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Posted 18 years agoHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I couldn't resist, really I couldn't. I edited an old image 
seely posted AND GAVE THEM BIGGER ASSES! Then I made them dance and shit! WEEEEEEEEE~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeTb86WcVCc
Hope you enjoy~
Zabeth
characters are © seely and 
blitzdrachen
seely posted AND GAVE THEM BIGGER ASSES! Then I made them dance and shit! WEEEEEEEEE~http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aeTb86WcVCc
Hope you enjoy~
Zabeth
characters are ©
seely and 
blitzdrachenI'm not dead! PAINTING MY ASS OFF!
Posted 18 years agoYay I'm 24 now. OLD LADIES RULE! Anyway a new year is here, and I'm going to continue to be queer and drink lots of beer.. heheheh. It seems like I've been getting a lot of bites for my paintings lately, which is very awesome. In February I have a show in Athens with Joe Havasy and Mike Groves.. and maybe a few others? It's a Valentines-themed show but I'm going to avoid using a bunch of pinks, whites, and reds. I'll just stick with LOVE!
Also, another place in Athens called "White Tiger" wants me to put up about 15-20 paintings in their shop. I'm going to try and get them all done by this Wednesday so WISH ME LUCK! It's been semi-difficult to stick with it. In the process of all this I've painted over and updated several of my canvases, and sometimes it just DRAINS you. I'm also kind of low on paints right now and I forgot to get a new sticker for my license plate, so I'm kind of hesitant to drive around a lot at the moment XD;
Oh well! Come what may I'm going to do my best to get all this shit completed. I'll post the finished pieces here later on!
LOVE YOU GUYS MUCHLY!!!
Zabeth~
Also, another place in Athens called "White Tiger" wants me to put up about 15-20 paintings in their shop. I'm going to try and get them all done by this Wednesday so WISH ME LUCK! It's been semi-difficult to stick with it. In the process of all this I've painted over and updated several of my canvases, and sometimes it just DRAINS you. I'm also kind of low on paints right now and I forgot to get a new sticker for my license plate, so I'm kind of hesitant to drive around a lot at the moment XD;
Oh well! Come what may I'm going to do my best to get all this shit completed. I'll post the finished pieces here later on!
LOVE YOU GUYS MUCHLY!!!
Zabeth~
Happy Birthday to Me :3
Posted 18 years agoYay, I'm 24 today *OLD LADY!* I stocked up on booze last night and OMG Natalie called out of work today so she will be able to hang out tonight ^_^
Love you guys! I dunno if I'll be on much today but I'll totally get drunk in honor of all of you. HUGS AND KISSES TO ALL!
Zabeth~
Love you guys! I dunno if I'll be on much today but I'll totally get drunk in honor of all of you. HUGS AND KISSES TO ALL!
Zabeth~
I'll be 24 this month and other fun stuff.
Posted 18 years agoOn December 28th I'll be 24 hooray! Also I got invited to join an art show with a Valentine's theme most likely around February. I'll be putting up about 5-6 paintings. I'll post them all here when they are complete. My friend Buddy is an apprentice at a tattoo shop and the owner liked my work and is commissioning me to make him a painting as well. Weeee~ this is all very fun news for me.
I will be taking requests around this time. Hopefully I'll get some bites for some paintings XD blahblahblah LOVE YOU GUYS!
Zabeth~
I will be taking requests around this time. Hopefully I'll get some bites for some paintings XD blahblahblah LOVE YOU GUYS!
Zabeth~
Anyone going to FWA 08?
Posted 18 years agoI dunno, I was thinking about going :} I was just curious to see who else was going so maybe I could say "HEEEEEEY!" to you and stuff. I'll try to dress as furry as possible, but that would probably be like.. a tail and ears. It's a must I think.
Zabeth~
Zabeth~
Tagged by Seel-butt! Character meme..
Posted 18 years agoSeel filled one of these out, it sounded fun enough, so here I go!
What is the name of your fursona?
Zabeth
Where did the name of your Fursona come from?
My real name is Elizabeth. A few years back I went to a con and they fucked up my name tag and it said "Zabeth" I liked it and started using it as my signature for paintings, and eventually I made a fursona-thingy.
What species is your fursona and why did you choose that species?
She's a unmaera-hybrid. Unmaeras are creatures I made up for a story I work on sometimes. Basically they are chimaera-humanoids with furry legs, tails, sometimes wings, and a horn protruding from their foreheads. That's just to give you a rough idea, but Zabeth is half green dragon as well, hence the scales. She didn't end up with a traditional unmaera horn which kind of surprises me because I have a huge horn fetish..
