriend.

Ugh, I think my inspiration has been drained from missing my boyfriend, and from recently going to a therapy group (at the behest of my boyfriend) for abuse victims. I don't want to whine or complain on here about stuff like that, but if you want more personal information on how my life is going you can go to xxhaleinaxx.blogspot.com. I like it better than livejournal since you can customize stuff there much more easily. Anyway, updates are going to come later than I thought.

Sorry.

Well, for those who have asked me to post more of my drawings, I think I am inspired to start drawing more. After I experimented with digital editing of my latest drawing, I think my only mistake was that I decided to ink my sketch with normal pens (which at first made it look discouraging for me). However, now that I am editing my only scanned drawing on paint and it looks a lot better than before, I'm thinking of scanning more of my art and posting it. I'm really excited to see how this will go, and how I will hopefully improve my art skills.

Oh, and I will be posting my edited version of my gift art under the same submission so I'm not overloading people.

There has been another death in the family; that of Simon the laptop. Fortunately, I was able to recover my files, so unfinished work is safely on my usb drive, however, I have to find and download some free software to be able to complete my work. Office is way too expensive, and they're charging for Microsoft Works now. I think I might go with Open Office, but its been downloading since the Jurassic, so we'll see.

My life has thus far been unexpectedly less than tranquil. I was nearly forced to obtain my driver's license just as school ended. The day after victoriously passing my behind-the-wheel test, I had to fly to the beautiful state of Kentucky, only to immediately look for a car so I would be able to shuttle my brother back and forth from school. That did not pan out as well as anyone would have hoped, but I will have my vehicle sooner rather than later. Regardless, since I am staying in Kentucky with my parents, they have much more of a control on how I spend my time. Therefore, I have been dragged out shopping, sight-seeing and errand running, rather than writing like I would have liked. Now, I have come to find that my Grandfather passed away last night (save the sympathy, he was kind of a bastard) and so I will be forced to take my father's place as the "man of the house" until my Father returns from Mexico.

I don't think I need to outwardly say that the last two installments of "Sleeping with Ghosts" are going to be rather late. As eager (and sad) as I am to see this work end, I haven't had enough time or enough motivation to write. I hope that this doesn't upset anyone in anyway, and IT WILL GET DONE, I just may need a few weeks to start churning out words. I think that everyone can at least agree that more motivated work is better than a rushed ending, right?

Anyway, on to a more positive topic, I am thinking of writing a novel that I will publish as an ebook. I found a publishing group that makes the process simple (and FREE!), and many talented authors are beginning to get a successful start this way. I'm not really hoping that I will be a full-time author, but it would be nice to say that I have had my work published before. If anyone is interested in editing, please note me!