two things, one, as I'd listed on Tulip and the Dog Park i'd somhow put A Gluttonous Pet for Me's file in there during some kind of file update intended for AGPM, which has been succinctly fixed

and TWO... super giddy at seeing my favorite's counter reaching the big 5 0 0. *cracks open a bottle of champagne and pours a glass* PFFFF, oh this shit's terrible... anyways, 500 collective likes on the wanderlust/pokelust series, gods know I never expected the series to explode like this, but what else can be said about random passion projects? I'd celebrate more, but I'm really just busy contemplating my sanity from seeing a number THAT big. either way, HUGE thanks for sticking with me and my nonsense.

until next time, have fun

Well... I should've said it in the comments of THIS journal, but I'd figured out what I was going to do for the halloween themed story.

THIS journal, is dedicated to what I'd chosen to work on... which ended up being another first for me... its cocksnakes, i'm writing a story with a semi-side-plot of Will's dick turning into a fucking SNAKE, when the story was SUPPOSED to be a simple one about Claire accidentally buying a too real bearess costume that turns her into an anthro bearess and wearing THAT to a costume party... and then at some point i just said "FUCK IT, WHY NOT ADD A COCKSNAKE TRANSFORMATION TO SPICE THINGS UP!?" and next thing I know, I've gotten a good couple paragraphs describing what it fucking FELT LIKE and... *sigh* the worst part is that it's kinda hot to think about and i just look at my brain and yell ask it "WHY!?"

anywho, it's not exactly a long winded story, buut my brain is running circles around itself and I can only ask myself why i DO this to myself... I'm not suffering, but I did just somehow inflict myself with the confusion status effect when i took a long look at the story and noticed what I'd added in without paying attention... so yeah, writing's fun.

I just need help finding a line in all my stories, it's one that calls back to Will's first love and I forgot which story i put the reference in.

I want to say it's in one of my recent stories, but they all feel recent to me and i'm a little frazzled thinking about it.

so uhh... while I can't really remember what my longest story's word count was, I do know that this one's either approaching it, or has already blown past it, as looking at the file shows over forty f***ing pages.

I DON'T KNOW HOW IT GOT AWAY FROM ME! even worse, I'm haven't even gotten to the proper sex scene yet, and at this point I'm considering ending the story as a whole just because forty pages sounds daunting for what was supposed to be a SHORT story... Of course I know some short stories have had more pages, but its just crazy to know that it came from ME, a chronically online dude with attention span issues. (individual#1592887)

either I just REALLY got into the damn story, or i just didn't know where to end it because holy crap. regardless, if this doesn't do well, imma just unplug(probably)

in other news, with this happening,i now have NO idea if I'll even have something in time for halloween, I'm tempted to make it a followup to two moons and a mountain, but I'd also like to hear some suggestions as to what else could be interesting.

Edit: I forgot that I entertained another idea of a halloween costume party gone wrong, but with my usual ending of someone having fun with either a big belly, or HUGE assets.

so uhhh... well I got started on a new story... or rather, I'm about halfway through the story when I look back through it and i noticed it all just felt dry. and I'm starting to wonder if maybe I should throw in the towel and really recharge my creative batteries... or it's possible I've just had little motivation to be as detailed with this one as I was with this. and now I'm just confused whether I should take a step back and rewrite it to fit that detailed nature, or if I should just lean into the lackluster detail and make it minimalist word-wise and leave the feelings up to interpretation/implication. also it feels like I'm rushing through the story despite the fact that I've been taking my time writing it one paragraph at a time... or maybe I'm really just experiencing writer's block.

whatever the case, I hate it, and feel like there's not much I can do to remedy it beyond actually pushing through.

also, as a heads up, my writing's going to slow down for a while as I'm going to the DM of a d&d campaign with a couple friends... and upon saying that I'm starting to wonder if maybe that's what's causing my hang ups.

soo, i didn't realize just how dialogue heavy this entry had gotten...

I mean I normally average about 10k words, but that's like 20 pages normally. I'm at 13k words and over thirty pages... also, as a heads up, I think i am gonna drop the whole two-format system I've been using and just only use pdf both for storage reasons, and so I dont' have to worry about FA's text renderer destroying the effects of my writing style... anyways, this poke-lust is almost done, just need a few more paragraphs and it should be ready by this after noon... hopefully... dammit as I write this I realize that I still need to take them to the beach for some saltwater fun

small edit: thanks to the whole ending taking longer than I'd expected, the release is gonna have to be delayed until tomorrow afternoon

Okay so this is beating my ass, mainly because My brain decided to obtusely shoehorn in kinda heavy shit halfway through what was SUPPOSED to be a sweet, if not LIGHTHEARTED story and here I am pulling my hair out trying to figure out how to actually incorporate it without destroying the atmosphere I'd spent TWENTY PAGES building... at this point it's not so much a request for advice as it is a quick vent so feel free to click off now if you don't want to read any spoilers.

