~brutalbunny

^_^ long time no seeee.
so, i was really enjoying buzzly, but then it crashed and burned.
it kind of disillusioned me in a way. i was really fucking bummed out.
i stuck to twitter and tumblr, and stuck to fandom art for a while...

well, anyway, i wanna come back here.
god, i sure had a lot going on?! in around 2019, idk what happened,
but my ideology changed from "generally ambivalent" to "hardcore anti" when it comes to Content.
so furaffinity became very uncomfortable to me. there's a lot of weird fucking Content here.
it was a bad place for me mentally...
i started to fear that i was secretly a Bad Person for not being as "anti" as i pretended to be.
very weird. very terminally online.

(for the record, my current standing is; a lot of shit squicks me out, but i don't believe that making problematic stuff = condoning it.
i still don't like pedo shit or incest shit. but i'm going back to my healthier mindset where i just,
accept that a lot of people do a lot of weird shit. NELKNDFGD. not a "proshipper" and not an "antishipper".
because i still think proshippers are annoying as hell LOL
if you don't know what im talking about... it rly doesnt matter.)

so now that i'm in a healthier mindset, furaffinity isn't so upsetting anymore.
and i'm kind of getting bored of drawing fanart. i probably will still draw a lot of it,
but i miss furriessss.

ive been going to therapy and getting medication which is Nice.
i've been experimenting with my gender presentation!?! and leaning more into butch shit.
getting a weird amount of gender euphoria from thinking about getting top surgery.
like a *lot* of gender euphoria.
depending on how things go, i'd like to start fundraising for top surgery enflkng. i'd do commissions.

in the next year, i REALLY WANT to make more nsfw content (i have a seperate account).
it's   rambear if you're interested. there's not much there.
adults only, OBVIOUSLY.
i think that's all, though? idk. i hope to be around here more. i miss it!
im feeling good. it feels like im coming back to someone i used to be, lol.

thank you to everyone who stuck around-
and double thank you to people who decided to watch me even while i was inactive!
that means a lot. i'm glad my art appeals to you guys. ^_^
i love you. i hope the new year goes well.