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Happy Mother's Day!
Posted 8 years agoTo all the mothers out there, hope you have a great mother's day! <3
Caring is Painful
Posted 8 years agoNothing like telling someone you care about that you'll love them no matter what they do and how much they hurt you, and they tell you that they don't know how they feel about you anymore. Just goes so well with everything else these days.
Sometimes, I really don't know why I keep trying. If the definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results, what does it mean that no matter what you do, you always seem to end up sad, depressed, and completely alone in real life.
Sometimes you just really need someone to hug you, hold you, cuddle you, and everything else. I hate going to sleep alone every night, but that's never going to change. No matter how much people online might care about me, it doesn't change how alone I am in real life.
I'm tired of being sad, alone, and hurting. Actually, I think I'm just tired.
I love you...
Sometimes, I really don't know why I keep trying. If the definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results, what does it mean that no matter what you do, you always seem to end up sad, depressed, and completely alone in real life.
Sometimes you just really need someone to hug you, hold you, cuddle you, and everything else. I hate going to sleep alone every night, but that's never going to change. No matter how much people online might care about me, it doesn't change how alone I am in real life.
I'm tired of being sad, alone, and hurting. Actually, I think I'm just tired.
I love you...
Save Wuffs =3
Posted 9 years agoSo, apparently, both the house and senate are trying to put through bills that will take wolves off the endangered species list and open them to hunting.
You can send a letter here: http://action.endangered.org/p/dia/.....tion_KEY=24031
You can send a letter here: http://action.endangered.org/p/dia/.....tion_KEY=24031
Welp, It's My Birthday!
Posted 9 years agoWhere are my presents? xD
Nah, just kidding. Just want to say I love all of you, and I'm glad to have you in my life. <3 *gives massive hyper wuff snugs to everyone*
Nah, just kidding. Just want to say I love all of you, and I'm glad to have you in my life. <3 *gives massive hyper wuff snugs to everyone*
10 Days Until My Birthday...
Posted 9 years agoNot really looking forward to it this year. =/ Don't need reminding that I'm not worth remembering.
Urgh, Depressed.
Posted 9 years agoBleh. After a miserable Christmas and New Year's, I'm really not looking forward to my birthday on January 21st. x.x
Blargh. This Sucks.
Posted 9 years agoSo, this was pretty much the worst Christmas I've had. Goes with the theme of 2016, I suppose. Spent the 24th and the 25th alone. Didn't get any presents, or even any cards, from anyone, RL or online friends or even RL family. Got laid off. Just... bleh. I don't want to be looking for work. I don't even get unemployment until I find my next job because I didn't earn any money before 6/30/2016 since I started working 8/1/2016 because of the whole recovering from open heart surgery thing. Life sucks. Can I cancel my birthday? That's coming up on January 21st, and I have a feeling it's going to be equally miserable.
Incoming Birthday!
Posted 9 years agoDidn't get me anything for Christmas? That's OK; my birthday's January 21st. xD
Just kidding. Hope you all have a great Christmas and a Happy New Year. <3
Just kidding. Hope you all have a great Christmas and a Happy New Year. <3
Thank You! [Please Read]
Posted 9 years agoFirst, I just want to thank each and every one of you for being a friend, for being there for me and for caring about me. It means a lot. <3
Second, if you've been watching me or just passing by or whatever, but have never messaged me because you're afraid I'm too busy or that because your 'sona isn't hyper, is male, is female, isn't a herm, or whatever that I'm not interested in talking to you, please do drop me a line! Honestly, most of the furs I know aren't hyper nor herms. I always love making new friends, so if you've ever wanted to talk to me, please do drop me a line. The messengers I can list are on my FA profile, but if you want to add me on another messenger that's not on that list, just shoot me a note, and we can arrange to speak on whatever messenger you like. I have pretty much all of them. <3
Third, if we haven't spoken recent, and assuming you want to talk to me, feel free to drop me a line. No matter what messenger you have me on, no matter what my status is set to, please don't be afraid to send me a message. If I'm not at my computer, you won't bother me, because I mute it when I'm away, so you won't wake me up, upset me, bother me or anything like that. If I'm there, I'll answer, otherwise, I'll do my best to answer as soon as I'm back at my computer! I often forgot to change my status out of away. Also, a lot of times I don't look through my contact lists to see who's online, so unless I see the little box in the corner that says you signed on, I often don't realize people are online. It doesn't mean I don't want to talk to you, so please do message me whenever you want!
