Mostly kinda just a meet-n-greet with lab work. Some questionaries/tests to see how severe some things are like the mental cocktail from the 2/10 journal I mentioned (bad scores, really severe but that's not a surprise) and I think the most surprising things was scoring a 59 out of 60 on FtM dysphoria for the clinic. It was bad enough my doctor gave me the hotline contacts for the suicidal hotline and trans lifeline but I've been pretty hardcore on my preventative treatment and already have those saved on my phone for whenever things get rough enough and I don't have my support system readily available. She got me some medication to hold me over until I see psych next week which has already been helping so much more than just being cold turkey without anything to keep my brain at bay. I should be back on T in two weeks as they analyze my blood to make sure kidneys and everything are good to go since it's been October when I last took it. Holding one more week till restarting my normal meds with this to hold me by should be a lot easier now. I'll probably just make journals regarding health updates and whenever sales are open. But big positive news for once!

Therapy was really good today, outside of the establishing junk we mostly talked about books and bitched about movie adaptations on classical literature--and how Moby Dick is just a glorified whaling wikipedia (I REALLY enjoy Moby Dick, don't get me wrong, especially with the characters and story when it's present since it's really fucking good). idk shit like that is just fun especially with professionals gets rid of the tension of the really morbid shit and keeps treatment balanced.