What color is your fursona and why? Hair/fur/eyes/etc
She has pale human skin on her face and chest down to the waist, and also on the palms of her hands and soles of her feet. Minty-green scales start at her neck and cover her shoulders down to the tops of her hands, and a little on her shoulder blade areas. From the waist down she is covered in doe colored, rabbit-like fur. Her hair is black with a red flip in the front. Her tail is thick and reptilian, covered in the same scales she has on her shoulders. Her ears are big and bat-like, and covered lighter fur similar to the kind on her legs. Zabeth has gray-brown eyes and on occasion sprouts dark, feathered wings. I kind of made her as a color experiment.. I need to draw a clean image of her.
What is your fursona's personality and how does this compare to your irl personality?
We're very much alike. She's goofy and somewhat naiive at times as am I. She also LOVES to eat!
What is one item your fursona owns that is significant to you irl?
She has a little beauty mark on her face like mine, and I fashioned her after myself.. only a liiittle thicker <3 She would probably wear clothes that I would wear.. but I like her naked!
What is one thing you thing you would say to your fursona if you could meet?
""Whoa!"
What is one thing your fursona would say to you if you could meet?
"Where's your tail??" o.o
How has your fursona changed over the years?
I used to draw her as a regular Unmaera with the horn and all, but I decided to make her more unique from what I usually draw.
How long have you had this fursona?
It's really hard to say because "the unmaera persona" has been there for a very long time. Several years I guess.
Would you like to be more like your fursona?
Mayyybe.. I mean I would love to have a tail and all, but I wouldn't want to have to work at a circus to make a living. If I lived in the worl I created in my story than yes I wouldn't mind being a bit more like Zabeth. Mainly for appearance thoughXD
Ok now tag three other people you would like to learn about!
smokeforears 
vincent 
kiani
What is the name of your fursona?
Zabeth
Where did the name of your Fursona come from?
My real name is Elizabeth. A few years back I went to a con and they fucked up my name tag and it said "Zabeth" I liked it and started using it as my signature for paintings, and eventually I made a fursona-thingy.
What species is your fursona and why did you choose that species?
She's a unmaera-hybrid. Unmaeras are creatures I made up for a story I work on sometimes. Basically they are chimaera-humanoids with furry legs, tails, sometimes wings, and a horn protruding from their foreheads. That's just to give you a rough idea, but Zabeth is half green dragon as well, hence the scales. She didn't end up with a traditional unmaera horn which kind of surprises me because I have a huge horn fetish..
What color is your fursona and why? Hair/fur/eyes/etc
She has pale human skin on her face and chest down to the waist, and also on the palms of her hands and soles of her feet. Minty-green scales start at her neck and cover her shoulders down to the tops of her hands, and a little on her shoulder blade areas. From the waist down she is covered in doe colored, rabbit-like fur. Her hair is black with a red flip in the front. Her tail is thick and reptilian, covered in the same scales she has on her shoulders. Her ears are big and bat-like, and covered lighter fur similar to the kind on her legs. Zabeth has gray-brown eyes and on occasion sprouts dark, feathered wings. I kind of made her as a color experiment.. I need to draw a clean image of her.
What is your fursona's personality and how does this compare to your irl personality?
We're very much alike. She's goofy and somewhat naiive at times as am I. She also LOVES to eat!
What is one item your fursona owns that is significant to you irl?
She has a little beauty mark on her face like mine, and I fashioned her after myself.. only a liiittle thicker <3 She would probably wear clothes that I would wear.. but I like her naked!
What is one thing you thing you would say to your fursona if you could meet?
""Whoa!"
What is one thing your fursona would say to you if you could meet?
"Where's your tail??" o.o
How has your fursona changed over the years?
I used to draw her as a regular Unmaera with the horn and all, but I decided to make her more unique from what I usually draw.
How long have you had this fursona?
It's really hard to say because "the unmaera persona" has been there for a very long time. Several years I guess.
Would you like to be more like your fursona?
Mayyybe.. I mean I would love to have a tail and all, but I wouldn't want to have to work at a circus to make a living. If I lived in the worl I created in my story than yes I wouldn't mind being a bit more like Zabeth. Mainly for appearance thoughXD
Ok now tag three other people you would like to learn about!
smokeforears 
vincent 
kianiCOMMISSION ME PLEEASE! <3
Posted 18 years agoI have a nasty chunk of rent to pay next month so I am offering my services for commissions. Pencil sketches, inked, paintings, digital art, sculptures, wood-burned etchings, freaky stuffed animals, YOU NAME IT! My email's on my page, drop me a note, talk with me on AIM, whatever you want. I've been needing to do this shit for the longest time but the time for hesitation is through.
I will be reasonable with prices too. Nothing is set in stone ;3 It just depends on what you want done. I'll try to upload some better examples after awhile. I have a paypal account I've been needing to use for quite some time XD
Thanks guys!
Zabeth
I will be reasonable with prices too. Nothing is set in stone ;3 It just depends on what you want done. I'll try to upload some better examples after awhile. I have a paypal account I've been needing to use for quite some time XD
Thanks guys!
