I have been following a 16+ Twitch channel for about four weeks and was starting to feel comfortable there. In this space, no one is allowed to use the word “yiff,” in a 16+ stream but that wasn’t the issue — I got timed out for showing symbolic vulnerability.
The streamer says “everyone is welcome,” but it didn’t feel that way to me. It felt more like control than safety, and I felt hurt and unwelcome.
My openness isn’t unsafe, and I won’t change who I am to fit someone else’s comfort zone. I’ll look for Twitch spaces where I can be myself the mods are over censoring i feel like i'm on egg shells rules are not clear enough either
I still really like the streamer — I just wish the space felt as inclusive as they say it is. If someone could help me with this issue, I’d appreciate it a huge ton because i feel like the streamer and mods won't understand me i can tell you there channel name in DM too keep there privacy.

i have the barq app Feel free to follow, add, DM me there 18+ only..
Want to see more than what’s allowed on FA? Like my profile on Barq and join the same groups I’m in!

i have improved my bio to make it easier for everyone to read i might add or remove things so keep that in mind this is my ongoing effort for everyone to better understand me and my transparency I also hope this will encourage other autistic adults to feel seen and inspire them to be more open so others understand you better in your fa bio don't worry about unkind furries or people remember you can report and block.

so it turns out submitting a administrative ticket does nothing waste of time it favours the ones who miss use the system before they blocked me this space feels like showing symbolic vulnerability isn't allowed it said mention of someone in shouts or there name that is correct but not entirely true is this is how i get treated on here so much for a ''inclusivity'' and ''understanding'' turns out they did block me but i commented before they blocked me so its actually false broken system outdated with missing details before a ''report'' is done in detail this is what happened and i know it did exactly Because FA’s system doesn’t track comment timing vs. block timing, it may treat the report as valid without nuance.
• i'm left with a warning, while they avoid scrutiny—even my comment was emotionally sincere or symbolic. outdated unfair system 2025 with 2005 systems that's just great wonderful sarcasim

I want to be careful how i do this because of FA'S community guidelines this is to help others understand me better and why i use AI to help me express myself in a safe gentle way.
yes i use AI not to replace me or to do it for me i use it to help me find words i find difficult for me express sometimes. in the right way communication can be very difficult for autistic people this isn't my fault it is something i have and i'm proud to have it its something i will live with throughout out my everyday life. It did hurt me a lot, and yes—I’m upset. But I respect you, and I’m happy to put that aside. I’m not angry or mad. I care, I’m listening, and I’m open to talk about this.
i'm open to talk about this because i care i'm listening i'm ready feedback is welcome in a constrictive respectful way

this does not break FA'S you and others in section 2 community guidelines witch i respect deeply deeply in my heart because this space means so much to me it's a life line.
none of this was used for AI i respect what others might find uncomfortable with AI i'm not disregarding that on other people's perspectives. What i find normal, i may be not be normal for others. and What is comfortable for me might not be comfortable for others

I’ve been thinking a lot about connection lately.
Not just chatting. Not just “how are you” and emoji replies.
I mean the kind that feels grounding. Ongoing. Emotionally safe.
It’s how I show care—through clarity, softness, and emotional presence.
But often, what returns holds no clarity. Just silence.
A few gentle words, then nothing—like a door half-opened and quietly closed again.
And that hurts.
Not because I expect constant attention. Not because I want control.
But because I’m showing up with emotional presence—and it’s painful when that isn’t met.
I know some furries care. Some even worry about me. And I’m grateful for that.
But care without connection feels like standing in a warm room with the door half open.
You sense the kindness, but you’re still outside.
I’m not broken. I’m not weak. I’m just longing for something real.
If you’re someone who values soft pacing, emotional clarity, and gentle, ongoing connection—
I’d love to know you’re out there.
I’m not asking for everything. Just something that feels mutual.
Something that doesn’t start with warmth and then quietly fade—
leaving me holding silence, unsure if I opened too much—or not quite enough to be seen.








care about connection that feels real—not rushed, not performative.
I care about listening, not just hearing.
When someone shares feedback, I don’t flinch—I lean in.
I reflect, I adjust, I grow.
Not because I’m trying to be perfect, but because I care.

I care about showing up gently, especially in spaces where softness is rare.
I care about emotional safety—for myself, and for anyone who steps into the space I shape.
I care about clarity in how I speak, how I write, and how I hold space—so others feel safe enough to be honest.
I care about choosing with intention, because emotional safety matters more than fitting in.

