Yep, lvl 33 now

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10456208/

Theyve been unable to get a job for a few months and its still gonna be some time before he can secure one but any little bit would help

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10438782/

Despite everything, they're coming up short on expenses. Please help how you can.

A signal boost to a friend who is in need and has opened up for commissions

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9657262/

If you're not interested thats okay but please retweet or signal boost if you can

To those who celebrate it, hope you have a good one. My birthday was officially 3 days ago now and i had a fun time the day before to make up for it. Got to hang out with friends and acquaintances at a picnic and got some stuff crocheted (despite the drive being very hard to keep going sometimes). I am now 28 and have sort of a grasp of what i may want to do for at least a couple years (just to get a feel for it) and hope it may work out for me.

Either way the story im writing is still being worked on, hopefully inspiration (or drive) will strike me and allow me to crank a chapter or two. Till then i'll try to get more things going and try to post more.

so... 2018 was not the best year for most of us, we all can agree to that. I did focus a bit on what i want to do in the new year, mostly by going to a crochet group at a local library and that helped out immensely. Its also been over a year since i left my folks house and moved in with my mate and can actually keep a savings (which has been a god send) as well as be able to afford copays to the dentists (which was also necessary.) Most of the bad that happened this year, for me, was my mate and i's horrid roommate almost causing us to lose our apartment but that at least ended in September and we have gain our financial stability. Overall im going to try and spend as much of the new year working on the hobbies and improve my skills in them.

this is a signal boost and the original can be found here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8915357/

even if you spread the word it would help

So im officially moved in with  forerunner777 aka my mate, things are slowly adjusting (mostly for the better) than my previous living space. Heckuva lot of things happening this year, the move proving tp be the most irritating (by having to put it off and reschedule time and time again) but its done.

-rant-

Sadly ive been feeling a lot more reclusive the past week or so, more socially than anything. The internet used to be a place where i felt free enough to speak my honest opinion or share a deep thought, but a lot of chat rooms ive been in lately have had sudden spikes of toxic people or flame wars online to participate in. I enjoy a lot of things in the groups but ive felt the lax enforcement of some of the rules those chats have (little can be done there though) I try to jump into conversations when i have a good interest in and in those rare occasions theres also a chance that the chat dies or an arguement is started -.- Sad to say most of these events have happened since january, its just the frequency of it happening is growing.

-end rant-

Anyways, im just gonna do what i can where i can since their's no use trying to help if others dont want something fixed.

This year so far has been quite tiring. Stepdad is on disability from work due to his health (he is a truck driver) so my mate is trying to get living arrangements together.

Work has been a massive annoyance due to the many many MANY store walks we have had since the remodeling of the store.

Yesterday though, it was quite a change honestly. I got up, went to my mate's place, took him and his roommate (a brony who understands what we went through) to an indoor pool. We swam for a couple hours and just relaxed for the most of it. Afterwards we went to a chinese buffet, there was a large pool with many large koi fish. At the end of it, i drove us back to their apartment when our friend surprised me with a cake. It was a wonderful day overall. As far as what i got presents wise, i had bought a few things for myself here and there since April for myself. A keyblade being the biggest one (a large foam version of the deciseve Pumpkin) which goes well with my Decapitated Pumpkin keyblade as well as my own Halloweentown Fursuit. I just hope there are more good days like this to come.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sherlock_Hound

This was by far my favorite Non-Disney experience of anthro animals (aside from Richard Scarry's "Happy little town")

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8202590/

 katalina and  jtigerclaw specifically, JT lost his job and both are open for commissions. Please spread the word if you can.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8093497/

This guy's BF is needing donations to keep from losing his house and the meds his mom needs. Share the link or donate, the maker of the journal is also doing commissions for it as well.

http://www.adjectivespecies.com/201.....y-anthologies/

Good for a read of what to expect, it was quite the surprise to me

http://terribleminds.com/ramble/201.....stard-edition/

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7722019/  k-n3ko is in need of commissions since he is in college right now, the money helps a lot.

another artist looking for commissions is  jolijacques http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7918289/ who has some wonderful art skills she can perform

along with all that theres a friend of mine who is looking for commissions  olivertheoshawott

Please help how you can, even if its just spreading the word.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7722019/  k-n3ko is in need of commissions since he is in college right now, the money helps a lot.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7738146/ and http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7738140/  goddess_of_the_dead and  thediversezabuza are equally in need of commissions, not only to get another tablet (which is both of their side jobs on top of being a parent and another job)

Please help how you can, even if its just spreading the word.