Zabeth
Taking a much needed break from the net.
Posted 18 years agoI'm going to disappear for a little while. Later guys, keep up the awesome artwork.
Zabeth
Zabeth
I had a horrible break up..
Posted 18 years agoThree and a half years goes by fast and I am very sad right now. I wish things had turned out differently. I miss her very much already. Some things that were said and done today really hurt me. I wish things could be taken back.. When I give her the letter I have been working on I don't think it will change things. It might make her hate me more. I need to give her honesty and space now and that is all I can do.
I can't stop crying because it feels like a fucking nightmare. You know when you have fights with your lover and make up afterwards? I don't think there are any make ups this time. This could be it. I love her so much and the idea of her not being in my life kills me. I may have lost two close friends over this as well.
I don't know really what to say right now. I know I should sleep but I really want to get this letter right. I'm staying at my Mom's house for now. I don't know if I will be on much for the next few days. Thank you so much seely for chatting with me and smokeforears for talking with me over the phone. I feel better than I did earlier.
Zabeth
I can't stop crying because it feels like a fucking nightmare. You know when you have fights with your lover and make up afterwards? I don't think there are any make ups this time. This could be it. I love her so much and the idea of her not being in my life kills me. I may have lost two close friends over this as well.
I don't know really what to say right now. I know I should sleep but I really want to get this letter right. I'm staying at my Mom's house for now. I don't know if I will be on much for the next few days. Thank you so much
seely for chatting with me and smokeforears for talking with me over the phone. I feel better than I did earlier.Zabeth
I'VE GOT SOMETHING TO SAY! VERY IMPORTANT
Posted 18 years agoI found out today that pidgeons DO NOT have brains, and unicorns are not in fact bovine or equine. They are loversized ducks that through evolution grew an oversized tooth that busted through their foreheads and caused their penises to migrate for the winter.
That is all. *has a sip of tea*
Oh yes, since Seel's ass did alright on ebay, I have decided to sell 5 BOSTON TERRIER ASSES starting at 20 bucks.
Email me if you're interested.
ZabREAST~
That is all. *has a sip of tea*
Oh yes, since Seel's ass did alright on ebay, I have decided to sell 5 BOSTON TERRIER ASSES starting at 20 bucks.
Email me if you're interested.
ZabREAST~
I GOT IN A CAR WRECK!
Posted 18 years agoLol.. how ironic that I was JUST saying the other day, "Wow, I've never been in an accident while driving my car."
Three cars came to a sudden halt due to a bunch of cop cars whizzing by. The guy in front of me was driving a red truck, one of the smaller varities, and I saw him put on his breaks and stop. I was about two car lengths behind him so I put on my break.. but I DIDN'T STOP! It turns out that I hit an oil slick and the rain made it worse. I slid in behind him and hit his back bumper.
THANKFULLY my car was fine and it looked like his bumper only got knocked loose. I figure it won't cost much for him to take it in and I said I'd cover it. WHEW THAT SUCKED THOUGH! It could have been much worse though so I'm glad it was minor.
On a different note I've made good progress with my skeleton suit. I'm moments away from finishing the remaining spinal colomns and then I'll start on the pelvis, legs, and arms. I'll snap a quick piccies for youz guys.
Loves and hugs
Zabeth~
Three cars came to a sudden halt due to a bunch of cop cars whizzing by. The guy in front of me was driving a red truck, one of the smaller varities, and I saw him put on his breaks and stop. I was about two car lengths behind him so I put on my break.. but I DIDN'T STOP! It turns out that I hit an oil slick and the rain made it worse. I slid in behind him and hit his back bumper.
THANKFULLY my car was fine and it looked like his bumper only got knocked loose. I figure it won't cost much for him to take it in and I said I'd cover it. WHEW THAT SUCKED THOUGH! It could have been much worse though so I'm glad it was minor.
On a different note I've made good progress with my skeleton suit. I'm moments away from finishing the remaining spinal colomns and then I'll start on the pelvis, legs, and arms. I'll snap a quick piccies for youz guys.
Loves and hugs
Zabeth~
Waking up with Zabeth NAKED!
Posted 18 years agoIf we were to randomly wake up next to each other naked, what three words would you say to me?
Hahaha.. I stole this. I'm a dirty, rotten whore :}
Hahaha.. I stole this. I'm a dirty, rotten whore :}
Costume close to completion!
Posted 18 years agoI have just about everything I need for my costume now. All I need is white fabric paint for the bone designs. I got these sexy-ass platform, MAD MAX-looking boots... oooohohohoo I bet I'll break my ankle if I'm not careful XD I got the belt, the gloves, and the face paint... blargh almost!
Yay that's about it. I'm boring.
Zabeth
Yay that's about it. I'm boring.
Zabeth
This is very important :
Posted 18 years agohttp://youtube.com/watch?v=Nzmr6REbSTU
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! I peed.
