"Life is anguish. Anguish is life." Unknown author

Having a Hebrew ancestry, I try very hard to not dwell on the hardships of my own life, especially after everything my ancestors have been through. But something happened lately that has made it pretty hard. It is no secret that I am gay, but I keep many aspects about this part of me under wraps out of respect for my family, despite how much they disrespect me for my sexuality. Something that I have not only ventured into, but have had great success in, is cross dressing. I have only done this for a few weeks, but have not only succeeded in fooling several men and women as my alter ego, but have been able to receive affections from straight men (have no fears, bu, I'm faithful). As of last Saturday, my alter ego has been discovered by my father, and I have been disowned by my immediate and extended family. Aside from a few friends scattered around the Puget Sound and my aunt, whom is also looked down upon by the family, I have basically been living on my own or crashing at a friends' house. Have heart, though, for I have been able to find work, albeit temporary construction and landscaping jobs, and have a chance to get my own apartment in the city. My friends have been angels to me since this all started, and