It's been quite a length of time since I've been actively chatting here, so what's up?

Everyone have a good and safe time. No drinking and driving. Make it into the new year alive and well.

So let me start with something controversial. Why do people complain about the US butting their nose into other country's affairs, but other countries have no qualms about complaining about US internal affairs?

This includes gun rights/regulations/bans, presidential candidates, political policies, etc.
And go.

I'm bored of playing solo on my server. Anyone else want to waste time with me? I play The 1710 Pack (technic launcher) with a couple of mods added. I'm open to adding a few more if I get them configured correctly. I play because I have to spend at least an hour a day thinking of nothing work/house building related. So come craft with me tonight! Comment if you can join/have questions. I'll post the ip up when I'm home later. Save me from solo boredom. Be bored with me.

Happy Easter all. The day they used to show nothing but Merrie Melodies/Looney Tunes/Bugs Bunny. I feel old.

== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
96% Bondage Giver
94% Primal (Predator)
93% Experimentalist
88% Sadist
84% Primal (Prey)
83% Dominant
79% Brat Tamer
76% Daddy/Mommy
74% Masochist
71% Master/Mistress
68% Voyeur
65% Degradation Giver
63% Bondage Receiver
63% Switch
58% Exhibitionist
57% Brat
50% Submissive
46% Non-monogamist
38% Girl/Boy
38% Slave
36% Pervert
25% Vanilla
8% All-Rounder
4% Degradation Receiver
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=51127

New Year's everybody

... old as dirt tomorrow.

Everyone have a safe and wonderful Christmas and into the New Year. Don't drink and drive, don't get yourself into a bad situation. Be responsible and safe.

CoD: AW or Destiny... does anyone else play Space Engineers?

... Halloween everybody.

Stolen from  reisdreams

Are You Afraid Of:
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces (They make me anxious but they don't scare me.)
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish (I want to be a Marine Biologist. They kinda come with the territory)
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 0

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water (Same as Fish)
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's dad
[ ] girlfriends/boyfriend's mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 0

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges (Bridges in General)
[ ] death (By living you are just prolonging the inevitable. Death will happen.)
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people (I don't like singing on stage in front of large crowds but I have and will again)
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
Total so far: 0

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks (Goes along with Fish)
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty (I grew up poor, It is just a part of life)
[ ] Halloween (I adore Halloween, It is my favorite holiday.
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up (I can age but I don't think I will ever really grow up)
Total so far: 0

[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up (Not afraid just don't like it.)
[ ] falling in love (I'll gladly! I love you Sorrel!)
[] super secrets (like life destroying secrets?)
Total: 0

If you wish to post this journal, it's been requested that you title it, "I'm afraid of __ out of __ fears"

if you get more than 30, I highly suggest counseling
if you get more than 20, you're paranoid
if you get 10-20, you're normal.
if you get under 10, you're fearless

Meh, life happens.

Anyone on PS4? Looking for night time fireteamers. Probably want to use Party Chat as well. Comment or note.

I heard a song... a new song and it brought me back to over a decade ago. It made me somewhat depressed. I've been dealing with an explosion incident that occurred within our company's chain of customers and it hasn't been a walk in the park at all. I'm sorry to all for the lack of communications. This is just an update to let people know I'm still alive at the moment. Enjoy the rest of your days.

Haven't posted in a while. Ask me stuff and I'll answer.

... with a project that I want to do. Comment or note for more info.

Stolen from  whitephoxx

Name: Jon
Nickname: Long hair, Jon, The Man, Hippie, Kevin Smith
Location: Northwest Louisiana
Age: 29
Height: 5'9"
Zodiac sign: Capricorn/Rat
Any pets: 11 cats, 5 dogs, 6 goats, 2 chickens, and a fox that loves eating my chickens that lives in the woods.
Favorite thing about yourself: Eyes, hair, intelligence.
Worst habit: Trying to take on everything by myself.
Fun fact: I love my family and I have family dinner with my dad every Sunday.

Identity, Sexuality &Personality

Gender identity: Male
Sexual preference: Straight although I have a few man crushes.
Romantic preference: Still figuring that one out.
"Kinsey Scale" score: 0-1?
Relationship status: When I'm old enough.
Myers/Briggs type: ENTP Extravert(22%) iNtuitive(88%) Thinking(62%) Perceiving(11%)
Hogwarts house: Apparently Ravenclaw, if I took the correct test.

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Both. I sleep from around 12a- 5a.
Bath or shower: Showers take less time.
First thought in the morning: What all needs to get done? Stop clawing me cats. Ok, I'll feed you fat things.
Last thought before falling asleep at night: Why can't you sleep?

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: Work for a living and student of the universe.
What do you do well: Learning.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: House half way paid down, owning a boat, having a pond built near the front pasture, maybe old enough, and 21 years from my set retirement date.


Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: Occasionally
Smoke: Nope
Do Drugs: Nope
Exercise: When I'm not working so much, I hit the gym.
Have a go-to comfort food: .... normally I just have some coffee or tea and talk with my dad when I need comfort.
Have a nervous habit: When I can't comprehend the amount of stupid around me, I tend to blink excessively, mutter obscenities, and randomly yell the proper answers at said people.