If I ever grow a penis I'm naming it Danzig :3
Zabeth
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! I peed.
If I ever grow a penis I'm naming it Danzig :3
Zabeth
THE GOOD STUFF from yesterday!
Posted 18 years agoAfter posting that last entry a minute ago I completely forgot to mention all the GOOD STUFF that happened yesterday. I drove to the mall with Nat, we were both powered-up on energy drinks, so now that I think about it that may have been another big factor for the panic attack XD ANYWAYS! After going to my grandmother's house and resting for a bit I got back on the road and drove to my friend Buddy's tattoo parlor he's working at.
We hung out for awhile until the shop was closing up then we stopped at a QT and headed back to the mall. There was a book signing at Borders so it was pretty busy.. we went into the cafe so I could get something to eat BEFORE MY NEXT ROCKSTAR, then we went outside to smoke. One of my ex-coworkers happened to be there so we dragged him to Buddy's car and made him listen to some music. He had to leave after awhile so I climbed into the front seat and Buddy and I put in a Misfits compilation and HEADBANGED OUR ASSES OFF! It probably looked hillarious to people walking by but WE DIDN'T CARE. We love the fucking Misfits and this is our way of expressing it damn it! This went on for at least 45 minutes XD We headbanged to some MSI too XD we were both hyper so it worked out fine.
That was the fun part of my day :)
Zabeth~
We hung out for awhile until the shop was closing up then we stopped at a QT and headed back to the mall. There was a book signing at Borders so it was pretty busy.. we went into the cafe so I could get something to eat BEFORE MY NEXT ROCKSTAR, then we went outside to smoke. One of my ex-coworkers happened to be there so we dragged him to Buddy's car and made him listen to some music. He had to leave after awhile so I climbed into the front seat and Buddy and I put in a Misfits compilation and HEADBANGED OUR ASSES OFF! It probably looked hillarious to people walking by but WE DIDN'T CARE. We love the fucking Misfits and this is our way of expressing it damn it! This went on for at least 45 minutes XD We headbanged to some MSI too XD we were both hyper so it worked out fine.
That was the fun part of my day :)
Zabeth~
I needed some help.
Posted 18 years agohttp://youtube.com/watch?v=51V1VMkuyx0 this is nice.
I went on meds two days ago. I was told I wouldn't probably feel any affects for a few weeks but I definitely feel jittery and hyped up. I keep pacing around like I'm on speed and I talk faster than I ever have before. I hope these things will lessen soon, it threw me into a panic attack at the mall yesterday. I left before anybody caught on. Thankfully my grandmother's house was just down the road. I drove there and laid down on the couch for 45 minutes to slow down my heartrate.
I withdrew from SCAD friday after I saw my psychiatrist. I was talking to her and after discussing a few things I told her about something odd that happened to me the other day. I felt this weird need to look at old pictures from when I was little. One of the first photos in the shoebox was of me as a baby and I cried uncontrollably for a long time when I saw it. After telling her this I BROKE DOWN AGAIN. I have teared up with some my my psychologists before but I've never outright cried like that.
So we talked a bit. We both came to a conclusion, and now I'm trying something different to hopefully help me in life. I don't know if I'll be online very much. If I am I am, but I may have to look for a job soon.
Wish me luck guys, I love you all.
Zabeth
I went on meds two days ago. I was told I wouldn't probably feel any affects for a few weeks but I definitely feel jittery and hyped up. I keep pacing around like I'm on speed and I talk faster than I ever have before. I hope these things will lessen soon, it threw me into a panic attack at the mall yesterday. I left before anybody caught on. Thankfully my grandmother's house was just down the road. I drove there and laid down on the couch for 45 minutes to slow down my heartrate.
I withdrew from SCAD friday after I saw my psychiatrist. I was talking to her and after discussing a few things I told her about something odd that happened to me the other day. I felt this weird need to look at old pictures from when I was little. One of the first photos in the shoebox was of me as a baby and I cried uncontrollably for a long time when I saw it. After telling her this I BROKE DOWN AGAIN. I have teared up with some my my psychologists before but I've never outright cried like that.
So we talked a bit. We both came to a conclusion, and now I'm trying something different to hopefully help me in life. I don't know if I'll be online very much. If I am I am, but I may have to look for a job soon.
Wish me luck guys, I love you all.
Zabeth
Conclusion to the skeleton suit situation
Posted 18 years agoI was "THIS" close to buying the skeleton suit from China and ditto for the other but I changed my mind. Then I got to thinking a bit. If you look at a lot of the original Misfits photos, they painted their own skeleton gear most of the time. SO! I know I have a black lycra body suit somewhere.. I'M GONNA PAINT MY OWN SKELETONE SUIT, and model closely after http://www.misfitscentral.com/mpix/.....lob_cdback.jpg the Legacy of Brutality image because it's HOT and that is all you need to know.
