This account has been left up for archival, but I might as well use this journal for explaining what happened 3 years ago.

First, here's my new acc:  DevinOKWolf


On to it:

The first Furry I met was on this site, I had talked with them on discord for months and did tons of art for them.

One day in July of 2019 they blocked me, and though I still don't know why to this day (my belief was making fun of their face after they sent me it, but I was not the best person so it could very well be something much worse or other)

Despite this, what I did after was unacceptable any way you slice it.

I created a new account, added them, and pretended to be someone I wasn't. I started by messaging them on discord pretending that I got it from me trying to contact them through a third party.

They were pissed obviously, and messaged my first account angrily saying not to get others involved (which good on them because even if the other account wasn't me I was still just as big an asshole), not knowing the "other" was me aswell.

I pretend to block them with my first account out of frustration, and ran that account into the dirt with my second account by saying I sounded obsessed (which I was, but not realizing it)

I then, trying to push this narrative, sent them a note with this account making it seem like I was going to commit suicide over them, which obviously didn't work and made them distance further when I tried to backpedal saying that I meant I was starting anew (which was not what I meant originally and was trying to pretend like that was what I meant all along in a last ditch attempt to salvage this account)

When that didn't work I still didn't get the hint that I was in the wrong and continued.

I tried and succeeded to spin the narrative that Zack was obsessed and insane, and Devin was a bystander getting caught in the crossfire.

And from there I made Devin LaPrade an alias that I used everywhere online, and continued to talk to them until they deleted their discord account in mid to late 2020, at which point I finally decided to move on and for some reason CONTINUE TO MAKE ART WITH THE SAME ACCOUNT.

That was an awful move because I wanted to start being myself again, but before I could realise what was wrong with continuing, I had already laid the groundwork for the second account, and at which point I stopped posting as much feeling bad for not admitting everything and atoning for what I did and who I hurt.

It took until late last year to finally change my bio in my new account to reflect my real name, and until now to admit the connection between the accounts and admit all that I did.


I was obnoxiously stupid and obsessive when creating my new account, and I wish to atone for that, that's why I'm explaining everything now despite the fact that I could very much continue to move on as if nothing happened.

I feel guilty, and I should, my actions were deplorable, and that's why I've tried not to leave out anything in this.

I wish to finally move on knowing full well that anyone who watches me knows what happened and will decide for themselves if they still want to support me after all that I've done.

I'm truly sorry to (redacted) who I don't want to disclose the name of due to me not wanting to involve them further in a drama from 3 years ago.

I was an awful person and I don't expect you to forgive me for that, I still can't forgive myself so I won't expect that from you.

All I can say is that I hope to have improved since then and can promise that no one else will ever have the same thing happen to them in future by me.



I wish you all the best and I'm sorry for what I did, even if it didn't affect anyone else reading this.



Tldr: In 2019, I pretended to be someone else to avoid a block, even going as far as pretending like I was going to commit suicide for such. I was a deplorable and obsessive person and will never plan on doing anything like that again. No need to forgive me as this is an admission of guilt and I don't expect to be forgiven.



Thank you for taking the time to read this, and I'll be happy to see you on my new account where I have severed ties with being someone else, but feel free to stop watching me on everything if you want.

So i was contemplating life and came to the conclusion that i ain't need nobody to stay happy and healthy. Im moving on. If we cant be friends, so be it. I'm still going to keep my spirits high and make art for you all. (Name redacted) thank you for kickstarting my way into the fandom and if this is the end of the friendship i will keep going in my art and finally complete my fursuit. I will keep being active and i will attend my first con next year. Hope you guys have a wonderful day and I'll be continuing to post art as normal.

My future relies on our relationship. You were the reason i joined the fandom and if you cut off this friendship i will have no choice but to leave. Ill have no one in the fandom to call a friend or talk to. You're literally the reason i stayed to begin with. You're all that i have here.

Dont ask me why, just please leave me alone for now. Im on the brink of leaving the fandom over this so it's best you let this blow over.

EDIT: Ok nevermind. I hit a false negative I'm good I'm fine.

You know, I love journals. Love 'em. Always have. And my journal? The best. Unbeatable. You can't find a better one. Other journals? Not good. Look at Crooked Hillary's journal. Full of lies. No meat. Can't trust it. Sad!

Since this was mentioned before by someone i thought i might as well share this: I'm currently in between jobs. I'm applying for a job at samsung as part of the innovations program which studies in technological advancement of their products. I'm gaurenteed the job but as for currently not being employed, im not doing so hot financially. I currently have just enough money to make it until i start working but that means i don't have money for commissions. As much as i want to have someone who can make my oc as a reference (since i cant think of what he looks like from the back or sides, i can't. As soon as i start working (which will be awhile) i will let you guys know and i will start talking commissions. Trust me i will let you guys know when i am ready.

I tend to rather be busy or preoccupied often so sometimes, I might take a break or hiatus. This last month I have gone through quite a bit. But don't worry about me. This will in no way affect my attitude. If you want to reliably get a hold of me, please contact me on my twitter via the link on my userpage.