So I wanted to add a fun little "public close call" hot spring bit, with a couple random one-off characters that could also serve for a little world building. but i'd gone off of some kind of deep end, made one of them a ninetales, and next thing I know, my brain was telling me I had to make Myra unreasonably hateful towards him, then get it shut down so she could enjoy the hot spring... ugh, I'd spent a good while just trying to give her a chance to relax, and here I am making her re-live trauma for the sake of plot (it's all fictional I know, but I swear to GOD my empathy centers are the BANE of my existence right now as I don't want to make her go through that, nor did I plan to make her go through that when I fucking STARTED the story) AHEM*... it's not like extreme extreme trauma, but it's more like a bunch of bad memories resurfacing and ruining the day, (and the flow of the story) but still I wanted the story to be lighthearted, with maybe a little bit of lore sprinkled in, and then I get to THE HOT SPRING INTRODUCTION SCENES AND SUDDENLY IT ALL FALLS APART (I TRIED SO HARD AND GOT SO FAAAAAR)... In case you couldn't tell by the wall of [REDACTED] i'm more than a little fried trying to make this work and I REALLY don't want to scrap this story... the way I wanted the introduction to go was for Myra to meet the trio, end up having a heart to heart with the Ninetales on their way TO the hotspring, Accidentally have her secret "cargo" revealed, and have shenanigans ensue at the hot spring... I'm just at a loss for what to do because I apparently don't know how to write a heart to heart that ISN'T fucking trauma based or excessively heavy... I'll admit I'm already a little too far into the hot-spring mini arc to just scrap what I've already written in it... so I feel like I don't have much choice but to roll with it and hope I can figure it out quickly.

vent done, i just needed to get it off of my chest and give myself a chance to actually sort out how I feel about the turn of events... (in the end by linkin park keeps playing in the background)

hello all, Just wanted to let you guys know that I AM working on the next story,(nobody asked but I still felt the need to let you guys know) and FAIR WARNING, it's kinda gonna be a long one as I'm almost twenty pages in and Feel like I'm really only 2/3s-3/4s of the way done, that being said, there's lore, horny, and another first for me, a day to day depiction of long term endo. I mean technically I know I did it first with [link=https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60914844/]Woes of a Greedy Mare[/link], but that was more on the aftermath af a bit of long term endo, than the endo itself so it didn't really feel like true long term endo.

Yeah I've made plenty of allusions to long term stuff, and even did aftermaths to the long term stuff, hell I've even done some before and afters, but I've never actually done the process of long term before so...

I just realized I'm repeating myself here, ANYWHO, the other reason I'm making this journal is because I want to ask if I should just switch over to solely pdf copies from now on, Fa's story rendering leaves plenty to be desired, and seeing as my writing style relies on italics and bolds to convey stuff, pdf is the only way to get my stories out in the renderer without destroying them I've seen so far. just want to know what everyone thinks.

well it looks like us FA writers actually got an amazing gift with today's update, PEOPLE CAN ACTUALLY READ SHIT IN THE BROWSER!!!!! a feature that's been asked for for YEARS!

not expecting much to come of it but it def should give us writers a LOT more traction

sour news, I haven't been able to confirm it properly and am probably wrong, but I suspect Subscribestar has taken to using government ID verification to access adult content. or at the very least you need to log in or sign up and verify your age there so guests LITERALLY can't access anything.

and I know making an account shouldn't be that hard, it;s just something I never got around to, and now with this age verification going on, i'm becoming inclined to NEVER make an account with them.

again, probably wrong about them needing gov ID to age verify, but the site summarily said "Verify your age as required by your local laws, you can do this by logging in or signing up." and that's even AFTER i do the already requested "please input your birthday to see this content." so it's basically just saying to log in if you want to see titties, we know you just told us how old you are but fuck you log in anyways to see that which didn't need an account three weeks ago.