Even if it's not 'perfect" i think it will be effective enough and blah I'm sure I'll have fun with that project.
Buy guys! oh yeah... http://youtube.com/watch?v=zWNNxr-zg14
He's so little! it's ADORABLE~ yeah, I know Danzig does different music now and has tons of fans, but I'm in love with the Misfits Danzig ^_^ The end
Zabeth!
Even if it's not 'perfect" i think it will be effective enough and blah I'm sure I'll have fun with that project.
Buy guys! oh yeah... http://youtube.com/watch?v=zWNNxr-zg14
He's so little! it's ADORABLE~ yeah, I know Danzig does different music now and has tons of fans, but I'm in love with the Misfits Danzig ^_^ The end
Zabeth!
Spandex Skeleton Suits YOU'RE BREAKING MY BALLS edit
Posted 18 years agoOkay, here's the deal.. I wasn't 100% sure what I wanted to go as for halloween this year. I kicked around a few options but still couldn't really decide on anything. My GF said to me "Hey, you should go as Danzig!" and when she says that she means the classic Misfits version, not his Samhain or current Danzig band. Think of the image from the "Legacy of Brutality" album.. yeeeeeeeeah~ That's hot!
I was all like "HELL YEAH!" because I fucking love any excuse to wear skeleton gear. I figured, okay, I'll need a skeleton spandex costume, black and white face paint, punky boots, and spikey belt, chains etc... but you know what???
IT IS NEARLY FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE to locate the particular skeleton suit I want. You know the ones they wore in the karate kid? Yeah something like that, any fucking skintight skeleton suit! I searched and searched AND searched.. The only one I could find would have to be shipped from china and may be expensive after the bidding shit. I found another option but it could turn out to be a disaster..
http://i20.ebayimg.com/02/i/000/9d/ef/ff57_1.JPG I guess I could get this and take all the dressy shit out of it. But then.. If I won the bid for the other http://i17.ebayimg.com/04/i/000/ag/43/c3f0_1.JPG it might end up be araound the same price... GAH!!! DECISIONS. I kind of like the detail on the chick one better though.. and i wouldn't have to ship it from ze' china.
I so wanna do this though. I could make it pretty awesome but I wanna' do it all the way! Wish me luck, and hopefully I'll have some cool piccies later this month.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ll2EssqG1_4
Beelzabeth~
I was all like "HELL YEAH!" because I fucking love any excuse to wear skeleton gear. I figured, okay, I'll need a skeleton spandex costume, black and white face paint, punky boots, and spikey belt, chains etc... but you know what???
IT IS NEARLY FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE to locate the particular skeleton suit I want. You know the ones they wore in the karate kid? Yeah something like that, any fucking skintight skeleton suit! I searched and searched AND searched.. The only one I could find would have to be shipped from china and may be expensive after the bidding shit. I found another option but it could turn out to be a disaster..
http://i20.ebayimg.com/02/i/000/9d/ef/ff57_1.JPG I guess I could get this and take all the dressy shit out of it. But then.. If I won the bid for the other http://i17.ebayimg.com/04/i/000/ag/43/c3f0_1.JPG it might end up be araound the same price... GAH!!! DECISIONS. I kind of like the detail on the chick one better though.. and i wouldn't have to ship it from ze' china.
I so wanna do this though. I could make it pretty awesome but I wanna' do it all the way! Wish me luck, and hopefully I'll have some cool piccies later this month.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ll2EssqG1_4
Beelzabeth~
I think I'm going to open up for commissions soon..
Posted 18 years agoLMFAO I'm going to school to withdraw from this quarter. I'm going to come back in the winter quarter in January. I just can't handle college right now. SO! After taking some time to FINALLY complete some arttrade stuff I didn't have ze' time for originally, I think I'll open up for some commisions if anybody is interested.
I'm going to take it slow at first and only do a few if I even get any XD Icons, whatEVA.
First in line is Decaf's Unmaera arttrade pic because omfg I am a bastard! But after that I'm open. Maybe I could do a sale or something :3
Yay, that's all
Zabeth the almighty dorkus~
I'm going to take it slow at first and only do a few if I even get any XD Icons, whatEVA.
First in line is Decaf's Unmaera arttrade pic because omfg I am a bastard! But after that I'm open. Maybe I could do a sale or something :3
Yay, that's all
Zabeth the almighty dorkus~
I wanna start a video blog! THE ZABETH SHOW
Posted 18 years agoYeah this needs to happen. My youtube calls to me.. LEAVE BRITTANY ALONE ;_; NOT! Yeah I just have this craving to talk about what "I" want and share it with people coz' I'm a funny-ass person. You know when you walk by a pasture and a horse is shitting and you.. have to stop and watch? That's how my video blog will be XD
Now all I need is a webcam XD! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
Now all I need is a webcam XD! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
It's time for me to work on my story
Posted 18 years agoMy story has been in hibernation for quite some time now. I think I found what I was missing, and now I can wake it back up. I am in a more "arty" mood now. This might mean some actual drawings will follow. I hope this goes the way I hope it does.
