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Posted 14 years agoanthrocon 2011
Posted 14 years agobest AC yet! i had so much fun! yes... there was, like every event ive ever been to, drama all around... but i payed no attn to it. i met some really fucking cool people... some of wich i can allready tell will be life long friends. thank you maya kins, lili, psyphur, andee, ally, oni... all my PA and NEO furs... mad fucking <3 for you guys!!!
love (lack there of)
Posted 14 years agoyou fell out of love with me... why? i will never know. you tell me you dont have room for me in your new life. again... why? ill never know.
how long ago did you say you "started falling out of love with me"? how long did you let me go on and on about our future? how long did you just sit there and humor me while i told you my deepest, most honest feelings?
everything you have said since friday... all those many different, unclear reasons on why you were mad at me... your constantly changing story... i see now. you were just looking for a reason to dump me. you dont love me... hell, i dont know if you ever did. if you have been lying to me for this long... then how much longer could this have been going on that you wont even admit? hell you dumped me after a weekend long fight, suddenly, and abruptly, for a reason that had absolutely nothing to do with anything we had talked about before hand.
you walked all over my heart, my feelings, my soul.
i have never been so hurt by any one person. i have never felt such a crushing blow. i have never felt so betrayed - stabbed in the back - as you have done me.
i will one day again be happy, but it wont be with you, and wont be because of you, and you are the reason why.
how long ago did you say you "started falling out of love with me"? how long did you let me go on and on about our future? how long did you just sit there and humor me while i told you my deepest, most honest feelings?
everything you have said since friday... all those many different, unclear reasons on why you were mad at me... your constantly changing story... i see now. you were just looking for a reason to dump me. you dont love me... hell, i dont know if you ever did. if you have been lying to me for this long... then how much longer could this have been going on that you wont even admit? hell you dumped me after a weekend long fight, suddenly, and abruptly, for a reason that had absolutely nothing to do with anything we had talked about before hand.
you walked all over my heart, my feelings, my soul.
i have never been so hurt by any one person. i have never felt such a crushing blow. i have never felt so betrayed - stabbed in the back - as you have done me.
i will one day again be happy, but it wont be with you, and wont be because of you, and you are the reason why.
dreams
Posted 14 years agoi don't write... much like i don't dream. or.. to be more precise, i never remember my dreams, and if i do, 99% of the time its a nightmare. with that said...
last night, i had a dream. a very vivid, colorful dream, that i can remember quite clearly. whats fucked up about it, is that there seems to be a reacquiring theme... the house...
long ago... maybe a year ago? maybe less... i had a dream, no, a nightmare, and it all revolved around this house. out in the middle of the deep deep woods... out away from everything, and everyone else, was this house. it looked like a debilitated Chinese tennent home from the way it was falling down upon itself. it looked as though someone continuously built addition after addition until a simple farm house slowly became an apartment building. then abandoned for what appeared to be forever. it gave you the kind of dread that the res evil mansion, or town of silent hill would give you, if you had just wandered into it.
in that dream, i was being chased by something i never saw, but had the constant fear that i must not get caught. i explored the house, top to bottom, and as cool a house as it was in retrospect, i was still scared for my life, and only took in a few details, but they were very very vivid ones.
last night however... the house was much different.
apparently rob the slob and drea vasquez were now living in this giant apartment building, that they recently bought right after it was renovated into a single home. no longer were there separate apartments within, but instead one giant living space, with many many many rooms, 3 stories high. i slightly recognized the outside of the building, but it hadn't stuck me yet. they were giving me, and a bunch of their friends a tour of the place. as we walked up the giant winding staircase up towards the 3rd floor, i began to realize it was the same house. we reached the first "apartment". it looked like any apartment building unit... nothing special... except that i knew, somehow, deep within my soul, i knew that this was the same house from my previous dream. (strangely enough, my brain knew that i had dreamed of this house before, but didn't realize i was dreaming about it again, and instead interperated it as reality.) i turned to rob saying "i know this house! i know this house! there is an elevator shaft! ill find it and prove to you that i had a dream about this house!"
