My laugh would be "Ne hu ha ha ha hahh"

I suck at human interaction, nothing more, nothing less.

How do I make good use of negative emotions?

I don't have anywhere to vent my frustrations or question things I don't understand, those things have always been treated as the worst thing ever in my experience.
Just sit back never ask questions and bottle up all your worthless emotions cause nobody cares, DON'T FEEL ANYTHING.
Always go with the group no matter how stupid their ways are or how toxic they may be, everyone hates an individual.
Don't ever do anything for yourself, you'll be seen as selfish. Always bend over backwards for others because you needs are nothing compared to theirs.
Never have dream or asperations because there's a 100% chance of them failing, that's just the way things are.
You are a servant, you are expendable, follow orders and there will be no trouble.

You don't go to hell when you die, your born in it.

Fuck you, I draw what I want, then take my sweet time posting it (if i ever do).

Holy fuck you guys, I survived this damned holiday by getting drunk off my ass. Have a nice day/night thingy, and fuck have a drink cause you derived it after this stupid assed year.

Have you ever gotten so frustrated that you wanted to kill off a character, the character in question did nothing wrong other than being in the path of your rage?

I feel that way more often than I should, I feel it deeply and I don't want to.

Personally every time I look at my characters I just remember all the shit I'll never be able to do with them, they just gather dust and their to personal to sell/give away.

Every day I waste on trying to make these stupid things look good the further I'm pushed away from them, fucking sucks man.

Oh wow, I broke 300 watchers

Just google "giraffe drinking" it's the same exact shit.

Vore is dumb

Gonna get off my ass and be more productive rather than letting every single bad thing gather up and bog me down,
wish I'd have done this much much sooner. Anyways, see you whenever I do.

Computer troubles, time to change up my comp. So uh I'm gonna have to probably be offline for a while.
Unless I fine another way to be online. Also, looking to replace this shit with a real computer.

spring cleaning or something

Why should I?
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I'll just give you all a TLDR of what I deleted: I hate what my life is and I don't see any way out, I feel like shit nearly all the time and blah blah you've all heard this before a thousand times. I'm too used to feeling like trash.

I keep telling myself I don't care so I won't be trapped in this goddamn endless loop.

Godamn why does the absolute worst in people come out when they go to twitter, I'm just so damn fed up with it and everyone acts like it's normal.
Witch hunting innocent people isn't normal, throwing out baseless accusations isn't normal, fuckng up someone's reputation cause you don't like them isn't goddamn normal. Stop tying to normalize constant petty conflict, it's no good for anyone and when actual concerning controversial stuff happens nobody lifts a finger and it damned annoying.
I only tolerate the verbal hellzone cause a few artists I happen to enjoy were lured into it, pray that you don't become popular on twitter cause people will search for any mistake you've made in the past and use it to try and take you down regardless of it you've moved on and become a better person. People have too much damn time on their hands and they use that time just to make others feel awful.

There's no regulations to rumor spreading, witch hunting or allegations and people have field day with that. I just can't take this fucking drama every damn day, it's always some artist turned out to be an asshole or some other guy was super racist or another being called a pedophile, it's old and stressful. There's no telling how many people on twitter that have me blocked due to their assumptions of me, you know the guy that doesn't fucking do anything, yeah that guy.......I hate him for some reason.
This toxic way of thinking should NOT be normalized, it's awful and now I'm once again regretting not being a more verbose person cause then I'd be able to go into depth about this situation; But I can however sum it up shortly, Twitter is like a toxic friend who manipulates you into changing your views or making you say things you wouldn't in person, it twists and enrages bringing out the complete worst in people. I've seen people I once respected become complete assholes, I'm not even sure if their naturally like that or being on twitter just fucks with their judgment. I just hate it, I hate twitter and everything it's made people.

Say hypothetically I started doing commissions for less than ten bucks, would anyone be interested?

As of now I'm gonna hold off on doing fetish artwork, I have many reasons one of which being I wouldn't improve at all doing it.
Another being the fact that I'd prefer to not be known for just that; sure it's fine for others but I'm legitimately trying to improve.
I'm not really denouncing it I'm just trying to find my way instead of doing what everyone expects of me, I want to enjoy art again.

Okay, enough with the unfunny jokes and all the annoying stupid bullshit. Just get back to work cause the last thing people need right now is being annoyed by people with nothing better to do, fuck this fake holiday.

i dont care for making journals, not like anyones gonna notice

Skipping valentines this year cause it's bullshit, it's not love if you paid for it.
Besides I got more important shit to worry about than getting the most shallow "i love you's" ever.

So you can all go whore yourselves out but I'm probably gonna be drunk most of the day cause I need it to function.

There are so many people I used to talk to, quite a few I'd consider friends but with my own issues I've been rather neglectful of them.
Some folks I haven't talked to in years and I don't even know if their still around, or if they are still the same person.

I personally have never had a friend group nor do I fully understand that concept so often times I'm confused as to why I'm included in things. Maybe I'm just not capable of feeling that way for people but all the same I've been too closed up for my own good.

I seriously don't know what to do in this situatio, I've never been an expert.

I now realize the importance of taking my pills and the fact that the dosage wasn't high enough.

I'm okay, just had a minor breakdown and I sorta left a lot of discord groups and I'm not sure when I'd be comfortable going back.
This is still an issue, it may always be an issue but whatever.

Keep a lookout for that, regardless of how halfassed.

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