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> I am putting this RIGHT AT THE TOP to save those hard-of-thinking folks with less RAM in the Cranial Processing Unit the trouble of having to read all the way to the BOTTOM. Anyone and everyone will have to forgive me if I am slow to reply to you in any way, shape or form you contact me via, even messengers sometimes. I am sick, (and demented, alright, I know, I know, don't push me), but I do mean in a serious as in I am physically ill, way. It's benign, but I'm still being macerated in some heavy duty errant organism killers so my stamina is barely a percent of what it used to be. Funny how I feel SICKER while I'm being Treated than I generally did pre-treatment. So some days I am very weak, so some days I don't feel like doing more than taking the occasional bathroom run while I lay and stare at a book. (I'm re-reading the Discworld novels again for the half-dozenth time, yay). All the rigamarole has kinda fucked up my mental and emotional states as well, and being I'm pretty much to myself, no close friends, no significant other, no pets (that I count)... so please forgive me if my bullshit tolerance level is even less than it was than before. It's just simply that any energy I had routed to my "BE NICE" circuit is currently being dumped back into my central core so I can do things like feed myself, wash myself, not pee my pants ect ect, you know, the little things. Also means my writing center is still a mess, so yeah, I haven't been able to do any of that either. I just wanted to let people know, and ask for patience, I'm still in the processes of getting ME sorted out and I'm still quite sick. Seeing as my significant other and BOTH my parents have died in less than the past year and a half, my mental processes have been even MORE skull-fucked than usual lately... Mom went less than 2 months ago (January 2020). Keep this in mind, wouldja? Thanks, END OF NOTICE. <

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This is my page, there are many like it, but this one is MINE. Drop your over-privileged, unwarranted self importance riddled ego at the door and wipe your feet before you come in and don't shed on the chairs. This is my space, where I come to decompress, look at pretty pictures and occasionally post something I've done as a bit of escapism, not wallow in drama and the inane self entitlement of ego that artists and their demented little followers tend to generate. I don't allow eAutism within 10 feet of me and I will occasionally take a random bite at people who act like they were raised by the internet rather than parents, so if you're selling crazy keep moving, we're all full up here. If you have something to say in regards to my work, feel free to let the cute fluffy bunnies fly. If you have business with -ME- personally, that little button up there that says "Send Note" is where you should likely start your shit so I can finish it. If you don't like it, go whine on DA and listen to Linkin Park just keep shit out of my shout-box or I'll remove your privilege. You don't have to thank me for watches or faves if it doesn't strike you to do so, you won't hurt my feelings, and those that watch me or fave my stuff have -my- thanks in advance. I'll hopefully let you know in one way or another how I feel about it. Oh, and please, as I write SMUT please feel free to leave all the X-rated, smutty, perverted (within reason), "creepy" feed-back and comments you'd like. I hate it when folks who produce porn are down-right prudes about that side of the biz. I on the other hand love to hear it. ^!^