i left in search of the elevator. as i reached the end of the first unit, i was surprised to see no dividing wall. no fire wall. nothing separating this apartment from the giant, apartment sized room that i was now in. black and rust colors dominated this room. everything was made out of sheets of riveted steel and fence work. it looked like an industrial grunge bar... there was a small kitchen along one wall, a grand staircase heading down to the floor below along another wall, and a bathroom in the back. i remembered this room from the first dream. the elevator doors were in this room. i was sure of it! i searched every wall. i couldn't find any door. "maybe it was taken out in the renovation project" i thought to myself. i continued into the next unit, to find that i was awestruck. from floor to ceiling, along every wall, someone had sculpted paper-mache shapes to cover the entire unit with, all of witch were painted sky blue and white. everything in the unit was this color scheme actually... in the center of the room, the hardwood floor sunk into a seating area, deep enough that the floor was level with the back of the couch within. a well stocked bar sat along the back of the unit, and a huge flat screen tv took up the majority of one wall. i just stood there... soaking in the beauty of this room... in total awe... but no! i was on a mission! i lined up where i was sure the elevator should have been, but no... it wasn't there.
i returned to the "grunge bar" room to find that rob, drea, and the rest of the guests had arrived in that room, and were sipping cocktails, and nibbling finger-foods.
i reported to rob my findings, or rather, lack there of. i told him to go to the basement. that's where i first saw the giant steel elevator doors, witch were bolted shut. even if the shaft was removed in the renovation, those doors surely must remain below. "NO!" he shouted, as he cast me a wild glare. much more quietly, he whispered unto me the words, "we dont go down there. no one goes down there". he, in all my years, never looked more serious. it sent a chill down my spine.
i decided now that i should shrug it off, and enjoy myself. i grabbed a cocktail, and walked up to drea, and jokingly said, "hey! looking for a roommate? the place sure is big enough!"
"no... we cant have anyone else living here... we just simply cant have it!" again... a very serious tone, very serious face...
then she switched topics motioning me to look down. "have you met our friends from Portland? they came all the way here just to see the place!" i then saw 3 of the ugliest cats ive ever seen, and 2 ankle biter dogs. then i looked around to notice that all the guests were small, house pets.
i then woke up very suddenly.
ok experts... WHAT THE FUCK!???
last night, i had a dream. a very vivid, colorful dream, that i can remember quite clearly. whats fucked up about it, is that there seems to be a reacquiring theme... the house...
long ago... maybe a year ago? maybe less... i had a dream, no, a nightmare, and it all revolved around this house. out in the middle of the deep deep woods... out away from everything, and everyone else, was this house. it looked like a debilitated Chinese tennent home from the way it was falling down upon itself. it looked as though someone continuously built addition after addition until a simple farm house slowly became an apartment building. then abandoned for what appeared to be forever. it gave you the kind of dread that the res evil mansion, or town of silent hill would give you, if you had just wandered into it.
in that dream, i was being chased by something i never saw, but had the constant fear that i must not get caught. i explored the house, top to bottom, and as cool a house as it was in retrospect, i was still scared for my life, and only took in a few details, but they were very very vivid ones.
last night however... the house was much different.
apparently rob the slob and drea vasquez were now living in this giant apartment building, that they recently bought right after it was renovated into a single home. no longer were there separate apartments within, but instead one giant living space, with many many many rooms, 3 stories high. i slightly recognized the outside of the building, but it hadn't stuck me yet. they were giving me, and a bunch of their friends a tour of the place. as we walked up the giant winding staircase up towards the 3rd floor, i began to realize it was the same house. we reached the first "apartment". it looked like any apartment building unit... nothing special... except that i knew, somehow, deep within my soul, i knew that this was the same house from my previous dream. (strangely enough, my brain knew that i had dreamed of this house before, but didn't realize i was dreaming about it again, and instead interperated it as reality.) i turned to rob saying "i know this house! i know this house! there is an elevator shaft! ill find it and prove to you that i had a dream about this house!"