I love talking to all of you. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, or a big, motherly wuff to cuddle you, or whatever I can do if something's wrong to help take your mind off of things or whatever.
Love you all very much!
~Zzyzx
Second, if you've been watching me or just passing by or whatever, but have never messaged me because you're afraid I'm too busy or that because your 'sona isn't hyper, is male, is female, isn't a herm, or whatever that I'm not interested in talking to you, please do drop me a line! Honestly, most of the furs I know aren't hyper nor herms. I always love making new friends, so if you've ever wanted to talk to me, please do drop me a line. The messengers I can list are on my FA profile, but if you want to add me on another messenger that's not on that list, just shoot me a note, and we can arrange to speak on whatever messenger you like. I have pretty much all of them. <3
Third, if we haven't spoken recent, and assuming you want to talk to me, feel free to drop me a line. No matter what messenger you have me on, no matter what my status is set to, please don't be afraid to send me a message. If I'm not at my computer, you won't bother me, because I mute it when I'm away, so you won't wake me up, upset me, bother me or anything like that. If I'm there, I'll answer, otherwise, I'll do my best to answer as soon as I'm back at my computer! I often forgot to change my status out of away. Also, a lot of times I don't look through my contact lists to see who's online, so unless I see the little box in the corner that says you signed on, I often don't realize people are online. It doesn't mean I don't want to talk to you, so please do message me whenever you want!
I love talking to all of you. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, or a big, motherly wuff to cuddle you, or whatever I can do if something's wrong to help take your mind off of things or whatever.
Love you all very much!
~Zzyzx
Real Life Totoro with Adam Savage
Posted 9 years agoHe's definitely a furry. x3
I Give Up.
Posted 9 years agoI'm just sick of everything. Lonely. Feel horrible. Can't sleep. Blargh.
It's been a month, if not longer since I've hung out with a friend IRL. I poke at my local friends when I can, but I hear from them less and less and they're all always busy.
I haven't been on a date since my ex-wife.
The only people I really talk to at work are the people who call in, not even my co-workers.
It's been a month, if not longer since I've hung out with a friend IRL. I poke at my local friends when I can, but I hear from them less and less and they're all always busy.
I haven't been on a date since my ex-wife.
The only people I really talk to at work are the people who call in, not even my co-workers.
Arizona Fur Con
Posted 9 years agoHey, so, I realized AFC is going on this weekend. Is anyone who cares about me gonna be here, and if so, do you wanna meet up at the con or meet up and hang out at some point or some such? Let me know. =3
Blargh. Lonely. x.x
Posted 9 years agoWuff needs some RL hugs and cuddles. *curls up and sighs*
Sorry...
Posted 9 years agoIt seems like I keep letting people down, and I'm really sorry about that. I know I haven't been around much. I started working full-time on 8/1 and I still have the fibromyalgia and everything, so it's been draining all my energy and stuff... Plus the first two weeks were classroom training where we had to get 80% on three tests and 90% on the final test, and we all had to study after class, so that took even more time, and then so far on the weekends it seems like I just get home, fall asleep, and wake up on Monday. I'm doing my best to talk to people when I can, but I'm sorry for everyone that I'm missing and letting down and stuff. I love you all. I'm sorry I can't be a better friend and momma and stuff. I never can do anything right anyway, and it feels like everything that gets near me ends up ruined. It seems like every time things starting getting better, something terrible happens, and everything is worse than before. It just feels like I'm cursed or something. I'm still depressed and lonely and broken-hearted and strugging with anxiety and stuff too. I wish I could cuddle up with someone for the night and be nice and comfy and warm and feel wanted and loved and safe and maybe like everything's going to be OK, even if it's just for a little bit
Love you guys so very much.
I'm sorry again.
x.x
~Z
Love you guys so very much.
I'm sorry again.
x.x
~Z
Free Fan Art
Posted 9 years agoHow do some people get so much of it? =o
I have quite a bit these days, and I'm really fortunate for that. <3
Though I could always use more! I'll love you forever if you draw me.
But I'll love you forever anyway, so don't feel like you have to draw me. <3
Just being crazy and half-awake before bed.
Nini, everyone. *offers big wuff cuddles to anyone who wants them*
<3
I have quite a bit these days, and I'm really fortunate for that. <3
Though I could always use more! I'll love you forever if you draw me.