G'night kittens
Zabeth~
G'night kittens
Zabeth~
Lesbians...
Posted 18 years agoLesbians are like purple unicorns.. Horny and magical.
Zabeth~
Zabeth~
WARNING: this is hot!!
Posted 18 years agoAn old quickie of mine XD I said I'd make a sequel but it just hasn't happened yet. And yes, I would be delighted if this REALLY happened...
I really don't know how to say this without sounding like a total freak, but my girlfriend looks UNCANNILY like Lori Petty and it turns me on to no end. Or, does Lori Petty look like my GF?... I guess I could torture myself with these questions, but I won't. Instead I think I will just imagine them both making out in front of me, while I draw them of course! It should go something like this...
They will continue on this way for several tender moments; petting, fondling, dressing up like cat-ladies and spanking each other. Then they will both turn and look at me, smiling with their full, delicious, pouty lips. I wipe the sweat from my brow and continue sketching furiously. Then they kiss once more and giggle at each other. Lori ruffles Natty's hair and calls her, "Silly-head!" and Natty tackles her playfully back onto the black satin sheets. The bed is king-sized of course, and it looks very inviting as they play fight one another. Natalie accidently punches Lori in the mouth causing her to bleed a little, but Lori loves it and slaps her back across the face laughing.
I can't stand it any longer! I throw aside my crayons and paint-by-numbers and lunge for the massive bed. Lori and Natty welcome my arrival by smothering me with hugs, kisses, and my favorite.. Swedish fish. They feed them to me lovingly with chopsticks and massage my feet with much vigor. They tell me I'm pretty and that my ass isn't too big. I chuckle and rub their tummies until they purr.
I then decide it's time for some quality music, so I put on an awesome MISFITS cd and we all sing along to "Last Caress" I paint Natalie's face to look like a skeleton and we start making out hard. My face gets smeared with black and white paint but I couldn't care less at the moment. Lori joins in on the makeout session and we all get paint smeary. I tell them I love them, but since Natalie is my girlfriend I love her more. Lori says she understands but that it's still okay to play around with her.
The End~ or is it?
Zabeth~
I really don't know how to say this without sounding like a total freak, but my girlfriend looks UNCANNILY like Lori Petty and it turns me on to no end. Or, does Lori Petty look like my GF?... I guess I could torture myself with these questions, but I won't. Instead I think I will just imagine them both making out in front of me, while I draw them of course! It should go something like this...
They will continue on this way for several tender moments; petting, fondling, dressing up like cat-ladies and spanking each other. Then they will both turn and look at me, smiling with their full, delicious, pouty lips. I wipe the sweat from my brow and continue sketching furiously. Then they kiss once more and giggle at each other. Lori ruffles Natty's hair and calls her, "Silly-head!" and Natty tackles her playfully back onto the black satin sheets. The bed is king-sized of course, and it looks very inviting as they play fight one another. Natalie accidently punches Lori in the mouth causing her to bleed a little, but Lori loves it and slaps her back across the face laughing.
I can't stand it any longer! I throw aside my crayons and paint-by-numbers and lunge for the massive bed. Lori and Natty welcome my arrival by smothering me with hugs, kisses, and my favorite.. Swedish fish. They feed them to me lovingly with chopsticks and massage my feet with much vigor. They tell me I'm pretty and that my ass isn't too big. I chuckle and rub their tummies until they purr.
I then decide it's time for some quality music, so I put on an awesome MISFITS cd and we all sing along to "Last Caress" I paint Natalie's face to look like a skeleton and we start making out hard. My face gets smeared with black and white paint but I couldn't care less at the moment. Lori joins in on the makeout session and we all get paint smeary. I tell them I love them, but since Natalie is my girlfriend I love her more. Lori says she understands but that it's still okay to play around with her.
The End~ or is it?
Zabeth~
WTF I FEEL WONDERFUL DAMN IT!
Posted 18 years agoI feel better now. I hung out with Janel on thursday and we went o Phoenix and Dragon. She made me these awesome medicine bags to help me out. One is now under my mattress and the other is against my breast. Janel hung out and we drank. Natalie came back from work and we ate pizza and drank some more. I was SMASHED after awhile. Thomass called us from buckhead and said he was too drunk to drive back from work, so Janel offered to get him and that was an adevnture XD oh yeah, earlier that afternoon Janel gave me this KICKASS keychain she got in Arizona that holds an ounce of alcohol. I clipped it on my choker and it looked sexy-hot! It twas a fun day.