i left in search of the elevator. as i reached the end of the first unit, i was surprised to see no dividing wall. no fire wall. nothing separating this apartment from the giant, apartment sized room that i was now in. black and rust colors dominated this room. everything was made out of sheets of riveted steel and fence work. it looked like an industrial grunge bar... there was a small kitchen along one wall, a grand staircase heading down to the floor below along another wall, and a bathroom in the back. i remembered this room from the first dream. the elevator doors were in this room. i was sure of it! i searched every wall. i couldn't find any door. "maybe it was taken out in the renovation project" i thought to myself. i continued into the next unit, to find that i was awestruck. from floor to ceiling, along every wall, someone had sculpted paper-mache shapes to cover the entire unit with, all of witch were painted sky blue and white. everything in the unit was this color scheme actually... in the center of the room, the hardwood floor sunk into a seating area, deep enough that the floor was level with the back of the couch within. a well stocked bar sat along the back of the unit, and a huge flat screen tv took up the majority of one wall. i just stood there... soaking in the beauty of this room... in total awe... but no! i was on a mission! i lined up where i was sure the elevator should have been, but no... it wasn't there.
i returned to the "grunge bar" room to find that rob, drea, and the rest of the guests had arrived in that room, and were sipping cocktails, and nibbling finger-foods.
i reported to rob my findings, or rather, lack there of. i told him to go to the basement. that's where i first saw the giant steel elevator doors, witch were bolted shut. even if the shaft was removed in the renovation, those doors surely must remain below. "NO!" he shouted, as he cast me a wild glare. much more quietly, he whispered unto me the words, "we dont go down there. no one goes down there". he, in all my years, never looked more serious. it sent a chill down my spine.
i decided now that i should shrug it off, and enjoy myself. i grabbed a cocktail, and walked up to drea, and jokingly said, "hey! looking for a roommate? the place sure is big enough!"
"no... we cant have anyone else living here... we just simply cant have it!" again... a very serious tone, very serious face...
then she switched topics motioning me to look down. "have you met our friends from Portland? they came all the way here just to see the place!" i then saw 3 of the ugliest cats ive ever seen, and 2 ankle biter dogs. then i looked around to notice that all the guests were small, house pets.
i then woke up very suddenly.
ok experts... WHAT THE FUCK!???
great little 21 minute dubstep mix in honor of 420 (contest)
Posted 14 years ago5 tracks long, including charlie sheen's interview, lady gaga's "paparazzi", and more bass then any one fur can handle. hits you hard, then lets you down nice and ez.
Catnip-High
http://www.lolli.org/Artists/zippy-kitty.aspx
listen, enjoy, comment, and feel free to download for free!
X3
BTW: repost a journal entry with this post copy/pasted, send me the link for verification, and you will be entered in a raffle for a free meldown painting by yours truly!
Catnip-High
http://www.lolli.org/Artists/zippy-kitty.aspx
listen, enjoy, comment, and feel free to download for free!
X3
BTW: repost a journal entry with this post copy/pasted, send me the link for verification, and you will be entered in a raffle for a free meldown painting by yours truly!
check me out, me and my good vibes :)
Posted 14 years agohttp://soundcloud.com/zippy-kitty
my latest mixes out on soundcloud. dubstep, fidget, bassline and electro house mixes uploaded often so check back. feel free to comment, i love feedback! good or bad, it helps me develop as a DJ X3
my latest mixes out on soundcloud. dubstep, fidget, bassline and electro house mixes uploaded often so check back. feel free to comment, i love feedback! good or bad, it helps me develop as a DJ X3
epic art!! ohai!
Posted 14 years agoplz plz plz take 30 seconds to help my lil sister
Posted 14 years agoATTN EVERYONE I KNOW: my lil sis is in a contest. plz plz plz click the link below and vote for her. she really deserves it. she is the harley quinn upside down on the red chair ;)
Im in a Contest
To vote for me you just need to like this page http://www.facebook.com/otakuhouse and then go like my photo http://www.facebook.com/#!/photo.ph.....36&theater
Otaku House
Otaku House is a leading Japanese toys and gifts retail chain store. Our products include catchy gift items, anime toys, designer toys and cosplay costumes. Basically, we fuse Japanese toys, anime collectibles, & other nonsensical gifts under one roof. Our online store ships worldwide : http://otakuhouse.com/.
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Im in a Contest
To vote for me you just need to like this page http://www.facebook.com/otakuhouse and then go like my photo http://www.facebook.com/#!/photo.ph.....36&theater
Otaku House
Otaku House is a leading Japanese toys and gifts retail chain store. Our products include catchy gift items, anime toys, designer toys and cosplay costumes. Basically, we fuse Japanese toys, anime collectibles, & other nonsensical gifts under one roof. Our online store ships worldwide : http://otakuhouse.com/.
Page: 18,540 people like this.
