So a lot has happened since I last did anything with this account... and while I'm not sure this will even be seen by the... like, 6 of you who have me on watch, I want to post something about it.

This last week I've had a lot on my mind... and last night while showering in a half-asleep state, something happened in my mind... a partition that had been in place for many years had been starting to crumble... and it seems it ruptured. The normally very dominant cold-hard-logic side of my brain got pushed away from the helm, so to speak. Most of my life I feel like I've been watching from third-person.... but now, I feel like I'm directly living it. It's... exhilarating... and a bit terrifying...
Things I've put off for ages, I'm now getting done or making plans for. I have uncomfortable levels of energy. Perhaps related, my heart rate seems to be much higher on average than it used to be... I have energy that I've not had since I was little. I'm willing to take risks, and now have a strong resolve to actually do things with my life. The long-dormant creative side of my brain seems to also have awoken somewhat... I can visualize imaginary things I've not been able to as long as I can remember.

Honestly, I may have had a stroke... some small part of my brain that subjected cold hard logic onto the rest may have been damaged. The change is dramatic... at work, several coworkers noted the difference, wondering if I was on something...
I wasn't... but such a dramatic change is a bit alarming.

So as part of this new resolve to actually live my life, one of the first things I'm going to do is finally get around to making use of the healthcare I get from work, and make sure I didn't in fact have a stroke.

Assuming I'm not mentally damaged, I do hope this weird hyperactive state lasts... there's so much I feel I can do now.

I'll be trying to get Chrono drawn by someone, while I have this ability to put together a mental image without nitpicking.

I do suspect this state will burn out at some point... but hopefully that happens after I've gotten set on a new less boring path in life.