I care about connection that lasts.
Not just replies—but relationships.
Not just presence—but resonance.
I care enough to change, if it helps someone feel more seen and keep the friendship.
I care enough to stay soft, even when it’s hard. kierenHusky

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on the ways I find emotional safety and calm. Age regression is one of those gentle rituals that helps me reconnect with a sense of innocence and softness. I also like to experience what roleplay is like in ABDL—nonkink it’s a way for me to explore comfort, care, and emotional grounding through symbolic play.
Wearing diapers is part of that comfort space for me. It’s a sensory anchor, a way to feel held and soothed when the world feels too loud or fast. I know it’s not something everyone understands, and that’s okay. I share this not to shock or seek attention, but to be honest about what helps me feel whole.
These rituals are deeply personal. They’re part of how I care for myself, especially when words are hard or emotions feel too big. I hope that by sharing gently, I can help others feel less alone in their own comfort needs—and maybe open a little more space for kindness and curiosity. i also have binkies pictures coming soon here is some links to help you better understand this practice https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11050843/ https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11200649/
and this brilliant video from this youtube content creator https://www.bing.com/videos/rivervi.....mp;FORM=VRDGAR here is a link if your carious or want to see for yourself https://nru.co.uk/collections/nappies https://uk.abuniverse.com/ and USA version here >>> https://us.abuniverse.com/

When it comes to roleplay, openness makes all the difference. Be willing to explore different ideas, styles, and tones—sometimes the most unexpected scenes become the most memorable. Respect each other’s boundaries, and talk honestly about what you enjoy and what doesn’t sit right. That kind of clarity builds trust and makes the whole experience feel safer and more fun.
Try switching up your RP style now and then—whether it’s slow and emotional, fast and silly, or something in between. Variety keeps things fresh and helps you discover new ways to connect.
As for how RP works: you play each scene as it unfolds. There’s no fixed script—just a shared rhythm. Either person can guide the direction, and that mutual flow makes things feel more alive and engaging. It’s not about control—it’s about co-creating something meaningful, together. If you’ve got your own advice or thoughts on RP, feel free to share them too. Everyone brings something different to the table, and I’d love to hear what makes it feel real for you. thanks for reading Kieren.

i haven't completed the game yet or gone that far yet but I'm loving this visual novel i and i wanted to share my interest with you since i haven't done my interest. i'm making a small change sharing my interests i'm cutting it down to one it will now be 2 or 3 the fourth one will be treated as a bonus but it won't be certain every month I hope you will enjoy the game treat it like watching anime or a book it will make it easier to play i'm rating it as teen just to be safe since i haven't completed it or gone that far yet
https://www.bing.com/search?pglt=29.....mp;FORM=ANNTA1&PC=U531

**“Thank you so much to everyone who’s been chatting and connecting with me. It truly means everything. to me Every shout, every small interaction—through journals, through noting art watchers—It has touched me in ways I can’t easily describe. i will keep reaching out from time to time yes i might get hurt or upset but that's okay because I'm only human

i want to try doing cardio and the gym I'm curious i want to loose more weight to last time i weighed myself I was 105lb I have cut down on my eating and on fizzy drinks how I did this i was having 2L bottles once a week then after a period of time then reduced it to one 2L bottle now I'm only having 1 or 2 cans 330ml and started drinking more bottled water as well and in the near future i want to donate money to furaffinity because this is my home and what i love about it not just doing it once but now and again i will try and take some pictures to show you my journey sharing my experiences with you

You’re always going to get hurt. You’ll feel pain—from people you thought were your friends, from others, and just from life itself. That’s how it goes sometimes. It’s unfair, and it sucks. But the only way to get past those feelings is to keep getting back up, no matter how painful it is or how broken you feel.
Look ahead. Don’t look back. Keep your head up high. Don’t let anything or anyone bring you down.
I know that’s difficult. I understand how heavy it can feel. But if you don’t try, you’ll never going to know what’s waiting for you. There is something ahead—something better, something worth it.
And talking about how you feeling, & what’s on your mind it will help you feel better even if you don't feel anything right away we are all unique. we all experience emotions and feelings differently.
I believe in you.
Kieren.

I was looking out for someone who have gone through something terrible and awful I'm not going to name them I have to Respect there privacy i have been noting them for a short period of time & then they told me they don't Trust me i have shown nothing but empathy & emotional support they also said to me I'm putting weird things in there head like what the heck?. I never do that to anyone I was not brought up to behave like that I understand what they are going through is just awful but spitting in my face is Disgusting way how to treat someone when they have shown support and empathy it's just so insulting especially someone with Autism like me. Like i have said before i have no ulterior motive i hate no one i love everyone i deeply care about other Adults i will always show my emotional support empathy & comfort not just that but my door Is always open and available for every Adult i won't pressure you ever to note me i Respect everyone's Space and boundaries but i won't know unless you tell me so please do i have a middle Ground for you & for me to learn and grow because we are Not perfect nobody Is.. That's why i listen i.e feedback learn & Grow. Your feedback helps me be a Better furry i will do everything I can to make things Right i truly mean that in the Bottom of my Heart kieren.

