Hey all. Its been some time hasn't it?

First off, I want to deeply apologize for being so silent and sporadic at times. Things haven't been easy the last few months, which I should get into at this point instead of keeping you all in the dark.

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Art Progress

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It has been VERY slow getting art done. Between working, family drama, money issues, its been really draining on wanting to get any kind of artwork done, be it the YCH's, commissions, or even personal work. Hell, I've been trying to make a new ref sheet since 2020 and I STILL don't have it done cause of everything that has been going on with it.

But I have been hard at work to get all those pieces that I owe done as fast as I can when time allows. I REALLY want to work on a personal project, but I gotta get done what's owed first before I can dedicate my time to it. Many of you already know what it is, and to those that don't, all i can say is that is something I've been wanting to do since 2018. I've even been considering reopening a Patreon just to help fund it when everything is in place. but for now, stay tuned for that.

Also, to help me along with getting art done, I'm gonna start doing art streams. I still got things to set up, but when all is said and done, if im doing NSFW work, it'll be on Picarto. IDK if i'll reuse my Twitch for SFW art or just do it all on Picarto, I'm not sure yet. I'll let you all know when that time comes, so keep an eye out!

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Work

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I've had too many jobs to deal with during 2023 and into 2024, for working retail (Oct2022-Oct2023), to Amazon DSP (Oct2023-May2024), to Fast Food(May2024-Sept2024), to Mobile Sales(Sept2024-Dec2024), and then back to an Amazon DSP(Jan2025-May2025). As of this journal posting, I am currently unemployed once again and its not being easy to find work given the state of things. And honestly, I don't want to work for any of them any more. I'd rather be out on my own, working when I want, on whatever I want. Either be making content, drawing, cosplaying, etc. Having a regular job is just so unfulfilling, and I cant deal with it anymore. Hopefully I can make something out of it soon

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Life

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Back in late December, I was finally able to move out of my parents house. So it felt relieving to be out of there. With the current political climate, and where my families beliefs currently stand, I just did not feel safe in that house, and havent for quiet some time.

But now.....I have to move back in.....

The roommate situation had I when first coming out here has gone south (With no fault to any of them, its just how things happened) so I have to move back in with my parents, and it'll be who knows for how long til I can move out again, but hopefully soon and with no issue. So for now, I'll have to put up with their nonsense once again, much to my dismay.

Trying to date also hasn't been that great. Almost every time I start making a connection with someone, it either ends up as "I'm not intrested", "I'm not currently looking" or "I'm already taken", and it sucks. It really does. I know I have friends love me unconditionally, and I deeply appreciate it, I really do, but I would still like that special someone to call mine. I'm not gonna give up looking, but it is becoming tiring of the constant rejections.

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Money

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Alright, last topic that nobody likes to talk about. Money.

I have been struggling for quiet some time. Between jobs, between commissions, any way to try to raise money. In 2021, after getting a settlement for my car accident, my parents were HAMMERING me for money like I unlimited amounts of it. Constantly asking for some, and me not wanting to cause ANY conflict, I would just give it. Very quickly, it would all dry up, and yet they would still ask for more. My breaking point came in Early 2024 when I finally put my foot down and told them that I would not be giving them any more money other than for rent, nothing else. Though at this point, the damage had been done.

I've been trying to play catch up since then, and its been a very tough road.

I'm currently almost $4,000 in credit card debt because of my parents constant ask for money and have been trying every which way to Sunday to figure out how to pay it off. I've managed to pay several things off, but I still have a long way to go. Not counting my car loan, I have about $6,000 in debt total, and I've already tried looking into a debt consolidation loan, but no one has approved me, so I'm on my own for this.

Any I HATE asking for help, but I gotta out that thought aside and ask for it, as it never hurts to ask. But, if you can spare anything to help me out clear this debt, please donate to my Ko-Fi.

https://ko-fi.com/draderlabs

I have some other ideas that I'm currently in the planning stages that could help me out, but we'll have to wait and see of how those come about.


That's about all I have to say this go around. Hopefully I wont go silent for 5-8 months at a time again without a word on ANYTHING going on. I appreciate all of you~