ok so i know we all have the one relationship weather it be puppy love or the real deal in the end it still hurts, i myself have a very classic one about a guy i grew up with, wen i was in grade three i moved to his school and i grew up with him for 3 years then i moved once again at the end of grade 6 not in that time frame i did not tell him that during our grade 6 year that i liked him, being 12 you think its just weird an it will pass but over my next year away from him i found i was more lonely an all i could think of was him, for the next two years i new i was bisexual but remained in the closet for i had homophobic parents so it was not easy for me, me grade nine year he had moved an hour away so seeing him would be even harder, and wen i found out he was gay and came out of the closet my parents forbid me from talking to him so having him over was out of the question.so of cores being a teenager an needing to rebel i still talked to him on Facebook actually came out to him which at the time was a very big deal to me and over the next month we decided to date long distance, let me tell you now every bad rumor every heart felt story about how suckish the outcomes always are...well there true me and darian well we were young and my parents started to wonder so i started "dating" my friend Lynne, i had come out to here so we could fake it, it was awful of me i know but over the time we dated an faked a break up me an darian were in an open thing because it was only fair if i was with other people so was he(or so i thought) so of cores the relationship was unstable and ended and the next day i found out he had sex-ted one of my Ex's which in retrospect should not have been as big of a deal but common your 14 years old and you know you love this boy so it stung but eventually after a lot of talking me and darian got back together, now for the next month an a half we did not get to the first date but with exams an such we understood. the day before valentines day he left me because he felt to pressured because i loved him and he liked me, so he dumped me because i was putting to much pressure on him, now the next 2 months were hell for me because the guy i loved would barley talk to me and wen i finally did talk to him i had to rebuild our friendship before any relationship could be established. so after me and darian were friends again i brought up the topic of the relationship, now i know what your thinking "are you an idiot this guy has left you twice already" but hey common i was young, anyways he didn't like the topic much because every time i brought it up he either went offline or changed the subject, eventually after pestering him into a corner with the help of my friend Shyanne, he had told her about a guy and she connected the dots to me, i managed to talk to him about the idea, at first he didn't seem all that happy about the idea as if he didn't like me anymore, so i said if you don't want to go out again its alright, i know it sound contradictory but that's part of me i put other people before myself so i was thinking of him, well after i said that he sent me a kiss saying okay ill go out with you again, not for the next three days he had a comping field trip so i wasn't expecting to see him, but one of his conditions to dating again would be for me to sow affection in public like hugging and raping my arm round his waist, so i decided that i would tell three of my friend that i was in love with him, now i wasn't just going to tell anyone *smirks* remember how i said my friends are like family, well i told by three closest sisters Sam:calm and serious reaction, Marsi:happy and congratulatory,and Kath:shocked, now i was very happy these three days because not only was i free of my cage from being in the closet, even if not fully out, but i also had the love of my life everything was perfect, now on Friday darian got back from his trip so i rushed home to my computer but only to find a message from him, the next words i heard from him were "its over" he was already offline, for that weekend i was all alone my parents had to go to a funeral in the states and i stayed home, my friends were to bizzy to talk to about it so i was truly alone, i have never cry-ed before that day in my life but...i guess i felt worthless because he sent me a hole paragraph on how he didn't like me and what was wrong with me. after the weekend i went to school and i was not happy i was not joyful i...i wasn't me my girls knew something was wrong but when i tried to tell them i couldn't speak, the nurse said it was from stress, for the next week i was speechless but the first words i said the next Monday were "darian I'm sorry if i pressured you into something you didn't want to hear, darian's immediate reaction was to hang up the phone without even thinking. Darian is probably the most shallow two faced guys i have ever been with, he used me then left me like trash, but even to this very day...i will always love that sweet boy i fell in love with but i would never make the same mistake again and after what he did i know have better judgment, so thank you darain for making me the man i am today <3