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Deadly Ray Of Sunshine | Registered: March 23, 2017 04:28:12 PM
☥ "Anipu, guide me in life as you would in death and keep my heart pure and light upon the scales of Ma'at." ☥
Welcome to my profile sweetie! Not much to see here other than art at the moment, but I will post more personal information about myself later on! For a quick run down I'm a 32 year old heteroflexible transfem kemetic girl that lives in Georgia and I am interested in meeting new people and seeing where things go. Don't be afraid to message me: tho I have become swamped with the number of people I talk to on a daily basis which has resulted in me cutting down on whom I talk to, I will try to get back with you as soon as I can :3. I am single and am looking for a mate, just be serious, honest, sane, and preferably at least within the US."Wild horses, couldn't drag me away. Wild wild horses, we will ride them someday."
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Preferred pronouns: She, Her, Mare (;3) Mommy☥
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"What does daylight look like, in this chaos of cold? Forgive the trembling love. I'm weak and acting bold. And alone." A NOTE ON RP: I DO rp however I am taking an extended break from it. I only rp with people I know well. I DO NOT I repeat DO NOT rp through notes. Only through Telegram or maybe my soFurry which I barely use. ☥☥/
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Featured Journal
Don't let them go......
5 years ago
For many of us our fursona is either an extension of ourselves or a role model to look up to and try to achieve in some fashion. Anyway you slice it it all boils down to one thing: we identify with them and that identification resonates through every fiber of our being. Maybe mine feels to me as if he has his own palpable personality and makes his own decisions. Maybe you feel the same or differ entirely. Either way they are important to us.
But life kicks you around sometimes just a little too much and depression can set in and poison what once gave you hope or solace. This was my state of affairs in 2019 after I had lost my job in December the previous year. I had become depressed to the point of contemplating suicide; wanting to just put on my collar and hang myself by my leash, but happily somehow I made it out of that phase......yet another one just as bad followed.
Anen means the world to me. I couldn't now imagine getting rid of him for any reason save one (of which I know he would understand), but in my depressed state I considered that very thing and almost did so as well as deleting my FA account. I wasn't even going to give him away, just delete him from existence until one day after dragging myself out of bed and past all the beer bottles I ran across a song on YouTube that pierced right through me because it was as if Anen was speaking to me. The song was "We Are the People" by Empire of the Sun:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hN5X4kGhAtU
These words especially struck home:
"I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave me
But I know I try
Are you gonna leave me now
Can't you be believing now"
I could not stop crying when I heard this song and although it did not help me out of my depression entirely I did swear to never abandon him or forsake him. I ask anyone who reads this that has felt the same way or is feeling this currently, please give this song a listen and just hold on.
Don't let them go....
But life kicks you around sometimes just a little too much and depression can set in and poison what once gave you hope or solace. This was my state of affairs in 2019 after I had lost my job in December the previous year. I had become depressed to the point of contemplating suicide; wanting to just put on my collar and hang myself by my leash, but happily somehow I made it out of that phase......yet another one just as bad followed.
Anen means the world to me. I couldn't now imagine getting rid of him for any reason save one (of which I know he would understand), but in my depressed state I considered that very thing and almost did so as well as deleting my FA account. I wasn't even going to give him away, just delete him from existence until one day after dragging myself out of bed and past all the beer bottles I ran across a song on YouTube that pierced right through me because it was as if Anen was speaking to me. The song was "We Are the People" by Empire of the Sun:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hN5X4kGhAtU
These words especially struck home:
"I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave me
But I know I try
Are you gonna leave me now
Can't you be believing now"
I could not stop crying when I heard this song and although it did not help me out of my depression entirely I did swear to never abandon him or forsake him. I ask anyone who reads this that has felt the same way or is feeling this currently, please give this song a listen and just hold on.
Don't let them go....
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Fennec
Favorite Music
Dark Synthwave/80s Synth, early goth, metal, grunge, 60s 70s and 80s rock/hard rock, classical/opera. Most music except rap.
Favorite TV Shows & Movies
Cloud Atlas, Zootopia, Cats Don't Dance, Gods and Monsters, Star Trek/Wars, The Prestige, PASSENGERS
Favorite Games
Ratchet and Clank Future: A Crack In Time, Metroid, D00M, Sly Cooper, Mass Effect Trilogy, Fallout, Pinball.
Favorite Gaming Platforms
All
Favorite Animals
Equines (Zebras), Fennecs, Foxes, Cats
Favorite Site
Youtube
Favorite Foods & Drinks
Pizza, Sushi, Chinese, Mediterranean, Seafood, Italian, Oranges, Beer, Absynthe, Scotch, Pepsi.
Favorite Quote
"Dizzy : Rico, I'm dying. Johnny Rico : No Diz, you'll be fine. Dizzy : But it's OK, because I got to have you."
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