Update: I combed through their privacy policy and TOS, can't find anything about requiring ID, but the whole "verify your age as required by your local regulations" is still leaving me a little worried about that. it's probably the kinda ambiguous wording, but its still leaving me a little hesitant about following any subscribestar links. though I want to clarify, it's not the wording alone, its that they have that little age verification popup, but still demand you log in to actually see what was on the link. it's like pick a fucking lane, either make us log in, or give us the age input popup, don't give us the popup then ignore it and demand we login anyways. seriously, I followed a single PROFILE link, it wasn't even a link to an adult post, just someone's profile, and I still got the age input popup, then the login barrier. I literally couldn't even make it to their profile. *sigh*

I get why they're doing it and all, but it just feels shady to do that bullshit.

something I want to point out, I am working on a "little" story. or rather two... fuck I meant to say three, but then i remembered I already finished one and just need to find the common sense to upload it before i forget to again aaaagh.....

ANYWAYS, kinda trying something new with this one, and while I won't spoil it i will say I'd originally wanted it to be a small story i could have fun with, lo and BEHOLD the I N T R O D U C T I O N, turned into almost NINE pages of pretext and buildup, as of this journal I'm on page ten and I still haven't done anything super significant with the story yet, (by significant I mean h o r n y) all I know is I'm putting a popular species in it for the first time, a certain species that has an entire month dedicated to them in the art community (guess who and I... ah hell I don't know, maybe I'll take a request or something, there's like three species I know of that have an entire month of the art community's calendar dedicated to them, so probably not.) {i won't make any promises, but who knows, if I do decide to follow through I'll send the lucky guesser a note. but please don't get your hopes up, I still feel kinda weird about doing requests, and I'm still kinda scared I'd fuck it up somehow.}

so i guess(funni joek), feel free to guess?

and keep an eye out for the completed story, it's full of the jank i feel everyone has come to know and love about my nonsense (at least i hope it's that kind of jank)

sorry to keep on posting shit like this but, i'm gonna be boycotting youtube come the 13th, the ID verification to avoid getting labeled as a kid is bullshit and I'm encouraging everyone who reads this to spread the word and do the same. #endonlineIDverification #endonlinecensorship

scammer stuff.

I haven't actually been made aware of any scammers impersonating me, but I have seen a whole rush of people dealing with impersonators and I just want everyone to be aware.

I'm not selling anything, nor am I really looking to comm anyone anytime in the future. so if someone says they're selling, or buying something in my name, please don't fall for it.

(sidenote, I KNOW I'm not popular or prevalent enough for scammers/impersonators to think I'm an even remotely valuable target, but it doesn't hurt to get the word out on the minuscule chance they try it. besides, this all is really just a hobby as I'm just having fun writing, and don't plan on making any money off it anytime soon.

I just want to know who hasn't been hit by these shitty censorshit bans.

so I just found out itch delisted EVERY 18+ game, comic, and animation because of collective shit, (collective shout) and of course visa, and master cuck doing what they do best, arbitrarily dictating what people can or cannot buy.

in all honesty, it's not absolutely terrible that this is happening, to an extent I understand why, but at the same time, it's just like, what the fuck is wrong with you people, i'd fucking say leave it up to a given website's moderation/admin teams, don't act like you're taking the high road, you're just being bitchy thought police who act more like a money laundering HOA than actually decent people.

again, I kinda understand why it's happening, but at the same time, that this shit can be arbitrarily decided by someone who DOESN'T fucking care about anything other than money and image really pisses me off, if you people can, sign the "fair access to banking act" (i can't promise the name is accurate, will fix in a minute) so dipshits like visa and mastercard can't pull this shit again. it always starts with the nsfw stuff as a foot-in-the-door tactic so they can set a precedent and do even worse shit later on.

just as a heads up, I'm gonna be remaking Daedalus Initiative, or rather splitting it into two parts, for simplicity sake, when everything's done, I'll move the original to my scraps, then upload the new set.

I just impulse bought a kayak, and i think i just heard my wallet commit seppuku

it wasn't a super big hit on my wallet, but i think a vast majority of the panic i'm feeling is just because it was an impulse buy.

I mean, I have been researching on and off for the past month when it came to good budget kayaks, so i think that's why i went for it, but still, impulse buy... how's everyone else's day going?

so, for starters, I'm gonna start calling these specific journal entries as above.

S E C O N D. while it wasn't the most explosive story, Apparently "Complicated" got me quite a few favorites across the board which caught me off guard, but at the same time it's not that surprising.