I saw my Dad yesterday earlier in the afternoon. We had lunch with my Mom, then we drove around for awhile hanging out. We ended up at a bar, I had two JaegerBombs and then I had to stop. Dad drove me home so I could meet up with Shannon, Lindy and Natalie. He stayed and talked awhile then he had to head out. He's going to take Natalie and me to the Aquarium next Friday :) Anywho, Natalie had to go to Conyers for awhile so Shannon and Lindy and I got drunk off our asses and Natalie did when she came back. A guy I met at school stopped by later, his name is Bob, and we all drank some more. Natalie got a little sick so she had to go to bed early, Shannon was tired soon after, and Lindy and I stayed up with Bob until about 4:00am XD;
When I got in bed it was the most peaceful sleep I have had in a long time. I kept hearing these reassuring voices telling me things were going to be alright and this beautiful grean dragon with red eyes was spiralling around in my mind while all of this was going on. I think it had something to do with the little bags Janel made me. I slept with the small bag, I named it Piggy, over my chest and since the bigger bag, named Goat, was under the mattress they were very close together. Janel said it was good to have them close sometimes. It was such a blissful, warm sleep.
This morning Natty, Shannon, Lindy and myself all went out to this cute Mexican restaurant called Coyotes for lunch.. hangovers XD Nat had to go to work by 3:00 but Shannon, Lindy and me went to the Farmers Market and loaded up on groceries. It was a very fun weekend and I am now currently at home eating garlic-stuffed olives and htis fucking rad coconut milk... I feel so much more relaxed now. HOORAY!
Oh yes and PHOTO SPAM WARNING BECAUSE I ROCK IN A DORKY WAY!
Zabeth~
I saw my Dad yesterday earlier in the afternoon. We had lunch with my Mom, then we drove around for awhile hanging out. We ended up at a bar, I had two JaegerBombs and then I had to stop. Dad drove me home so I could meet up with Shannon, Lindy and Natalie. He stayed and talked awhile then he had to head out. He's going to take Natalie and me to the Aquarium next Friday :) Anywho, Natalie had to go to Conyers for awhile so Shannon and Lindy and I got drunk off our asses and Natalie did when she came back. A guy I met at school stopped by later, his name is Bob, and we all drank some more. Natalie got a little sick so she had to go to bed early, Shannon was tired soon after, and Lindy and I stayed up with Bob until about 4:00am XD;
When I got in bed it was the most peaceful sleep I have had in a long time. I kept hearing these reassuring voices telling me things were going to be alright and this beautiful grean dragon with red eyes was spiralling around in my mind while all of this was going on. I think it had something to do with the little bags Janel made me. I slept with the small bag, I named it Piggy, over my chest and since the bigger bag, named Goat, was under the mattress they were very close together. Janel said it was good to have them close sometimes. It was such a blissful, warm sleep.
This morning Natty, Shannon, Lindy and myself all went out to this cute Mexican restaurant called Coyotes for lunch.. hangovers XD Nat had to go to work by 3:00 but Shannon, Lindy and me went to the Farmers Market and loaded up on groceries. It was a very fun weekend and I am now currently at home eating garlic-stuffed olives and htis fucking rad coconut milk... I feel so much more relaxed now. HOORAY!
Oh yes and PHOTO SPAM WARNING BECAUSE I ROCK IN A DORKY WAY!
Zabeth~
The depression is taking over again, sorry Liz.
Posted 18 years agoI am very unhappy right now. At first it was so minor I barely noticed it, but now it's definitely there and it's literally fucking me up inwardly and outwardly. I don't like going to SCAD, I thought it would grow on me, I realize this is the 4th week into the quarter, but no. I can't understand the assignments the teachers are giving us, my note taking skills are slow and the classes move really fast, my time management skills are poor, I feel fucking STUPID 90% of the time, and my smoking habit is getting way out of control. I even went through student services for advice and had to get a bunch of documentation from my LD testing from the past in order to drop on of my classes. Some people would say, "Wtf, it's not like you're in the 7th week and you're failing. You should have tried harder! Dropping a class this soon? WTF!" You don't know me, you really don't so shut your goddamn mouth. What's simple for some is extremely hard for others.
Yeah, this is one of those fucking DRAMA journals and you don't have to read it. In fact I wouldn't recommend reading this if you're okay with your life right now, or in a good mood. I've come to realize that I can be a pretty negative person IRL. I don't like being that way and I have been trying my best to change this about myself. I've been going to a psychologist for a couple of months, I have been making a point to put myself in social situations even though they TERRIFY me. I thought I was making progress, I thought "Hey, maybe I'm not crazy and I don't need to go on meds. I can work all this shit out!" But a few nerve-wracking weeks at SCAD have shot all of my efforts to HELL and now I am more depressed than I have ever been. I feel like I am out in the middle of a SCAD ocean DOG PADDLING and there aren't any rescue boats there to save me. I'm getting tired, I'm sinking..