What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): Eyes and hair
In Others: Eyes, hair, hygiene, health, grammar.
Mental/emotional quality(in yourself): I am unbiased and blunt. I tend to not let things rule me.
Food: Anything new.
Drink: Coffee and Teas
Animal: Cats and dogs
Artist/Band/Group: Anything with a good beat and understandable lyrics.
Author/Poet: Whoever I feel like at a given moment.
TV Show: I rarely watch TV.
Actor/Actress: Clint Eastwood, Burt Reynolds, Sean Connery, Robert Downey, Jr., Catherine Zeta Jones, some other classics.

... for the 239 watchers that watch me.

Ok, I'm going to play good ear, bad ear. How this works: Comment/Note me with the following..
1] Good ear, supportive/fluffy comment or bad ear, harsher/piercing comment
2] Body type, as detailed as you are willing [can be weight, gender, anything really].
3] Goal for your body type eventually. You can even mention a goal date if you want [can be weight, gender, anything really].
4] Your opinion on your body type vs the stereotypes for your body type. This is kind of important for an understanding of where you are [comfort/coping] with your own body.
5] Your opinion on your goal body type etc etc same as above.
6] Plan you choose to use to get your body type and if it's designed for a specific gender.
7] Extreme plans as last resort such as surgeries that you've thought of having done.


Lets try to break out of our personal bubbles and share some. I feel this will help open some people up to others/at least me/ and allow some ground work to be set into motion.

Don't be afraid people.

Write something you assume is true about me and I will confirm or deny!

Only two people entered my raffle. So now I have a binary decision to make. Brb

I've been going through a spell that normally happens around this time of year where I get sudden depression and abandonment feels. Long stories short: I've lost a lot of people in my life around this time of year and it always comes back around to me. I have the willpower to pick myself up, but I tend to get really grief stricken. Pardon me for being out of the normal at times throughout the day. I will remember those that are gone and this is how I do it, I guess. In other news that you all probably would rather hear about: I have my project list moving on. It was on hold due to indecision of a certain setup with my '68 Mustang. I didn't want to get on any other projects until I had this decision made. Luckily for me, my buddy, Mr. James [long running joke], needed help at his shop and we were goofing off that evening and he asked if I wanted a couple of scrap engines. Yes, I do want them. Low and behold... one was a 335 series 400. The other however was a 351C. Skip ahead for you non car folks. The 351C was a race engine before it was a car engine... and that is what's going in my mustang. Time era correct... just I will modernize the power plant for the project.

Car projects aside, I also get a lot of thoughts around this time of year involving mortality. Life is short. We only have such little time to meet people and to love people. As I get older, I feel time slips by even faster than normal. What used to seem like months, now flow by like weeks. I swear not too long ago that this was Christmas time. These feelings make me feel the mortality closing in a bit. I actually have a fear of death. Not of dying, but dying without being missed/remembered. It's silly, I'm aware. I have no legacy to leave if I were to pass on. The people I've met here may wonder why I'm not on anymore or people who text me may not be able to get a hold of me anymore. Keywords: If my cellphone number is ever changed, then something bad has happened. I have an AT&T phone with unlimited data, grandfathered in. I will never in my lifetime give that up. Here is another thing: How well do people know me on here to miss me? I want to share some of my personal life with people, but I just haven't found the right opportunity to get to open up. There are a few people I enjoy bugging though. Hm. I have had thoughts of creating a website that if I would fail to log in every 6 months or so, that it would send out my personal testament of who I was in my life and who I cared for while I was around. It's such a depressing thought, but I don't want to leave anyone's feelings hanging if something were to happen to me. I hate not having closure and I would rather not have my passing keep people from having such a closure. I don't plan on dying anytime soon, but as some know my job is very dangerous and there have been many times that I've been lucky to still be around. I do thank people for the concern, but I do love my job. It pays well, it's almost a guaranteed position due to the risks and I am apparently the only person smart enough at my business to handle any issue.

I guess I have a lot of things in me that I want to tell people and I have no proper way of conveying these feelings due to how I am. I can be thick headed and very dense with taking any hints. I think I've formed it out of nature of not wanting to be tied down. It does make me feel lonely though. I can't help it though. I have a life outside of what I show. It's a life where I work, eat, sleep. That's about it. I wake up to work. I have nothing else. I do spend time with my dad on Sundays. I've designated it Family Day. My mom... it's complicated. I don't feel right to say I'm very despondent about a relationship with her. My brother is a very similar case. All I seem to have is my Dad and Baby Sis. It crushes me to think of the day I lose him though. I'm running out of people. Ha... laughing it off isn't helping. I'm probably going to post this and feel bad for leaking some things out. I don't feel right doing it to the people that speak to me on skype. I'd rather my hazy mood be broad and spread. Maybe this won't get any reads, just a skim. Ah well, sometimes I need someone to talk to. Not just chat, but someone that I can actually tell about myself to. No one is ready for my story I feel. It's not really that bad compared to others. It's just a very emotional ride for someone that doesn't have time to stop, grieve, and cry a little. I haven't had a chance and I apologize to everyone that I've lost for letting my job work me when you all needed me. I bury myself in the scientific thought that when you die that you are just gone, but that seems like such bs when you had such an impact in my life. I still don't/won't forget you all and one day I'll be with you again and we can all hang out staring off somewhere.

That turned more emotional than I intended. I apologize for letting things get out of the cracks in my heart, but I can't delete them because that would insult everyone that this was meant for. May all of you rest in peace.

-From a spot in this wolf-bear's lonesome heart.