I'm going to save for a fursuit for a long while and figure out how i want my fursona to look like it won't be anytime soon but it's something that will mean the world to me i know i will get there but having these feelings have has been very tough on me but i know i will get through it like i said before i have never had these feelings before this fandom means everything to me It feels like a Home to me a place where people understand each other and share our hardships through life and is something we all can relate to. also I'm sharing this with other furries here on FA I'm not sure if I'm gay or not i still get attracted to woman especially Japanese woman awwoooooo they are cute

when I see photos of furries at meets or cons and with other furries. They were together—laughing, touching, sharing moments. They looked close. Comfortable. Like they belonged.
I wasn’t in the photo.
I wasn’t near it.
I wasn’t invited.
Seeing that made me feel something deep. Not just sadness. Not just being left out. It feels like I'm missing something that matters to me. Like connecting with others , and knowing I’m not part of it.
I didn’t choose to be outside. I just am.
And the more I look at those photos, the more it hurts.
I feel unwanted. I feel like it’s too late. I feel like I’m behind everyone else.
I feel like maybe I’m not meant to be in that kind of space.
I feel invisible.
I feel like I'm missing out.
I wish there was someone there to guide me to one in person
I keep trying to be okay with it. But it still hurts a lot. kierenHusky

since the ID censorship Bullshit happened I'm an adult for god sake I feel like I'm locked out separated from just being able to connect chat with other furry adults this has upset me so much on emotional scale I've been crying. I wish I knew how much this fandom means to me chatting and connecting with others means everything to me I've never felt like this before wanting that connection your comfort is welcome I feel like I need lots of hugs wish I could get them for real too. I no longer like living in the united kingdom anymore my home where I was born and I hate/dislike this government and mp's and Ofcom so much vote for real change become a advance member https://www.advanceuk.org.uk/ it's more important than ever to your own discretion vote for the Petition and reform uk lets get it to a 1 million https://petition.parliament.uk/petitions/722903 uk citizens only I don't want to hear it's to protect no it's not its surveillance and censorship
>#emotional If I see a comment it's to protect I will disable the comments permanently this fandom means everything to me
>#upset
>#connection I agree with him https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4h3X37HLSPE
>#furry

I've Been getting very Emotional recently it's quite overwhelming to be Honest I'm not Used to these feelings as a Autistic furry the art i have favourite & commented On makes me Feel emotionally connected & Reaching out to others trying to connect since i got Blocked Recently I've been Getting very anxious & my anxiety is through the Roof wanting to note others because the art I favourite is so Important to me its like a guitar String it hurts tremendously If i get Blocked i have Nothing but good Intentions when I note you and if there are boundaries please Tell me I respect Everyone's Rules & Boundaries if there's anything I can do to make things right my door is open thankyou for reading..
- > #Emotions
- > #Autism

- > #anxiety - > #personalgrowth

and my final upload sharing my interests with you this month first one is how to draw a furry head what's that? you want more no worries I've got you covered
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAPTMj_GVUY
more tutorial here >>> https://www.youtube.com/results?sea.....+head+tutorial
how to draw a furry and all sorts of tutorials here >>> https://www.youtube.com/@Sushi.Tomodachi
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lastly my second interests this one volcanos
volcanos https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Volcano
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https://www.youtube.com/results?sea.....no+documentary Enjoy these Documentaries
all credit to all the uploads of furry head tutorials and all the others included in the links
see you all in august sharing my interests and my personal experiences
I want to thank you all for following me along this Journey with you so far it means a lot to me
- #sharing
- #pernalintrests
- #tutorials

persnal experience Fellings and Emotions
“I find myself drawn to some art — not just the art or words, but the honesty behind them. There’s a part of me that would love to know the person behind the Art, but I also carry a deep respect for their boundaries and space. So I’m just sitting with that strong feeling — quietly appreciating, without expectation. is there something wrong with me? why do I feel like this? am why am i emotional Tearful about this? I feel torn I wish other Adult furries try to connect with others it makes me feel Alone and unwanted. I truly want to be part of something Bigger what I mean is to chat and connect with others
- #softfeelings
- #adultfurryvoices
- #openess
- #storiesbehindart
- #Emotinalconnection

i have started practicing art I will be doing this more I'm doing it now as I'm making this journal in fact I want to do it as much as I can. at the moment I struggle a lot doing shapes I have to copy someone else just to get used to the shapes and what not until I improve then I might be able to do it just by thought I will share more created art overtime I look forward to sharing more do not claim as the art as your own or that you created it yourself you are allowed to favourite comment and credit me if you Wish : )

I have an announcement I Finally have a new social platform! mastodon Link on my profile give me a Follow if you Enjoy what I post here18+ please be patient with me since I'm new to the platform I'll try and do both. posts on mastodon & FA if I don't get much interaction for a period of time on mastodon i will try bluesky instead yes i know i don't on here on FA either but this platform has much more traffic & active users. update on interests i will be sharing two this weekend stay Tuned! i thought fuck it I'll make a Bluesky account now I want to connect with others it's very important to me. Give me a follow on Bluesky still in progress since I need ID I cannot dm or comment on Bluesky or mastodon