But I'll love you forever anyway, so don't feel like you have to draw me. <3
Just being crazy and half-awake before bed.
Nini, everyone. *offers big wuff cuddles to anyone who wants them*
<3
Anyone in the Phoenix Area?
Posted 9 years agoHeya,
I've been kinda lonely IRL and was hoping to make some new friends in person, so I was wondering if there were any folks watching me who live in or near the Phoenix Metro Area and might want to hang out some time.
Look forward to hearing from you.
Best,
Zzyzx
I've been kinda lonely IRL and was hoping to make some new friends in person, so I was wondering if there were any folks watching me who live in or near the Phoenix Metro Area and might want to hang out some time.
Look forward to hearing from you.
Best,
Zzyzx
[Urgent] Help Me Keep My Home and Continue Physical Therapy!
Posted 9 years agoEdit: If you wanna share this journal, you can use this link: http://bit.ly/helpzzyzx Or the donation page: https://www.gofundme.com/zzyzx Again, I really appreciate anything you can do to help. Spreading the word helps more than you might realize!
As most of you know, in November I had open heart surgery in order to replace my aortic valve since I was born with a defective heart valve. Right now I'm both going through physical therapy and also trying to recover from an upper respiratory infection while I'm healing from that surgery.
I have several hundred thousand dollars worth of medical bills, but I'm not asking for that because I should be able to pay that off in the future. Right now, however, between every day expenses, paying for medicine, paying for physical therapy, and making minimum payments on my medical bills, I've run a bit short of money.
I've also had a few unexpected expenses, like having to pay to have my cat, Lennon, put down last month, and the tests and medication to try and fight off this dreadful upper resperatory infection that's been making me sick.
If I can raise $1,500 within the next month or two, though obviously the sooner the better because it will help me avoid paying late fees or potentially losing service, my health insurance, or even missing my rent payment and winding up without a place to live. So, if you can donate anything, please do. But whether you can or can't, please spread the word. The more eyes we can get on this, the more folks who might be able to help out.
I know most of you won't be able to afford to help, and I completely understand. I know a lot of my friends are struggling right now, and I hate to ask for anything. I appreciate anything you guys can do to help, and I want you to know that I love you all very much, and that I'm blessed to have you guys in my life!
https://www.gofundme.com/zzyzx
As most of you know, in November I had open heart surgery in order to replace my aortic valve since I was born with a defective heart valve. Right now I'm both going through physical therapy and also trying to recover from an upper respiratory infection while I'm healing from that surgery.
I have several hundred thousand dollars worth of medical bills, but I'm not asking for that because I should be able to pay that off in the future. Right now, however, between every day expenses, paying for medicine, paying for physical therapy, and making minimum payments on my medical bills, I've run a bit short of money.
I've also had a few unexpected expenses, like having to pay to have my cat, Lennon, put down last month, and the tests and medication to try and fight off this dreadful upper resperatory infection that's been making me sick.
If I can raise $1,500 within the next month or two, though obviously the sooner the better because it will help me avoid paying late fees or potentially losing service, my health insurance, or even missing my rent payment and winding up without a place to live. So, if you can donate anything, please do. But whether you can or can't, please spread the word. The more eyes we can get on this, the more folks who might be able to help out.
I know most of you won't be able to afford to help, and I completely understand. I know a lot of my friends are struggling right now, and I hate to ask for anything. I appreciate anything you guys can do to help, and I want you to know that I love you all very much, and that I'm blessed to have you guys in my life!
https://www.gofundme.com/zzyzx
Welcome to Life™!
Posted 9 years agoHappy Mother's Day!
Posted 9 years agoHere's to all the moms out there. <3
Army Manages to Destroy Not One, Not Two, but Three Humvees!
Posted 9 years agoApparently somebody didn't learn how to tie knots in the boy scouts!
Hilarious video here: http://www.armytimes.com/story/mili.....ideo/83333714/
Includes great commentary from the army.
"Oh, yes! Yeah!"
"Called it!"
"It's on fire!"
"Hey, do we need to call that up?"
This is what it looks like after you drop a Humvee from the sky: https://twitter.com/TheWTFNation/st.....258048/photo/1
Hilarious video here: http://www.armytimes.com/story/mili.....ideo/83333714/
Includes great commentary from the army.
"Oh, yes! Yeah!"
"Called it!"
"It's on fire!"
"Hey, do we need to call that up?"