Also, I've been thinking about going over all my old stories and searching for spelling/grammar mistakes, but with so many on the board it feels like a monumental task (gotta love procrastination amirite?)

also-also, I think I've gotten a small kick of inspiration, and while it isn't aimed at "Complicated"s followup, it feels like a breath of fresh air, but at the same time, I'm worried it'll come out with a similar gramatical problem as 50 shades... Then again, considering that aside from Corporate Escape and a few others, my stories have been single-draft wing-its, I'm feeling like I should just stay the course and wing it.
(kinda ironic considering I told myself some time ago that I was going to switch to multi-draft writing and I have YET to do that lmao)

asking here because I can't post anything else but...

What're you guys' thoughts on my writing?

Do I make intros too long? or are my stories as a whole getting to be too long?

Is there anything y'all want to see make a return? Anything you guys want or think need to be left out?

this all is just because I'm writing another random story but something about it feels off and I can't place my finger on what that would be and I want to see if someone could help me spot the problem.

so uhh... I forgor what day easter was and started writing the story a little late, It'll come out sometime within the next few days, and this one's going to be different. WHY? you ask? M A G I C.

yeah, it has magic rabbits, which is definitely a first for me as I normally plan my stories out based on questionable, "semi-realistic" science and semi-realistic bio-mechanics.

Actually as i started typing that, i realized that pokemon moves could be technically described as magic, soo... ignore that "first" talk i guess. still, trying something new, it'll be out soon, and you can flay me when it does lmao

what would you readers think If i went for a taur story?

ATM it's a pretty weird idea that goes along the lines of "animal gets too close to person, animal attacks, gets head stuck in persons ass, head and neck fuses with person's lower body, taur"

it IS weird how this was an idea i had for years at this point, the only problem is that what i've currently described is something of a cleansed version. Won't get into too many details but this idea actually ties in (spiritually) to how Claire's predator syndrome originally came to be before the rewrite... bloody, and kinda dark. OBV i'm going with the version in quotes, but i can't help but be curious as to people's thoughts.

also... sorry for the downtime, My cat died and I'm still getting back into the swing of things.

he was a good cat... noisy and annoying as hell, but a good one.

does anyone else randomly wake up feeling like a hot mess, only for those feelings to disappear after you've had time to really wake up?
like brain, what the fuck WHY?
why make me feel like that at the crack of dawn?

anyways, how was everyone else's morning?

So uhh... I recently looked back through some of my earlier stories and holy crap...

there's still a lot of jank, but wow, somehow it feels like the stories as a whole were much more alive. y'know they had ACTUAL plot... obv there were plenty of things I did wrong, but the stories I make now aren't nearly as emotional... feels like I started on a high note and now I'm just struggling to make the same or better strides.

I'm still gonna try to write better and better stories, but for all their jank, my older pieces feel like they had more soul in them.
or maybe I'm just looking at them with rose tinted glasses.

1 Addendum... I'm also realized why I stopped adding mick as a featured character. something about the way I made him talk just... didn't translate well in terms of clarity.

heyo...

So it looks like i'm on a bit of a claire bender at the moment.
this next one isn't necessarily going to be vorny, but it does involve a bit of revenge vore/weightgain.

And yeah it does kind of tie in to the scrap story i posted a couple days ago. I made it as more of a proof of concept, to see if I could write something like that, before I actually committed to getting a whole, proper story behind it. so yippee.

everyone who reads this journal, consider the proof of concept as a kind of sneak peek of what I was trying to aim for as a resolution to the second awakening arc.

hmmm now that I think about it, maybe I should post a journal that details the various arcs of wanderlust's main story. but that's another journal for another day

good news, The rewrite is almost finished and is currently 50% bigger than the original. but at the same time, It's also a mix of ambiguity, and a kind of horror i wasn't expecting to write into the story.

All in all, It somehow turned out darker than the original, but ends on a much brighter note. all without completely destroying Claire's character, or turning her into a kind of hail mary sue character. Also with the way I'm planning the ending, It can tie into a proper revenge or comeuppance arc while adding a bit more lore.
speaking of which, This is going to have plenty more information on Claire's flavor of predator syndrome than the OG. Another thing to note is that, due to the nature of the rewrite, and what's going to come after, It felt like the espionage part of the title doesn't fit any more so... NEW TITLE. espionage comes after, but for the sake of consistency, I'm keeping the orginal up, but moving it to my scraps.

Fingers crossed this one turns out much better than the original, though I don't know what tags I can put in it yet.