I am having problems with my relationship throughout all this. This is one of the things that hurts the most. I don't know what I'd do without Natalie. I know she's fed up, I know that my bullshit is annoying, and I realize that she has her owns problems to deal with, so she doesn't need all my problems dumped on top of that. I want us to be okay, I want us to go out and do things together like we used to. I don't think she fully understands how I feel about college but I'm sure she's sick of hearing about it. She is yet another person on my list that I feel I would let down should I decide to leave SCAD. It's a long list and so many people have gone out on a limb for me so that I could attend. Letting them all down? Is that even an option?
Roughly 4 years ago I got accepted into ACA which later on got bought out by SCAD. I had to leave ACA within a month because my depression overwhelmed me and I had stated cutting myself and doing other stupid things. I met Natalie at Starbucks a few months later and joined the customer service ranks up until a few months ago. I was paying my own way, money was sometimes tight but I had an awesome girlfriend and we were THERE for eachother. I didn't have homework, I could draw whenever I wanted, short of being back at work the next scheduled day I WAS FREE.
I don't have that anymore, I can't sleep, drawing things that used to come easy to me is very difficult and uninspired. My stories and characters are dying a sad death. I know how some people feel about college BUT I FUCKING DON'T. I want out, I need to get out, I don't want to stick it out, fuck this shit. When people started overanalyzing my life and telling me, "Hey you draw but you're working at a Borders? That's wrong, you should be making at least 30-40 thousand dollars a year off your art so you need to go to college like EVERYONE ELSE IN YOUR FAMILY!"
I'm done, I'm not typing anymore and I'll probably erase this later today. I needed to vent. But congrats to the people that are doing well in college *thumbs up* Enjoy what you do and learn what you can. As for me, I think I shall go scream into my pillow for awhile, then go to student services and see about withdrawing from this godforsaken hell before I have those thoughts PEOPLE recommend you shouldn't have.
I'm sorry Natalie, Janel, Mom, Rachael, Amanda, Dad, Oma, Dr.Williams. I'm so sorry. I'm not who you think I am apparently. I am so very sorry.
Liz
Yeah, this is one of those fucking DRAMA journals and you don't have to read it. In fact I wouldn't recommend reading this if you're okay with your life right now, or in a good mood. I've come to realize that I can be a pretty negative person IRL. I don't like being that way and I have been trying my best to change this about myself. I've been going to a psychologist for a couple of months, I have been making a point to put myself in social situations even though they TERRIFY me. I thought I was making progress, I thought "Hey, maybe I'm not crazy and I don't need to go on meds. I can work all this shit out!" But a few nerve-wracking weeks at SCAD have shot all of my efforts to HELL and now I am more depressed than I have ever been. I feel like I am out in the middle of a SCAD ocean DOG PADDLING and there aren't any rescue boats there to save me. I'm getting tired, I'm sinking..
I am having problems with my relationship throughout all this. This is one of the things that hurts the most. I don't know what I'd do without Natalie. I know she's fed up, I know that my bullshit is annoying, and I realize that she has her owns problems to deal with, so she doesn't need all my problems dumped on top of that. I want us to be okay, I want us to go out and do things together like we used to. I don't think she fully understands how I feel about college but I'm sure she's sick of hearing about it. She is yet another person on my list that I feel I would let down should I decide to leave SCAD. It's a long list and so many people have gone out on a limb for me so that I could attend. Letting them all down? Is that even an option?
Roughly 4 years ago I got accepted into ACA which later on got bought out by SCAD. I had to leave ACA within a month because my depression overwhelmed me and I had stated cutting myself and doing other stupid things. I met Natalie at Starbucks a few months later and joined the customer service ranks up until a few months ago. I was paying my own way, money was sometimes tight but I had an awesome girlfriend and we were THERE for eachother. I didn't have homework, I could draw whenever I wanted, short of being back at work the next scheduled day I WAS FREE.
I don't have that anymore, I can't sleep, drawing things that used to come easy to me is very difficult and uninspired. My stories and characters are dying a sad death. I know how some people feel about college BUT I FUCKING DON'T. I want out, I need to get out, I don't want to stick it out, fuck this shit. When people started overanalyzing my life and telling me, "Hey you draw but you're working at a Borders? That's wrong, you should be making at least 30-40 thousand dollars a year off your art so you need to go to college like EVERYONE ELSE IN YOUR FAMILY!"
I'm done, I'm not typing anymore and I'll probably erase this later today. I needed to vent. But congrats to the people that are doing well in college *thumbs up* Enjoy what you do and learn what you can. As for me, I think I shall go scream into my pillow for awhile, then go to student services and see about withdrawing from this godforsaken hell before I have those thoughts PEOPLE recommend you shouldn't have.
I'm sorry Natalie, Janel, Mom, Rachael, Amanda, Dad, Oma, Dr.Williams. I'm so sorry. I'm not who you think I am apparently. I am so very sorry.
Liz