This is what it looks like after you drop a Humvee from the sky: https://twitter.com/TheWTFNation/st.....258048/photo/1
Do Cats Have Better Opportunities than College Graduates?
Posted 9 years agoSo, krystalaristokats posted a journal about a cat with a job in Russia:
krystalaristokats wrote:A cat named Marary is employed as an official door greeter at the Serpukhov Museum of History and Art in Serpukhov, Russia.
He is paid in fishand cutlets.
https://www.buzzfeed.com/krishrach/.....at#.jolXwY4jaO
So I replied with some more:
zzyzx wrote:There's a train station in Japan with a cat for a stationmaster. He passed away, but a replacement was trained to keep up his duties! https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tama_(cat)
And, in Alaska, there's a town with a cat as the mayor: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stubbs_(cat)
And, of course, plenty of stories of cats/dogs that have gotten credit cards, loans, mortgages, and all sorts of things.
Of course, in Russia, you can even get a free cat with your mortgage! http://money.cnn.com/2014/09/01/new.....sia/index.html
Though, if you can't own a cat of your own, at least in Japan, you can go to a cat café: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cat_caf%C3%A9
Which lead to my pondering: “Seems like cats have more opportunities than the average college graduate these days.”
What do you think?
krystalaristokats wrote:A cat named Marary is employed as an official door greeter at the Serpukhov Museum of History and Art in Serpukhov, Russia.
He is paid in fishand cutlets.
https://www.buzzfeed.com/krishrach/.....at#.jolXwY4jaO
So I replied with some more:
zzyzx wrote:There's a train station in Japan with a cat for a stationmaster. He passed away, but a replacement was trained to keep up his duties! https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tama_(cat)
And, in Alaska, there's a town with a cat as the mayor: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stubbs_(cat)
And, of course, plenty of stories of cats/dogs that have gotten credit cards, loans, mortgages, and all sorts of things.
Of course, in Russia, you can even get a free cat with your mortgage! http://money.cnn.com/2014/09/01/new.....sia/index.html
Though, if you can't own a cat of your own, at least in Japan, you can go to a cat café: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cat_caf%C3%A9
Which lead to my pondering: “Seems like cats have more opportunities than the average college graduate these days.”
What do you think?
Trying to Get My Mind Off of Things
Posted 9 years agoHey there.
I'm trying to get my mind off of things and destress as best I can, so it might be a while before I respond to comments on the previous journal. Just don't want to talk about it right now.
Hope you all are doing well.
Love you lots,
Zzyzx
I'm trying to get my mind off of things and destress as best I can, so it might be a while before I respond to comments on the previous journal. Just don't want to talk about it right now.
Hope you all are doing well.
Love you lots,
Zzyzx
Had to Have My Cat, Lennon, Put Down...
Posted 9 years agoI had to put my cat Lennon to sleep today. He had liver failure. I was going to find a picture of him to upload, but I don't feel up to going through my pics of him right now without crying more. Lennon was well loved and he will be sorely missed.
Feeling Disgusting (Allergies?)
Posted 9 years agoI pretty much slept through yesterday, but I just thought I was sore from physical therapy. Today, not only do I feel sore, but I feel like I'm getting a cold or something. Either that or allergies. I haven't needed allergy medications for years, so I'm curious if anyone else is having really bad allergies this year or if I'm coming down with something. Ugh. x.x
Yes, I have Discord, Telegram, Skype...
Posted 9 years agoAnd a bunch of other messengers. In fact, I have:
Skype
Telegram
AOL Instant Messenger
Yahoo Instant Messenger
MSN Messenger
Facebook Messenger
Google Talk
Discord
Steam
Raptr
WhatsApp
Kik
I even have ICQ!
...and probably a few others as well that I'm not thinking of at the moment.
So, if you wanna chat with me, and you don't see a messenger listed on my FA profile, that's just because FA hasn't put in a slot for it yet. I more than likely have it.
Just send me a note or leave a comment here, and I'll be happy to add you on whatever messenger you have.
Skype
Telegram
AOL Instant Messenger
Yahoo Instant Messenger
MSN Messenger
Facebook Messenger
Google Talk
Discord
Steam
Raptr
Kik
I even have ICQ!
...and probably a few others as well that I'm not thinking of at the moment.
So, if you wanna chat with me, and you don't see a messenger listed on my FA profile, that's just because FA hasn't put in a slot for it yet. I more than likely have it.
Just send me a note or leave a comment here, and I'll be happy to add you on whatever messenger you have.