Past that; I'm a SoCal fur, as evinced by my icon down there, I live in Covina, San Gabriel Valley, and the last time I felt a nonplatonic touch was about 5 years ago. I'm partially disabled, so it tends to affect my ability to get around when it's something ambulatory to be involved in but I like to sit and chat. My health has been a little shaky the past few, being sick with something they've been lackadaisical in treating and my back and hip/knee are degrading more and more and the paralysis in my foot just plain BLOWS... I'm mostly Scots, so very, very Scottish in personality and attitude, so you've been warned and never, ever mistake kindness for weakness I've been through more sad and crazy shit in a decade than some people have in their entire lives. There really is no difference between my self styled "fursona" and myself, what you see is what you get, if you don't like it, go fuck yourself, I'm not here to live up to your fairy-tale expectations. I've been a "member" of furry fandumb since the mid-90s, which probably explains why I don't go to conventions or meets if I can help it, and I'm -not- a lifestyler, shit like that makes me gag. I like meeting new people but I am -not- good AT meeting new people or being in large social gatherings, and it takes me a while to get warmed up. I'm very snow-leopardish about socializing and being around new people, plus so many folks just tend to judge a book by its cover and drop it right there. I suppose if I were 20 years younger I'd probably be labelled a goth or an emo, but my sense of humor and perspectives on life do tend to be quite morbid, macabre and twisted. I can be quite intense to the uninitiated, but it's usually just because my brain tends to focus on a dozen different things at once and my thought processes tend to bolt in 100 different directions every minute of every day, so focusing on one thing at a time tends to take some effort, but you get used to it after a bit of time around me. I believe reality TV, politically and scholastically enforced multiculturalism, political correctness, mistaking BELIEF or OPINION for FACT, the systematic dumbing down of critical thinking, logic solving and independent thinking via mass media and the education system and that the perception via mass media of the fact that if you're not a hive-minded, lib-tard drone you're a threat to society are all cancers that are killing humanity. I'm blunt, I'm serious as a heart-attack and if you want bald-faced honesty, I'm your person. I'm crazy; not psycho, I'm EXTREMELY non-conformist, I can be socially offensive and awkward (sometimes very much on purpose as I can be a gleeful Reactionist, as in I am Trying to get a reaction out of you or wind you up), I loathe stupidity, ignorance, drama and RUDENESS and most folks survive better around me if they have a good sense of the unreal, aren't thin-skinned and know how to show a little deference for the human conditions such as pain, loneliness, despair, depression, ect. I have a wide variety of interests, art, music, science, you name it. I can't remember the last time I bit someone in a fit of pique, yet folks are usually so timid around me. I'm not a guard-dog or a priest; feel free to engage me in some manner; those of us who do creative things need -some- feedback, inspiration, access to a muse or a discussion otherwise we fade and go into the west. I will add one caveat, however, you'll find my passing kinks and interests in my work but I have no fetishes to speak of that rule my intimate life. With this in mind I likewise do not wish to hear about -your- fetishes other than in passing unless you could tell your own mother about them, (I kiss other boys/girls doesn't count), without any diverting of eyes, shifting of chairs, weeping, reaching for a bottle of alcohol or involvement of pertinent local authorities, ect. as whatever the case may be. The only exception to this rule obviously is unless you're courting me for something more serious than a passing friendship, in which case these things are best brought up to dispense with them quickly. Then I'll know what to tease you about, as I take NO fetishes seriously and a good many I openly and gleefully mock. You've been warned. I absolutely Love exhibitionists, sluts and camwhores, they're (usually) at least honest about their desires and let it show. I prefer younger males, and I Adore males who're smaller'n I am in stature (I'm almost 6'5" and built like a brick shithouse, the curse of my Scots blood, so anyone else MY size would be hard on the furniture), and bois with a femmy-streak are 5 star in my book. If you're petite, slightly feminine and have long hair I'll marry you, no questions asked. I know how to be in a serious relationship, but on the whole I'm still young and not really LOOKING to settle down yet. That said, I've got WAY too much fucking time on my hands and no one to lavish my considerable attention span on and with how much hurt I've gone through the past few years I could REALLY use a cuddle lately. Feel free to apply within. I do NOT tolerate secrets or lies, especially where things like relationships are concerned. You're better off being honest with me, trust me. Also a personal note; I have been burned by female-leaning bisexual males in the past, so I don't tend to trust them right off, same applies to chameleon/jailhouse/BOLO males, I'd just rather not deal with the bullshit and hiding/lying that invariably come from those things. I also do NOT get on with trannies, at all, period. Those who would force made up pronouns on others would do well to give me a wide berth. Herms are pretty much of no interest to me either, I'm GAY, exclusively gay, I'm about a 5.5-6 on the Kinsey scale so things with female sexual characteristics are of zero interest to me. I like a little femmy streak in a male as opposed to a butch streak, but tits and a cooch I'll pass. I spend TOO much time alone, being sick and losing 90% of my life has shattered my writing ability and made my depressive, isolationist nature red-line. It's a vicious cycle; you get lonely, you get depressed, you start craving company, but then you feel guilty for wanting it because you think who the hell would want to spend time around someone who's sick and depressed and at times angry at life, so you push people away and isolate yourself more and more and then you get MORE lonely and MORE depressed. It's been too long since someone was interested in me for ME, I think it's starting to get to me but I'm not the best judge atm, I'm horribly impaired currently. But Gods know if I'll ever be able to find someone who really UNDERSTANDS or has gone through depression/being sick to be able to understand me. See what I mean about the vicious cycle?

- Anything else you want to know, Ask. There are no stupid questions, just mostly inquisitive idiots on the net. But generally I have a lot of patience when it comes to people who really wish to sit and discuss something with me from the affable to the prosaic, so long as there's an intellect involved. And I am Always, always happy to discuss me work, as juvenile, trite and boring as it may be to anyone but me sometimes. I get no greater joy then having long discussions about things people don't understand, wish to know or would like to see. I'm always looking for someone(s) to spend time with 'round the SGV as well as I've -much- too much time on my hands and never a pretty boi about when I need one.

 Wowfurs  californiafurs  socalfurs  FurryPagans  PaganFurs  SanGabrielValleyFurs  la_furs (obviously I'm a feminine male appreciator, not one myself. =p)  GayFurs  SnowLeopards  GreyMuzzles  SnowLeopardsOfFA  SSMBH  doctorwhofurs  less-tolerant-furs I also play D3 at times as well as STO, but as I intensely dislike one of the people who run the STO group here on FA, I didn't join. I've lately been trying SW:TOR on The Harbinger server. I've also played Dofus since it was in its Beta testing. So you can find me on there on Rushu. My battletag on battlenet/D3 is KXG#1701 (Gee, wonder how many nerdlingers would slit my throat for that arbitrarily assigned random generated number, eh?) And for the love of Buddha lemme know who the fuck you are if you contact me on there eh? I tend to flame random grabby strangers unless they're femboys/camwhores/both.