Tired:
I'm just... Tired of being tired. Tired of seeing those around me having so much to deal with and nothing I can do to help them. I'm tired of feeling like a stepping stone and only getting a pat on the back as a reward, or feeling like I'm a cork that's keeping the ship afloat. I'm tired of having friends but no one interested enough to help me on my projects (due to either time or personal reasons.) I'm tired of feeling empty inside when I have so much to be thankful for. I'm tired of not being able to be involved because of these feelings in these vent journals. I'm tired of the idiocy I'm surrounded by but am stuck knowing I can't do anything about it. I'm tired of having such big hopes and projects just to lose them to something going wrong at the worst time. (Causing me to forget about it or to put it off for later and never get to it)

What I've gained:
Of all the things I'm grateful for its that my mom and my mate has been there for me and supporting me, the friends I've made that have stuck with me and kept me doing things, the fact that god is trying to get my siblings to try and rekindle what friendship we had. (my sis actually joining the furry schtick via telegram and sharing with me a group of furs in Kentucky)

euroference 20 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ueC0TeIIP7o

https://youtu.be/ueC0TeIIP7o?t=57m10s 20 seconds
https://youtu.be/ueC0TeIIP7o?t=57m30s 18 seconds
https://youtu.be/ueC0TeIIP7o?t=57m48s 15 seconds
https://youtu.be/ueC0TeIIP7o?t=58m56s 54 seconds

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZi1VehtE0A

till i listen to this and then i feel bad about laughing to it XD

https://youtu.be/3nDBFv5W-x4 - mood song post vent

Its sad to know that this is the day and age where your judged by what you do on social media, whether its sharing something of interest, concern, a hobby, or even something family based. My neighbor across the street saw a post that I shared and immediately took it wrong by looking at the title of the shared post that was post Orlando shooting and was in responce to said shooting (which was saying this is not america where people are able to go around shooting people en masse because the people shot are near gays, in a gay supporting building, a gathering hall of any kind even for religious reasons because the people who are weilsing the gun aren't considered dangerous enough for the government or what have you to do the proper paperwork). Now note this neighbor of mine is in her 70s, a full 3 generations of distance between now and when she was young, she is also computer illiterate to the point where the options come up from right clicking with the mouse and is afraid she broke the computer. This, amongst other reasons, is why I seclude myself to furry stuff or fantasy where and when I can while trying to save face. *eye roll* that's my vent, thanks for reading.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OBDjlVbt7tg

than anyone expected o3o

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7616227/

 zicnoracel made a journal so im trying to help spread the word, and no i dont know all the information on the eviction

And none of them match the feelings. A long while ago i was in a skype group, friend invites another friend. 3 months later and the group disbands because the invited friend was too much to deal with for everyone and they make a new one and leave this friend. They try inviting me and i leave, it takes three adding/leavings to ask why, I tell them why and they shrug it off. I cut my ties to all of them and try to put them out of my mind as best i can, none of them even messaged me privately (during the skype groups time before the invited friend or ever) in an attempt to keep friendship ties, not even the maker of the group itself.

This is part of the reason why i am venting, 6 years or so of this being buried over and over again and yet it still resurfaces time and again. Im not going to name usernames or anything (not like it matters since they dont look at my journals or anything else i post) and i dont do this sort of vent thing unless i have to get it out. But people can be real pricks, online or IRL and theres no changing it. Anyway back to the vent issues.

After trying to move on again and again i meet a new friend, we rp and chat and he decides to put me in a fur family. All is well till he decides to say he made the maker of the skype group part of his family. Anyone whose had something like this happen before can probably guess what i did.... I flipped out and let loose anger targeted at that person to the member of the fur family, after time and again telling that fur family member what that person did in the past only to be met with "you dont have to be related to him in the fur family if you dont want to". *facepalms in frustration* not the point of why i was pissed, why i was pissed was him mentioning anything about that person to me in the first place, knowing my history with him and the pain caused. He throws a fit and burns the last tethers of the bridge of a friendship we had. A year or so later he decides to pop back in and act like nothing happened. Took me a minute to realize who he was and stated i wanted to keep my distance, he took it as being shy and tried to play it off. After he ended the chat, i deleted his contact, he tried to get me to accept his friend request via skype the next day and i deleted it again. You dont burn a bridge and then try to pop in on them and act like nothing happened!! You just dont

thats the end of my rant, god i wish that i had something to drown those damned memories away

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQ6-nCLeDsI

DIET

a friend's friend: http://redstoner2013.deviantart.com is taking traditional or old low quality drawings and he is outlining and coloring them for people, for a low price. Here is his price chart: http://redstoner2013.deviantart.com.....help-605800866
Example:
Original: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/417918447

friend's friend outlined version: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/471428161

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http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19778432/

help  wxdc get to anthrocon and fatten two pups up in the process. He takes any size donation and is almost a third of the way there

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19778432/

help  wxdc get to anthrocon and fatten two pups up in the process. He takes any size donation and is almost a third of the way there